Waaaaah~~! It's been a while since my last update~~!
Sorry guys ^^' writers block has hit me so… teehee~ anyway!
Here's Chapter 5 guys! I realize that I never made a P.O.V of gray, so….. Here it goes!

Gray's P.O.V

"I want to forget….! I want to forget these feelings…!" Lucy said as she continues to cry. I followed her when she runs out of the cafeteria, because I think she seems different. And when I arrived she is already sobbing and saying something. I tried to approach her but she suddenly said something.

"Whatever happens, he will not recognize me…. My parents were right… I'll only hurt myself…" she said that while still crying. Then suddenly, I notice how lonely her eyes were… it's lonely, yet so beautiful… it's so touching… I admit that she has put me into daze.

I blink once, then twice until I realize what I have said. 'What the heck am I thinking?! Lucy is a friend! Why am I so dazed by that?! Something's wrong with me today….'I said to myself while blushing.

As I go near to the crying Lucy; I know it's wrong but, I can't help to admire her. She's crying beautifully, it somewhat makes my heart a beat. *throb*

"eh…?" I said as I realize that my face is slightly blushing. 'Wait! What was that 'throb' for?! I definitely need to go, and take a rest after school!'

As I approach Lucy, She is saying something I don't quite understand but, when I finally got near her, it hurts me when I saw how much pain she's having right now. "Lucy…" I called her name. She looked at me with shock, "what are you doing here… gray…?" she asked. I scratch my head and said "I-I didn't mean to pry but, your acting weird so I decided to follow you… uhh… erm… why are you crying?" I asked.. "…" she didn't answer me. As her bangs hides her eyes, I still can feel that right now those brown eyes of hers is somewhat suffering something.

'It's my first time seeing her like this; Lucy is always smiling but, now I can only see tears and sadness in her eyes. Is she always feeling like this…? Under that smile of hers is a bunch of tears…yet despite all that… I didn't notice anything…'

"u-umm… I-it's okay if you don't want to tell me, it's just…your always there for me. So tell me if I could do something-"I didn't finish what I was saying because she suddenly said something.
"NO! I can't even do something then what can you do?!-"she stopped and silence filled the air.
"I-I'm s-so S-sorry…. I-it's just….. I don't know what to do….sorry... Gray…" she said
'Lucy… It's the first time I saw her get mad…"
"Lucy…" I whisper loud enough for her to hear it.

I realize something, that there is someone watching us. But when I looked at our back he's not there anymore. 'Well, that's weird… I was so sure that someone is watching us though… forget it… more importantly…'

"Lucy. I'd like to ask something."

Jellal's P.O.V

I was shock when I heard the news from my mom.
"Jellal, we'd like to talk with you." my mother said to me. I was curious of what is it about so I followed her obediently (normally I wouldn't do that, I never listen to them. It's their fault I can't be with Erza.)
We proceed to the living room were my father awaits me.
"Hmm…. I see, you didn't go to school again, huh? It's been 3 days already! What is your problem, Jellal?!" he shouted at me. I sighed and then faced him and said, "haaa…. Is that all? I took all the trouble to go here and you'll just say that? I'm gonna go. You're wasting my time." I sighed. When I was about to leave our leaving room, my mom stopped me.

"Jellal! Where are your manners?! Your talking to your dad right now! At least respect him." My mom said. I faced them and said "'Respect'? Sorry but I don't know that word anymore, I wonder why." I replied. "Jellal….-". "Oh! I remember now! It's because of you and your selfish reasons, right?"I smile but behind that smile, they can see the hatred in my eyes. "…" they didn't reply especially my father. I let out a smile "heh." Then turn around. But my father spoke. "Jellal. We'd like to talk to you… about something serious." At that time I saw my father's serious face. I saw how serious it was so I stayed and listened whit my back facing them. Didn't turn to face them and then said "what is it about?"
"It's about your fiancé." when my dad said it I suddenly turn around and faced them; my eyes slightly widen in shock but I tried to keep my cool so I said, "fiancé? Ha! Are you joking me? First of all your against me being with Erza, now your engaging me to someone I don't even know?" I said.
"It's not like you don't know her. She's from your school too. She's beautiful, kind, and more importantly, her social standards is much higher than that Erza girl of yours." What my dad said made me angry, I want to shout at him, curse him, but no voice come out. I just stayed silent.

"Why…? Why do you hate Erza for me? She…- forget it." I said while I scratch my head.
"oi! What was the name of the girl?" I ask them rudely. "sigh, Lucy…. It's Lucy Heartfilia. She has a very beautiful name right? Well she isbeautiful after all." my mom said. "What…?" I said.

'Lucy…..? Isn't that girl... One of Erza's best friends….?' That girl, I just saw her with Erza sometimes though, I never really talk to her. Well she is beautiful but, for me there is no other beautiful girl but Erza.

"You know her already, Jellal?" he asked me. "No. I don't." I walk out of the room without saying "goodbye", as I walk out I said to myself "she won't accept it…. She won't accept it right…? ... I need to see for myself…." I said it low enough for them not to hear.

~The day after~
I woke up early to go to school. Even though I don't want to, I need to know something…
"Sigh…. I'm still not in the mood to go to school though…" I sigh while I'm entering the school grounds.
"AH! It's Jellal-sama!" the girls gathered around me as I gave them a forced flirty smile while they go 'Kya, kya~!' over me. They follow me everywhere I go…..

"ah…..!" I stopped and look blankly at a certain girl. The only thing on my mind was, 'ah…. Her scarlet hair really suits her…. Erza…. She's… really beautifully even in the morning…' I continue to stare at her blankly without her noticing me. It hurt me a little when I see her that morning with Gray. I really want to go over them but… I can't…

"Jellal-sama…? Are you alright?" one of those fan girls of mine asked.
"eh…? A-ah… yeah.." I replied. Then when I look at Erza again, she was talking to Natsu, and a certain blonde girl…. with Gray.
'hmm… so that's Lucy, right …? I wonder why does she look hurt to see them Erza and Gray I mean' I shake my head and walked away, while Erza didn't notice me yet. I don't want her to see me like this.
"Jellal-sama~ are you free this break time~?" She said as she clings onto me. As I let her cling onto my arms I said, "I'm afraid I'm not. I need to do something later. Sorry, my Kittens." I winked at them then entered the classroom. While I was entering I hear them said "Eh~~~! Mou…. Jellal-sama, yourno fun at all~!" I just wave my hand at them then close the door of our room.

During our break I followed the four of the in the cafeteria. "heh. She's having fun, huh." I said.
'Maybe she already forgot me… well that would be great…' I continue to stare at them while I notice that everyone is smiling except for Lucy. She was just staring at Gray and Erza with a sad eye. 'hmm? That's strange; a while ago when gray suddenly talked to her she looks fine. She's even blushing that time'
then I glance at Gray he was having fun with Erza; well I know that Gray have a special feelings for Erza since where children. Then finally a thought came up to me. "oi-oi-o…. don't tell me she likes gray.

I was shocked when she suddenly got up from her chair and wave them goodbye. Until, I decided to follow Lucy. She was running; it feels like she wanted to run away from something, but she can't.
When she stopped I hide behind the tree nearby. I heard her sobbing—well my consciences were saying "go and comfort her" but I can't go out yet. I heard her said something to herself. She keeps repeating the word "I want to forget. I want to forget this feelings." I'm amazed because despite that she's crying she's doing it beautifully.

I notice someone standing there, it's gray. he was standing there watching the beautiful blond cry in dazed. When he snapped out of it he quickly approach the crying blond. I heard some off their conversations but, I decided to leave. I know that gray feels someone is watching them.

While I was walking in the corridor, "so… that Lucy… I think were the same…" I said as I realize something. 'Now that you think about it… when she was running I notice that she somehow wanted to run away from something… just like me… maybe she wants to run away from her feelings. Maybe she's feeling something she doesn't want…?'
"but, that girl… she's really suffering though…" I whispered.
"I want to forget…! I want to forget these feelings…!" I remember her said something like that.
"hmm… 'Forget' huh…? Maybe she'll accept the fact that were engage after all." A chuckle come out of my mouth as I proceed to our classroom.

Lucy's P.O.V

I'm still shock about the fact that gray followed me here. At that time all I can do is to cry.
The moment that I saw him the words that I wanted to say was 'Why did you follow me? I don't want you to see me like this' but I couldn't say it. All I knew was… It's not right to get my hopes up… there's no special meaning why he followed me after all. 'so, please don't let me misunderstand…'

"Lucy. I'd like to ask something." He said to me. I can tell he is serious so I have no choice but to listen to him.
"w-what is it…?" I ask as I calmed down a little. But I can still feel the feelings of jealousy and guilt
"I want to ask…. What do you want to forget…? Lucy you can tell it to me. I am your friend. I'm sure I can do something to help yo-" I cut him off and said, "You can't do anything! I already told you…. You can't do anything… you can't…" I said. "Lucy… -, sigh… ok. But would you mind telling me what your problem…is?" he said. His voice is so gentle that I could melt. "eh…?" that's the only word that came out of my mouth. "Because! Even though were friends you never told me anything…" he said. My eyes widened for a second.

'Don't… please don't make me misunderstand…besides… I don't need to tell you right…?'
"A…a-after I tell you, what will you do?" I said to him in reply. He didn't answer.
"Besides, gray… you don't need to know…-" gray cut me off. "It's better if you share your pain to others! You will lessen the burden in you! So… that's why… I'll listen to you, Lucy." Gray said. I became speechless and then smile… a smile with a mixture of pain and a little bit of happiness.
"Sigh… thank you… gray…" I said. "No problem. You always help me after all!" he smiled at me then said, "So, let me hear your story."

"um… what do you want me to t-" he cut me off and said, "I told you I want to know your problem. And why are u crying." He said. "o-okay…."

"you know… I'm really stupid…to fall in love with a guy who loves somebody else I mean…" I faked a laugh. "Lucy…- continue." He said. "mm…! I… I'm quite lost actually…. I'm willing to help him and hurt myself just to see him smile… even though that smile is not for me… as long as I don't see him sad I'm fine… that's what I thought … I thought it will all be okay… I thought I can carry all this unwanted feelings alone… I thought I can smile happily in front of him… no, in front of them… the two of them I mean." I never realized that my tears are falling. It shocked gray to see me like this. "Lucy…. You're…crying…" he said. "Eh…? A-re…? Again….? A-any way…. I'll continue…" I said as I wipe my tears.
"Right now… I hate myself… whenever I see them together…. Whenever they smile to each other… I always get jealous… I don't want that feeling…. Specially, she's… a friend of mine… I'm not supposed to be feeling jealous…! But I can't help thinking that way… sometimes I said to myself "why…? Why can't it be me that he loves instead…? Why is he still loving her even though he already knew that she doesn't love him because she love someone else…. Why does he keep hurting himself…?" that kind of though always come to my mind that I can't help feeling guilty. That's why… I want to forget…! I wanted to forget my feelings for him-"he suddenly hugged me. "Lucy… I'm so sorry. I never realize that your suffering so much…. And yet… i… I still asked for your help… sorry…" he said. "nee, Gray… do you know that there is still a possibility …a small possibility that I can forget him…" I said hugging him back.
"eh…?" he said as he loosen his hug. "my… my parents engage me to someone…. And maybe…. If I willingly agree and accept the fact that I'm already engage…. Maybe… I can learn to love him…. Or… it can help me move on at least…" I said faking another smile.

"eh? You're engage…?" he asked. "Mm…. but… If I willingly agree to be married to him…. I will hurt my friend… the girl that the one I love, love the most. I'm really at lost…. I don't know what to do… if I accept…. I will hurt her. Off course I will also be hurt because she is one of my friend… but my heart will definitely be crashed if I see him hurt because of her crying over the guy I'm engage with… but if I will not agree… I will always feel this way… I will just hurt myself…. And the other people around me…" I said. Gray patted me in the head and said, "Don't worry. One day, surely… you will find your answer. But just remember this, in making a decision you cannot help to hurt someone… even if you don't want to. Because… all our decisions have its own consequences right?" he smiled at me warmly as he try to comfort me. "Gray…" I said. "Oh. And also, I almost forgot. You don't need to help me anymore with Erza. I will do it myself. This though just came up to me. I'm sorry Lucy… for not knowing what your problems are and asking you to help me." My eyes widened. I got scared a little because he might do a reckless act. For example, confessing. "J-just tell me what you are planning to do…. O-okay…?"
"yeah." He smiled. "I-I need to go….. Bye…." I run away again thinking

'I will… find the answer….. One day…. Surely…. Thank you…. Gray….. But….'

◘to be continued…◘

Minna! Gomen ne. I said that in the next chapter I will show you what will happen to the relationship of Erza and Gray but, I realized that If I do that the story will fast so I decided not yet to put it.
Sorry too for updating so late…. TT_TT" as I already said writers block occurred to me so….. I became lazy to update…. ^^' but I'll try my best to update a longer story ^^

R&R!