I'm so so so soooooooo sorry for the wait that i've had to make everyone suffer thruogh, but all my classes are getting really tough right now and i've been hitting the books. But i thought you guys deserved this so here it is. The Next Chapter. I made is a long one just for you.

BPOV

"Jasper are you sure that Edward and Alice are okay?" I asked him for to hundredth time today. He smiled crookedly and gently squeezed my hand.

"I'm sure that they will be fine." He said as he pulled his car into the schools driveway. I looked around the parking lot for other traces of the Cullen's, but for the first time they weren't sticking out of the crowd.

I noticed that t hey were scattered about the parking lot Rosalie was standing off next to Rosalie's' red BMW M3 convertible deep into conversation. This really worried me because Emmett and Rose were rarely serious while talking, but then Rose hit Emmett over the head and I breathed a sigh of relief. Apparently things weren't as bas as I thought they were.

Alice was standing not to far away from Rosalie and Emmett getting involved into their conversation from time to time but otherwise staying silent. My eyes roamed the parking lot searching for Edward, but when my eyes found him I was wishing that I didn't. He was leaning on the door of his silver Volvo looking directly at me.

I felt the red raise to my cheeks and I ducted my head; clinging onto Jaspers on tighter. I peeked back up at him to see that his eyes had never left me, even worse now they were filled with jealousy and rage.

"Just ignore him." Jasper whispered in my ear making me jump up in surprise.

"I'm sorry." I muttered bowing my head again.

"What are you apologizing for?" He asked.

"It's just…I feel like this is my fault." I could feel the tears build up in my eyes with each word that I spoke.

Before I knew it Jasper was standing in front of me with his hands on both of my shoulders looking me directly in the eye.

"It's not your fault Bella. Edward did this to himself, it's not your fault." He said seriously. "Tell me that it's not your fault."

I looked up at him, knowing that what he was saying was true, but somehow not being able to say the words. I know that I didn't take any action on purpose to cause what had happened, but I somehow knew that this was my fault. Edward didn't like me, he didn't want me in his family, I know that, but I never realized that he hated me this much.

"Bella. Say it." Jasper said gritting his teeth.

"It's not my fault." I sighed, and I saw that the air from my breath blow his hair back. Then everything happened so quickly. Jasper's eyes dilated and he took a quick staggering step backwards from me, and out of no where I was crushed in a pair of cold marble arms that knocked the breath out of me.
I gasped as I was hit by an unknown force, and fell forward onto the cold ground, but I landed on top of something cold and marble-like, this didn't feel like the ground. I opened my eyes slowly to see a pale tan shirt under me.

"Um…" Came the musical voice from the person that was blocking me from the ground. I looked up slowly to see a pair of beautiful topaz eyes. My eyes refocused to see the big picture that was going on. Edward had tackled me, and now I was laying on top of him…God I was so stupid.

I quickly scrambled up from him and stood brushing myself off. I turned quickly to see Rose, Alice and Emmett all surrounding Jasper, I took two quick steps toward them when I was pulled back again.

"Ak! Edward let me go!" I screamed.

"No! Stay away from me Bella." Jasper said doubling over clenching his throat. "Edward…get her out of her, now." Jasper begged.

Edward didn't move an inch. Would he really listen to his brother? After they've fought all this time would he be able to take this simple command? It seemed that no matter what Jasper said Edward just didn't want to listen to him. He wanted Jasper to get his punishment for letting me know of this world, and he'd get it too.

Right now Jasper was spazzing over my scent, and it wouldn't take much for him to just blast through his siblings and off me. That would be the punishment of a human who learned about this world. I was going to die.

"Please!" Jasper said again dodging towards us but Emmett took a quick step towards him and landed a strong punch right to his gut, I could only imagine the pain that it held and I winced along with him.

"Dammit." Edward hissed under his breath. "I told him this would happen."

"Edward! Godammit, why are you still standing there, just go!" Emmett yelled at him, and with that everything changed. No matter how much Edward wanted to deny a request from Jasper, he couldn't do the same thing to Emmett.

"Fine!" he yelled and scooped me up into his arms.

"Hey! Wait! Put me down!" I screamed struggling.

"Quiet! If you go back there you'll be Jaspers' breakfast, you want that then go, if not then just be quiet and enjoy the ride." Edward growled.

"Fine." I hissed back at him.

"You might want to close your eyes, the speed might be a bit much for a human to handle, and plus I really like this shirt and I don't want you getting sick on it."

I obeyed quickly, and closed my eyes as her darted off with my in his arms. From the direction that he took us we were running through the forest that was behind the school. It seemed like it was only seconds before he stopped running and dumped me onto the soft grassy ground.

"Ow!" I complained glaring up at him.

He just huffed and walked away. It was then that I realized where he had brought us. We were in the same meadow that we had had our not so nice meeting in. The time when he told me to stay away from Jasper. Maybe I should have listened to him at the time.

I sighed and laid back on the cold grass of the meadow and stared up at the sky. A lot has happened since that day, so much. Jasper and I were together now, and because of that there was a definite line between the Cullen's in the family. Those who opposed my being changed, which only consisted of Edward and Rosalie volleyed together against the ones that opposed what was pretty much everyone else.

Landon had come back and was proclaiming his love for me, but at the same time he was a jerk. After what he had done to me in the music room in the school I had lost all hope in him. He was my past, and Jasper was my future.

Then there was Edward, the quiet, yet angry one. He was so mean to me at first, and I guess he still is now, probably more so than before. But at times he can try to be sweet in his own way, but he's still a vampire, and he's sneaky in ways that I can't even imagine and I have to always be wary of him. But still at the same time I get the feeling that he cares for me, and wants me to be happy. But the mixed signals keep piling up. One minute he's kissing me by force in the sound room at school and the next he's saying it would be better for me to die rather than be changed to avoid death.

I looked up and stole a quick look around the field for him and found him not too far away from me staring at me intently with his golden topaz eyes. There was something that seemed to be annoying him, well it was probably just my presence overall, but he could at least try to hide it in public. I rolled my eyes and looked away from him, I didn't need his anger right now.

"Why?" I heard his say, barely audible over the sounds of the tress.

"Why, what?" I repeated tiredly.

He laughed once without humor. "I'm not too sure, there are just so many questions that I want to ask 'why' to that I'm not even sure where to start to get my answers." He said running a hand through his untidy bronze hair.

I laughed once as well and looked back at him. 'Who said that you would get answers in the first place?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

He sighed and sat down cross legged in the grass. "You know I usually don't have to bother with asking people questions. I usually can just get the answers on my own."

"Oh and how exactly would you get answers without people telling you?"

"You mean Jasper hasn't told you about my ability?" He asked the subject obviously peeking his interest.

"Oh! You mean your psychic-ball-see-into-peoples-minds thing. I don't know he might have mentioned it." I said with a sly half smile.

He replied with a half smile of his own and scooted a bit closer to me.

"Okay, so he did mention it." He said laughing.

"Uh huh, but I think that's a little unfair. Peoples secrets should remain their own, what right do you have to just take everything they know from them?" I asked.

"Well in the first place, they shouldn't be hiding anything from me anyway, and if they are then I think it's better for me to know, and secondly, it's not like they ever know I'm doing it." He said giving that same crooked half smile again.

Horror sunk in as I realized this. He could probably hear everything that I'm thinking. My eyes darted back up to him in an instant and he just started laughing.

"You have nothing to worry about, Bella." He said the smile fading from his face. "I can't read your mind."

"Really, well I'm safe then." I said laughing.

"Oh? So you're hiding something from me?" He asked taking another scoot closer to me. He was really close now, I could probably reach out from where I was laying on the ground and touch his nose, even though I wouldn't.

"No, I'm not particularly hiding anything from you. Just a good thing that you can't be in my mind, it's probably even for your benefit." I said with a laugh.

"Oh, and why would it benefit me?" He asked raising an eyebrow.

"Well, I get the feeling that my mind would just bore you to death anyway."

His eyes bore into mine with an intensity that I've never seen before. "I don't find anything about you boring, Bella." He leaned down into my face, inching closer and closer into me. My heart started beating a thousand miles a minute and he smiled when he saw the red rise into my cheeks.

Quickly my hands darted forward and I pushed him back away from me and sat up.

"You need to stop doing that." I said in a serious tone looking him.

He just stared back at me in shock like he hadn't realized that he was inching in that close, but I knew how alert vampires were, and I knew how smart Edward was in particular, I wasn't about to be fooled.

"I'm sorry…I didn't realize." He said not moving an inch from where I had pushed him.

"Sure." I said stretching out the word and rolling my eyes. He smirked and sat back down on the grass, yeah he knew I had him pegged.

"I hope Jasper's okay." I said looking out at the trees and woods across the clearing.

He grunted in response, and looked away. I got back up and began to walk circles around the open meadow just thinking. Why did Edward always feel the need to interfere in mine and Jasper's relationship? I shook my head and kicked a rock across the grass.

Then I heard it, there was talking on the other side of the clearing, I looked over and saw Jasper and Emmett talking to Edward. I broke into a run and made my way over to the guys, I was happy that Jasper was okay, and he looked like he was calmer than before.

"Jasper are you okay?" I asked placing my hand on his forearm. He didn't show any signs of the animal he had become before so I took that as my answer and sighed in relief.

"I'm fine Bella. I'm so sorry." He said pulling me to him and holding me to him. "I really should have better control what I did was unforgivable."

"It's not your fault." I said trying to pull away to look him in the eyes, but he was holding me to him too tight.

"Edward was right, I don't have any self control. I'm afriad that I'm going to hurt you Bella." He whispered into my hair. Why was he telling me this now? We already knew the riskes of us being together, why was he bringing it up now?

He hugged me to him tighlty before releasing me again looking down into my eyes. "I'm not going to be the one who kills you Bella. I won't do that to you."

"You're not going to-"

"Bella, I'm dangerous for you, that's undeniable." His solf golden eyes looked at me with so much pain. No, I didn't want it to end like this, I didn't want to lose him, I wasn't going to lose him.

"Then change me." I said staring back at him.

"What?" He asked slightly taken aback.

"If you're so scared of hurting me, then change me, do it. Now." I said seriously, and for the first time I was indecision flick through Jaspers eyes.

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