My apologies suck
I walked out the kitchen doors and headed for the staircase in a hurry, not wanting the awkward conversation with Jasper.
As the light wooden stairs came into view so did Seth he was sat near the top of the first sat of stairs and leaning against the white wall, his long legs falling towards gravity with his muscular arms wrapped around his body. He looked completely innocent. Who couldn't love this guy? The front door was in his line of view and I was surprised I didn't see him when I walked through the door but I suppose Esme was blocking him with the stack of towels piled up in her motherly hands, she was a great Mother who clearly loved all of her children and grandchild dearly.
I sighed at the the little snores and whimpers that came out of his mouth as he slept and my heart throbbed seeing him have a nightmare and in pain.
I loved him there was no doubt about that but I couldn't he was just a man I met in the woods a few days ago. Love doesn't come this fast or does it?
"He was waiting for you to come home to make sure that you were safe but I guess he fell asleep before you came back." I stiffened at the voice who spoke; I so didn't want an awkward conversation now.
"Oh…" Pathetic Ella! I thought to myself out of all of the millions of words I knew I said 'oh' it wasn't even a word but a sound.
"Ella I'm sorry…" He began again walking up behind me and resting his hand on my shoulder at arm's length.
"Why are you sorry?" I asked and turned around to face Jasper as he dropped his arm. I was so confused right now. Why did living with the Cullen's make me feel so stupid? All of the things I felt at the minute where alien to me and I didn't have a clue why I was feeling them.
"For shouting at you, and as much as I want to think I was in the right… Alice convinced me that I was being a bit to protective with you and I'm sorry for that…"
A bit over protective did he just say? I think a lot over protective suited the situation more. But what did I know I never had a sensible role model before and never seen a parent set 'boundaries' before.
I bit my lip not knowing what to say. I finally came up with something.
"I'm sorry too?" The words that left my lips sounded more like a question than a real apology.
"I think your apologues suck, Ella!" Emmett boomed. Echoes of laughter were soon sent through the house. I looked behind me to see if it woke Seth but he just curled up more into a ball, I was surprised he didn't fall off the step.
"Shut up!" I mumbled but I knew he heard well and clear. I bit my lip again and looked at my black socks that became very interesting all of a sudden.
"That sucked didn't it?" The look on Dad's face said it all. He had one eyebrow cocked up while the other was down, his lips where parted like he wanted to say something but didn't know how to word it.
I giggled which set him off laughing also. Again with the giggling another thing to add to my list that made me confused. Grr!
"Well I did say that I'm not a people person, and that also means that I'm no good at socialising, and if I'm not good at socialising…"
"Then you're not good at apologising. I get it." He sighed with a permanent smirk written across his face like it was done with a sharpie.
"I was actually going to say that means I won't talk to many people and the less people you talk to the less likely you are going to annoy them or hurt them so that means…"
"You won't have to apologies often and as you don't do it often you won't be as good at it like others?"
"Yep" I answered him after he cut me off for a second time.
"You shouldn't have to apologies you were out having fun…with people." I smiled thanking God that I didn't have to try and apologies again. "But…" What no! Why is there always a 'but' in life? I seriously knew why teenagers in crappy movies hated the word 'but' when said by there parents it was always left hanging there with no really answer and you have many, many, many ideas floating through your head about being grounded or things being confiscated from you. 'But' was a real butt, seriously.
"But…" I tried to get him talking again.
"You are not to go out to a bar on your own with men around you drinking and smoking," He demanded and by the look in his eyes I knew there was no way I was going to avoid his demand. "Have you got that?" He asked after a few minutes.
"Yes… I'm only allowed to go to a bar with 'filthy men who have Failed at life and want to get laid' if I'm accompanied with one of you."
"Stop twisting my words about the men…"
"But it's what you're thinking, not all human men are like that and believe me I've slept with many of them to say that."
"I bet most of them where," He growled.
"I suppose they were… but," I tried to save myself and the men around me. "Loads of them aren't like you guys and the wolves you aren't trying to get in my pants… well I suppose Brady is the exception to that, but he just flirts and I seriously doubt that he will actually try anything."
"Those aren't fully human men," My Dad stated. This was true.
"Well there's been Ben, Sam, John, kaine, David, George, Robert, and Toni, Bradlee, Brandon, Luke, Steve, Callum, another David, Armani, Edward, Jack, Jake and also…" I looked at his face to see that he was shocked; I think he didn't know how many men I have actually slept with "also Clyde who I was with tonight, just to name a few."
"You slept with someone t-…"
I cut him off "Woo, I didn't sleep with anyone tonight I didn't mean that well I suppose it did sound like that but I didn't honestly…" He didn't look too sure. "Seriously I didn't Clyde's gay and I prefer my men not to shave their legs or sing dirty dancing in the shower, believe me." I chuckled, he still looked completely shell shocked; maybe I shouldn't have told him that many names. It must have been a shock for him to realise his little girl probably had a better sex life than him.
"And those are just some of the men that aren't 'filthy men who have failed at life and want to get laid'?" Emmett asked as he came in laughing. "Boy, imagine the men you have slept with as all men just want is to get in some woman's bed, all humans think about is sex. We proved that with Bella." I heard her hiss from upstairs. Was everyone listening so this conversation? I heard a 'yes' from Edward as he answered my thoughts. Awkward turtle much?
"Sooo… I'm going to goo…" I backed away dragging the sentence out as I spoke. I backed away until I nearly stood on Seth. I stared down at his sleeping form he really was cute and innocent when he slept. I easily bent down and picked him up, using my spells to make the lift easier on me. It must be really uncomfortable for him there and it must hurt his neck as he leans on the banister.
"Seth is another one you can add to that list, I heard you making the pleasure noises on the couch earlier when watching the movie…" Emmett's voice and laughter nearly made the house shake as he walked away. Boy was he going to have a field day when Seth wakes up as he saw me carrying Seth to bed when it's meant to be the other way around. I sighed feeling sorry for him, but I knew he would forgive me when he isn't stiff tomorrow from his sleeping position.
I finally realized I didn't know where he was sleeping in the house until I got to the top of the stairs, I sighed from my stupid plan. I walked to my white bedroom door and managed to open the door with my eyes. Thank God for my witch powers I say!