AN: This one's a bit of a touchy subject so I apologise if it upsets anyone or anything. I thought I'd go for a more serious chapter this time. The only reason I've been uploading so much is because I'm trying to put of revising, I would so much rather be wrapped up in the world of the Pretty Little Liars than Physics, Biology and Geography. -Chloe :-)xx

Chapter 6- When the end draws near

Spencer had been living with Toby for nearly a week now so she had got used to him going out to work early in the morning and not getting back till late. As soon as she got home from school she ran into the apartment and locked the door; she was still afraid that –A would be there to get her. She was having a pretty rough day after getting another text from –A.

"Oh dear, running straight into the arms of your lover boy. You scared yet Spence? I would be. –A" After receiving the text in her last lesson she was trying to hold back the tears she so badly wanted to release; she was driving her car as fast as she could to get back to Toby's apartment before she felt comfortable enough to break down. As soon as she stepped through the door she couldn't stop herself as the tears fell thick and fast, she let out a loud wail proving that she had finally given in. –A was making her life hell and there was nothing she could do about it; seriously considering making things easier for the monster and just letting them win.

Finally able to pick herself up off the floor she walked over to Toby's CD player and switched it on listening and Johnny Cash's Hurt played away. Her concentration drifted between the lyrics of the song, she heard him singing

What have I become, my sweetest friend; everyone I know goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt; I will let you down, I will make you hurt

She thought about how she would do anything to keep Toby safe; about how if she could bring herself to do this then maybe –A would leave the rest of them alone and they would be saved. Her hips started swaying along to the slow song and her breath slowly picked up until she was breathing so heavily she couldn't hear the song change. Deciding that she needed to do this; she couldn't handle it anymore; she wanted to be rid of this once and for all. Walking over to the desk that Toby usually did his work on she picked up and pen and a sheet of spare lined paper, beginning to write

"To whoever reads this,

I am writing this letter to say bye. I wanted you all to know that this got too much for me. My life wasn't worth living anymore; that son of a bitch would have killed me anyway so why should I give them the satisfaction. I'm a failure; I will always be a failure.

This part I write for Toby.
My dear Toby, I couldn't leave without letting you know just how much I love you. You were my everything; my safe place. Without you my life isn't worth living; I tried to get through this for you, for us but it was so hard nothing was working. Without you I am nothing and that's what I am right now. Nothing. My only purpose is to feed –A's need to cause someone pure pain. Never ever forget how much I love you.

And to everyone else, I want you to know that you were everything I could have asked for as friends and that this is not your fault. I'd been battling with my fears and emotions for a while and in my mind it always came back to this. I can now be happy and I hope that this helps you become free of –A. I don't want any of you to come to what I came to. Please tell my parents that I love them and don't explain anything about –A until you know you are safe.

I love you all so much. I'll be seeing you...
Spencer xo"

Tears were staining the piece of paper and she folded it up and placed it on the counter where she knew someone, probably Toby would find it. She had always thought of the ways in which she would want to take her own life and it always came back to the drugs. It would be easy, just to swallow them all and wait as the pain of her life slowly drifted away.

It was about 5 o'clock and Toby knew that Spencer would be home from school; he wanted to surprise her so he picked up some flowers and chocolates from the supermarket and headed back to the apartment. She had been through a lot lately and he wanted to cheer her up. When he arrived at his place; he turned the key in the lock and listened as his stereo was playing away to itself.

"Spence," He shouted through the apartment "Spencer where are you?" He looked at the kitchen counter to see a folded up piece of paper that had Spencer's neat penmanship on the top it was addressed to "Everyone". Opening up the tear stained paper; his hands were shaking as he read through the letter.

"SPENCER, SPENCER WHERE ARE YOU" He ran through all the rooms until he came to the bathroom. Spencer was sat on the floor in hysterics; she had a bottle of pills in her hand. His heart leapt into his mouth as he saw her tear stained face scrunched up in pain.

"Spencer baby, have you taken any of these?" He asked as he knelt down at her side and took the bottle from her. She shook her head as she was trying to catch her breath.

"I couldn't do it" she whispered through quiet wails "I'm too weak to end it all". Toby had just finished flushing all of the tiny white pills down the toilet before he went to sit by Spencer's side allowing her to rest her head on his shoulder as she cried. Tears where trying their best to escape his eyes too but he knew that for Spencer he had to be strong.

"Toby, I meant what I said in that letter you know"

"What do you mean baby?"

"That without you I'm nothing. The thought of us not being able to be together kills me inside. I need you; I need you know more than ever" Her chocolate brown eyes were staring straight at him now. He was completely unsure as to what he was meant to do now so he settling at looking her straight in the eyes that were filled with sadness but the love that she was now letting him see was so strong. He leaned into her parted lips and kissed her gently, quickly pulling away when she realised what he'd just done. She'd told him that she didn't want this at the moment and he just went against her wished. To his surprise Spencer pulled his face towards hers and kissed him passionately.

"Are you sure this is what you want Spence?" He asked after he pulled away from her kiss.

"Yes Toby, this is what I want. I want you" The pain in her eyes had eased away by now and all he saw was love. Her gleaming brown eyes staring how down; all of the walls around her heart had fallen. He could tell from that one glance. "I love you Toby Cavanaugh"

"I love you too Spencer Hastings" a grin spread across his face as he thought of their newly rekindled relationship "What are we gonna do about the –A situation though? I'm going to tell them that I'm done, they can do whatever they like to me but I'm not going to continue being part of their horrible game."

"Well, I know for a fact that I can get through anything with you by my side. You're all I need" She leaned over and kissed him softly on the cheek. "Can we please not tell everyone else about this? They would just start to worry and I can't have that"

"You didn't even have to ask" he mumbled into her hair as he placed soft kisses onto her head. "How are we going to explain to the others how this happened? Did we just magically get back together?"

"We could tell them that with us living together it was inevitable that something was going to happen; I mean look at us, we were still acting like a couple"

"Yeah that's true" A small laugh escaped his lips as he thought of the past few nights when Spencer would get scared in the middle of the night and drag him into the bed with her, she only ever wanted to be held but they would end up getting caught up in the moment and it generally ended up with a rather passionate kiss.

After receiving a text from Hanna saying that everyone was meeting at her place for pizza so they could talk about their current situation, Toby and Spencer were walking hand in hand up the path towards Hanna's door. Before Spencer had time to knock the door was flung open by their excitable blonde friend.

"OH MY GOD" She shouted looking at the couple's entwined hands "I knew it wouldn't be long before you two made it up. If you were failing as a couple then the rest of us had no chance". Toby could feel his cheeks burning up at Hanna's sudden outburst. His girlfriend noticed and raised her head to his level after the other girl had walked off into the kitchen to the others; she kissed him softly on the lips and whispered "We're invincible" into his mouth.

Come on guys, can I get at least 5 reviews before I put up the next Chapter? Still to come in the story
-Toby confronting Wren
- Going to the DeLaurentis house
-Finding out who else is part of the A Team