Chapter Thirty-Three
Leah left just after Seth and mumbled a quick sorry to me but I didn't care. I just hurt my mate…
I dropped my still raised hand to my side and cried silently as I kept picturing the red marks. I had hurt my mate. Those words kept rotating through my head on a router.
Everyone except Sam and Emily left in silence, I could sense them saying goodbye to me but I didn't hear them.
"Come on Hun, let's get you a drink." I wobbled slightly as Emily pulled me away so I stopped staring at the door that Seth had left out of. I felt so guilty, why would he want to be with me now? I had hurt him both emotionally and physically.
She poured me a large glass of wine which I drank greedily to get my energy back. It helped.
"I..." I opened my mouth but words didn't come out.
Sam came to sit by me and grabbed my white hand. Our skin colours clashed and were the complete opposite.
"I know what it feels like," Sam nodded while drinking from his own glass full of the red liquid.
"Like you're a failure," I pointed out. "Mates aren't meant to hurt each other, I didn't mean to, I didn't think the spell would hurt him like that." I rubbed my eyes to try to stop the tears.
"I didn't think I could snap at Emily it just happened." Sam admitted in the same mellow tone that I spoke in before.
"I had to stop him from hurting his family," I sniffled.
"I didn't want my mate saying I was like my father." Sam's hand gripped the glass so hard that his knuckles began to whiten.
"Oh my god," we both snapped our heads to Emily who was leaning against one of the kitchen counters while rubbing her expanding stomach "you guys are depressing," she explained while throwing her hands in the air in disbelief.
"I don't care about the scares Sam that was years ago, yes you snapped but we both jumped over that hurdle and got through it. Ella, it's obvious that Seth left not because you hurt him but because he needed to think about what to do with his sister!" Emily through her hands in the air again; she was being a bit too enthusiastic. I blamed it on the pregnancy hormones and I knew what that felt like.
"She's right," I heard Seth say to me from the kitchen door.
"How long have you been there?" I dragged my hands under my eyes to get rid of the tears. He couldn't see me like this.
"Since you gulped down the wine," he sighed and leaned against the door frame while crossing his legs and arms together.
I looked over his body to see that he had put on a pair of jeans and nothing else, I signed in relief as I saw the red marks had gone. I was thankful that because he was a shape shifter he healed quickly, I couldn't bare seeing those marks that I had caused ever again.
"Why didn't you say?" I asked with a sniffle. I hated crying with a passion!
"You never tell me what goes through your head, you still haven't told me about why you stiffen each time I mention children to you. I had to learn somehow." he explained to me with a sigh.
"Sneaky," I mumbled to him. I didn't know whether to be angry or not with him.
"That's why you like me so much," he smirked with a wink.
I just pocked my tongue out in reply.
We were back to normal!
We both staid at Emily and Sam's that night as it was too late to go back to Sues. We cuddled up on the couch as the other bedroom was full of baby stuff. Seth fell asleep instantly and I sneaked out to go for my last hunt in Washington State for a while. I loved this place and the variety of animals.
The long plane journey back to London was uneventful. We didn't talk about Seth leaving home or about Leah.
Seth mainly dozed in and out of sleep while I listened to music and sketched pictures of my visit.
"I can't wait to see London." Seth beamed as I woke him up to eat. I beamed back at him but continued to draw.
"I'm thinking of taking art with you at school." he told me while kissing the top of my head gently, his heart beat racing in my ear. He was still so nervous around me.
"Can you even draw?" I asked unconvinced while biting my lip.
"Nope." he sang while popping a slice of buttered bread on his mouth.
"Then how do you expect to pass?" I laughed at him.
"I have you," he nodded to himself confidently.
"I'm not cheating for you!" I laughed slightly outraged at his plan
He rolled his eyes "I didn't mean it like that, I meant you can teach me," he smiled goofily.
"Can I now?" I asked cheekily, I couldn't believe he assumed I would do it without him asking first. Of course I was going to help him but he didn't know that yet.
"If you can't then I'm screwed as I've already told Jacob to put me in your class. Actually I told him to put me in all of your classes," he told while concentrating on eating.
I really did love this guy and his cheekiness. I sighed and went back to drawing him leaning against Emily's door frame with his arms and ankles crossed. I loved the way his shirt rode up so I could see a slight bit of this tanned and toned flesh.
The rest of the flight we spent joking about and organizing weekends with Jacob and Nessie. Next Saturday we are going to go and see the sights, I was really excited.
We landed with ease, Seth nearly crapped his pants as we hit the runway, as he wasn't keen on flying. I wasn't very sympathetic to be honest as I kept laughing my ass off at him and pulled the scared faces that he created while on bored.
He grumbled as he showed his passport to border control.
"Sorry for laughing at you," I whispered in his ear as I wrapped my arms around his muscly frame as we both waited for our suitcases to come.
I felt his smile as he leant his head in my hair and mumbled a "S'okay" at me. He told me to stay as he went to lift out suitcases off of the conveyor belt and I was very happy with it as I saw his muscles clench and his shirt ride up again. I wasn't the only woman happy with the sight. I stalked him and wrapped my arms around his neck to give him a kiss to warn off other females. I really didn't know how I was going to cope with him in high school with hormonal teenagers. I felt jealousy and nerves flutter inside me.
"I'm yours," he breathed in my ear loud enough for people close by to hear. I knew that he knew why I was wrapping myself around him.
"Let's go then doggy," I sexily smirked while swaying my hips as I pulled my suitcase along with me. I heard him gulp behind me and quickly rush after me.
"As you wish long legs," I was too busy laughing at his response that I walked straight past my family standing there waiting for us. I didn't know they were coming in my defence.
Nessie was first to charge at me and grip me in a hug and she was soon followed by a very eager pixie that is known as Alice. I pulled back from them in time as my Dad pulled me in.
"I've missed you," he made me choke up as I realized I had actually missed everyone.
"Don't make me cry," I pushed him back playfully as I sniffled.
Seth came behind me and held me into his body for comfort.
Alice was busy taking pictures already. I just left her as I knew it was a battle that she would win.
I greeted Carlisle and Esme with more tears that were threatening to fall. However one sly comment from Edward about what I was thinking held them back as I stuck my tongue at him.
"No annoying my girl." Seth pointed to Edward with daggers; I knew that half of him was joking while the other was dead serious. I swooned at the 'my girl' and everyone noticed and laughed.
"That blush is just too cute," Emmet wrestled me in a bear hug and managed to pinch my rosy red cheeks.
"Well I thought I missed you guys but you know, things change. Coming back to La Push Seth?" I joked.
He timidly shock his head and I stood there in shock, he hadn't denied me yet. "Your family means a lot to you so suck it up,"
"Did my mate just tell me to shuck it up?" I asked Nessie for clarification.
"I think so," she whistled in fake shock also.
"Let's go," I nodded to Nessie while linking our arms together as I left Seth to pull my suitcase along.
"Ella," I heard Seth sulk and my family laugh.
"How's life treating you my little cousin?" I asked in a posh English accent as we stood outside the Cullen minivan, waiting for someone to open the doors. I might as well start talking the part now as I lived in London.
"Good, me and Jacob went on our first date!" she gushed to me with a squeak.
"That's amazing!" I gushed enthusiastically back.
"We went on a picnic in the park, it was so romantic and look..." she shoved a necklace in my face that was attached to her neck "he got me this as a gift, I can't stop looking at it." it was silver with a green stone that matched her bronze locks.
"He did well." I smiled largely at her. I was so happy for her.
She grabbed me in for a hug before we both jumped in the back of the minivan as Carlisle opened it up.
"Ella," Seth continued to sulk as I sat next to Nessie and left him in a seat in front of me.
Half way through the journey I gently unbuckled my belt and reached for his hand between the gaps in the chair. He gave my hand a gentle squeeze. "If you really want to go back..." he started but I cut him off.
"I was only joking," I laughed
"I figured that out long legs," he said and I sensed him rolling his eyes. "but if you do want to go back we can," he admitted while also taking off his seat belt and carefully climbing over the chairs so he was next to me. Jacob grumbled as he hit him in the face with his foot. Emmett wolf whistled.
He picked me up and I let out a scream in shock just before he set us down on my seat with me on his lap, he kissed the back of my neck in apology to making me jump.
"Do you want to go back?" he asked serious.
"No," I shuck my head "I loved it there but I finally found my family after one hundred years, I want and need to..."
"I understand and it's the main reason to why I came back with you," he nodded his head.
"You lied!" I swatted his hands that were around my waist gently so he let go. He did automatically so I could turn around to face him in the eye and place my legs either side of his own legs.
"No I didn't, I really do want a different scenery but the main reason was making you happy." How could I be angry at that?
"Stupid," I mumbled against his lips while giving him a kiss "doggy," I said with another kiss.
He chuckled at my feather like kisses as I kissed down his chin and neck. A moan from him though made Nessie squirm.
"Okay guys, innocent eyes sitting next to you." Renesmee pushed me so I ended up falling off of Seth's lap and on the floor. He zoomed to pick me off the floor and placed me back on his lap.
I was confused for a minute to why he reacted so quickly until I felt something hard on my bottom. I chuckled.
"Stop moving," he growled at me in annoyance.
"Seth back in your seat." Edward snapped and I realized that Renesmee was blushing bright red though she didn't have a clue how hot and bothered Seth was.
Seth reluctantly climbed up while trying to shift his pants around.
It didn't take long for Jacob and Emmett to notice.
"Dude are you...?" Jacob laughed.
"Don't even say it." Seth growled in embarrassment as his tanned skin turned a slight pink underneath.
"You fell HARD for my niece," Emmett joked and I couldn't help but burst out laughing with everyone else.
"Don't give him that much of a HARD time," Jacob replied while tapping Seth on the shoulder in fake comfort.
The rest of the journey was silent after Carlisle called us to leave Seth alone who was bright red from embarrassment.
'All I did was kiss you on the neck xxx' I sent Seth the text and I heard his phone beep. I saw Edward shake his head at me with a slight smile on his lips, everyone else was oblivious.
'I've wanted you ever since I first saw you in that towel xxx' he sent back and my heart fluttered at the thought of him wanting me like that.
'But you're so nervous? xxx' I stated while asking for an explanation at the same time.
'because I don't know if I'm good at that sort of stuff, your experienced and probably want more than what I can give xxx' I felt sickness rise in my throat as I thought of another man touching me that wasn't my boy with the big brown eyes.
'You think you're not good enough for me physically?' I quickly typed back to him, needing to know the answer but he didn't reply and kept staring at the rain forming on the car windows.
"Answer me Seth," I demanded him and it made everyone look at us but I didn't care. This was an important part of our relationship.
He didn't turn to look at me and just said "I know I'm not,"
"But..."
"Just leave it long legs, I'll tell you when you tell me what I asked on the first morning at my mums," he told me, not harshly but I knew he meant it so I left it.
I closed my eyes after that just so I could try and get some quiet and think if I could tell him about having children. I didn't get his theory as we needed to have sex before we could have children.
When the minivan stopped in the Cullen driveway I and Seth was back smiling and laughing with everyone else.
Esme showed us up to his room that she had decorated while we were gone.
The walls were cream, with dark brown furnishings. It was a man's room with the games consoles, DVDs and the flat screen TV. He loved it and so did I as his room was right next to mine.
"Wow you live in an empty room," Seth whistled as I showed him my room. I shoved him for taking the piss and he laughed.
"I have to decorate it; I just couldn't before I left." I admitted with a gulp as I thought about my feelings then. I didn't want to go back to that ever again.
He looked at me in confusion and I went into my wardrobe to show him the thousands of paintings and sketches I had done of him while he was gone "All I could create was you," I explained. "No matter how hard I tried it was always you that I created on canvas."
"All I could think of was you to," He admitted to me and grabbed me in a hug. "I love you Ella, have done for a while."
"I love you to Seth, have done for a while." I copied what he said but I was being completely honest with myself and him.
I really did love Seth Clearwater.
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