A/N: GUYS! I am so so so so so SO sorry I haven't updated this story. You all probably secretly hate me or something, and I don't blame you, the guilt fairy is hanging heavily on my shoulders, and in order to make it up, at least I hope I'll be making it up, this is the first of at least two, but hopefully three or four chapters that will be posted tonight. Also, because I haven't posted on my other story POISONED WITH LOVE either, the same goes for that one as well, so if you are reading/following that one too, updates coming when I finish this one.
"Okay, so... I'm not really sure how to word this without you wanting to punch a wall... But, okay... Before we met, and before you and Nathan became enemies and then friends and blah blah blah, uhm, Nathan and I dated..."
Brooke could see Lucas was a little upset, maybe he felt like the one thing he and his brother never had in common was suddenly ripped away. It wasn't like Brooke and Nathan hadn't slept together, everyone saw that firsthand from a videotape so properly named 'Nathan Scores', but they had both been insanely drunk that night, so Lucas easily forgave them both, but now he was hurt, especially because it took so long for Brooke to fess up about it.
"Why did you wait so long to tell me?" Lucas asked.
"Because Nathan and I decided long, long ago, before you ever came into the picture, that we wouldn't tell, because then Peyton started showing interest and I wasn't going to ruin it for her, and then after everything we all went through with that tape, it would've just been like opening Pandora's Box all over again. I didn't want you, Peyton, Haley or Nathan to go through that. But that isn't everything, that's not what I need to tell you."
Lucas's worry grew. So she dated his brother, they slept together, what next? They commited a murder together? "Okay..."
"Well, Nathan and I were kind of serious, we were each other's firsts-"
"I thought Haley's sister was..."
"A lie. The whole relationship was a secret, Luke, why would Nathan tell you or Haley he lost his virginity to Brooke Davis when no one knew anything about the two of us... Until that tape appeared."
"Right..." Lucas nodded his head and looked at he table. Brooke reached over and grabbed his hand.
"Here's the rough part."
Lucas glanced up at her, what could be worse than knowing his girlfriend lost her virginity to his brother. It was one thing with Peyton, because she and Nathan were openly dating, it was no secret, but Brooke... He nodded for her to go on. She took a deep breath.
"After we decided to end things and he had started dating Peyton, we occasionally had drunk hook ups, sometimes one of us wasn't nearly as drunk as the other, and sometimes we were both way too far gone, but one night we were talking and it came up that the hook ups should stop, because as big of assholes as we both were, we did care about her and didn't want it to come back and ruin everything, which Karma really did pay me back, I mean she did the same thing with you, minus sex." Lucas looked down, awkward moment when Brooke brings up one of his biggest regrets. "Sorry..." She muttered, "Anyway, it led to us getting into a serious argument, we threw things at each other, screamed, and then he left. And I was sitting on a bed crying. Eventually someone came in, I assumed it was Nathan, and he turned the lights off. He came over and started kissing me, and I was still so angry, I started fighting him off me, but I was nothing compared to him."
Lucas was staring at her, anger in his eyes. Not just anger, he looked like he was going to kill someone, the look he only had after he found out his father murdered his uncle.
"Nathan raped you?" He was trying so hard not to scream, not to lash out on her.
"No." Brooke said, grabbing his hand tighter, watching as his face calmed a little, "No, it wasn't Nathan. The next day I went to go bitch and scream at him for the night before, but when he opened the door he didn't have any marks on him, and I know I did some kind of damage to the guy. I started to tell Nathan about it, but I knew he'd never forgive himself for leaving me alone, and it wasn't his fault, it could've happened even if he had been there. I just- I had to tell someone, I've kept quiet for so long..." She looked up, tears in her eyes. Some were from the relief of finally admitting the truth, and to Lucas. Lucas was the one person she felt she could rely on through everything. Lucas stood up, Brooke thought he was going to leave, but he walked around the table and sat with her, holding her.
She expected herself to start bawling, to have tears cascading down her face like waterfalls, but it didn't happen. In fact, aside from the tears already in her eyes, no others came. She just let everything fade away in Luke's arms, all the pain and fear, he made it all go away, and nothing was better than that.