"They told me to 'let it go'. But I don't understand what it means. How can I wrap up all my pain, thoughts, and feelings, tie it to a balloon and let it fly away, how?"

When I opened my eyes I found Tamaki had fallen asleep next to me, though he pressed himself against a wall and turned respectively away from me. Even unconscious, the boy was a gentleman.

I snuck out of the bed and watched him roll over as if knowing I was somehow gone. His brow was furrowed and he let out a sleepy sigh before his body relaxed and his wrinkled brow went away. I let myself take a private moment to admire one of the most handsome boys I had ever laid eyes on.

All of the hosts were unbelievably handsome. It was hard to believe that people so handsome could befriend someone as...homely, as me. Even, it seemed, a little effed up.

But there lay one of those handsome boys, in my bed, his blond hair tousled, his long frame slightly curled like a child, lips parted. His clothes were a little rumpled and he still looked gorgeous. There had to be some rule being broken in the universe for this boy to be here right now.

Soon, his gorgeous blue eyes blinked, and then opened, I was close enough to the door that I slipped out just before he looked around and saw me.

I was rummaging in the kitchen, pulling out stuff for breakfast when Tamaki walked in and leaned against the wall.

"Good morning." Tamaki said pleasantly.

"Good morning. How do you feel about french toast in the morning?" I asked, turning slightly to look at him.

"It sounds delicious." Tamaki sat down, but noticed the open door with my keyboard in it. "Is that yours?" He asked.

I gave a slow nod. "My sister taught me how to play piano on it. She wanted us to learn it together." I said softly as I cracked eggs into a bowl and poured milk into it.

"Would you mind if I played it?" Tamaki asked. I could tell he was being careful about not upsetting me, I turned to flash him a smile. "Go ahead."

Tamaki beamed and darted into the room, he didn't close the door and in a few moments beautiful music came from the room.

I recognized some, Debussy, Chopin, Tchaikovsky. It soothed me while I cooked. Eventually he started play This Will Destroy You and Explosions In The Sky. Toretto came out of is room groggily, I slid his cup of coffee down the counter to him like I did every morning, and he took a gracious sip like he did every morning.

"That boy is a lot like you, huh?" Toretto asked, amused at something. I shook my head at him.

"No, he's a lot happier then me." I murmured, focused on my french toast making.

"You used to be that happy..." Toretto said quietly, scooping french toast onto his plate and taking a big bite. "Mmmm..."

I know that I used to be as happy as Tamaki, through anything. But that happiness had died a long time ago, it died with my parents, with my sister. Now there was just...a void. A hole that was lacking that had been the people in my happiness.

Toretto understood that, though he had never commented on it. It was a silent pact between us that remained intact forever.

The kids came out slowly, and I handed them a plate and put of some Spongebob for them. Tamaki followed a moment later, when I handed him a plate he grinned at me and sat next to me at the table where Toretto was.

"So...what are your plans today?" Toretto asked us.

I shrugged. "I have no clue." I glanced at Tamaki, who, after chewing, replied.

"It's Saturday, we don't have school so we we're going to go to a water park." Tamaki stated.

I blinked across the table at Toretto, who shrugged. "That sounds nice, what water park?"

"Its Kyoya Ootori's families park."

"Ootoris, isn't that where you go for your physical therapy?" Toretto turned to me, and I nodded sheepishly.

"Yeah."

Toretto nodded, his shaggy hair fell over his face. "Okay, well the two you have a good time there. Don't be back late."

I raised a brow at my brother. "Do you have work today?" I asked.

He grinned. "Nope. Got extra days off this week since I did so much overtime."

We high-fived across the table and grinned at each other before I turned to Tamaki. "What time do we need to leave by?"

Tamaki checked his watched and beamed. "Three hours."

"don't you need to change?"

"Yeah."

I grinned at him. "Well, I'll get changed and then well go to your house so you can change."

I got up a dimly wondered what adventure was awaiting me at this water park. Because even I knew that the Host Club was always some crazy adventure.