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Here goes chapter one.
College….senior year YES!!!!!!!! We are so out of this bitch in a year! Graduation won't come around fast enough
By we I mean my best friends and roommates Alice, Rose, and Jacob. We are going to celebrate tonight the end of summer and start of our senior year/my engagement with James at my brother Emmett who is Rose's boyfriend, Alice 's boyfriend Jasper, my fiancé James. They graduated last year. We're going to Emmett's place tonight.
"Bella?!" Alice yelled through the apartment.
"What Alice , I'm in the bathroom!" Still trying to get this damn eyeliner on. I was never good at this kind of stuff, this was Alice 's job.
"Bella, Jake still isn't here he's going to make us late! Where is James too!?" I swear it looked like she was about to have a panic attack.
" Alice ! Calm down, Emmett only lives a short ways away. I'll text them both now, okay?" she just nodded her head and left.
I pulled out my phone and texted Jake.
Where the hell are you Jake?!! ~B~
Where are you!? Are you meeting us at Emmett's? ~Sweets~
I finished my make-up and went into the living room to wait. I felt my phone vibrate and looked to see that I had a text from Jake.
Hey Bells I'm on my way I had to finish up something ~J~
By something you mean you were with a girl. It's always the same shit with him. He's either with some girl or shit no one knows and I'm sick of it, but I'm not going to do anything I'll let Rose handle it. I already know that she'll be pissed enough for Alice, her, and I.
I text Rose and told her we were going to be late again so tell Emmett and Jazz. I put my phone down and a few minutes later I got a text back.
Tell Jake I'm going to kick his ass this is like the fifth time he's done this shit!! ~R~
Just as I was about to reply back Jake walked in not only late, but with some girl on his arm all giggles and smiles. I swear for like three seconds I was so close to ripping her head off. Oh and did I mention I was completely in love with him? No? Well now you know. I have been since I was sixteen. Four fucking years and I can't tell him, why you ask? Because I can't ruin what we have over the prospect of something more so I opted to stay in the "friend zone". Plus I'm taken, but it's still hard.
I turned around and glared at him till he looked at me and gave him the you-know-Rose-is-going-to-kick-your-ass-but-I'm-still-pissed-at-you look. He looked just a little scared which he should be, but besides that I didn't speak. I realized then that I never got a reply back from James. Well maybe he will meet us there?
Alice on the other hand did "Where the hell have yo.." She stopped dead in her tracks. She looked at me then at the girl and then him and all that came out was "Oh." And that's saying something when she has pretty much nothing to say. She shouldn't be shocked though, it's always the same thing with him.
"Well lets go Rose is already pissed of at you." I told him.
"But I have to shower and chan…" I cut him off with a glare
"You should've thought about that before, we are late enough, now lets go." I snapped.
I pointed to the door and they walked out. I locked it behind me. There was a very awkward silence in the elevator and it was kind of a shock that Alice wasn't trying to fill it, but to be honest I was fine with it. I had nothing to say to him at the moment and me and Ali could talk later.
Until. "Hey guys this is Tan.." I cut him off
"If we wanted to know we would ask!" No one wants to know the sluts name Jake!!! He looked taken back by the comment but I could care less I was too pissed. It was quiet after that and I was glad. I could feel his and her glare on my back the rest of the ride down. As soon as we got off the elevator he pulled me aside while Ali and whatever her name is got into the car.
"What the fuck is your problem Bella huh?!!" He glared down at me. I glared back.
"You!" Was all I said then I walked away and got into my car, started it and headed off towards Emmett's. It was about a fifteen minute drive when I got there I looked around to see if James's bike was there, it wasn't. Where the hell could he be? He knew we were supposed to meet at 8:30 it's almost 9:15!
I tried calling and it went straight to voicemail so I left a message "Hey, just want to know where you're at; you were supposed to be here like forty-five minutes ago! Love you, call me back." I got out the car and headed up to the house.
When I got in I was immediately pulled into a bear hug. "Bells!" Came the voice of my bear of a brother.
"Hello to you too Emm, where is everyone else?" I asked the TV was on in the living room and I could hear talking coming from the kitchen.
"Rose and the pix are in the kitchen and Jazz is in the living room with Jake and..?" he trailed off.
"Don't know don't care" I said walking towards the living room peeking my head in. "Hey Jazz!"
He turned away from whatever it is that he's watching "Hey Bella, how are you?" He looked at Jake and the slut for a second then back at me waiting for a reply. Jazz is the only one besides Rose and Alice that knows. I remember the day he found out, I had never cried so much the day I realized that I was in love with Jake and the next few days after.
[ Flashback]
I had been sitting in my room for the past day or so, I was so confused, shocked and a lot of other emotions. I told Rose and Ali, they were as shocked as I was. They tried to comfort me but it wasn't helping much so I told them I just wanted to be left alone.
I guess they never got the message across to Jake because he called and text me all day. I wanted to answer it so bad but it felt like if I did it would all just spill out, so I turned off my phone. That night I went to bed thinking about what this could mean for our friendship or if I could actually just be his friend.
I woke up crying from a nightmare I had, most likely about the situation I was in. I cried for a while before I heard someone banging on the door. I pulled my self together as best I could 'please don't let it be him, please'. I looked out of the peephole and it was Jasper?! I opened up the door and walked towards the kitchen, I heard him walk in behind me and sit down at the table. He cleared his throat a few times but still seemed to not be able to speak.
I knew why he was here; Alice could never keep her mouth shut about some things. "Just spit it out already Jazz!" I snapped!
"Well Bella, Ali told me bits and pieces of what's happening right now and I'm not exactly sure how to put them together." He said in a rush.
'Damn I can't do this right now.' I couldn't turn around. He would see it and he would know. I could barely handle knowing myself let alone Rose and Alice now Jasper?!
"Bella, are you okay?" He put his hand on my shoulder. "You're shaking."
He was right I was shaking with quiet sobs, hell I hadn't even realized I was crying 'til he said something.
"Bella?" He asked in a whisper.
I turned around but I couldn't look at him I couldn't look into his eyes and see what I saw in Alice and Rose's eyes…pity... I could hear it; I didn't need or want to see it. I knew why it was there, they knew what would happen if Jake and I became a thing. Hell I knew what would happen, he would break my heart! If it was someone else I would eventually get over it, but if it was him it would break me. I don't know how I would come back from that.
It was then that I realized that Jasper was calling my name. "Bella, are you okay?" he asked worriedly
"No, but I will be. It's just hard you know?" I said in between sniffs though it was no use, the tears still flowed. I looked at him then. "I just wish that things could be different I guess." He didn't say anything just pulled me into a hug and let me cry 'til I couldn't anymore.
After that day he would give me any type of advice on the whole situation or just come and check on me when it got too hard to handle. Jasper became like a second brother to me and I will forever be grateful for how he helped me.
[End Flashback]
"Hey Bella?!"…… "Bella"……
"Oh, huh?" Oops I guess I spaced out.
"How are you?" Jazz asked just a little slower this time
"Fine Jazz, just fine." I waved and walked towards the kitchen where Rose and Alice were. There were hushed whispers coming from inside.
"Shit Alice are you su…." They stopped as soon as they saw me come into the room.
"Is she sure about what?" I asked looking between the both of them.
"Nothing." they said at the same time looking at each other than at me. I narrowed my eyes at them but left it alone. After that we just talked about everything but Jake and the slut in the other room. I looked down at my watch and was shocked to see that a little over an hour had passed . " We've been in here for over an hour girls, lets go in the other room?" They both nodded and walked out to the living room.
-----Living room-----
We walked into the living room to find them watching sports, well Jazz and Emm were. Jake and that girl weren't in here 'Must be outside or something'.
James still wasn't here so I went into the hall to call and see where he was at. It rang a few times then went to voicemail I called three more times with the same result. 'He's ignoring me? The hell!?' I couldn't believe it so I tried again and got the same result so I left a message.
"I don't know what's going on and why you aren't here but call me back!" I tried to keep my voice as calm as I could but there was still an edge to it.
I went back into the room to try and have a good time with my friends as best I could.
The hours rolled by with lots and lots of drinks, toasts and talk but still no word from James. I was so mad that I wasn't paying attention to how many drinks that I was having. Shit everyone was extremely wasted save for Emm and Rose. Jake's little friend was passed out on the couch. Jake was just as drunk as I was so he wasn't any better off and Jazz was trying to keep himself and Alice up. With how drunk I was I didn't think I could stand up let alone make it home on my own and I was about to voice those concerns, but before I could Emmett did.
"Hey Bells and Jake Rose will take y'all home and I'll take her home." he said pointing to the girl on the couch.
"Wh-what about Ali-Alice and Jazzz…?" I drunkenly slurred.
"Don't worry 'bout them, let's get you two home." Rose said pushing me and Jake towards the door. We got in the car driving towards the apartment. It was really quiet the ride there and Jake kept staring at me, it was…. weird . He seemed to snap out of it when Rose spoke as she pulled up to our building and parked.
"Can you two get up there okay by yourselves?" She asked
"We're fine Rosie." Jake slurred.
"Yeah Rosie we are fine." I giggled out at the nickname he gave her.
"AlrightI'll see you two tomorrow, goodnight." She said as we got out of the car.
"Night Rosie." I giggled
"Night." was all Jake said. I could feel him staring again.
We stumbled into the lobby together trying to keep the other up but it was pointless we were both shit-faced drunk. We fell and laughed our way to the elevator, when we finally got in it got really quiet and the air was thick. I could feel his gaze on me again.
I turned around my breath hitching from what I saw. The look on his face was… I wasn't sure what to call it. I looked into his eyes and I couldn't tell what emotions were there, but his eyes visibly darkened and fuck… I could barely breathe with the way he was looking at me.
He licked his lips and took a step towards me, I took one back, we continued this 'til my back hit the elevator wall and he was a few inches away from me. He took those last couple of steps 'til his body was flush to mine. I put my hand on his chest to push him away and opened my mouth to tell him no, but nothing would come out. He just stared at me for a while then he started to lean in and I found my voice then.
"Jake I-." he cut me off with a "Shhhh.." while leaning in and capturing me into a searing kiss I wouldn't think possible this damn drunk, but it was and I kissed back, and in my head I could hear a voice telling me that this was wrong and that I should stop… that I was in a relationship! But my body had different ideas and I was already too lost in this kiss to stop now, so I just ignored the voice. The world blacked out slowly as I felt him pull me out of the elevator.
I woke up in my bed with a pounding headache and an arm around my waist I snuggled closer to the body figuring that James came in later last night.
Until I opened my eyes to see………………….a russet colored arm. 'Shit!'
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