Sorry it took me so long to update, I had finals, and what not, but I'm back now, and we have all summer together, so be prepared.
"Mika, can I ask you something?" Kain said, I had been with him in the infirmary all day today, I didn't know if it was out of pity, or because I felt ashamed for admitting that I loved Alec, but I was here nonetheless.
"Sure Kain, you can ask me anything." I said. I was sitting next to his bed, he was getting better in the physical sense, but something was still wrong with him, a power that Marcus had inflicted on him.
"Do you…love me?" he asked.
'What?!" The question startled me so much, here we were just days before our wedding and he is having doubts about my love? I grant that maybe it's wrong for me to care for another man, but I never once ever stopped loving Kain, I loved his with all my heart.
"Of course I do Kain, I mean…why would you even ask?" He did know did he?
"I ask because, this was something that we both wanted at one time, and something that I still want, I was just wondering if maybe you had been having second thoughts."
"No! ...I….love you Kain….I really do. I care for you so much too."
He turned his head towards me, his eyes locking on mine, his black hair falling over his eyes.
"Am I the only person that you love?" He whispered, I almost couldn't hear him. Maybe it's better that way.
I got up and started messing with his IV's.
"Is there anything that I can have the nurses get you?" I asked.
"Stop avoiding that question." He said.
"I'm not avoiding anything." I said back.
I lowered my head in defeat under his gaze, he knew, there was nothing else that I could do. There was nothing more that I could say that could ever un-do the fact that I had betrayed him.
"You'll never see him again…right?" Kain said, and my heart practically broke in two, a pain so large made my chest ache, I wasn't sure if it was the pain I was feeling for Kain, or if it was the sadness that I would feel thinking about never seeing Alec again.
"Mika!" He hissed my name and I jumped, way noticeable. My eyes moved up to look at him. His eyes so full of hurt, betrayal, and anger looked at me. "Mika, tell me you'll never see him again."
"I….I promise you…." I whispered with a yawn. He nodded and reached his hand out to me.
"Come, lay with me." He said, and I took his hand, and climbed onto the unnecessairly large bed that he was being tended to in.
"Kain I never meant to…to hurt you." I whispered as I buried my face in his neck.
"I wish you hadn't either, but I have you back now, you're my Mika, my love, and that's all that matters to me." He said and I felt his hand stoking the back of my head.
"I've been so rude, so…so selfish. It's my fault that you're in this bed." I said.
"Don't….don't say that, it's not your fault that Marcus did something sneaky and underhanded."
"Do they have any idea what it is yet?" I asked, there seemed to be deep blue lines running from both his feet up his legs. They just kept getting higher and higher, the day that they found them, I knew my duty was to be here with Kain.
"No idea." He said.
"Does it hurt?" I asked.
"Not so bad." He said with a sigh.
"I'm so sorry." I said tearlessly sobbing into his shoulder.
"I already said that it's not your fault, so stop all this apologizing." Hr said.
My sobs subsided as hi stroked my head some more and hummed songs into my ears.
I got way too comfortable too quick because I yawned.
"Have you slept today?" Kai asked.
"I'll be fine." I said shaking my head.
"Go." He said gently pushing me away.
"No, I don't want to." I said frustrated.
"Go, or you can' come back tomorrow." He said raising an eyebrow. We locked eyes, then I glared at him, and muttered. 'fine'
"See you tomorrow love." He said, and I stomped out growling as he laughed.
I went and talked to Izzy for a while, a spite against Kain and him making me go to bed, until he heard us talking too loud right outside his room, and yelled to me to go to bed. I growled again and ran up the stairs.
"It took you long enough." Alec said, he was perched on the end of my bed, a goofy smile on his face.
"You have to go…" I said my voice raspy, hushed.
His eyes widened and he looked at me with confusion.
"Mika, what are you talking about, I've been coming everyday since you said you loved me, what's so different about today?" he asked.
"I can't…do this to him…he asked me to marry him…Alec I said yes, I promised him. He…he knows about us. I don't know how, but he does." I choked, pausing my ability to talk.
"Then tell him! Tell him you love me." Alec said outraged.
"I can't do that, I love you both, but Alec he's my fiancé." He said.
"So…what is this? First come first serve?" he asked.
'No." I whispered.
He went on like he hadn't heard me.
"He loved you first so I get tossed aside?"
"No."
"I don't see how that makes sense." He said now in my face.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
I felt his hand on my face, running across my jawline.
"I love you so much Mika, you don't even realize. You don't know how it feels."
"You think I don't know? You think that this is easy for me? You think that I like being in this situation? You think that I want to cast you aside?" I asked seething with anger. This was beyond idiotic.
"I didn't mean that." He whispered.
I bowed my head to stare at the ground.
"I love you so much Alec. I do. You right by my heart all day, I miss you when you're not there, I'm happy when you are, I hurt when you do, I can understand you funny and off beat sense of humor, you are my heart." I said through tears.
"But…" He said.
"NO, there are no but's, I love you Alec, I love you a lot, but I can't be with you, you have to get that. I was given this life by Kain, I was given this lifestyle by Kain, I was proposed to by Kain, I learned love from Kain." I said.
"So I'm your heart, but he's your world?" He asked dryly with a smile.
"No, Alec-" I was stopped cold of reaching for his arm by him backing up to the window.
"It's alright, I can see how this is hurting you, I'll leave Mika, you'll never see me again, I can promise you that." He said. Then he was in my face, and he kissed me, one last passionate, beautiful, loving, kiss.
"Goodbye Mika, I love you." He said then jumped from my window.
"I love you too." I said to no one.
Now don't just to conclusions, mama would never let it end that way. LOL. 10 reviews…or more, till you get more. If you read my stories the next one I'll be updating will me "Music of my Heart" So look forward to that lovely BellaXJasper pair we all love so much.