Lucy's P.O.V
"sigh… I ended up telling it too gray…" I said while embracing the pillow in my fetal position.
"Somehow… I feel like I'm alone in this world" I said as I recall what happened earlier.
Then I heard three knocks on the door.
"Hime, would you like something to eat?" virgo ask politely.
"Virgo, what are you doing here?" I asked her.
"Should I be punished?" she said; I sweat drop. Then suddenly her tone became srious. "It's because, when Hime got home, Hime's eyes are soo red. It's obvious that Hime has been crying, that's why I thought if Hime eat some sweets Hime might cheer up…. Uhh… b-but, if you don't want to… uhh… i-it's okay… but… Hime should cheer up…" she said behind the door.
'I see… she's cheering m up… I'm not alone… I have them by my side
"Hora Virgo, what are you doing behind that door? Come in. oh and also bring two sslice of cakes and tea." I said while smiling.
"kashikomarimashita, hime." Then I heard her footsteps until it faded away. Minutes later she came back.
"Hime…" Virgo knocked on the door.
"Come in Virgo." I called out. She soon came in . I invited her to sit down beside me but sh keeps refusing.
"I can't Hime! I'm just a maid!" she said.
"Maid…? You know I never treat you like a maid… you're like a sister to me… so please…? I just wanted to talk." I said to her. The truth is, ever since Virgo came, I felt like I have a sister beside me, and I love her dearly,
"sigh… can't be help huh…" she said but a slight blush was visible in her cheeks. I giggled. She sat down beside and I lean on her, soon I started to tell her what happen and how I want to forget Gray, she just stayed silent and nodded to what I've said, listening to me clearly. I never realized that there are tears forming in my eyes. Virgo embraced me and said the word that I long to hear, "Everything gonna be fine, maybe it's hard but it's only temporary, after Hime's hardship, you will just laugh at it one day. Many thing may come to your way but… you're not alone, where here for Hime, because we love Hime." She smiled at me warmly and embraced me. I was touched at what Virgo said. She patted me on the head after the embrace.
"Hime,if there is something bothering you, then Hime could count on me." She said and stood up and bowed down. "Well then Hime, I hope you feel better now. I'll return to work now but if there's bothering Hime please don't hesitate to call me." She said and smled at me while she's closing the door.
I lay down on my bed satisfied, my lips forming a visible smile until my eyes close slowly and I fell asleep.
"cy…Lucy… Lucy.." I heard someone called my name, I also felt that somebody is shaking my body, really hard.
"Lucy! Hey wake up sleepy head!" The person said. This voice is…familiar… is it Natsu? But what is he doing here…?
"hnn…?" I rub my eyes and Natsu stop his shaking. "Natsu…? What are you doing here….?" I ask while yawning.
" get dress Lucy. You'll come with me." He said with a tone of finality.
"Eh…?" I tilted my head. Natsu is somehow different. He is carrying a different aura. Different from earlier.
"You want to forget Gray right? Then come with me." He said. I can feel that he's serious because of his tone and his expression. I've never seen Natsu like this before, but I shove of that thought.
"o-okay…" I agreed to his and proceed to my dressing room. I choose a simple clothing to wear – short shorts paired with a black and white tank top whit a short blazer like top. I tied my hair with my usual hair style (pigtails). When I'm finally ready I proceed to Natsu, but I'm still wondering what is he about to say or do.
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Later on, Natsu Brought me to the schools rooftop . Me, not knowing what's gonna happen questioned him, "Natsu, what are we doing here?" Natsu just stand there, silent. I can only see his back, so I don't know what kind of expression he has.
"Lucy…" he said as he faces towards me. "I'll ask you again. Do you want to forget your feelings for Gray?" I ask. His eyes is covered by his bangs.
"Uh…mm…" I nodded. "But… it seems impossible for me… I tried to forget him and set my mind on other stuffs but it's no use…." I said while I stare on the ground.
"Then I'll make it possible." He said. My eyes widened.
"What? I don't get it." I said, raising my head to face him.
"…." A moment of silence occurred to us.
"uhh…-" he cutted me of.
"I'm confessing to you Lucy." My eye widened.
Natsu…? Confessing? What the….
"Hey.. Natsu are you ok..?" I asked. I still can't believe that Natsu likes me.
"I have always been in love with you since our childhood. I always want to protect you, to see you smiling, to be by your side… always…." He said.
"Natsu.." I said.
"I don't want to see you hurt. I don't want to see you cry… I've always kept this feelings a secret from you because you might avoid me… our relationship might be ruined but, lately… you always cry… put on fake smiles, you have so many problems and yet I can't help you out… so I took all of my courage to confess to you. let me share your problems with me…. Let me protect you… Lucy… I like you…. I LOVE you…" he said.
I'm shocked of the fact that Natsu loves me ever since we were a child… yet I… I always come to him whenever I have a problem…. without realizing that… I'm also hurting Natsu…. But…. What is he doing…?! What does he mean…?!. I put a pained expression
"….s-so… you're telling me…. You're telling me to use you… use you as a tool just to forget Gray…?" I asked. I'm soo angry right now that I want to cry.
"Yeah you could say that." I said bluntly, seriousness are all over his face.
"w-what the heck…? I'm angry right now Natsu… y-you confess to me…. So I can just use you…? There's no way I could do that….! You're my best friend Natsu…! I can never think of my best friend as a tool!" I shouted with anger, I never realize that tears are flowing from my eyes.
"it's okay with me if you think of me as a tool… as long as I could be with you… so Lucy… please…. Go out with me…" he said, I saw him clutching his arms while looking down. I can sense that he's nervous but at the same time eager… he's so eager to have me.
"I…. I'm sorry Natsu… I can't go out with you… i… I like you… no, I love you but only as a family… as a friend… so… I c-can't go out with you… I'm sorry…." I saw him clutch his fist again but I ignored it and continue, "I… I want us… to stay the same… I want us to be back to normal…" I said, my voice is shaky filled with nervousness.
He raised his head to look at me, I was shocked because of his expression. its full of sadness, hurt, regret, humiliation, but the only thing that scared me is because his angry… his mad… maybe he do have a right to be mad. I already reject him yet… I wanted to keep our relationship unchanged… it seems like… I'm stepping on his pride but… I don't want to lose Natsu…
"'Stay the same you say…?" he said, his voice is shaky but he also seems like mocking me. "are you fucking kiddin' me?! How can we stay the same huh…? If you can steel feel comfortable after what happened, well I'm not! I'm sorry but I can't do what you want to happen Lucy, let's just end this meaningless friendship." He said. Tears run out from my eyes.
It's the first time I saw Natsu like this… I admit… I'm scared of him but… I'm much scared of finishing our friendship… right now… I need Natsu…. I… I….
"N-Natsu…"I called out, my voice cracking because of crying. I saw him made a guilty face for a second and putted his thought face again.
"I'm sorry Lucy, but this probably the last meeting will have… Sayonara…" he said as he walk away.
"….." I fell on my knees. I cried and cried but keeping myself from being herd, or so I thought. I didn't notice that someone was there except from me and Natsu…
Gray's P.O.V
"Then use me." I said. I saw Erza shocked.
After I realize that Lucy can't help me anymore…. I have to make a move on my own…. And suddenly I saw Erza crying again. I can't control myself anymore so… I confess. I offer her to use me…. To forget that guy…
"What are you sayi-.." I cut her off by saying,
"I Love You, Erza, That's why I don't want to see you cry. I don't want to see you hurt, because of a guy. I want to protect you. I always want to be by your side. I'll make you forget Jellal." I look into her eyes. She's quite shock about this.
"…." Erza remained quite while having a puzzled face. I sigh.
"It's okay. I'll wait for your answer, for now you need to go home and rest." I patted her head again and waved goodbye.
I Found myself on Lucy's house on my way home.
"Mattaku… what am I doing here…? I don't want to be a burden to Lucy anymore…" I sigh. As I turn around I saw a figure of a certain blond girl.
"L-Lucy…" I said in surprise.
"Gray… what are you doing here…?" she said, her voice seems shaky and tired. I took a good look at her and notice that her eyes are puffy and red.
"o-oi… are you alright? Did you cry again?" I asked. I'm somehow worried about Lucy, realizing her situation… who will not be worried?
"mm-mm" she shook her head to deny. "I'm fine. Oh by the way, do you want to have some tea…?" she faked a smile as she offer me to come in, as I gladly accept I asked her again.
"Lucy… is there any problem…?"I asked. She just remained silent until we got into their living room. We kind of have this awkward aura for about 15 minutes until she finally spoke.
"Today…. Many things happened…." I suddenly look at her and saw her bitter smile. "You still remember what I've told you earlier?" she said.
"a-ah mm." I nodded.
"Well… because of that… my friendship with Natsu is now broken…" she said. Tears forming on her brown orbs.
"Eh…? Why…? What happened…?" I asked her. I was shocked.
"I… I don't know if I can tell you though… I- I'm sorry…" she apologized. I still can sense the sadness in her voice, so I made up my mind to tell her what I did earlier to change the subject.
"Uh… I have something to tell you, Lucy." I scratch the back of my head.
"hnn..? What is it…?" she asked.
"I… confessed to Erza." I saw her eyes widened. "I told her to use me, to forget Jellal." I continued.
"Why are you telling me this….?" she said. Her bangs hiding her eyes.
"Eh? Why? Cause I feel like I need to tell you." I smiled at her.
"Ah soka. Uh.. Gray… I'm not feeling well so I'll head to my room now, okay? Bye." She runs of.
I wonder why she gave me a cold shoulder…. But what bothers me is… what happened to Natsu and Lucy….?
As I walk out of the mansion of Lucy and then I saw Virgo sweeping the dry leaves.
"Hey, Virgo." I called.
"Gray-sama. Is there anything you need?" she asked.
"Mm. What happened to Lucy?" I asked without a second thought.
"…." She was silent for a moment, "I can't tell you the detail but Hime is suffering something right now soo." I sigh and said.
"It's okay. Goodbye then." I waved
"ah… Iterashai, Gray-sama.
~~ time skip- The next Morning.~~
Natsu's P.O.V
sigh… I pour my anger to Lucy yesterday… I need to apologize…
"ara, Natsu ohayoo." Mira waved. Beside her there is a girl with a short white hair.
"Ah… ohayoo. It looks like Lisanna came back huh? Then… where's Elfman?" I greeted them but right now I'm not in the mood.
"Long time no see Natsu! Elf-nii chan is going to be a little late…" Lisanna said.
Lissana is Mira's little sister. She was in America for 3 months and so is Elfman, he's Mira's Little brother.
"A real man can't be late!" a guy shouted while running. Everyone in the academy look at the running figure. I sweat drop and so is Mira and Lisanna.
"Well… it's definitely Elfman." I sigh and the others giggled. Then Mira look at me,
"soo Natsu, how did it go?" she asked. I knew that she meant was how my confession went… to be honest, it's the worst confession in the world! I did something awful!
"I'll tell you later." I said to her.
"Oh! Natsu long time no see!" Elfman said.
"Yeah, long time no see." I greeted back.
"Oh right, Natsu. Where's Lucy? It's rare to see you not together, back then you two were inseparable. Did something happen?" Lissana ask curiously.
arghh! I don't want to bring that topic right now.
I smiled at her and said, "Nothing happened."
~~~~Time skip~~~~
I was expecting for Lucy to come to school but she didn't. When I was preparing to go home, Mira drag me to the rooftop.
"M-Mira, what are you doing?" I asked, confused.
"What did really happen yesterday? Why is Lucy absent?" she asked bluntly.
I didn't answer her. She just sighs. "So something really happen t-"
"I... I confess to her like you told me to…. But I was rejected instantly… she said she wanted to be back to being her best friend but…. All my emotions that time are all messed up…! I told her I can't do that… that we should just… end our friendship…recalling that fact… it looks like I shove her away from me… yet … I said that I wanted to protect her… I… I got carried away by my emotions…." I said. Mira's face didn't show any reaction. She just stands there, listening to me. It took a couple of minutes before she spoke up.
"Sigh… I know that something like this would happen… well it's pretty predictable… that's why we warned you…" she sighs. "But what worries me is Lucy… you already said that she's in a complicated situation right now right? Right now… her precious best friend is gone… you should make a move Natsu." She said.
"No. I think I should leave her be for a moment. Knowing Lucy… I bet she's Pretty shocked about the things that I have said and also I think she don't want to see me right now." I said to Mira, while she nodded quietly and said,
"but I hope…you two will return to normal." She said as she leaves.
Normal huh… that will be hard….
~~~Time Skip~~~
Erza's P.O.V
It's been three days since Gray's confession… but… I still don't know what answer I should give him…
"kaichou, here's the papers that you're asking." A girl with a sport blue hair tied with a bandana said. "hnn…? Kaichou…? Are you alright?" she asked. I snapped out of being spaced out as she handed the papers.
"Thank you, Levy."I smiled at her. "You can go now." I added.
I put the paper on top of my desk. "sigh, I'll go outside a little bit." I stand up on my chair and proceed to the oval. There I saw a bunch of girls fussing over a guy; Jellal.
"Heeee~~~? Jellal-sama! Is it true that you have a fiancé?"One of the girls asks. My eyes widened, I know it's not good to eaves drop but I have to confirm it.
"Hmmm. So the information leaked out quite quickly." He let a small laugh out.
"s-so… it's true?!" all of the girls said in unison as Jellal sweat drop.
so… it was true…Jellal have a fiancé… I can't hope for us to be back together anymore….!
I run and run until I bumped into someone. It was Natsu.
"Natsu…" I said.
"What are you doing? You're running like crazy" Natsu said. I saw him glance at the place that I have been and whispered "I see…"
"a-anyway Natsu. How did it go? The confession," I asked him trying to change the subject. I saw his facial expression change and said,
"It's the worst… I ended up breaking our friendship instead…" He said to me. And I ask Natsu why and he told me the whole happenings.
"I see... I'm sorry… I think I'm the one to blame about this… if I haven't told you confess then… this thing will not happen… b-but you're decision… I think there right. You should let her think for a moment." I smiled at him and patted him at the shoulder. "Good luck, Natsu.." a walk pass by him. The tears that I'm holding back earlier came. I…. right now… I really wanted to forget him…
"You to… stay strong, Erza." Natsu waved goodbye. I was happy for a moment but I can't deny this sadness that I'm feeling.
Then a flash back of gray saying that "Then use me." Came to me.
"Is saying yes the only way…?" I asked myself. "But… I think it's better if I myself ask the truth… to Jellal…" I said with a low tone.
as I walk to the classroom. I heard the girls gossiping.
"Hey… did you know… Jellal-sama has a fiancé… he said she's beautiful…" one of the whispered.
"Eh…? is that really true…?" the other asked.
"Yeah… Jellal-sama has already confirmed it…" the other one answered.
"Eh…? But… did Jellal-sama said he loves the girl…-"her question got cut off by me.
"Hey Girls! Class is starting! Don't loiter around!"I said. I myself am afraid to know what feelings Jellal holds for his fiancé… so I have no choice but to ask.
I waited for the class to end. All this time I'm thinking if I'm gonna ask Jellal or not, and when the period is finally over. I quickly dash out of the room and look for Jellal but, he's nowhere to be found… I recall all the places in the school that I haven't checked yet.
"Ah… the rooftop..."I said. All I did was panic and never even think that he might be in the rooftop…
I open the door viewing the horizon but there's no one in there. I was about to close the door when someone spoke up.
"Who's there?"
"huff…huff… I…it's me… " I said, trying to catch up with my breath.
"Erza? Why are you here?" he ask viewing his blue hair.
"I was looking for you. I… need to ask you something Jellal." I said.
"? 'Ask something'? Sure, go ahead." He said.
"Is it really true… that you have a fiancé?" I asked.
"Oh? That was fast. You already know about the news?" hew laugh.
"Jelal, do you… have feelings for her?" I asked him again. He stopped laughing.
"Hmm? Who knows? We never talked before, but I always see her. She's very lovable so I think I might fall for her." He slightly smiled. "Oh, by the way, why did you asked?" he curiously said.
"hahe… it's a very laughable reason. You know, Jellal… I haven't given up on you ever since you became like this. It always hurts me when I see you with someone… I always wish for us to be back together once more…. but today… it's different… I … I have to stop dreaming…. So… I wanted to confirm it… so I can let you go…" I smiled bitterly. But saying that word… make my heart hurts. I didn't notice that there are tears falling to my face. "So that… I can accept… Gray wholeheartedly….. " I saw Jellal's eyes widened for a minute and then suddenly Jellal pushed me to the wall his face is near to mine.
"J-Jellal…! What are you doing…?!" I asked as I tried to get free, but… somehow… I didn't manage to put up my strength…
"Why don't you hate me?! I wanted you to hate me! Despise me! Curse me! To wish not to see me! But why is it a complete opposite?!" he shouted as I was still pinned on the wall.
Tears are flowing in my eyes, "me myself don't know why…but… I think it's because… I can't hate you…" Jellal loosen his grip.
Jellal… wanted me to move on… like he does… I see… that's why he wants me to hate him… so I can forget him…but… it still hurts…
then suddenly someone grabbed me and give me a tight hug.
"don't make my girl cry, Jellal." A guy said. Both me and Jellal's eye widened.
"G-Gray…." I said.
"I Told you that I don't want to see you crying over that guy." He tighten his hug.
"I-I'm sorry.." I said while blushing. It's the first time I realize that when I'm hut and crying… Gray always appear, comforting me.
"a-anyway… what are you doing here…?" I asked him, still blushing.
"I was looking for you the moment I heard the news. And also… I came here for your answer…" he said in a low voice but loud enough for me and Jellal to hear.
"I…realize something just now. That you're always there for me… and something else… but the most important thing…is…if it's with you I know… that I could move on." I hug him back, I completely forgot that Jellal was there watching us with a bitter smile on his face.
"s-so that means…" he loose his hug and look at me.
"mm. I'll go out with you…" I said. Then suddenly I heard Jellal clapping.
"well well. I congratulate you two. Well then I should take my leave now. I don't want to be in the way so.. goodbye." He said as he waved.
I look at gray and smiled and whisper to his ears the words "thank you, for being with me… always…"
everything will be all right… Gray is with me… I can forget Jellal… surely…
~~~TIME SKIP~~~
Jellal's P.O.V
It's been a week since then. Today… I don't want to come to school….
"Jellal? You're not going to school?" my mom asked.
"ah. Yeah." I said. I was expecting that she will scold me again be she didn't
"Well I'll let it slide for today. I called Layla earlier and she was worried of Lucy. She said she's not going to school this past few days, she also don't want to eat. I'm also worried about my soon to be daughter-in-law. Jellal go and see her." She ordered. I just sigh and stand up. I also Notice that Lucy didn't come to school this past few days, she also don't know the news… and right now… were both heartbroken….
the driver drive me to Lucy's house, and there I saw a pink haired lady sweeping.
"uh… excuse me… I'm Jellal Fernandes. I want to see Lucy." I said to the girl.
"Hime don't want to see anyone right now." She said.
"uh.. I'm Lucy's fiancé though…and I'm also worried at her.. She didn't come to school and heard she's not eating properly… so…" tried to explain to her. To tell the truth… I don't know why I'm doing this. I'm not a persistent person, if someone says they don't want to, ill stop but right now it's different. I have only observe her from afar… yet I'm concerned at her
"a-ah.. I'm very sorry, master. I didn't think that you're Hime's fiancé. You can come in now. Layla-sama is also inside." She said then bowed down.
When I finally reach the main house I rang their doorbell.
"Who's this?" a lady asked.
"Uh.. It's Jellal Fernandez." I said.
"ara~! You're Jellal-kun? Now, now, don't hesitate to come in." she opened the door viewing a beautiful young woman. She had soft brown eyes along with long blonde hair, which is tied like a bun type style.
"My name is Layla Heartfillia. Nice to meet you Jellal-kun." She smiled. I entered their house while thinking, Lucy and her mother looks similar.
"Are you here to visit Lucy?"She asked as she close the door.
"Uh… yeah." I answered.
"I see, I'll lead you to her room then. Were really worried about her lately to tell you the truth… she don't want to be engage. She kept on saying she loves someone else, but I know that she's suffering because of the guy she likes, and right now…I don't know the details because she hardly tells me anything but… she and her best friend Natsu have a fight…" she explained.
"You don't need to worry Layla-san, you should have more faith in her." I smiled.
"Mm. You're right. Oh here we are. Now I'll take my leave, okay?" she said.
"Ah, yes, thank you very much"
I knocked on her door three times.
"…." She didn't answer.
I knocked again. Then she answered, "I want to be alone please don't disturb me mom…" she said.
heh… so she thought I'm Layla-san… what an interesting girl.
"uhm… but I'm Jellal…" I said. "I going to come in okay?" I said as I open the door.
"….. what are you doing here?" she sked me.
"now, now, is that a right attitude to show you're fiancé?" I asked her teasingly.
"…." She didn't talk.
"hey… I'm here to tell you something."
"what is it…?" she said.
"I want you to open your eyes. Accept the fact that I'm you're fiancé. accept that fact already. You wanted to forget Gray right?" I said to her, "back then I was watching you. You ran out of the cafeteria crying. You were saying you want to forget, and then gray comes in. don't worry don't know anything after that." I said. I saw her eyes widened.
"y-you…"
"Lucy Heartfilia, you know…were the same in diferentways." I said to her.
"ha? What the heck are you saying."
"I'm saying that let's take advantage of this engagement."
"what?"
"sigh… Lucy, you're gone for almost two weeks. Did you think that nothing happen while you're gone?" I said bluntly.
"I.. don't get you.." she said.
"I'm saying that, many things happen ever since you were gone."
"What did happen…?"
I smiled bitterly and said. "it might hurt you… but… Gray confessed to Erza… and after 3 days… right in front of me… she said yes…" I said. I was shocked to see Lucy's reactions. Tears are slowly forming from her eyes.
"c-could you tell me what exactly happened?" I nodded and told her what happen while she's gone. And after that she just cried. I panicked a little but the I decided to hug her until settle down.
"you know… I too was hurt. It seems like when she was hugged by Gray…and answered him… its like she forgot my whole existence…" I said as I hug her.
"w-what do you mean….?you're the one who cheated on Erza…that's why She's always hurt."
"I never intend to do that. I just wanted Erza to forget me. To hate me… cause… we can never be together… but… I do love her…." I said.
"what do you mean… you can't be together….?"
"… the reason why my parents want me to study in America is because…. They want me to separate from Erza… they don't like her…my father threatens me…. that if I won't break up whit her…. I can't come back in Japan… I won't get to see her anymore…. So… I decided… that its okay for me to see her…" I said.
"I saw Lucy was shocked. She patted me on my back saying, "Erza… is indeed lucky to be with you huh… you truly love her… unlike me…." I saw her fake a smile.
"I came here today to propose you something." I smirked.
"w-what is it….?"
"lets use each other."
"HA?! W-what are you saying…?" she said.
"it's simple. We'll help one another to forget them… I protect you, you help me simple right?" I smiled at her.
"m-m… but…Erza will…-"
"were doing this to forget them. She already has Gray. You want to forget Gray right? With this, you don't have to be guilty, because we're just using each other, no worries right?" I said.
"m-mm… I think you're right… a-alright… I'll agree with you…
"then that's great. I'll pick you up starting tomorrow. We don't need to hide the fact that we're fiancé's"
"b-but… i… I still don't want to go to school… after what happened to me and Natsu… I can't face him…"
she said. I find her cute in her troubled face. I laugh silently "you don't have to face him as 'LUCY' you can be reborn as a new Lucy right?" I said.
"eh…? Does that mean I have to turn my back on my friends…?" she asked.
"no. you don't need to do that. I'm saying that you can change. You can be strong. I want you to depend on me, okay?"
"y-yeah…"
"Then see you tomorrow. Oh and this time eat properly, this is coming from you're fiancé."
"a-ah… yeah… se you tomorrow.." she said.
I walked out of her room.
well she's asy to get along to… it seems like we're friends even if this is the first time I've talked to her… I may really fall for her…
I smiled as I leave.
but before that, I said goodbye to Layla-san.
Okay! I updated earlier than expected! Please tell me what you think about this chapter. And also, I would like you to message/PM me who do you want to be with Lucy. Is it Gray? Natsu? Or Jellal? Message it to me the pairing is not official yet cause many thing can happen XD. Those who had the most numerous name is the one that I will chose.
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