Living with the Mix

by petraZOEpan

Meeting the Cullens was dreamt of, falling in love with a wolf is unthinkable for Ella After living alone for 1 hundred years it is understood why Ella is so closed off from the world and only thinks for herself. But with finding about a dad she never knew off and moving into the Cullen's things start to change and the phrase "Your just like your mother" becomes completely false.

44. Chapter 44

I sat on the floor in the shower as boiling hot water jabbed at my skin. I felt the heat rise around the room and it began to squeeze my lungs together so I couldn't breath properly.

I continued to sit there, replaying the words that Seth had said. I wondered if he was feeling the same as I was right now?

Of cause he wasn't, he was the one who said that he didn't want me anymore.

This was the hardest that my life had ever been before, how can I become myself again?

I wanted my life back. The one were I could do as I wanted with nothing holding me back.

That would mean no family.

Half of me was ready to leave right now but I loved these people.

I had to let them go. If Seth hurt me then so could everyone else.

I stood up and and turned off the shower, I climbed out the bathroom and got dressed. I began to pack my clothes in a rush and headed downstairs.

I forgot about Edwards mind reading abilities for a moment and it didn't cross my mind until I saw everyone standing around the front door.

"We're sad that you want to leave but it's your choice." Edward mumbled.

I gulped as I looked at everyone in the eye. Renesmee and Jacob were back after leaving as Carlisle told them to. How could I find the courage to walk out the door?

The answer to that was that I couldn't.

I released my strong hold on the bag that held my clothes and took a step away from it.

I couldn't run, I demanded myself in a rush as I realised that these people were only trying to help. They had put everything into me just like I had tried to be nice and helpful to my Mother to try and get her to like me. I wasn't like her! I screamed in my head. I wasn't going to throw everything back into innocent people's faces.

Edward smiled at me and everyone stared at him in shock as they didn't know what I was thinking. I tried to smile at him but I wasn't sure how well it turned out. I shrugged my shoulders.

"You guys thought I was leaving? I was just going to throw these old clothes in the bin," I joked to them and that's when I saw everyone sigh in relief and crushed me in a number of hugs.

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