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Renesmee P.O.V.
E.J walked out of the kitchen, sandwich and milk in hand. I could tell he blamed me for eveything concerning Elizabeth's safety. Looking around the kitchen I saw that everyone was staring at his toddler body move away from us.
I understand she's the most vulnerable of the Cullen family, I understand that she's literally the baby, I understand all that, but what I don't understand is why Daddy wants to send her away.
Everyone thrives off of her giggles, even I do. Everytime she gets a kiss or a hug from someone, I get jealous because the family seldom hugs me anymore, besides Mom, Dad and Rosalie. That doesn't mean I want her away though.
I don't really talk to anyone beside Mom, Dad or Rosalie. It feels like everyone has their favorite child and I'm not one of them. The guys simply adore E.J because he's a boy, I get that. Elizabeth, why? Is it because she'll need to be cared for longer? It doesn't seem fair to me.
Maybe I just need to hang out with everyone, see what they like and make myself love the same things.
"Nessie, are you alright?"
Starled, I saw Jasper looking at me, his face concerned.
Taking a deep breath I answered, "Uh-huh. Yes, Jasper. I-I'm going to be outside, playing." Like he would care what I'd be doing outside.
By now, our conversation had captured everyone's attention, "Do you want me to join you, Ness?"
I shook my head at Emmett, "No, I want to be alone. Thanks anyway," I mumbled, jumping off of Rosalie's lap.
"If your sure," I heard him reply. I just nodded slightly. My shoulders were hunched and I was speed-walking towards the door. They started whispering, but I didn't even bother to try and listen.
I sat on the porch, it was raining so I couldn't very much go into the dirt and play with a soccer-ball or something. Then I started thinking, my body is already immune to any disease, I'm partly vampire so I doubt I'll get get sick, right?
"Whatever," I muttered and stood in the rain. The coldness of the droplets, didn't bother me- they actually felt kind of nice.
Lifting my arms, I lifted my face towards the sky and smiled. I loved the rain, even though I'd very much like the sun to shine.
Maybe I could just go to Victoria and ask her not to do anything to the Cullens. Yeah, like she'd listen to me, a vampire hybrid that looks like a three year old, but is really almost eight months old.
My thoughts continued like that, I could've been there for hours, until Grandpa Charlie's voice rang loudly from inside. "Where's Nessie?"
I then realized what I was doing was completely stupid. Shaking my head I made my way inside the warmth of the house. I made my way into the living room.
"Grampa Chawlie!" I squealed, hugging his leg. Internally I was sneering in disgust, if he was in on the secret I wouldn't have to talk to him like an idiot.
He bent down to pick me up, "Hello, Ness. How's it going? You've been good kid to your parents?"
No, "Yeah! An-An-An I'm fweel gwood," I answered.
He frowned, "Why're you all wet?" I froze. Fast, think of something fast, Ness. Uh-Oh.
"I waz pwaying outswide," I stuttered.
He sighed and in a booming voice asked, "Who's taking care of the children? They shouldn't be outside, specially with the rain poundin' so cold out there!"
Instantly, I felt guilty when Momma came downstairs and mumbled, "I was, but I guess I got a bit distracted..."
"Bells, you should know better. Kids could get picked off by a passing hiker, or a mountain lion or something- never to be seen again. Don't worry too much, Lizzy's fine and well. She just needed a day with Grandpa Charlie is all."
"Gwampa, wanna go wead me a stowy? You can pick Wapunzal or Cindewella," I squealed.
He laughed loudly, "Sorry, Ness. I've got to get to work, I'm everyone's boss remember?"
I nodded and kissed his cheek, "Down, down!"
He put me on my feet, I gave him one last hug, running at a human pace to the stairs I yelled, "Bye, bye Chawlie!"
"She's a sweetheart, Bella. Wonder if Elizabeth will take after her," he mused.
Mom answered softly,"If we can still keep her. Dad, money's getting tight. Hard to believe, I know- but with college and taxes things are piling up, Carlisle's paying everything."
"Bella, if you need help with money. You know I am always happy to help," his voice wavered at the end.
She immedietely answered, "No, no no. Dad that money is going towards your retire ment saving. W-We'll manage, somehow."
"Y-Your not putting the kids up for...adoption are you?"
"Not..all of them," was her simple answer. I gasped, Who's she going to give away? Is she stupid? Family is family no matter what!
Grandpa answered in an angry voice, "I'll take that child, or all of them. I don't care, Bella. They are family. How could you even consider that option? Does Renee know you were even pregnant?"
"Well, no. I haven't told her at all, I don't think it'd be appropriate to tell her that I did almost exactly the same she did in high school," she mutterd.
"For God's sake, Bella! She's your mother! I know for a fact taht she would love to be a grandmother, no matter if your only nineteen. She's be delighted!" he blanched.
Oh man, should I get Dad? Everyone is out hunting though and Grandpa Carlisle is at work with Grandma Esme.
"I-I... I don't know what to do! It's not like if I tell Mom that she's a grandmother to three children and that I'm having trouble with them she'll keep one of them!" Mom said, in a hard voice.
Charlie's answer made my blood run cold, "She might not, but I would."
"Your serious? Like full out, adopt Elizabeth and treat her as your own daughter?" she screeched.
"Of course, she's already got my blood, what difference would it be if I called her my daughter instead of grandaughter?"
"If your sure, then.. I'll talk to the rest of the family about it."
I could hear my mother slump down to the floor and sob quietly. I'm guessing Charlie put a hand on her shoulder, because that's what I would imagine him doing, and tried to comfort her a little.
"She'd have a good life, Bells. Not the best in the world, but close enough. I'm starting to spend a lot more time at home, since my age is getting in the way of work."
I didn't hear Mom say anything. She must've nodded.
"Bells, I-I was meaning to tell you before this adoption talk, that I'm gonna be moving to France for a while. A couple of years really, maybe ten. I'd have to take Elizabeth with me."
Mom sobbed a little louder, "Why can't you stay in Forks? Your home for your entire life. Why do you have to go all the way to France!"
"I was born there, Bella. I need to get back to my roots, inside I'm a French man who hasn't seen his mother in twenty years, that's no way to treat her; the woman who gave me life."
"I understand, Dad. Thanks for letting me know. I'll tell Edward about your adopting suggestion and in a few weeks you'll be father to two daughters, instead of one."
"I love you, Bella. In my opinion it's better this way. At least her new parent won't a be stranger." Charlie said, probably trying to soften a blow that would never heal.
Momma sighed and said, "At least that. Thanks, Dad. And I love you, too."
Tears pricked my eyes and I ran upstairs, to E.J who was staring blankly at the wall. I stood there, quietly still soaking wet from the rain. I doubt we'd ever feel good again.
"It's over. She's leaving us." was all he said, before standing up and walking to the door. Before he left he looked back at me and said, "We'll be okay without here, anyway. She'll have a great life, too. You never know, we might see her face again someday.
Bella P.O.V (when Nessie was outside in the rain)
The family decided that Elizabeth would go up for adoption. I agreed, on a tiny level. She'd be safer, but I wanted to be the parent to raise her, see what kind of woman she turned out to be.
"So it's settled. Lizzy's gonna be in someone else's home very soon," Alice said, her face scrunching up in disgust. I took a deep breath and sighed. Edward put his hand on my shoulder, as did Rosalie.
"It's for the best, Bella. She would'nt have been happy in a house of vampire while she was the only human. She'd probaby be confused," Rosalie whispered. It broke her heart, I could tell.
Mine was twice as broken as everyone's. It hurt even more than when Edward left, more than when my parent's got divorced, more than anything in the world.
I was digging my own grave. I'd tried to think of a plan, to run away with Lizzy, but Victoria was after me and she wouldn't spare me even is sshe knew I was a mother.
"Fine." I growled, standing up. Jacob looked broken, he loved Elizabeth like a little sister and was looking forward to seeing her grow up.
I went upstairs and took comfort in E.J, I'm sure Rosalie was with Renesmee. My son wasn't very happy with anything at the moment, he'd gone upstairs long ago after Jacob came.
"I hate everyone downstairs," he hissed, fisting his hands. He unlike Renesmee and Elizabeth, looked like a five year old- maybe because he was a boy, but he definitely looked older.
I kissed his temple, "For now, I do too. They are family, though. We love family no matter what. We say we hate them today, but in a while we'll love them again. Even now, we love them and are jsut disappointed with everyone," I said, trying to sound soothing.
He sighed into my chest and wrapped his small arms around me, "I'm going to miss her, momma. Does Nessie, know?"
My chest tightened, "I'm sure, Rosalie's telling her right now."
E.J gave out a low growl that sounded strange coming from him; a child, "I hate her. It's all Renesmee's fault."
Shaking my head, I held him tighter, "No, baby, no. You've got your judgement mixed up, forgive her Edward Jacob. She's your sister and she loves you dearly."
He let out a small choked sob, "Still."
I just sighed and held him, close to my heart. Esme knocked on the door, I could tell it was her because she'd been the only person wearing heels today.
"Bella, the family's going to fetch dinner, would you like one of us to stay with you and the children?" she called, from the other side of the door.
"No, Esme. I'll be fine, Charlie's coming over late with L-Lizzy anyway." I sobbed out, silently.
I heard her sigh and say, "We'll be home soon, stay tight. Goodbye, loves."
"Bye." I whispered, E.J didn't even glance up.
After about thirty minutes or so, I heard Charlie knock on the door, his loud footsteps pounding on the gravel.
I put E.J to bed and zoomed downstair, there standing on the porch was my little girl and my father. I hugged Charlie and said I'd be back down as soon as I pout Elizabeth to bed.
"Alirght, Bells. She's been a jpy and didn't take a nap, just wanted to stay up and read the paper with me!" he laughed. \
I chuckled myself and took her upstairs, "Did you feed her?" I asked, before I took a step onto the first stair.
"Yes, I did actually. The little monster downed the whole bottle in less than ten minutes!"
I laughed, "Monster?"
"She growled or well tried to every three seconds for more milk. She should start crawling soon." he told me.
"She's growing, too fast." I mumbled.
Charlie shook his head and smiled, "Happens with every kid in the world, happened to you too. Renee and I thought you were too big as an eigth month old, when you were actually just growing into a small toddler."
"I wish she could stay this way forever, with me." I sighed and put Elizabeth to bed.
She mumbled something and snuggled into her gigantic white teddy bear Emmett gave her for Christmas. (Q-N; Their Christmas was before Nessie went into the forest & got caught by Icky-Vicky.)
"Mmmbrrrr..."
I smiled widely, I'm going to miss that. The rain punded harder onto the ground, all around in this rainy place, I've learned to call home and will hopefullly become home for all my children.
Q-N mean Quick-Note. So, yeah... I'm not sure about this chapter. I'm might rewrite it, if you guys don't like it. /: