Hey guys this is my chapter I'm sorry it's not great but everything will get better. We have big plans :D
~END OF LAUREN'S CHAPTER~ Written by R

I woke up with my arms around Phil's waist not wanting to move. Partly from the fact I was still in pain and partly from the fact I liked being so close to someone. I managed to slip my arms out from under Phil and roll over to take some more pain killers. I sat up in bed and looked at Phil sleeping so innocently. I brushed his hair away from his eyes causing him to wake up.

"Hey there best friend." Phil said with a smile. I smiled back and got out of bed, fuck those pills are good! I can't feel any pain. I walked across Phil's room and put on my jeans I took off my top and went to get a new one from my bag when I realised Phil was up and standing behind me sort of staring at me.

"Phil... what're you looking at hahaha?" I said with a confused tone before realising I was standing shirtless. Well fuck. I went a deep shade of red and tried to hide. Phil started laughing and also went red. He asked me if we could continue the conversation we were having last night and I agreed. It would be nice to tell somebody finally, I just hoped that it didn't make Phil leave me. I'd never had a best friend and I wasn't planning on losing him.

"So you said you went to counselling too? Did you wanna talk about it?" Phil asked nervously.

"Sure... well basically my parents put me into counselling because I was extremely suicidal and they were not far off from locking me away for my own fucking safety. I ermm... well I used to self harm and I was diagnosed with manic depression by the age of 15. I tried killing myself 10 times in one year and I almost succeeded. I um, I won't go into detail but they should really keep pills away from kids...hahaha" I laughed nervously looking at the floor too ashamed to look up at his face encase he gave me that look that everyone did before they fucking left me.

"Oh Dan..." Phil said softly taking my hand. He squeezed it before turning over my wrist. I heard him gasp slightly as he noticed the faded white scars that marked me. I told him that if he never wanted to speak to me again it would be okay, I would understand. He pulled me towards him hugging me and holding my hand. It was so nice to let someone know about my past that I burst out into tears, fucking randomly crying into Phil's shoulder as he stroked my hair and told me everything would be okay, I believed that it would be with him around.

As I lifted my head and Phil wiped away my tears I looked at him and I realised I'd been lying to myself. I'd always known my whole life that I was different from my other friends. I knew I cried too much when each Doctor regenerated. I knew I liked Legolas far too fucking much in Lord of the Rings. I had been flirting with Phil, cuddling in bed wasn't a normal thing for two guys to do, I... I'm...I'm fucking in love with my best friend. I knew I wasn't gay because well, Megan Fox. I'm bisexual. Fucking hell what was this revelation week with Dan?! So I get a best friend, almost fucking kill myself by rolling out of bed, and fall in love... WITH PHIL.

Oh great so now I knew I loved him but also knew that he was far too amazing to ever love me. Fuck's sake I'm missing the all important factor that as far as I know Phil isn't even gay...or bi. Well done Dan you've done it again, you've fallen for someone amazing that you can't have. You've fallen for Phil, amazing Phil. REALLY DAN this isn't the time to be making jokes.

"Ba dum tssssss" I whispered not realising that I had actually said it out loud.

"Huh? What did you say Dan?" Phil said, sounding concerned.

At this point I realised that I had stopped crying and had just been lying on Phil's shoulder. I apologised for being a twat and he told me to stop talking nonsense and asked whether I thought that if he told me about his past it would make me feel better.
"I'd like that" I said with a weak tear stained smile and didn't move from his arms as he began his story.