Sorry! So SORRY for the wait. Heres the new chapter. There is a huge twist in this one and you won't expect it but dont kill my for it.
"Edward was right, I don't have any self control. I'm afraid that I'm going to hurt you Bella." He whispered into my hair. Why was he telling me this now? We already knew the risks of us being together, why was he bringing it up now?
He hugged me to him tightly before releasing me again looking down into my eyes. "I'm not going to be the one who kills you Bella. I won't do that to you."
"You're not going to-"
"Bella, I'm dangerous for you, that's undeniable." His soft golden eyes looked at me with so much pain. No, I didn't want it to end like this, I didn't want to lose him, and I wasn't going to lose him.
"Then change me." I said staring back at him.
"What?" He asked slightly taken aback.
"If you're so scared of hurting me, then change me, do it. Now." I said seriously, and for the first time I was indecision flick through Jaspers eyes.
"What? What's the problem? Just one simple bite, and three days can solve all this! I don't understand why you are waiting for me to get older! I could die any minute, every second that ticks by I get older and closer to death, doesn't that mean anything to you?!" I half yelled at Jasper and I saw him cringe.
"Of course it means something to me!" he shot back hurt in his voice.
"Really? It doesn't seem like it." I said looking away from him and blinking fast to keep the tears from falling.
"Bella…please don't do this." He begged.
"Do what?" I choked out still not looking at him.
"Make me do this." He breathed into my ear from behind me. I shivered when he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck.
"It's what I want." I said strongly as I could with my voice shaking. His cool breath on my neck was enough to make my legs quiver and my mind to go blank but I held it together as best I could.
"Are you sure." He whispered against my neck and I felt goose bumps take over my entire body.
"Yes…I'm sure." I said closing my eyes.
"…Wait…" I heard him whisper almost to himself. "…wait.." he said again to himself pulling away from me. "If we're going to do this we need to at least do it right." He said softly turning my around and kissing my forehead.
"How do we do that?" I asked skeptically.
"We need to talk to my family, it's their lives too." He said carefully and I nodded.
Swiftly he scooped me up in his arms and he took off. Edward was there too and he effortlessly caught up to us, he was a fast runner. I heard the stirring of wind as he breezed past us and kept on going, and I wondered if he was upset.
We reached Jasper's house quickly and he set me down in the living room and kissed my forehead. "Just wait here I'm going to talk with my family and then I'll tell you the decision." He whispered and I nodded, and he took off.
I sighed bored, and decided time would fly faster if I was singing, so I headed to their sound room but I already heard music playing and a voice coming from the room. It was Edward! His voice was a lot cooler than usual, and it was softer and…it was just soo good.
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If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
His voice sounded so sad and tired…I've never heard him like this before.
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I sat down against the wall and kept as quiet as I could and just closed my eyes and listened to him sing.
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
He took a shaky breath and started singing again.
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms
I thought that he was done and I began to stand up but I guess he wasn't done because the music started again and he began to sing again. This time he picked up a guitar and started to strum along as he sang.
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He don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't want to have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you
I tried my best to stay hidden but I just kinda tripped over nothing and his eyes flashed up to mine and I was locked on his topaz eyes.
Tell me I should not be feeling what I am today
Tell me to silence my heart
Tell me We've been here before
and I will walk away from you love
For there is a wall between you and I
And he hasn't been treating you right
I've been watching it all
I seen you cry
And I just gotta tell you tonight
My heart pounded in my chest and it felt like he was singing to me.
That he don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't want to have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you
How does he know that? That's not true.
Tell me this love's just a feeling and will pass away
Tell me your heart is a lier
Tell me your not what I know you are
All that a man could desire
And he doesn't know, darlin, what he's got,
But I will treasure you
If you give me a chance I will make you smile
I will give you a love that is true
But you already hurt me before, I gave you too many chances.
But he don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't want to have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you
So why, can you not see,
The place in your heart that was made for me
Why must you hide yourself away?
And why must you fight the way that I'm holding your hand tonight
Take a chance and give your heart to me
I blushed as he set the guitar down and walked over toward me and took my hand in his icy cold grasp and continued to sing to me.
But he don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't want to have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you
But he don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't want to have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you
He kept a hold on my hand as the music faded away and stopped. I looked up at him and shook my head back and forth.
"Edward what are you doing?" I asked breathless.
"Bella, I love you." He said ardently, firmly grasping my hand still.
"Edward, Jasper is-" He cut me off.
"Jasper is home every night making eyes at Alice." He hissed
"That's not true!" I yelped and tried to pull from his grasp. "Jasper loves me, he told me, and he's going to change me and we're going to be together forever!" I said.
"Bella! Stop and look at what's right in front of you!" He hissed shaking me. "I love you! More than anything, it took time for me to realize why I was always so mad when I saw you or when I was near Jasper but I realized it was jealousy! That I want you to be mind and only mine, please Bella, you have to believe me. I wouldn't tell you this if it wasn't the truth." He whispered the last part and stared into my eyes.
"I'm with Jasper, Edward." I said quietly. "I won't hurt him." I said.
"He doesn't care! Him and Alice where-!"
"That's quite enough." I heard someone say and jumped when I saw Jasper behind us.
"Jasper!" I breathed and went to stand next to him, but Edward pulled me back into his arms.
"Tell her Jasper, tell her about you and Alice, how can you lie to her?! I can read your mind you dirty liar!" Edward roared at Jasper. I began to tremble…Edward didn't sound like he was lying, and the fact that he could read Jasper and Alice's minds would mean he would know the truth.
"J-Jasper…is…is that true?" I asked looking at him closely. When he didn't deny it right away I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. "Oh…oh I see." I said laughing to myself in pity. "Well then…I'll just see my way out then. Sorry for all the trouble." I said and ran past him to their front door.
On my way I ran into Alice, she looked at me closely, she didn't know what to do exactly. "Alice…" I said softly…
Her eyes snapped to mine and I felt the tears fall over.
"Be good to him, okay Alice?" I asked softly and she just nodded, and I took off out the front doors.
How could I be so stupid! I yelled at myself. I always knew he was too good for me this just proves it.
I stumbled around the forest and tripped over a branch, I fell and scrapped my knee open, and decided to just lay there. Maybe I'd wither and die by the time morning came, life wasn't worth living anymore.
Thank you for being so patient.
This story had a huge twist
and i know none of you saw it coming
but i just had a feeling
Maybe ill make the sequal soon???
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