"Hi Carlisle and Esme," I greeted them both after I came home from school. I sat opposite them on one of the arm chairs as they both sat close together on the couch; both snuggled up and in love.
"Hi," They both greeted me back with award winning smiles.
"How's art?" Esme asked while playing with her husband's wedding ring on his left hand that was seated on her lap.
"Good," I nodded while trying to distract my thoughts of loving Seth. "Can I borrow a book from your office?" I asked Carlisle, books were normally a great distraction. I normally used art to take my mind away but over the months without Seth I had realized that art failed me for the first time ever.
"Of course, go on up and pick one." He answered gently; I could see that he was reluctant to leave Esme so he let me show my own way up to his private space.
"Thanks," I smiled to them with a little wave as I started to make my way over to the stairs.
"Ella," Carlisle called for me so I took a few steps backwards to stand in front of the happy married couple. "You are happy here aren't you?"
I took in a breath as I thought. I knew that he didn't mean about the place we were living in but about living with the Cullen's and my life right now. I sat back down on the arm chair I was previously on as I pondered my answer.
"You guys are great and I am happy to be with you guys but… I miss him." I sucked in another breath as I felt the tears come. "It feels like I can still feel him with me and I can feel his emotions when I concentrate really hard but then I realize it's just my own feelings replaying again and again. I'm angry at Seth," I started to silently cry as I said his name "I'm angry at him for saying what he said and not fighting to stay but mainly I just really miss him. He's my soul mate and he's not here." I whipped the stray tears that betrayed me with the back of my hands. "I'm going to go and find that book now," I scurried off to Carlisle's office/library with Seth still in my head and I knew he wasn't going to leave until I saw him again.
"Are you sure that she's crazy?" One of the girls asked her group of five friends from opposite the Cullen table in the school canteen. It was Thursday lunch time, two days after I realized that I need Seth but he hated me.
"Maybe she was just trying to seek attention but she realized how bad it was so she's gone back to her normally self," One of the girls answered while looking at me, I quickly averted my eyes and pretended to eat my food.
"But she was definitely crazy who else would laugh at themselves for no reason?" Another girl reasoned with her friend.
"As I said before she's probably an attention seeker." The girl hissed back, obviously she hated me for no reason.
"Maybe she's bio-polar or something?" All of the friends laughed at this but I could feel that they were considering it
"She does look really depressed right now…" A girl frowned and I felt her eyes on me.
"She looks like my mum did but worse when my parents got a divorce, maybe she had to leave her boyfriend in America," With that all five of the girls turned to me and I couldn't help but grimace.
I rested my hands on either side of my head to try and block out the gossip from in the canteen I also squeezed my eyes shut to erase the constant looks I was getting. After not acting crazy but normal for the last two days everyone was wondering what had happened.
An image of Seth lingered in front of my eyes as I closed them; it was the look of hatred and anger that he gave me before he started to shout at me about what I had nearly done.
My eyes shot open and I jumped as I tried to get rid of that image. I shook my head and listened to the Cullen's talk quietly together.
The clearing of someone's throat beside me got everyone's attention and we all turned to the source.
"Hey Ella," The girl greeted me with a big smile while nearly shaking in nervousness.
"Naomi," I greeted her back, it was the girl with the black bob from my art class. I tried really hard to smile but I just couldn't I felt lifeless.
"Hmmm…" She gulped while quickly taking in everyone at the table; she put her fingers through her hair as an act of nerves. "I was wondering well my friends were wondering…" She pointed to a group of both boys and girls at the opposite side of the canteen. They were all looking at me but when they saw me look at them with the rest of my family they quickly turned to each other and tried to act like they weren't watching.
"What do you want to say?" I asked as I began to become inpatient.
"Are you bio-polar, crazy or just an attention seeker?" I blinked at how open she was and the braveness that just surfaced from her.
"I'm neither of those things," I answered but I could tell that she didn't believe me. I turned away from her and stared back at my lunch.
My dad stood up to get a better view of Naomi and started to speak to her "Look, we would appreciate it if you and your friends leave our sister alone at the minute; she's going through a hard time…"
"Is it your real parents Ella as you are adopted right? Or is it a boyfriend?" She cut my dad off and carried on to ask questions.
"Enough!" I shouted and the chatter of the canteen went quiet.
"So it's a boy?" She assumed as she noticed the hurt on my face as she mentioned boyfriend.
I quickly assed the canteen to see that everyone was listening, even the lunch ladies and teachers.
"It's no one's business so butt out already! I am not crazy, I am not bio-polar and I am most definitely not an attention seeker! If I was why would it have anything to do with all of you?" I tuned to everyone who was watching to ask the rhetorical question.
I was replied with awkward silence "She is definitely crazy," I heard a teenage boy snigger to his friends in a whisper and I turned to look at him.
"It was a bet between me and my brothers to see who got called the craziest first and sent to the heads office," I told everyone to clear the air. I really didn't want people to talk about me right now and watch me like vulchers as I constantly thought of Seth. If he was here right now he would be laughing with Jacob at everyone's shocked faces. They really didn't even think of the idea of a bet.
"Ella!" Emmett moaned "Why did you tell them?" He grumbled.
Jacob began to laugh really loudly though "The devil twins win!" He shouted above Emmett who was moaning still however he perked up at what Jacob said.
"We do! We win!" Emmett joined in with Emmett.
I rolled my eyes at the boys with a slight smile on my face. Thankful of everyone now looking at them I managed to sneak out of the canteen and headed to my last class art. There was still ten minutes left of lunch but I knew that Miss Flow didn't mind us coming in early as it meant we would get more work done.
I greeted the teacher and set up my work, in yesterday's lesson we were told our assignment and it was people. I couldn't help but cringe as she told me as I knew that the only person I would be able to create a portrait of was Seth. Yesterday I had managed to get away with not drawing him as I experimented with different techniques and skills but today I knew that I would have to.
"Ella, are you alright?" Miss Flow asked from her desk that was right next to mine. I realised that I had been sitting still for five minutes just staring at the piece of paper and sketching pencil in front of me without moving.
"To be honest no I'm not," I think I shocked her by being truthful she obviously normally got a 'yes' answer. She looked me up and down for any physical injuries.
She stood from her desk and came over to sit on the empty stall next to me "Is there anything I can do to help?"
"No, I just…" I stopped myself from spilling my thoughts about Seth. It wouldn't be good if a human new.
"Do you feel ill?" She asked and I could feel in her emotions that she thought I was.
"Yeah," I mumbled, this was my only way out. Maybe she would send me to the nurse so I could get away from the students stares.
"Come on I'll take you to the nurse," She gently stood up without making too much movement, probably in case it made me feel more ill.
"Okay," I mumbled and walked behind her as we walked through the school to the nurse.
However I didn't expect to see Carlisle and Esme in the school halls as they spoke to the headmaster.
"She seemed very upset at Lunch today," The head whispered to my 'parents'.
All three of them turned around as Miss Flow approached them. "I was taking Ella to the nurse as she is a little under the weather," She told them and they all turned to me as I messed around with my Cullen bracelet.
"Oh hunny," Esme played the motherly role that she fitted so perfectly by stepping towards me. "Is this what we spoke about on Tuesday night?"
I couldn't find the strength to lie so I just nodded my head. "It keeps getting worse," I told her while scrunching my eyes up as I began to feel physically sick.
Esme took another step forward and surrounded me with her arms. That was when I broke down into tears that wouldn't stop.
"Dad," Renesmee called in confusion as all she saw was Carlisle as he, the head and Miss Flow blocked me and Esme from view. I leaned out of the hug and whipped my eyes with the tissue I was handed by someone but the tears still didn't seem to be able to stop.
"What's going on?" Rosalie asked as she joined Nessie, after this the rest of the family appeared around the corner though they still couldn't see me.
"Ah man, is this about the bet? We were just having fun and it's over now anyway because I and Jacob won against Ella!" Emmett boomed in his powerful voice, I heard the thump of Rosalie slapping him gently on the arm to shut up.
"No, this isn't about the bet but we will talk about that when we get home," Carlisle sternly told him.
"Ella, what's the matter?" Alice was the first one to see me out of my siblings and came rushing towards me.
I shook my head as I felt even more ill that I began to shake. I rubbed the back of my hand against my forehead as a headache began to form. "Nothing," I stuttered in hope for everyone to ignore me but the weakness in my voice got everyone to look in worry. People began to pile out of the canteen and stare at our big group all looking at me in worry.
"Why don't we take this somewhere more private?" The head suggested while pointing to his office across the hall.
"No, I'm going to take Ella to the hospital to check her over. We will see you kids at home after school," He made sure to empathise the word 'after' so they didn't leave school early. Esme and Carlisle wrapped their arms around my waist and began to walk me over to the exit but I couldn't help but stumble as the world began to spin upside down.
The married couple stopped as they realized that I was about to throw up. I squeezed my eyes shut to try and make it pass but I knew that I was going to be sick. I scrambled my way towards the toilets at the far end of the hall and managed to hold it in until I opened the toilet seat. Carlisle was right behind me holding my hair back as he checked my forehead.
He stood me up after I finished and flushed the toilet. Esme handed me a bottle of water.
When we excited the toilets the halls were empty except the headmaster who was standing patiently as he waited for us.
"Hope you're feeling better soon Ella," He commented with a gentle smile.
"It's just a sickness bug," Carlisle reassured him although I have never gotten ill in my life and we knew that I couldn't get ill.
"Let's get you home and in bed," Esme rubbed my arm in comfort and began to walk with me to the car. I was still feeling really dizzy and ill. Carlisle stopped me from walking as the head left to go into his office.
"Do you feel like you're going to faint and throw up again?" He asked, eager to know the answer as he went all doctor on me.
"Yeah," I gulped to sickness down with a drink of water from the bottle Seem handed me.
"Mind if I carry you?" He asked and I felt too ill to protest so I let him. "It will be okay sweetheart," He soothed me as he and Esme walked to the car, he placed me lying down in the back seat and in no time I was in bed with Esme cuddling up to me as Carlisle checked me over.
"You're going to hate me for saying this," He spoke as he took off his stethoscope from his ears.
"What?" I asked. I was beginning to feel better compared to early, the dizziness had gone and I was just left with feeling slightly sick.
Carlisle sighed "I'm going to have to take some of your blood,"
I felt my eyes widen at the thought and I began to shake my head in fear. "No, please no, I'm okay really just a little sickness bug like you told the head I'm all good." I felt all my words come out at once in a frantic rush.
"We don't get sick, Ella."
I gulped at his words that were true.
"But I'm fine now, it's gone I just feel a little sick." I reasoned with him.
"But who's to say it won't come back, I need to know the problem so I can prevent it from happening again." He laid his hand on mine to calm me down and I knew he was right.
"Okay," I mumbled and he took the syringe from his pocket. He quickly set it up and it was in my arm with a slight sting before anyone could say doctor.
I hissed at him being so quick and crouched into Seem for protection.
"All done," He took the needle from my arm "I'll be in my office if you need me," He smiled at me, the happiest I have seen him in days. I was glad that having my blood made him so enthusiastic. Maybe not… I thought as I imagined the needle in me.
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