A new update yaaaay! Sorry it took so so SO long I have been so busy with exams also my mum has broken her leg so I have had her jobs to do around the house as well as mine so I have had no time. Please forgive me and read.I tried to make this as long as possible for you but as you guys probably know I hate writing long chapters for this book but please don't hate me for it!
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"Welcome to London everyone." Carlisle beamed at my family as we stepped out of the airport. It was cloudy which was no surprise and a slight wind blew in the air. I searched my surroundings to see groups of people heading in and out of the modern airport and taxis and buses driving past.
"I can't wait to go and see the sights!" Renesmee shrieked while bouncing on the spot; she got a few looks from passing humans.
"Shopping sounds so much better!" Alice joined in with Renesmee and they both jumped their way over to a hired mini bus for the family.
"You okay?" I heard Rosalie whisperer in my ear as she sat down with me on one of the black seats in the vehicle.
"I'm fine," I smiled up at her although I felt kind of guilty for lying.
"I know it's not my place but maybe you should phone Seth and short things out, I'm not a great fan of the mutts but Seth, he's different if you just phone..."
"Your right it's not your place." I quickly cut Rosalie off with a cold glare. I composed my facile expression to seem less angry at her. "I don't want to phone him, if he's happy without me then I will let him be. I want London to be a new start for me with no men in my life." I explained as I softened my voice compared to when I cut her off. She nodded as she understood.
"Hey I'm a man and no way are you getting rid of me." Emmett called from the back of the mini bus as Carlisle started the engine. The rest of the boys agreed.
I laughed. "I meant the ones that won't hurt me or make life more complicated then it already is and maybe even the ones that can't keep their junk in their pants." I whispered the words as Seth's frustrated face came into my head. His words about my mum stung so far down. "I'll be a born again virgin." I laughed at myself. Could I really go forever without sex again?
The answer to that was probably, it didn't hold anything for me like it used to. Ever since Seth my universe had been turned upside down and the back of my head was more interested in settling down then having fun. Settling down with the man I fell in love so quickly with, Seth.
The imprint was silly no one fell in love that quickly but imprints did. I did. I sighed and closed my eyes, it hurt to see that I was in a different country to my man and we were so far away.
After an hour in the car we had finally reached the outskirts of London. There was fields and fields with a few country roads, in the distance you could see the edge of the city. As we travelled more the amount of houses and people began to get less and less to a part were all you could see were a few trees and pieces of land.
The new Cullen house looked like the last one but it was larger (if that was possible). It was extremely modern and grand, it looked just like four cubes put together. There was a huge paved driveway that led to a massive black garage to the left of the house. The walls were all white with sections of wood and the windows blended in perfectly. There was no huge field like the last home but instead a neatly cut section of grass with a long hedge that wrapped around the front of the house and a couple of small trees that were in the shape of a sphere.
The hallway entered straight into the living room which was a mixture of white, blacks and greys. Leather sofas were sat in a circle and managed to all face the flat screen television, I looked around to see plain walls and it then struck me that Esme wanted me to be the one to add paintings, yellow would look good in this room I thought. The stairs were at the back of the room and were black, they had a glass hand rail.
The next room for Esme to show my family was to the right of the house. It was the kitchen. There were a few red walls but mainly cream and it had cream cupboards and marble worktops. Leading off from the kitchen was the dinning room which played a huge part in this family normally. It held a rectangle table for fourteen and had a few sofas and chairs. Huge lampshades hung down from the ceiling and over the table, the back wall was glass patio doors and showed the garden.
"This is amazing," Carlisle whispered in Esme's ear as she took us back through the living rooms and into the garage. The garage was simple with no cars in there yet.
"I had two spare rooms one of them is this room," Esme smirked at us as she turned the gold handle to the next room.
"Woop..." Jacob called while fist pumping the air as I let everyone pass into the room. I was last to enter the heated room. The floors were cobble and the walls were brick, one wall however was made plainly out of glass just like the dining room. Outlining the room was a small bar, wooden benches and indoor plants.
"We got a pool, we got a pool." Renesmee sang while doing a happy dance.
She was right, it was in the shape of a bean and had 12 lights at the bottom that shone up through the water.
"I'm the first or to do a cannonball!" Emmett boomed while ripping his top off.
Rosalie grabbed his shoulders "not in jeans your not and Esme hasn't finished showing us around yet." She flicked his nose while Emmett pouted. He put the shirt back on and left the room behind the others while grumbling.
"Cheer up Em," I bumped my shoulder into him as we walked up the stairs behind everyone else.
He turned to face me and smiled happily. "We have a swimming pool," he clapped his hands together excitedly.
"I'm surprised you guys haven't had one before with the amount of money you have." I chuckled at his immature behaviour.
"We did but someone flooded it as a joke and she got really angry." Emmett sheepishly rubbed the back of his neck. I smirked as an image of Esme telling off big Emmett came into my head.
"The other spare room is here," Emse called as me and Emmett caught up to the others. "I've had enough of you kids being violent in my living room about video games," she sourly looked at Jasper and Emmett. "so I have put in a home cinema, it is connected to your games consoles and has everything that you would possibly need for entertainment." The room was pretty awesome. It was black and purple with large sofas, beanbags and arms chairs. It even had a large bed that was low to the floor that could at least fit five people on.
Esme spent the next fifteen minutes showing everyone to their rooms, they were all on the same floor due to the house being two storeys because of how wide it was.
Edward and Bella had oranges and yellows in there room with a king size bed that had a net around.
Esme and Carlisle's was very traditional and seemed to represent a king and queens suit with a large chandelier ad draped curtains.
Jacobs room was probably the smallest but I knew that this was what he wanted as he thanked Esme for it. I think it was something to do with growing up in a small room. He had a single bed with a few shelves and a desk, the wardrobe was blended in with the wall. The colours were different shades of brown.
Renesmee's room was the complete opposite direction of Jacobs and was so far away, I couldn't help but giggled as Edward held a constant smile on his face while Jacob sulked. It was plain white walls with bright green, blue and purple decoration everything seemed to pop out with the bright and vibrant colours.
Roses and Emmett's room was extravagant and elegant with golds and creams. It held a large circular mirror and had vines of flowers twirling in every price of furniture.
Alice and Jasper's room was blue, the wallpaper had flower patterns with silver and white in. The draws and wardrobe were all mirrors so everything seemed more bright.
"I wasn't sure of what to do with your room Ella, i know that you loved your last room and the way that i designed it but I wasn't sure on what to do." Esme nervously repeated herself while fiddling with her long fingers, we had all stood in front of the closed door which led to my room. I stepped through everyone and took her hands in mine.
"You have no reason to be nervous Esme. I don't care what my room looks like as long as I'm here with you guys." I sighed with embarrassment as I told her my feelings. Esme looked up into my eyes and smiled.
"You did an absolute amazing job with your wall that I left untouched, the rose was detailed amazingly as with everything going on..." She began to stutter "I thought you may want something to occupy your mind, I remember when Edward didn't have his Bella, he would have nothing to do in the evenings." She smiled at her adopted son with thought. "Don't be offended with what i have done, it will take two hours at the most to fix of you don't want it like this." With that she finally opened my bedroom door.
However it wasn't exactly a bedroom it was completely bare. I walked in the door and stood in the centre I had a door that would lead to the bathroom and the other would lead to the wardrobe. I also saw a patio door that would lead to a balcony. I loved my last one, it was the place that I would sit every night and either think of nothing or drew with my heart. Minutes went by and I couldn't hold my breath any longer. I heard Jacobs heavy heart beat and Renesmee's smaller one like birds wings. This really was my new beginning, I could start again in London and imagine like this was the place I met the Cullen's. I would still remember Seth but that part of my life would need to be forgotten, no not forgotten that sounded horrible maybe just not talked about, this room right now would represent my life at the moment; bare I just had to build it back up, add a little colour and life.
"A blank canvas." I said blankly with no emotion. "A new start." I continued as I span around the room again slowly as I took it all in "new life" I breathed "new beginning," tears began to leak down my face but I couldn't feel them "things forgotten," I shook with tears "but never lost," I sat on the floor in the centre of my room, on the concrete floor and shook with tears. The heart ache of missing Seth just came at full force and I didn't know what to do. I no longer felt angry at the words he said about me being like my mum and I no longer pitied myself about believing his words.
I just missed him, my wolf with the big brown eyes, my boy with a constant smile, my love, my imprint, my soul mate, my universe.
I miss him, I love him but I can't live with him. Ever.
I just had to pick myself up and start again even though I was hurting like I had just been hit with a lorry. I could build my life again just like I was going to draw on my blank canvases.
"This is just what I need," I smiled at my family as they stared in shock and worry.
"I swear you are bipolar," Emmett shock his head at me as he ran his hand down his face. "One moment your quite, the next you don't want to socialise, the next you are laughing, the next your excited and the next you are bawling your eyes out and then two seconds later you are smiling this really weird smile with pain in your eyes. Poor jasper is getting whiplash " Emmett explained in amazement. I laughed as idiot know what else to do.
"I really want to go swimming.' I bounced in excitement at the thought of the heated swimming pool.
The next few minutes went by really quickly as everyone went to their rooms to get their swimsuits on. I picked a green costume up that had a white flowers on, it was pretty cute.
Despite Emmett's early words I was the first one to do a canal ball in the new pool as I got dressed and in the room quickly.
He hissed at me as he came through the door followed by everyone else and nearly jumped on top of me in the water. He grabbed my head and dunked me under a few times but he was conscience of me being able to breath which I was very grateful for.
The next few hours everyone chilled in the water or stayed around the edge of the pool. It was sweet to spend time as a family. I loved it. I loved being a Cullen.
"Jacob keeps checking you out." I whispered to Nessie as we sat on the stool near the concrete bar. We were sitting facing each other so I was able to have one eye on my dad, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett and Jacob playing water polo in the blue pool. Jacob kept looking a Renesmee discreetly and would quickly look away and shake his head each time he would look over her body in her pink bikini. "Don't look," I whispered to her as I saw that she was about to turn her head, she stared wide eyes at me as her cheeks flamed. "Don't look so panicked either,your imprints your meant to be together." I smiled at her as pain surged through my body.
"You and Seth are meant to be together." She told me but after the words came out she slapped her hands over her mouth. "Sorry," she squeaked guilty.
I rolled my eyes at her "come on I say boys against girls in water volleyball." I waved the other girls over who looked ready to kick some vampire boys butt.