I am sort of scared to put this up and I don't know why. I think I may have repeated myself a few times but I really struggled with this to be honest as emotions are not my strong point! I am also a bit scared to see if anyone is going to kill me after they read this because right now I am kicking myself in the head but it needs to happen. Happy reading guys and please remember to review!

Emotions

When I headed out of the male bathroom I was met by Renesmee standing next to Jake. They were in a moment that was only shared by those two. Their heads were bowed with their noses touching; their hands were intertwined as they whispered to each other.

They were in a state of bliss and didn't notice the swaying humans or pounding beat. I was about to walk past them when Renesmee looked up to me and smiled sadly.

"Everyone's ready to go, are you coming?" She asked me sweetly.

"Yeah, let's go." I nodded towards the exit just before the ginger human walked past me as he excited the bathroom that I just came out of. He bowed his head to me and smiled softly. I grumbled to myself as guilt empowered my body. What had I done?

Jacob pinched the bridge of his nose and looked away as I walked to the exit with my head bowed down.

Renesmee was right, everyone was ready to go. They looked away from me as we all piled into the cabs. There was no reason for me to say goodbye to Sophie or Clyde as I knew that they were busy and had probably already left with men.

This journey was different to the first; I didn't have Seth's arms resting by my knee or his eyes staring at my face that gave me pleasurable goose pumps. I didn't have his company and it brought hurt to my chest. I took in a ragged breath as I saw him in a different cab; his head was bowed like mine and his body shaking with anger.

I had done that, I had hurt him. I shouldn't have gone outside with Sophie nor should I have leaned into the ransom guy's chest just to spike him.

The journey back to the Cullen mansion was slow and unnecessary and I just about survived it with Sam and Emily cuddling in the back seat. I longed for that with Seth.

I ran up the stairs and into my bedroom and slammed the door behind myself. It was not needed but my strength took over as my body shook with sobs.

I changed my clothes that stank of human sweat; it wasn't from me but the humans in the club. I sat on my desk with charcoal in hand and drew, I brought out my emotions in my work and tears slid down my face and onto the price of paper. It smudged the black more than what was needed but it added to the emotions into the piece.

The night had gone and so had the morning and I now headed down the stairs. My jumper from Seth was wrapped around my body and it held his scent from yesterday. It was just yesterday that everything had been perfect yet it seemed centuries ago. I hugged my arms around my body as pain shot through my chest; Seth was sitting on the armchair and staring at nothing in particular.

He had his elbows on his knees and his head resting in his hands. I could feel anger from him and I winched. I stood next to him and his nostrils flared. He stood up in a flash and pushed me away with the glare in his eyes.

"I'm sorry." I whispered but I knew that he had heard.

"You are sorry? Ella, do you understand what you did!" He yelled at me and I took a step back in shock.

"I don't know what to say," I carried on whispering.

"Then don't say anything," he spat at me while turning his back on me.

"Tell me what I can say to make you forgive me." I finally shouted to him as I realised that I couldn't lose this man.

"You can't say anything, you don't want me and that's fine. You don't have to keep pushing me away because you don't want me, because now I don't want you." He breathed at me with anger.

"I have spent hours thinking of ways to impress you but it has finally clicked in my stupid head that I can't win you because you don't deserve me." He waved his hands around while I just stood there taking all of this in. "You were with that human while I was out protecting you! I was trying to get that man's hands away from you but you encouraged him! It's filthy Ella and the way that you acted disgraces me. I thought that you felt something towards me but you through it back into my face without a care in the world!" He let out a breath before continuing. "Do you not feel anything? Do you not care about me? Does our imprint mean nothing to you?" He questioned.

"Yes..." I stuttered out but Seth shut me up before I could continue.

"No it doesn't Ella!" He growled into my face with hatred. "You have had you're chance but I have had enough!" His words stung and tears continued to spill down my face lightly. "You go on and on about not being like your Mother but you are just like her!" Was the one sentence that he full out shouted at me and it was then that I truly understood his rage.

"I can't believe that you just said that..." I sobbed quietly while stepping away from him quickly. His words hit home and I crumbled.

"Ella," he started softly.

"Don't..." I shook my head. "You have said everything that you feel now just get out." I pointed to the front door "get out Seth!" I screamed in his face. "I didn't sleep with that human last night, I stopped it. I realised that I was hurting you and stopped." I opened up to him! He needed to know.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have said..."

"Just get out Seth, I don't want to see you again!" I repeated while pushing him out of the door.

He let me as my words sunk into his mind.

I slammed the door as soon as he stepped down the steps and I turned around to see everyone staring at me.

I ran back up the stairs and fell onto my bed.

Seth was right I was like my mother no matter what I did.

What does everyone think? Did Seth say the right thing? What about Ella?