A Place in My Heart.
Chapter Three
By ilovedoodle
AN: wow. Thank-you so much for all of the reviews, follows and favourites. Really surprised at the positive feedback from this! Big shout out to jazzy2297, .yo, libbylott1D, NujabesebajuN, csinyfan1101 and jjohnson612 for reviewing and following! I think it's really important to thank you all, because I wouldn't be enjoying writing this without you encouraging me. And, you should know that your kind words are being muchly appreciated;). Almost 300 views too! I will try and update weekly for you my loveys, hope you enjoy.
Disclaimer: as much as I would love to own Ariana Grande and Avan Jogia, I don't. Victorious aint mine people.
Tori wanted to confront him. She would demand for an explanation about why he kissed her, and would threaten to tell Belle if he didn't give her one, but she never got the chance. When André's mouth wasn't swallowing her face, he was completely ignoring Tori, and even when she tried to look for him, he always seemed to disappear.
At first, she told herself she would hide the fact that she liked him, because Tori still wanted to be friends. But pretty soon, she realised it wouldn't matter if she shouted it in front of the whole school, because he didn't care either way. He didn't love her, didn't want to be friends, and frankly didn't want anything to do with her. That's what hurt the most.
Even though she hated admitting it, she was almost trying to secretly break André and Belle up, thinking that he would want her. She was so naïve. But why did it matter? He didn't want to even be friends. She faced the day instead, forcing a smile onto her face even though she was secretly breaking inside.
Lessons went by, nothing new, just the usual. She tried to concentrate on what she was learning, because if her mind wandered to anything else, she was screwed.
She headed to her usual table at lunch, but only Beck was sitting there. She threw her bag down on the table forcefully, burrito in hand.
"Tori, how's it going?" Beck asked her. He was hot, girls were all over him and many would die to be in Tori's position right now. But it didn't matter, nothing was going to change her mind.
"Great, I guess. Where's everyone?" She replied, looking down at the floor and sitting down next to him.
"I'm not stupid Tori" He says, looking into her eyes.
"I never said you were?"
"I know you like him, I know you want him so badly, but you're trying to hide it" He shrugs, as if it's nothing. Tori sighed, dropping her smile for once.
"Is it that obvious?" She says, picking at her burrito glumly.
"I guess I just know you too well". Tori wanted to tell him everything, about the kiss, but she just couldn't bring herself too. It was almost as if she was embarrassed, or afraid. Her feelings were so messed up it didn't really matter. "I know about the kiss too, if that's what you're wondering". He answered her question.
She gulped, nervous butterflies forming in her stomach. But why? it wasn't that bad if Beck knew. She trusted him, he was great with advice, but somehow it just felt wrong. Like the kiss, even though it was great, it was still wrong.
"Oh Beck. I don't know if I can take it much longer. I just want him so badly and it hurts every time I see them together. I feel so pathetic" She confessed, brushing her hair out of her face.
"He wouldn't have done it unless he had feelings for you Tor, André's not that kind of guy"
"You think so? I doubt it. Have you seen Belle?" Tori says.
"To be honest, she's not that amazing. Yeah, she's hot, but no hotter than you Tori. I much prefer personality to looks, and she has the personality of a dead slug!" Beck laughs, and so does Tori. If he thought this though, why could he not stop himself from flirting with her every time she walked by?
She couldn't help but think that if he liked personality, why did he stay with Jade for so long? Maybe Jade wasn't too bad; it was just Tori she didn't get along with. In some ways, she and Jade were quite similar.
"Finally someone who agrees with me" Tori says, laughing slightly, but a tear still rolls down her cheek. Beck wipes it away, and he's so close to her that she feels nervous all of a sudden, which is stupid. Why couldn't she fall for Beck? Or fall for anything other than André?
"André must be blind, he doesn't know what he's missing" Why was he being so nice? she convinced herself that it was just to make her feel better. She snuggled into him anyway.
"What should I do though Beck?" Tori said, facing him. Both their foreheads touch, and Tori looks at him oddly, but doesn't resist. This just feels so… right. But there wasn't a place in her heart for Beck, she was just so desperate that she would go along with anything someone even slightly good looking said.
"Make him jealous" Beck whispered. Tori looked into his eyes, and she suddenly wondered if he was going to kiss her.
She never gets to find out though, because then André walked over. She suddenly felt so self-conscious, was she some kind of slut? What was she thinking?! She tried to leap away from Beck, but he held onto her casually.
Jealousy flashed across André's face when he looks at the two of them intertwined together, but Tori was too blind to notice. Beck leaned in, and whispered in her ear.
"You're making him jealous Tor, now laugh as soon as I break away" He's right, without even trying, Tori realised she hurt André. She wanted so badly to tell him it's fake, she wanted him to want her without making him jealous, she just wanted him to like her, but maybe this is the way to do it. If she wanted him, maybe she'd just have to stop crying about him and make him know what it feels like to get hurt.
She laughs on cue, like Beck said, and whispered in his ear as well. "I think it's working".
"Tori Vega, how rude are you" he jokes, pretending to reply to something she's said. It's not funny, but the whole situation makes her laugh, the whole pretending to laugh just to make someone jealous thing. She laughs so much until she can't breathe, long after Beck has stopped. She carried on until both André and Beck were looking at her weirdly. At least this time, it wasn't forced.
"Hey André" Tori said, fake enthusiastically after she's calmed down. He raises his eyebrows and shoots her a half smile. It isn't really a smile though, it's a sad sort of 'we're not who we used to be' smile. It pained Tori.
"Are you going to that house party tonight?" Beck asked him.
"Yeah, Belle's taking me" He replied, not really paying attention.
"How come your bird isn't joined to your hip" Beck asked, laughing slightly. Tori agreed, André does look jealous of her cuddled into Beck and his arms draped protectively around her.
"She's at a dancing practise" Beck was joking, but André took it so literally and replied snottily. He's changed. One kiss can change everything. She missed the days when picking the wrong thing for dessert was her biggest regret.
"Oh what's that for? I didn't think there were any productions on at the moment?" Tori asked, confused. André didn't even look at her, when all she was hoping for was at least recognition. He got out his pear phone and started texting someone. It hurt.
"Yeah, I wouldn't leave someone that hot unattended, who knows what she's getting up to!" Beck says. Then Tori realises that what she just said makes it sound like Belle is cheating on him. 'Maybe I'm just mean and horrible anyway, maybe that's why André doesn't like me'. she thought.
André puts down his phone, and you can tell he's trying to think of something witty to say. Instead, he stands up, glares at them both and leaves. Tori untangled herself from Beck, afraid she's about to cry.
"It's obvious he likes you Tori" Beck said.
"He completely ignored me Beck! He couldn't even look me in the eye!" Tori shouted, she wanted to scream. If she hadn't stupidly invited André over then none of this would have happened and they could still be friends! But as per usual, she had wrecked everything.
"Exactly" Beck replied. She didn't really understand what Beck was saying, but maybe he's right. Maybe that is just André's way of dealing with things. It does calm her a little. "So, are you coming tonight?"
"Do I have to? Tori groaned. There was a party, tonight. She wanted to go badly, she wanted to have fun with her friends, but she couldn't bring herself to.
"Yes Tori! Come have fun! There's no use just sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. And If Andre's going with Belle, it's the perfect way to make him jealous." After a bit more persuasion, Tori agreed. Maybe it would be fun, maybe not. But either way, she needed to get over the fact that André Harris didn't care.
She didn't think she could stand even flirting with anyone other than André, but she was that desperate for him that she would do anything. Somehow, it pulled her through the day, and when she saw them kissing, which seemed to be all they did, she laughed evilly to herself.
Maybe she was going mental, it wouldn't be a surprise. But what really bugged her was… who was she turning into?
It was the end of the day. Tori was putting her books back in her locker, still wondering whether to go tonight, when she felt a tap on the back. She turned around, expecting to see Cat or Beck, but when she saw Belle standing there, she almost ran away.
"Hey" she said warily. Belle being here only meant trouble. She smiled anyway.
"Hey, Trina is it?" She sneers, raising her eyebrows and fake smiling sarcastically. Tori pretended not to notice.
"It's Tori, Trina is my-" She started, but was cut off.
"Whatever, I really don't give a shit" Well that was rude. Tori raised her eyebrows slightly "I know you want him. Well too bad, because he's mine. Back off you ugly hoe" She stormed off before Tori had the chance to reply.
Oh no. Belle knew. Her life was completely over! Could this day get any freaking worse?! She felt like going to sleep and never waking up, but she was angry. Also quite scared because of what was going to happen, that maybe Belle did know about the kiss, but still angry.
Maybe she should just move back to her old school, where everything was so much easier. She loved HWA, but by the end of this, no one would even be able to look her in the eye, because she was the one who André Harris cheated on the most 'beautiful' girl in school with. Belle or anyone in fact, would never let that go.
She'd already messed up enough already, and after that encounter with Belle, she just felt like flirting with André to piss her off. She was going to make herself look so hot for tonight that he would be drooling over her, she would flirt with him, but then leave him hanging. She would make him feel hurt and jealous, and the worse thing was, she was actually looking forward to it.
Tori looked at herself in the mirror.
She had highlighted her brown hair blonde, and the ends were dipdyed purple. It suited her, and fell down her back in its usual curls. Her makeup was minimal, smoky black eyes and deep purple lip gloss, and she looked beautiful.
The dress she was wearing was the best though; it was a simple sparkly, purple, bodycon dress, because purple looked great on her. It was very fitted, and short, but not short enough to be slutty, and it shimmered when she walked. She wore simple black and purple stilettos, which made her legs look long and elegant. One thing was certain, she would definitely be noticed, even if she didn't succeed in what she was trying to do.
There was a beep of a horn outside; Beck must be here to pick her up. She took one last look at herself, trying to fight away the nerves.
She could do this.
Another dreadful ending. Oh well, the next chapter should be good. Still not completely pleased with Beck. He sounds a little gay? Even though I assure you, he is not. Well I hope... because I don't love him or anything;). I actually wrote him based on one of my best boy mates, and what I thought they would say, so I hope it's ok. Do you guys like Bori or Tandre best? Opinions on Belle? Just a short encounter in this chappy, but in the next one there's going to be loads of Telle. Please leave feedback, and criticism/ways to improve would be REALLY appreciated. I want to improve!
Also, if you have any plot suggestions or ideas, please tell me. I have some ideas, but more would be good.
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