Pain

It had been a month since I had last seen Seth. After our argument the rest of the wolves had left a couple of days later. I hadn't spoken nor had I left my room. Hunting was not an option for me in case I saw someone, I was in hiding. A part of me was gone and I didn't know how to get it back, I knew it was because of the imprint and I hoped time would fix me just like time had fixed me from my mother.

The question was, how much time?

"Ella," was called out but I leaned back in my desk chair more and wrapped my arms around my legs as I brought them closer to my chest. "Ella, I know that you can hear me." The same voice called but I winched as I knew it was Esme.

I had locked the door in an attempt to keep everyone out even though a push from a Cullen could cause the door to break open.

I hated hurting them but I needed time. I need space from everyone as I knew that they must think the same as Seth.

"Is she replying?" I heard Jasper ask from the other side of the door.

"No," Esme replied sadly.

Jasper banged on the door a couple of times while shouting my name. I just covered my ears up with my headphones and turned the volume of my music up on my iPod. This still didn't drown out the constant shouting of my Dad.

"Ella you need to hunt!" He shouted "just go out you don't have to to see us!" He continued. I hadn't heard him this angry over the month that he had tried to persuade me to come out.

It was tempting as my throat became dry and my saliva was nothing to satisfy my needs.

"Ella, open up please! Your health is going to fail if you continue and you may snap at any time!" He exploded in anger. His emotions came flooding trough my door in one burst that it made me gasp in pain.

My health was failing, I had become weak that I found it hard to move one arm. My skin had become even more white if that was possible and my eyes were pitch black that stood out from my skin complexion like an elephant in a crowd of humans. My senses were getting worse and my sight had began to fail to the point where I kept seeing black dots and lines.

"Ella!" Jasper shouted again as I hadn't once replied. "I am goig to break down this door if you don't open up!" I flinched at his threat. "God-damit Ella just please open this door so I can help you." I heard rustling around and footsteps as my dad pleaded for me to hunt. Everyone was standing outside my door.

"Renesmee and Jacob, you need to leave as Ella hasn't hunted in over three months." Carlisle whispered. Three months? Had it really been that long? It only felt like a couple of weeks ago that my world became empty and lifeless.

I heard Renesmee sigh and her ad Jacob walk out the house.

"Ella we really do not want to do this so please open up,"

I stared at the white bedroom door in panic. Why couldn't they jut leave?

"Your family Ella we are not going to leave you." Edward spoke up. Stupid vampire reading my thoughts.

My breathing became deep as time went on, I had counted 127 seconds before on last plead was sent to me. "Please Ella, I know what you are going through. I had once lost Edward and I truly do understand the pain that you feel. It's like someone ripped out a piece of you and you don't know how to get it back but don't just sit and do nothing." Bella spoke to me "I sat and did nothing for weeks which is nothing compared to you. Three months is a long time Ella and I know that you just need someone to talk to like I had Jacob." Bella whispered as I heard her shuffle around and hug Edward.

179 seconds passed and in that time I had pushed myself off my desk chair and under my desk. There was no way I could be able to stop them from coming in by I could hide in the dark.

My legs were limp as I tried to move my knees to my chest and my head was bowed down as my neck ached from the weight of holding it up. I whimpered in pain as shuffled more into the corner and that was when I heard the door break down and footsteps ran into my room.

I closed my eyes and leaned into the corner more for protection. I held my breath until I felt dizzy and uncomfortable.

"Ella," my dad spoke softly as he crouched to the floor and rested his hand on my shoulder. I didn't have enough energy to move away so I just sat there staring at my legs. "Carlisle," my dad panicked as he lifted me out of my hiding spot ad laid me on the bed. I flinched at the light that had been turned on from someone. I couldn't move anything and I felt completely hopeless.

I closed my eyes as I felt everyone stare at me in pain and fear as I felt Carlisle's cold hands check me over.

"Ella can you speak," Carlisle whispered to me but I continued to ignore him and closed my eyes so I saw nothing. I felt Carlisle open my dry and cracked lips and I suddenly snapped my eyes open as I felt a plastic tube go down my throat. I screamed at the feeling but the only thing that came out was a gargle of fear. I could feel my brain processing the actions of moving my limbs but my muscles didn't cooperate so I laid still.

Warm liquid entered down my throat in a treacle and I remembered what it felt like to be a vampire again as my lips sucked on the tube that was in my mouth. I needed more so I clamped my teeth around the plastic until thousands of small holes lined the tube so I could get more of the fresh blood.

It was gone by the time that my stomach felt full and I then realised that I could move again.

I grabbed the tube and pulled it out of my mouth. It tickled my throat and sent shivers down my body as I imagined the plastic down my throat.

Everyone sighed in relief as they saw me move.

"Ella," Jasper approached me slowly and rested his hand on mine but I pushed it away and stood up in fear. They hated me just like Seth. I hurt them. I stepped back and my legs gave way before anyone could react. I came crashing down on the floor in a heap. I moaned as I dragged myself slowly into my bathroom, no one followed as they stood in shock.