Never Say That Word

by i3fiction

Its the 74th annual Hunger Games and Clove and Cato are going in but what happens when there are 2 other people that no one knew about that were close to Cato and Clove but the girl who they were close to wasnt just anyone she was Lynn and she is the Presidents daughter who has moved to district to to become a career and fight in the games and her best friend Cayden is right by her

5. Chapter 5

Chapter 5: Train ride part:1

A.N. wow its been a while sorry about that. So as the title said this chapter is about the train ride which is about 2 days long so it will be in 2 parts but each will be fairly long. Hope you all enjoy.

"Holy shittt!" Cato shouts over the noise of all the press and people shouting our names and asking us questions. "Don't worry you will get used to it." I say just pushing my way through the crowd and putting on my capitol forced smile and making everyone fall in love with the president's daughter. "How do you do that?" Clove asked me "do what?" I ask through my smile. " get them to totally love you and fall in love with you like that?" this time I turn to her and say " I never chose this, this is the role I was given and I have to play till I get my new one actually this year so I have been playing this act since I was like 2 so I have had some practice you on the other hand need a straight face with a bit of smirk and your eyes shooting daggers in to them but then bringing them into you and having them wrapped around your finger." Once I finish telling her we are just a few feet away from the entrance of the train my ears start ringing and everything starts to get louder as I turn around to see what's happening I start to smell something I am a little to familiar with...blood. "CAYDEN, CATO STOP THIS INSTINT!" our escort shrieks, as they both start beating a photographer to a pure pulp. "There is no use when they feel they did justice they will stop." Clove says as I start to chuckle at the sight of what is happening and hearing the man pleading for them to stop. "Lynncatia do something, PLEASE! They will listen to you!" our escort pleads "huh" I sigh as I start to walk over to them, once I'm in there view they hold him in a position where Cato has his arms wrapped around the mans and Cayden has his fingers around his neck but his body is facing me. "Boys what's going on?" Everything is much quieter now, as people have fled at the sight. "The man insulted you and clove we were showing him what happens when people insult you guys." Cato states "okay first release his neck second move over so I can see his shoulder properly." He moves aside and I take a step closer so our faces are inches apart. "I don't like people insulting me and my friends." I say in a fake sweet tone almost sounding crazy. "I-i-im s-s-s-sorry." He says "you have no idea." I say looking crazier than ever. "What are you-" he starts just as I stab the knife deep into his shoulder. As he starts to scream Cayden drops him to the ground and he and Cato walk towards me. Cayden flashes me a smile and wink and Cato gives me a slap on the back. We make our way to the steps of the train, and I stop moving. "What's wrong?" Cayden asks me. " you know the last time I was on one of these I was 8 years old coming here scared shit less hoping that I would not be recognized hoping that someone anyone would be my friend. And now I'm going back, back to everything I left my family my home my friends, my life there, and you know the worst part is that I have this life here and after all this time I don't remember everything there. I don't remember what my favorite food was or what colour my room is or my horses' favorite snack was, but here I know those things and I know what I want. So then why the hell is I so damn scared?!" "Cause you are not just a career you are a capitollite and guess what they have feelings they talk about mushy shit, so yes you are a blood thirty career that enjoys watching people suffer and beg but you are also a capitol royal so you have a soul." Clove says "and that why when you show emotion around us we don't snap at you or tell you to suck it up." Cato follows immediately after clove "well you should tell me to suck it up sometimes!" I scream back at them "suck it up" Cayden says to me looking calm as ever "suck it up get your ass on this train so we can get to the capitol before next year." He replies back to me. I decide it's better to just get on the train.

"Holy crap" clove says as everyone but I and our escort are in complete aw. "Grand isn't it!" Marialy squeaks. I start to walk past them towards the bedroom hall when my arm is suddenly in the grasp of someone. Without even seeing them I can tell its female but it's not clove, no her grasp is much too strong and on the occasion she adds her nails in it. I know it's not the escort because she wouldn't dare, and the mentors Brutis and Enobaria are meeting us in the capitol this year. Which means it's the only person that dare grab my arm like that, Faya. Faya my little sister, she is 9 and has the most courage I think any 9 year old could have (of course other then the careers.). but when I turn to give her a death glare I see its not her its someone I haven't seen in at least 5 years, Jennellea my other sister older though my 6 years. She left right after my mother died I don't know where she went and quite frankly I don't want to I don't really care either. So basically after mom died she left then I did 2 years later and Faya stayed mainly because she was too young and all dads had left but he would never tell anyone that. "Hey baby sis how ya been?" she says with a smile. "Hi and I have been fine, yourself?" I say looking confused and stepping back, allowing me to have my arm free from her grasp. "Who's this?" Cayden asks " she looks familiar" Cato adds " and she kind of looks like you" clove says " baby sis you know its rude not to answer someone when they ask you something, Marialy have you not been watching her?!" my sister asks making Marialy stand up and walk away mumbling something as she exits. "She has and I was going to answer them in privacy, and why are you even here, in district 2 and on the train to the capitol?" "Thought I would visit you, Faya, dad, and the rest of the family and capitol. Is that a problem?" she says taking a seat in a black velvet chair throwing her legs over the side of the chairs arm "no, I suppose. But how did you even know where I would be?" " father sent me a letter asking me to come and join you all for the celebration of the games visit family and consider moving back home. Nothing really special." She says picking up a glass she had already made with I believe is holding whiskey and ice. She takes a long sip looking over my friends and I know exactly what she is doing because I taught her it. "Stop it!" I say standing in front of them blocking her view and enabling her to make a list of their strengths and weaknesses. "Oh baby sis shows a little love wont you it's been what 3 years." She says in between sips "5 and I taught you that so don't even try saying you aren't doing anything and no I won't show any love at the moment because I have no clue where you disappeared to when I was only 9! I needed you and you left me and a father who refused to get out of bed in less he had to take a piss and a 4 year old Faya that was in desperate need of a mother but no you left leaving me with not only that but other families in distress and a whole nation in pain and grief. So I will start to show you some love once you apologize to not only me but Faya, dad, all our family, and the whole nation for your disappearance!" as I end m rant she looks like she might faint and when I turn to see the others faces I think I might have been a bit too harsh considering how mortified they all look, I mean I have been a pretty bloodthirsty career but out of us 4 I have always been the sweet and innocent one so for me to act like this I think they just found a new respect for me. And then it happens but strangely only one falls, one single tear that falls straight from my eye to my feet. "Come on" Cayden says instructing me to follow him. I do as told and he wraps his arm around me and before I know it we are all in my room me and Cayden on my bed him rocking me back and forth and Cato in the chair directly across from us and clove on the floor playing with a knife from the table in the dining car. "Soooooo" Cato says "what do you want to do?" Cayden asks leaning down to my ear "oh for fuck sakes let the girl go and move over." Clove says with a roll of her eyes. Cayden hesitantly lets go and I feel the cold air hit me from where his body was. As he leaves clove comes over and tells me to get up so fast that I almost misheard her. I stand up and she puts 4 knifes in my hands " target 1 bottom dresser drawer next to Cato, target 2 door handle target 3 stuffed bears eye that is on the floor and target 4 the nose on the man in the picture." She takes a step back. I get into position and release the knifes one by one at their targets getting them perfectly each time. Once I finish I walk over to the dresser and pull it open, I notice that my favorite shirt is there and pull it out. I am about to take off my dress when I realize there are 3 people in here probably starting at me waiting for me to cry and break down again but I won't let that happen I cant I look to weak doing so. I grab a pair of workout shorts and go into my bathroom I strip down and pull my shirt over my head and put on the shorts I look at myself in the mirror and put my hair in a fish tale braid to the side, I take one last look and walk out turning out the light in the bathroom. "Let's go." I say walking straight to my door "where to?" Cato asks. "Best place on this train." I say without Turing around and pulling out the knife in the door handle and slipping it into my boot.

As we walk down the hallway I can tell the others are having trouble keeping up with my fast pace. Once they have caught up to me I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look to the hand and then to the face of Cayden. "Let go." I tell him "why?" he asks "because I don't want to be touched." "Okay." He says and removes his hand. We reach the end of the hallway where there is a steel door that can only be opened only by a code. I punch in the code and the door begins to open. "What is this?" clove asks "follow me." I say flashing them a smirk and I actually start to feel better and I can see that they see it to. Once I have climbed the stairs and the others have done the same being right behind me I reach up to the handle and turn it. "Don't go to close to the edge or you will be zapped and the entire train will stop and we will have at least 50 peacekeepers but you can scream as loud as you want. Got it?" I tell them before opening the second door. After they all nod I push open the door and pull myself onto the roof. Clove follows then Cayden and then Cato. The look on their faces is priceless clove looks amused, Cato looks fascinated and Cayden looks like he might faint he has never really been good with heights and the fact that they are moving makes it even worse. I sit down and they follow. " when I was younger and travelled a lot I spent most of my time up here on the roofs during the day its harder to come up because you would be risking someone seeing you, but at night you blend in." "Did you come up here when you were coming to 2?" Cayden asked "yea I did I fell asleep actually and when I woke up I saw clove first that's when I knew where I was and I ran for the door. I don't think you saw me though did you?" "Yea I think I did but its only bits and pieces that are why when I first saw you at the training center I thought you looked familiar more then you just being the president's daughter. But I could never quite remember where I had seen you and now I know." I gave her a have hearted smile and went back to looking at the scenery. We talked for a bit about random stuff and there strategy and back home, and then the conversation ended about them asking about the capitol and me trying to remember as much as I could. "Time to head back" I tell them standing up "already?" Cayden asks getting up as well "why so soon?" Cato asks "just a little longer" clove pleads "yes already, because you guys have to change for dinner and it's soon, and no we have to go now before they start looking for us." I say and clove and Cato rise and we all head to the door I open it up and they all climb down, I take one last look before heading down. I am about to step in when I see something crawling on the side and we are approaching it quickly. I jump down and open the second door ignoring their questions and concerns and I run to the drivers "stop someone is on the side of the road!" the train come to a halt quickly and I shift forward a bit before running to the door. I open it and run around the front of the train to the other side and I can see the person in the distance before I know it Cato clove and Cayden are all next to me I glance at them and as if our minds are one we all start running at the same time all in unison and we reach the younger girl in no time she can't be more than 7 and is covered in blood her hair is sticking together with dry blood and her nose looks like a big bruise someone obviously has anger issues. Before I can rethink my plan I have the younger girl in my arms and the others take the small bag she had clove grabs her right shoe. Cato notices her arm is out of place and quickly and swiftly snaps it back in place the girl doesn't make a noise and at first I think she is dead when I notice her chest moving and realize she is unconscious. We reach the doors and in seconds the train is moving again and once again we are running to my room we get in and I tell Cato to fill up the tub with warm water but not too much then I set the girl in only leaving her in her underwear and put a training bra on her that I used when I was around her age. "Who is she?" Cayden asks "who knows, she probably tried to escape a district and is going to die or become an avox." Clove answered. I expect to hear Cato say something but he is silent when I look to see what he is doing and it looks like he is daydreaming. I decide I will let him be and when I get most of the blood off the girls face I realize where she is from. "I know where she is from..." "What? Where? How?" clove starts to ask "yea, she is from the capitol and I don't know her but she has the capitol seal on her neck. It's usually hidden by makeup. Only very old school families do this still it's done when the child is born and is permanent. I never got it done because my mother wouldn't allow it, she said that it is not allowing me to create myself and when I am older and if I still want it then fine but until then I shall not be touched, so I never got it my father said that I should get it before I get coordinated to show that I do truly love and have a passion for the capitol but I haven't really thought about it." By the time I finish telling them we have to drain the tub and fill it back up because the water is so dirty and bloody. "So what do we do now?" Cato asks that being the first thing he said since we have gotten back on the train. I am about to ask for suggestions when the worst person could have come through those doors "baby sis, are you and your friends in here?" she asks making her way in even closer to the bathroom. "Okay who didn't lock the door because I was the first one in here?" I ask in a whisper, no one has time to respond as Jennellea walks in. Everyone but me stops and looks to the floor, I'm guessing they aren't sure how to act around her, but me, I'm used to her even though she has been gone for so long I just continue cleaning the girl up, "LYNNCATIA CLARITY HEAVEN SNOW WHAT IN GODS NAME HAVE YOU DONE?!" she screams but I don't even flinch or look to her "I saw the girl crawling on the ground had the drivers stop the train got the girl brought her back to the train in here and started to get her cleaned up." "AND YOU DIDNT THINK TO ALRAM ANYONE, ANYONE AT ALL THAT YOU HAVE BROUGHT IN A RANDOM CHILD AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO SHE IS OR WHERE SHE IS FROM? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU?" "LEAVE THEM OUT OF THIS, AND BY 'ALRAM ANYONE' YOU MEAN WHY DIDNT I TELL YOU WELL GUESS WHAT IT ISNT ALWAYS YOUR BUISSENIS AND SINCE YOU HAVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG I GUESS IT SLIPED MY MIND ON WHAT I WAS AND WASNT SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU, AND ANOTHER THING I KNOW WHERE SHE IS FROM SHE IS FROM THE CAPITOL AND IF YOU HAD EVEN BOTHERED TO LOOK AT HER OR ASK WHAT HAPPENED OR ASK THE THINGS A NORMAL PERSON WOULD ASK YOU WOULD HAVE KNOW THAT SHE HAS THE SEAL ON HER NECK AND THATS HOW I KNOW SHE IS FROM THE CAPITOL!" "ARE YOU EVER GOING TO FORGIVE MME FOR LEAVING OR WILL YOU JUST USE IT AS AN EXCUSE FOR ALL YOUR PROBLEMS?!" "I WILL FORGIVE YOU AND HAVE REPSECT FOR YOU ONCE YOU EARN IT BACK. BECAUSE THE SECOND YOU LEFT WAS THE SECOND I THREW AWAY MY RESPECT FOR YOU AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO FORGIVE YOU RIGHT NOW AFTER ALL YOU PUT ME AND FAYA THREW!" "HOW DO YOU KNOW FAYA HASNT FORGIVEIN ME? WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU TALKED TO HER?" "1 DAY AGO AND I KNOW BECAUSE SHE TOLD ME SHE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO FORGIVE SOMEONE SHE BARLEY KNOWS THAT ALSO DECIDED TO LEAVE WHEN EVERYONE NEEDED HER THE MOST, SHE FEELS THE SAME WAY I DO!" "Where am I?" a small voice called from behind us. I turn to see the small girl sitting up in the tub looking weak and tired, I walk over to her and explain what happened and how we were I asked her name and she said melody. We got her to take a shower and change into clothes; Marialy told us that we were stopping in district one so we can let her off and she will be taken care of there.

We reach district one in about 20minutes and the small girl says thank you to all of us she is about to leave when she runs back to me and whispers " famille, la seule chose que vous ne pourrez jamais changer et généralement celui que vous chose que vous voulez le plus" she then turns and runs out of the train, but the thing is that I knew what she said and I said nothing back she said 'family; is the one thing you can never change and usually the one thing you want the most' I knew the language to it is something the old humans used to speak it's called French. I learned it at a young age and mastered it in only 2 years, I'm just surprised how well she said it and fast she must practice often like I did. "What did she say?" Cato asks "she said 'family; the one thing you can never change and usually the one thing you want the most'" Jennellea says in mono tone then turns around and heads towards her room. "Dinner is in 10 minutes everyone." Marialy shrieks.

After the girl left we all went to re-freshen up and then make our way to dinner. I walk in and see I am the last person to arrive which is surprising to me considering I was the first to go to my room anyways I walk through the doors and everyone looks at me, I'm wearing and light blue almost greenish shirt that buttons up and has a v shaped neck line, I'm also wearing tight(very very tight) dark blue jeans and my hair is still in its braid I have my usual makeup on just some eyeliner and mascara which is quite expense in the districts and when you have some you never share it. "Hello" I say sitting next to Cayden and across from Marialy. "Hi" Cayden says looking at me legs. I look down to see what is so fantastic when I notice that nothing is there and he is still looking I decide to just be blunt "Cayden 1st my eyes are up here 2nd what is so fascinating about my thighs anyways?" "Nothing I was just hushing...I thought I saw something there sorry." He says obviously embarrassed, I will handle it later I think to myself, as I look around the room I notice how tired and warn out everyone looks and honestly I am very excited to get to go to bed but I have to watch the reaping with everyone and then I need to shower and then finally I can lay down in bed and sleep. I sigh thinking of how long it will be till I get to sleep, and then I am pulled back to reality when I start being talked to. "I'm sorry what?" I ask to no one imparticular really because I have no idea who was talking to me. "I said I like that colour on you" Cayden says directing his eyes on mine then my shirt and back to me again. He gives me a cheeky grin and I start to feel the blood rush to my cheeks oh no I'm blushing stop, stop, stop, oh please stop. "thanks" I say trying to hold back a smile, I decide I cant take this silence or blushing that won't stop anymore and start to get up "sit" Marialy says I flash her a death glare "oh no I am very tired and stressed and we have stopped way to many times and are very behind schedule also I now have to fill out several pages or paper work because of what happened. So you are going to sit down and eat." I'm so startled at what she has just said and how she said it I sit immediately and try to think of something we all could talk about. Then I remember something that will make everyone laugh "hey guys remember this word?" "What word?" clove asks "goats" clove Cayden Cato and I all burst out into hysterical laughter. Now you're probably thinking what's so funny well you see two years back we were all at cloves house and her dad bought her a big goat when she was younger and she named it Billy like Billy goat well anyways we had never seen it before and she let us for the first time that day, of course Cayden being the smart person he is thinks it's a horse and goes to sit on it and tried riding it like it was a horse and was moving back and forth on its back the goat panicked and started jumping and screaming we were on the ground laughing even Cayden and to this day even the word goat or Billy makes us break out into hysterical laughter. "I cant breath I cant breath" I manage to mutter out in between gasps of air, the rest of dinner went very well everyone telling jokes and stories and then the reapings cam and went for me anyways everyone else was making notes and commenting on what people looked liked and were wearing, the only time I paid any attention was when the careers reapings came and district 11 and twelve. I noticed the huge difference between the 2 tributes in 11 and in 12 how they had their first volunteer, although it was bound to happen sometime. We were then allowed to do what we wanted and I decided a shower would be nice. I got to my bathroom without and interruptions and stripped down my clothes and got in, although most people have trouble learning how they work I have been for years and it just comes naturally to me I click the buttons I know I like and that are nosier, once I'm done I turn off the water and step out I don't bother drying my hair and instead just put on some pj shorts and a giant baggy t-shirt. I crawl into bed and turn out my light I can hear Cato and cloves voice in the room next to me but I can't tell what they are saying, I end up drifting off and before I know it im asleep.

A.N. HEY! so i hope you liked this chapter i know its quite long but i decided it would be easier to do 1 day each chapter otherwise this would have been even longer anyways hope you liked it please! Review or pm me please. Thanks bye for now 3