"Bella

"Bella." He breathed and came closer to me. At first he got only about a foot away, and that was okay, then he did something I'd never expect. He kissed me, full on the mouth, not holding anything back hands on my face kind of kiss.

I struggled at first, then there was nothing I could do. All I could remember after that was the darkness. The darkness and the flashes of a life that wasn't mine.

"Bella! Bella! What happened? Are you alright?" He has trying to rouse me, but the images kept coming.

There were so many images coming at me quicker than I could count, ones of me with Edward, and me and Jacob, and Edwards entire family. Except there was something wrong with me…I was…human. I could barely recall being human, let alone being human with Cullen's. Once in a while I'd catch snips of words.

Flashes of Edward walking down a hallway at school.

"Yes you are exactly my brand of heroine."

Me and Edward in a car, he looked furious.

"Isabella…Bella, I couldn't live with myself if a ever hurt you. You don't know how it's tortured me"

Again me and Edward in a meadow.

"You're intoxicated by my very presence."

Edward stopping a van from crushing me.

"Bella. I will stay with you – isn't that enough?"

Edward leaning close to me, like he would kiss me, but didn't.

"Is that what you dream about, becoming a monster?"

Edward walking away. I almost think he'll turn back, like before. But we're in a thick patch of woods, and he isn't turning back.

Not coming back.

He's leaving me.

Edward was leaving me.

Edward wasn't coming back.

Gone.

"Good-Bye."

My eyes flashed open and light came pouring in. Followed by a familiar pair of topaz eyes. They weren't looking at me though, they were staring off somewhere else, and the face was turned away as well. This person was just sitting beside me, waiting for me to wake up I guess.

Then I realized that it was Edward. It had always been Edward who was waiting. Well, wait that's not really true. He left me, so I guess I was waiting. I laugh despite myself, and the eyes flick down to me.

Idiot. I thought to myself. Well it's not like I'd get out of there without talking anyway.

"Bella, I know you remember. You're my Bella again." He said reaching out his hand to my face brushing back a strand of brown hair. Wait…brown? CRAP! I had changed back, that process must have taken a lot out of me if it caused my disguise to drop.

If my disguise was gone that meant that Aiden, Sam, and Damon's would be too.

I got up quickly and prepared to run when Edward's hand circled around my wrist.

"Don't leave. Not again." He whispered his eyes not meeting mine but looking at the ground. "Not now that you remember, that would mean…that you don't want to be here with me." He said in a pained voice.

"Edward…the boys…they need me." I said.

"Boys? He asked incredulous.

"Edward, please just let me go…let me be…me." I begged.

"You don't even know you!" He said, I think he was at the end of his rope.

"How can you expect me to? All you do is chase after me and make things more difficult. I've never gotten a chance to remember! Besides it was your dumb fault that I forgot in the first place. Stupid Cullen." I growled.

"My…fault?" He said. Not really understanding the words.

"Couldn't you tell…didn't you see…that when you came back that I was struggling as it was…then you try to take me away. I forgot everything…all the stress got to me, and I forgot all the things that were causing me pain. At the time…that was you and your family."

I looked at him, I hadn't realized that his hand had let my wrist go.

"Though I deserve it all." I sighed.

He looked up at me shocked.

"What do you mean Bella?" He asked bewildered.

"Edward, you'd hate me. If you knew all the things that I've done. All the things that…what I was like…what I'm still like…I deserve everything that I get." I said my head low looking at the ground.

"Never say that…never Bella. You deserve the world Bella. This place…you can't compare to this world." He said his eyes full of wonder.

"You're right, there is no comparison, and my simple existence is enough to stain this world forever. I should just put myself and this world out of our misery." I said defeated.

He just stared at me shocked for a moment. Then his jaw set, and his face contorted with a rage I'd never seen before. His hands shot out to lock my wrists in them. My eyes went round then I just looked away.

"Don't make this mistake Edward." I said.

"What mistake? I'm not letting you go, not now that I know what you might do." He said his eyes searching for mine, but I couldn't stand to meet his gaze.

"I'm stronger than you Edward Cullen." I said. "Don't test me, just let me go." I said.

"I think you should listen to her." My head turned to see my three angels making their way to us in a regular pace and then stopping at my sides.

"Didn't you hear?" Edward hissed. "Don't you know that she was planning to do?"

"No, Bella enlighten us." Damon said. I couldn't take my eyes from him, he looked like regular Damon again. He had that beautiful brown curly hair that I loved.

"I was talking about ending my miserable existence." I mumbled.

All of their eyes widened but no one said anything, they just continued to stare at Edward, with I'll admit…a little less anger.

Edward on the other hand was enraged.

"Well are you just going to let her go like that?" He roared.

"It's Bella." Aiden said. "We respect her too much to make decisions for her."

"We trust her, we'd never force her to do anything, or not do something." Sam said.

"It's her decision." Damon said his eyes full of hurt.

"You mean…you'd let her…" Edward couldn't say it.

"We would miss her…but if she isn't happy, we can't force her to stay." Sam said.

Edward looked shocked and I took that chance to slip from his grasp with a laugh a real one.

"Edward, my life sucked, why should my existence be any different?" He did a double take, trying to see if what I spoke was true.

"Bella please, just think about this." He begged.

My face crumpled and I could feel my shoulders sag, luckily one of my brothers stepped in from of me, I think it was Sam, cause Damon had my hand.

"Just leave her alone." He hissed. Then I was lifted into the air and we took off. To where I wasn't sure, again I left a broken Edward behind, but this time I would leave his completely broken.

"I'm sorry, I'm just not the same person you loved!" I yelled back at him so that I was sure that he heard. His head shot up to look at our retreating forms, I smiled at him, an apologetic smile. Edward…my Edward, he deserved so much more.

So tell me what you think, i thought about this chapter alot, the remembering, but i figured that the forgeting was where most of the juice happened so i didn't want to make a fuss over the remembering. So please, if not for anything else, at least for pity's sake, please REVIEW! Just press the damn buttom. lol.

But for your entertainment, here's a convo me and my friend recently had.

Keep in mind this was after something else halarious was said so it just added to our giggles and in our mind became the best joke/retared thing ever said. So here goes.

Me: Wow you make me smile.

My Bestie: Did you just say Midol?

Me: Yeah, Abbey you make me wanna take Midol.

You can laugh, we did!!
LMAO

Anywho. REVIEW!!