A/N: Hellooo all! This chapter is exploring the intermost thoughts of Mia. There's a lot of thinks about feeling, and you'll see the romance between her an Tamaki start to form. This was an exciting chapter to write, as I go over Survivors guilt. A feeling I had felt not that long ago.

Mia fun fact: Her favorite book is Falling Kingdoms.

Toretto fun fact: His middle name is Lloyd.

When you lose someone it stays with you. Always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt.

I wasn't entirely sure of what happened after that. I think the police came, someone had wrapped a blanket around me, but I think I took it off. I remember going home kind of. Hikaru and Tamaki both had their hands in mine, I remember going into my room and just laying on the bed. I think they boys came in with me. But I think only Hikaru stayed, I remembered glancing at my door and seeing just him there watching me.

When Toretto came home, there was a hushed conversation between the two. Toretto made a poor attempt at making soup and getting me to eat it. But I only ate about three bites before I stumbled into the bathroom and retched my brains out from a sickness that had noting to do with the food.

All I could see anywhere was blood. Blood on the walls, blood on the floor, on my hands, arms, legs, face. Everywhere.

My whole body ached, feeling the loss and the hole in my life that some nameless man had stolen from me. A nameless man had destroyed my entire life, and in my mind I could still he his sadistic cackling as he stabbed me in the leg.

How could I survive? Why did I survive? Why did my sister and my parents had to be the ones dead, while I was the one alive? Did I even have a purpose to be here on this Earth? My sister had had so much, her family, the love of her life, she had just started school to be an Ultrasound Technician. I had never once had a boyfriend, a family that I had created with someone, or a goal. I was content in Georgia, with my books and my dancing and my family.

How many others had he done this to? When they investigated they said he was a chronic killer. A serial killer. And is MO was sisters who looked or acted different. They had also told me that I was the only survivor. How many families had he ripped apart because he felt like it?

My God. How many people had he killed? They called me the sole survivor, but I wasn't. I was just lucky that the neighbors had heard my screaming, and they cops were there in less then a minute after the call. A good minute after he had left. He me there, bleeding on the floor, screaming my lungs out. The hate that I had for that man was an indescribable, burning rage.

That night I had nightmares. Awful nightmare of my sister death, her screams, her fear. I woke up an incoherent, crying disaster. I didn't go to school that day, or the day after, or the day after that. I was such a mess. The boys showed up every day, and every day I pretended like I wasn't home. I didn't want them to see me like this. I was an awful human being who should have never survived that night. I couldn't let them see the guilt on my face and have them knowing that I was an awful person.

Better yet, they shouldn't even associate with me. I was a disgrace to the world. And should be forced to live out my days in solitude.

I found myself playing on my keyboard a lot. My sister had taken lessons and had always wanted me to play with her, saying that we would be a dynamic duo with our contrasting looks and good melodies. I had agreed, if only for the fact that she seemed so animated about it. That and I never could really say no to her, she was my best friend.

I played a lot of sad songs. Postcard From1952 was one I continuously played though. I also did my best at singing when I was alone and if I felt like it. I had a decent voice, it was kind of a light, airy voice, it wasn't bad, but it was nothing like my dancing, it did nothing for me. So, today, Thursday, I think it was. I was playing the piano and singing.

You were once my one companion
You were all that mattered
You were once a friend and father
Then my world was shattered

Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed
Somehow you would be here

Wishing I could hear your voice again
Knowing that I never would
Dreaming of you helped me to do
All that you dreamed I could

Passing bells and sculpted angels, cold and monumental
Seem for you the wrong companions, you were warm and gentle

Too many years
Fighting back tears
Why can't the curse just die!

Wishing you were somehow here again
Knowing we must say goodbye

Try to forgive
Teach me to live
Give me the strength to try!

No more memories
No more silent tears
No more gazing across the wasted years

Help me say goodbye
Help me say goodbye!

This song was one of my favorites, from my favorite musical. Phantom Of the Opera, I used to watch it with my dad all the time, and I had learned the song by then time I was 12. It made me sad, knowing that one of the songs that me and him had used to sing together could be used to describe the situation I was now in.

Often at times I found myself angry though, and I slammed my hands on the keyboard with teary eyes. I missed then, dear God did I miss my sisters smile, my moms laughter, and my fathers dance moves. I missed them all so much. I wasn't just sad anymore, my whole body felt like it hurt. I hadn't been eating much all week, and I was on my last pair of sweatpants to wear.

Loud banging on the door alerted me that someone was here. And I just sat against the wall, figuring it was the boys. They were a stubborn bunch who always kept coming back, every single day.

"Mia! Open the door!" Hikaru and Karou called, just like they did every day, this time they added "Or will break it down."

I ignored them. I figured that they were bluffing, but when I heard a loud splintering that signified the breaking of my door, I quickly darted into the bathroom. Knowing they wouldn't dare go in there while a girl was in there.

A soft knock came on the door. "Go away." I called. I heard a sigh through the door.

"Mia, come out." Tamaki called. I wanted to go out out the door, to be with them and laugh and have fun. But it was not something I deserved.

"No." I crossed my arms stubbornly. I heard a collective sigh through the door, and then all of a sudden the click of the lock, and the boys were all there, Hikaru still bent over from picking the lock.

I realized that I did not look good. My hair was up in a really messy bun, I was in Hello Kitty sweatpants and a black tank top, I knew I had dark rings under my eyes from not sleeping, and my usually tan face was pale from lack of eating.

The boys didn't have to look so shocked though. They looked like I had just turned purple and started glowing or something.

"What do you want?" I asked, crossing my arms.

"We wanted to see if you were okay..." Tamaki said softly, his gaze was very said.

"Well, now that you've seen, you can all leave." I pointed towards my broken front door. "And I expect a new front door."

Tamaki grabbed my pointing hand and pulled me to his chest, mumbling under his breath so that I couldn't hear it.

Hikaru hugged my next, and his voice was gruff. "Listen, bad things happen, and there's nothing you can do about it."

I blinked, that boy really just quoted the Lion King at me. "Did you seriously just quote the Lion King at me?"

Hikaru grinned down at me and winked. "Maybe."

I sighed, and Hunny ran up to me. "Mia-chan, it's going to be okay! You'll see!"

I ruffled Hunnys hair. "Yeah.." I mumbled.

Most of the boys had left around 7. Just Tamaki had stayed behind, saying he was going to spend the night. Me and Toretto didn't mind, and I was feeling better, which meant I made dinner. Tamaki was laying on my bed when I walked into my room, and I raised an eyebrow at his presence, but laid on my bed anyway.

My long hair fanned out behind me, and Tamaki started playing with it, being unusually quiet. I closed my eyes and tried to relax while he started humming, but whirled around when I recognized the song.

"All I Ask Of You?" I mumbled. Tamaki nodded vigorously.

"Do you know it?" He asked. I rolled my eyes.

"I've only been watching it my whole life" I shook my head playfully at him. I was surprised when he opened his mouth and the words to the songs came out. (I know that some of you may not know the song, so I'll make it easier by saying who sings what.)

Tamaki

"No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you

Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you"

Mia

Say you'll love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summer time
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Tamaki
Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

Mia
All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you, always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

Tamaki
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, that's all I ask of you

Mia
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you

[Both]
Share each day with me, each night, each morning

Mia
Say you love me

Tamaki
You know I do

[Both]
Love me, that's all I ask of you.

[Both]
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me, that's all I ask of you

[Both]
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me, each night, each morning...

I laughed as Tamaki hid his face and pretended to be the phantom at the end. Making his voice deeper then it was.

Tamaki

You will curse the day you did not do all that the Phantom asked of you!

Tamaki laughed with me, before he went back to playing with my hair, I gave a relaxed sigh and closed my eyes, feeling unbelievably lighter. What had taken an entire move, new last name, and six months to get a semblance of previously, one group of boys had given me in a matter of hours.

"Mia, can I ask you something?" Tamaki asked. I opened my eyes to look at him, he was giving me one of those weird, intense looks that made my stomach feel weird and greasy.

"What was your sister like?"

It took me a while to figure out the right words to describe her, but Tamaki was patient with me.

"She was beautiful." I started. "She had this blonde hair, and these gorgeous blue eyes. I mean, really, I used to call her Barbie. She was so skinny, and had a bright smile. She was nice to everyone, and always went out of her way to help people." I smiled faintly. "She was a bit of a troublemaker though, always going out and doing wild things. She would sneak out to go to parties or shopping or the like, often dragging me with her. She loved kids, summer, the beach. She dreamed about going to Paris." I inhaled slowly. "She was just...beautiful. Everything about her was beautiful."

Tamaki nodded. "So, she was like you, then. A beautiful soul?"

I shook my head and looked at him. "No, she was more then I could ever be. She was my only friend in Georgia." Tamaki gave me a surprised look.

"You didn't have friends?"

"I didn't need them, I'd always had my sister and her friends."

Tamaki stared at me for a long moment, before rolling onto his back again, I rolled over to my side, and fell into a blissful, dreamless sleep.