Okay time for a bit more Elliot and Olivia time. Im glad a lot of you think the same way about Cassidy as I do LOL. However I don't think we have seen the last of him in this story yet.

Chapter 5

Olivia turned over and let her arm with the cast on fall heavily towards the bed. As it landed with a thud she heard a groan.

"Fuck Liv, again," groaned Elliot as he lifted her cast off his face.

"Sorry," she said unable to hide her smile.

"That's like four times now and we have only been in bed 5 hours."

"I can't help it; I've never had a cast on before." She told him as she shuffled around in the bed to lie on her side and face him. "It takes a bit of getting used to."

He opened his eyes and stared at her. "Well if whacking me in the face with your cast makes you smile then I don't mind," he told her. They lay silently looking at each other for a while, Elliot never let his eyes leave her, even with all the cuts and bruises she was so beautiful.

"I really should have called you Liv, I picked the phone up so many times, but just couldn't call the number, I even drove to your apartment and just sat outside, if I had only rang or gone to your door this might never have happened."

"Don't okay. We can't ever know what might have happened. Yes I was pissed when you just left and I went through every emotion. I hated you one minute, missed and needed you the next, cried because I felt so alone. But you not calling isn't why Lewis took me. So I don't want to hear you blaming yourself." She took his hand and held it tight. "You're here now and that's all I care about."

Elliot raised her hand to his mouth and kissed it softly. "I wasn't this forgiving when you left for Oregon, I made your life hell when you got back," he said to her.

"Yeah well your moody, stubborn and childish," she smiled. Elliot smiled back then went all serious again.

"We need to talk about what happened yesterday, and what you said when the questioned you."

Olivia sighed, she knew they had to talk about it but she didn't want to. "I told them I over powered him, he came towards me and I shot him in the leg. I then said he managed to grab the gun we fought I got the gun from him and as he came towards me I fired again, they seemed happy with that." Elliot nodded but still looked worried.

"Liv we both know I am all over that house, all over….him," he said not wanting to say Lewis's name. "Once Warner does her autopsy she is going to find traces of me and as soon as she runs it my DNA is going to show up."

"Maybe she won't, I mean what reason would she have to look for anyone else?"

"Liv, I tortured him, I pushed his head under water, kicked and punched him, stamped on his leg. I put salt into his leg wound. She is good at her job, she is going to realise a lot more happened."

"So what, after what he did he deserved everything he got, "she said. "I won't lose you again because of him."

Elliot looked away from her as he spoke "Liv….. What did he do to you?" he asked her. "I mean I know he hurt you and put you through hell, but you never told me what he actually done. When I got to the house you were knocked out."

Olivia bit her lip and shook her head as she thought back over the last few days. Elliot looked at her and stroked the side of her face "Hey you know what it doesn't matter," he told her. "I will be here when you want to talk, you don't need to tell me anything till you're ready," he said noticing how upset she was getting.

"No…. I want to tell you," she said taking a deep breath. "He was waiting for me when I got home. I just froze when he put the gun to my head… I didn't even reach for mine. He knocked me out and when I came around I was tied to a chair…. He…. He forced vodka down my throat and some tablets. I remember he was smoking and every time he finished he put them out on me, he would even light one just to put it out."

"Jesus Liv," he said taking her hand and kissing it. Olivia pulled her hand away and wiped the tears.

"I passed out after he gave me more vodka. He woke me up by slapping and punching me. I remember my phone ringing it was Brian but it went straight to answer phone."

Elliot sat up "He should have come to check on you, why didn't he check on you or come home."

"He was working El, I had been sent home by Cragen and told to take a few days off, and he probably thought I was sleeping. And he didn't come home because he doesn't live with Me. I have only ever given one man the key to my apartment." she said sitting up with him.

"He doesn't even have a key?" asked Elliot a little surprised.

"No, someone left but didn't think of returning my key, so please don't go blaming him; nobody was to blame for this but Lewis."

Elliot nodded but he was still pissed no one had checked up on her. "What else do you remember?"

"It's all a little blurry. I remember being in the trunk of a car, every time he came to check on me he would force more vodka into me so I would pass out. He took me to a house where he forced me to ….to….." she stopped and her body began to shake.

"Hey it's okay," said Elliot wrapping his arm around her "Your safe now."

She sniffed and wiped her nose before continuing "He made me watch as he killed a man and raped his wife, he kept telling me I was next. I couldn't do anything El, I couldn't help her. I tried to look away but he said if I didn't watch he would hurt her even more."

Elliot leant back against the back of the bed and pulled her to him holding her tight to him as she cried her body shaking. "Ssshh its okay Baby, I'm sorry I asked you, you don't need to tell me anymore. God I shouldn't have asked you," he said kissing the top of her head.

"It's okay," she sobbed. "I can't remember a lot of the stuff because I was drunk from the vodka and tablets. When he got me to the house and cuffed me to the bed, I thought that was it. I knew I didn't have long left. I started thinking about my life and all the things that had happened, and things I hadn't done yet. I tried to focus on the good things…. I thought of you. The thought of never seeing you again, of dying in that room gave me the strength to break free. I knocked him out with the metal bar from the bed and cuffed him, and that's when I called you."

"I'm glad you did," he said.

"Well I'm not…."

"Liv?"

"I called you knowing you would come and hurt and him. I wanted him to suffer and I knew you would make him. And now I might lose you because of that, I shouldn't have called you, I should of just called Cragen or Nick to come for me. But no I had to be selfish, I had to get revenge and because I was too weak to do it myself I called you." she pulled away from him and sat on the edge of the bed with her back to him.

"Liv, you're not selfish and you're not weak. I'm glad you called me….."

"But now I might lose you all over again. If they find the evidence to prove you were there with me you could be arrested, I….. I couldn't live with that, I just couldn't.

"Hey, hey calm down," he said pulling her towards him as she started to panic, he wrapped his arms around her and held her. "We don't do anything unless they come to us, and if they do, then we tell the truth."

"No," she said shaking her head. "I won't have you taking the blame for what happened…"

"Liv, I would do it all again, if it meant helping you, I don't care what they do to me."

"Well I do," she said tears streaming down her face. "Please El we can't tell them the truth."

"Sweetheart, if Warner does her job properly and CSU do theirs they are going to know I was there," he wiped her tears from her face and running his fingers through her hair. "But until that happens we keep quiet and hope they don't find anything," he told her as he dropped his forehead to hers. "Now stop crying okay, I'm here now and not going anywhere, well not if I can help it." He felt Olivia nod against him and sniff.

"Okay," she said quietly.

He put his fingers under her chin and lifted her head up "Liv," he said looking her in the eyes. "I don't regret anything that has happened in the last the 24 hours, no matter what happens…. Hey we have been in trouble in the past and got through it, we will get through this."

He lent forward and kissed her on the forehead "how about I get up and make us some coffee?"

"Not yet," she said putting her head on his chest and wrapping her arm around his waist. She had never felt so safe and secure as she did right now, lying here with him. She listened to the steady beat of his heart to relax her.

"Just let me know when you're ready to move," he told her wrapping his arms around her. They lay together in silence.

"If someone had told me a week ago I would be lying here with you, in your arms, in your bed, I would have said they were crazy," said Olivia.

"I know what you mean this, the two of us in bed together normally only happens in my dreams," said Elliot quietly, speaking before he thought about what he was saying. Olivia lifted her head from his chest and looked up at him. She saw he was blushing from what he had said.

"What did you say?" she asked pretending she hadn't heard him.

"Erm nothing…."he said getting all flustered. "I'm gonna make the coffee," he said unwrapping his arms from around her and climbing out the bed. "Do you want some breakfast?" he asked not looking at her.

"Sure, just toast would be good." She told him sitting up and resting against the back of the bed. "And El," she said as he reached the door. "It was normally just in my dreams as well."

Elliot smiled at what she said "Yeah," he said without facing her.

"Yeah…. Now go make the coffee," she told him. "I'm gonna check my dressings."

Warner shook her head as she looked at the dead body of Lewis. "This can't be right," she said to herself. "What the hell went on in there Olivia?" she asked out loud "what did you not tell us."

Elliot put the coffee machine on and stood resting against the bench. The more he thought about what he had just said the angrier he got with himself. She didn't need this, she was with Cassidy, she must have been happy with him before all this happened. She didn't need to know he dreamt about being in bed with her. "What the hell is wrong with you," he thought to himself.

"God Stabler, you're such a fuck up," he said banging his head against the cupboard.

"No you're not," said Olivia from behind him. She was standing just behind him as he turned around to face her.

"I shouldn't have said what I did, about dreaming about being in bed with you, I'm sorry. You didn't need to hear that."

"Why shouldn't you have said it?"

"Liv you have been through so much the last week, you didn't need me ….. You have Cassidy now; I shouldn't have said what I did. Maybe Cassidy was right he should be the one with you not me. "

"Your wrong," she said walking towards him. "When I thought I was going to…..when Lewis had me tied up and was hurting me, it was you I thought of to keep me going. It was you I wanted, it was your face I seen, and it was you I called. Not Cassidy, You." she stood in front of him and rested her hands on his side.

"But, if none of this had happened you would be with Cassidy now….He was right, I always fuck up your relationships, by being a prick. I mean just look at Porter and every other guy you dated. I had no right to act like I did, I was selfish…. You should call Cassidy and have him come for you, you should be with him," he told her.

"And what spend the full time wishing he was you," she said reaching up with her good hand and cupping his face. "It's always been you El, why do you think it was you I called. Why do think none of my other relationships ever worked out."

"Cassidy was working out though, before all this."

"No, he was just there at a time when I needed something, someone, but there was always something missing between us" she told him.

"Liv you're not thinking straight, you have been through so much." He couldn't believe he was saying this. "You need to go back to Cassidy, he loves you, he won't hurt you, he is good for you."

"Don't!" she snapped. "Don't do that, don't try and tell me I can't think for myself. I know what the hell I'm saying; I know what I want and what I'm thinking. It's the same thing I have wanted for years since Gitano put that gun to your head, but I couldn't say it then, I couldn't tell you and I ran instead. Well I'm not running anymore," she yelled at him.

Elliot just stood and looked at her as she paced around in front of him.

"I thought I was going to die when Lewis had me and all I could think of was you, how I might never see you again, and that scared me more than Lewis….. When he pointed the gun at you …"

"Liv," said Elliot reaching out for her, but she moved away from him.

"So don't you stand there and tell me I don't know what I'm thinking, I know exactly what I'm thinking, it's the same thing I have been thinking for years but was too scared to say…."

Before she could finish what she was saying Elliot spun her round to face him and put his hands either side of her face, "Just….. Shut up," he told her, before she felt his lips on hers, soft and gentle pressing against hers. "I love you to," he whispered as his lips left hers. Olivia sniffed and wiped her tears away.

"I never said I loved you," she said to him.

"Yeah I know you didn't, but I know what you're thinking," he smiled at her.

Olivia laughed and shook her head "You can be such a prick at times."

"Yeah I know," he said as he kissed her again, and felt her smile against his lips. The kiss was soft but urgent, as he didn't want to hurt her as her lips were split and cut from Lewis punching and kicking her. He pulled back and dropped his head to hers, slightly out of breath.

"You okay?" he asked her.

"Feeling better every second," she told him. "I think another kiss may help."

"Well I wouldn't want to stop your recovery," he smirked as his lips met hers again and he wrapped his arms around her. As her lips parted she felt his tongue seeking out hers, she moaned into his mouth as this kiss became more passionate. Despite everything she had been through the last week she felt herself becoming more and more aroused the longer the kiss went on. His lips left hers and she was about to complain until she felt them moving slowly and ever so gently over her jaw and down to her neck. He kissed and sucked her neck as she tilted her head back to give him better access.

"God that feels so good," she mumbled. She felt his lips form a smile against her neck.

"You taste so good…. The amount of hours I have spent sitting across from you wondering what you would taste like. If Cragen could have read my thoughts I would have been arrested," he laughed.

"God you don't even know what I was thinking about, when I used to look at you."

Elliot lifted her up and sat her on the stool next to the breakfast bar and stood between her legs.

"Liv as much as I love what has just happened and as much as I want you…..what about Cassidy?"

"I think deep down he knows, but I will meet him and explain everything. I can't help how I feel Elliot. It's not like these feelings just appeared they have been here for years and I got with Brian hoping they would disappear….. But they didn't. Even if this hadn't happened I would have ended it with him, I wasn't being fair to him."

"You know he isn't going to take this well, he didn't take it very well 13 years ago when you slept with him once."

"I know but it needs to be done, I care for him but I don't love him, I never have."

Cragen looked up from his paperwork when he heard a knock on his door.

"What can I do for you Melinda?" he asked her.

"We have a problem," she told him.

Cragen looked at her "With what?" he asked pointing to the chair in front of his desk for her to take a seat.

Melinda closed the door to his office and sat down. "I have been working all night doing the autopsy on Lewis and processing Olivia's rape kit and the evidence we collected from the scene."

"Please don't tell me you found something in the rape kit" he said.

"No the rape kit proves he never penetrated Olivia, semen was only found on the outside of her which proves he ejaculated over her as I first thought."

Cragen nodded "So the problem is with the other evidence?"

Melinda nodded. "I have found a few strange things which don't seem to fit from what I know happened," she said.

"Like what?"

"Well first I found salt in the gunshot wound, not just a small amount but a lot and only in the wound," she told him. Cragen just looked at her as she spoke. "I also found the bone just above the gunshot wound was broken, I found bruising that looked like a foot print as though someone had stamped on the leg and then shot him in the leg afterwards."

"Olivia never mentioned stamping him," said Cragen.

"I don't think it was Olivia that done it, the bruise mark was way too big to be Olivia."

"What the hell… " he said rubbing his hand across his forehead.

"I also analysed the swabs I took from around the various wounds and cuts on Lewis's body and the blood on Olivia…. I found someone else's DNA."

"What do you mean, someone else's DNA?"

"I found small bits of skin caught in Lewis teeth probably from when he was hit in the face. The DNA matched the blood I found on Olivia."

"So someone else was there, why would Olivia not mention this…. unless she was out cold when they were around…. we need to get a match on that DNA."

"I already have, I ran it through the system."

"So the guy had a record?"

"Not exactly, that's why I'm here….. The DNA was a perfect match to Elliot Stabler."

Cragen just looked at Melinda "Jesus Christ," he cursed. "What the hell did they do?"

Uh Ohh, bloody DNA gets everywhere, what will happen now. Next chapter shouldn't be to long. Going to update my other story Don't Leave first before I update this story. But both should be done and up for the end of the weekend, as I have nothing on. Don't forget to leave those kind words.