RECAP
It was then that we shared our first full blown most passionate kiss.
"Marry me." I mumbled into her hair.
"W-what?" She said in disbelief.
"Isabella Marie Swan, please make me the happiest man existing, and ever to exist, please be my wife." I said getting down on one knee in front of her.
"Edward…I…"
"Edward…I…can't." I said looking down at him poised with grace as he kneeled in front of me on one knee.
"…I don't understand." He said getting up and towering over me. "You said you loved me, you said you loved me more than the fool that you are with. Yet you tell me no." He said his topaz eyes smoldering.
"I can't marry you Edward. Not anymore. Not right now. I can't do it.' I said still locked on his eyes. I could see the pain in his eyes that I was causing. I knew it was all my fault. I knew that I'd never…never be able to take the pain away from him that I just caused, but I had to do it. It was the only thing to do.
"I'm so sorry Edward." I said taking his hand in mine, I brought it to my lips and kissed it. Then I grabbed my guitar and ran from the room, and out into the woods. Woods. It was quite ironic. Places with trees and places like to woods always reminded me of our meadow, the beginning of everything. But also it reminds me of the day he left me, they day he told me he didn't love me, and left me to get lost in the small forest, broken, and hurting.
I was already dry-sobbing by the time I reached the cliffs. I sat down and put my legs over the edge of the cliff, and began strumming a beat. Words formed into my head and I let them out.
"Don't matter what people say
I never did believe them
I know, I know they know everything
I'll be alright by myself
And no one's gonna tell me I'm defined
Confined by love
I won't let love be the one thing that dictates my life.
I've got to make this right on my own.
Now our days seem strange
I guess my heart was bound to change
My heart did change. I wonder if it was unavoidable.
I fell out, out of you and me
You're fading from view
And you're falling into history
I fell out, out of you and me
You're fading from view
And you're falling into history
What a lie. I couldn't forget him. He was in my past. He was my history. He'd never be my future.
I never thought that I'd say
That I don't really miss you
I lived, I breathed your breath through me
Time has a way of passing by
Until I don't remember why or
how to hurt for you
I can't feel this pain anymore, I'm just numb.
Love's pain has gone somewhere
And I'm finally leaving it there
This love was painful, I just needed to let it hang out to dry. But things were so different now with me and Damon, we'd never be the same again, and if Edward was my past…where do I go? What do I do?
I fell out, out of you and me
You're fading from view
And you're falling into history
I fell out, out of you and me
You're fading from view
And you're falling into history
Falling into, falling into,
you're falling into history
I fell out, out of you and me
You're fading from view
And you're falling into history
I fell out, out of you and me
You're fading from view
And you're falling into history
I'll be alright by myself
And no one's gonna tell me I'm defined
Confined by love"
By myself?
Did I need to be by myself?
"Bella…" I scrambled up, almost tripping and falling over the edge of the cliff, but a strong pair of arms caught me.
"Edward. How long were you there?" I asked as his arms tightened around me.
"The whole time." He whispered and I broke down crying. "Stay, love. Just stay with me." He begged.
"I…we are supposed to leave tonight. What am I going to tell them?" I said desperately.
"Anything you want, just stay with me." He said.
"I'm terrible. I'm a monster. I'm pathetic. I'm stupid. I'm-"
"Beautiful." His said.
"No. And you! What's wrong with you? You want me to stay? After what just happened? Even if you have to see me with Damon? Van you live with that?" I asked.
"No. No, I can't. Which is why I have every intention…of stealing you away from him." He said.
I struggled and freed myself of his hold and turned to stare him in the eyes. How could I hurt him in such a way? Why would I do this. I'm terrible. I'm a monster.
He must have seen the emotions playing across my face because he rushed forward away from the edge of the cliff and held me in his arms.
"I love you Isabella Marie Swan. I'll love you till the day my existence ends." He vowed.
"I love you too Edward." I whispered into is chest.
"What the hell?!" Someone screamed. I jumped about a foot in the air to stare at the person who had caught us in our embrace.
My eyes were soft with sadness and apology. It was bound to happen.
"What's going on?" He asked bewildered. It was now or never. Time to speak up or forever hold my peace. I could deny that anything had happened. I could simply just walk away from the whole siutaion. I could lie, cry, look away...or jump off the cliff...which wouldn't do anything but hurt me so scratch that last. In the end I decided that the truth is something that will set you free. And i was ready to fly.
"I'm so sorry Damon." I whispered. "I love…I love Edward."
CLIFFHANGER
Literally, I mean their right by a cliff.
Tricky me.
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