A/N: Sorry it took soooo long to update I just didn't want to you know? Any ways hope you like it, what am I saying of course you will like it. I think it's pretty funny if you ask me, but let me know what you think kJ
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After Remus spent the night with me, I didn't see him again until I was
released. However, I did see James. He came by every night, and I pretended to
be asleep. I just couldn't face him, but I had to, because we had a lot of
classes together. Maybe there was a way that I could stay in bed all day, but
there was no way I would get out of seeing him, since we shared a room.
Although I was extremely worried about James, Remus kept sneaking into my
thoughts. The way that his face looked when he saw me in the hospital wing –
it just irked me. Maybe he…. No forget it there was no way. I was finally in
my room and I was so exhausted because I didn't get any sleep, what with all
the worrying. I walked over to my bed and practically jumped into the soft
covers. I drifted into sleep.
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I woke up feeling refreshed for the first time this year. I stretched my arms
above my head and yawned.
"Good! You're awake now. I can finally talk to you…. What happened Sirius?"
James asked me, tentatively.
"Dude! I just got up, I'm still sleepy." I whined.
"For real, man! Why did you run away?" He got up from the makeshift chair he
was sitting in (my bedside table) and put both his knees on either side of my
legs, using his hands to pin my arms down.
"James, get off of me!" I demanded.
"Not until you tell me what's going on." He said.
"Fine, I'll tell you, just get off of me." James jumped onto the floor, I ran into the adjoining bathroom and shut the door behind me.
"Sirius, you promised!" James accused through the door.
"I don't think I ever said promise." I put my back to the door.
"If you don't open it I will." James threatened.
"No! Please, it's easier if I'm not looking at you." I slowly sank to the
floor.
"Okay. What is it?"
"James I'm...I...James?"
"Yeah?"
"I like you."
"This is what all this was about? Dude, I tell you that I like you every day."
James talked to me like I was an idiot, which I suppose I was.
"No I mean I like you. Like the way you like Lily… I like you like that."
"Oh." I could hear James slide down the opposite side of the door. He sighed,
and I joined in.
"So what are we going to do?" I asked him.
"I dont know."
"So does this mean that we can't be friends?" I asked. James was my whole life
and if he said yes then I would die.
"Oh Sirius is that what you are so worried about?"
"Yes I… James I can't lose you." And I couldn't.
"Sirius, you aren't losing me. You are closer than a brother to me. If I lost
you… I would die" Guiltily, my heart soared a little when he said that.
I started crying.
"Sirius, are you crying?" James was incredulous.
"No! A spider just went in my eye."
"If you're going to lie, then say something that is actually believable…
Sirius, open the door. "
I got up and opened it.
"Come on, Padfoot." James said arms open, using the nickname I'd been given. I
hugged him and started crying more.
"Hey! There is nothing you can do to ever lose me. I'm not letting you get
away from me that easily."
"Really?" It was a little perfect right then.
"Of course. I love you Sirius. I would be lost without you"
"So would I." I said. "James?"
"Yeah?"
"Um.." My face turned beet red.
"Yeah, I know you're turned on."
"You do?"
"Yes. You'd have to be an idiot not to feel it."
"Sorry." I said, backing away from him.
"Don't worry about it."
"James? Are you sure you aren't?"
"I'm not… but if I was I would want to be with you." James pulled me into
another hug.
"Sirius, I want you to know that no matter what, you have me. I wish that I
could give you what you want, but I can't. That's like asking you to be
straight, and I would never do that to you." I hugged him tighter.
"Thanks, James"
"Anytime." He patted the top of my head, making me feel like a six year old.
"Um… Sirius?"
"Yeah?" I asked, hugging him tighter.
"I'm going to let go now, sorta because I can't breathe, but mostly because
you're really hard right now and it feels really weird."
"Oh, sorry."
"Don't worry about it, mate." He said smiling.
A/N: Let me know what you think k J