Chapter 3

As I got back to the house, I could help but feel my body shaking like a freakin leaf. The knife was still clutched tightly in my hand that was covered in Gilbert's blood. I ran straight to bathroom, falling to my knees and emptying an afternoon's worth of drinking in to the toilet. The knife flew on the white tiled floor and left a trail of blood as it skidded to a stop. I coughed as the disgusting memory flooded my mind, this was not the first time I had killed someone, hell I was in the Soviet Union, we were attacked many times, and I had to fight many people off, just to keep my land safe, but not like this. He was my friend, we had just spent the entire afternoon bonding, and now he was dead, at my hands. I felt my stomach churn again as feeling of it came back in to my mind. The feel of cutting through skin, muscle and other parts of the body, and then feeling the life inside someone leak out of them. I stopped as I realize where my thoughts were going, the feel of power, and the feeling of being immortal and having control over life or death, deciding whether that person that crossed my path got to see the light of another day. I balled my bloody fist in to a fist and hit myself in the leg. No, I thought, no this isn't right! I was a good person! I had a happy life! It was my siblings that enjoyed hurting people, not me!

Then a thought hit my mind, my siblings, surely they would know how to help me. They would know how to put all of this behind me, and forget anything like this ever happened. I got up and grabbed my knife and threw it in to the kitchen sink. I shoved my bloody hand into my pocket, and then went around the house looking for Matthew; I had to make sure he didn't know anything about what I did. I couldn't stand to have him know the terrible things I had done.

I was a bit relived to find the house empty, I was sure that Matthew had probably gone to G8 meeting. I ran back into the kitchen, and washed the knife, as well as my blood covered hand. I stood there for about a half an hour, scrubbing, trying to wash the feeling of blood from my skin. I scrubbed and scrubbed, until giving up and deciding on taking a shower.

I walked to the bathroom, my mind feeling dead, and then stripped. I turned the water to the hottest temperature, and then stepped in the shower, not even minded how the scorching water burned my skin. I didn't move I didn't even move to do anything; I stood there under the hot water, as I felt my eyes begin to burn as tears began to fill then. I felt as the horrible memory of the blood, and the ghost-like look on his face flooded into my mind. I saw the way his eyes looked blank right before they rolled back into his head, I heard the sound of my knife cutting in to his stomach, and the dull heavy noise his body made as it fell to the ground. I felt as the thoughts began to cripple me. My legs began to shake so much, that I had to lean on to the shower wall, to keep myself steady. The words seemed to echo in my head.

You killed him! You are a murderer! You were angry at him! You wanted to shut him up, and there was only one way to do that…you killed him!

"No, no," I shouted at the voices, I felt my body began to shake violently.

So you are a killer and a liar! You've really reached a new low haven't you, to think you would go and do something like this after everything all these people have done for you, Matthew, taking you into his home, what's gonna happen when he finds out you're a killer. Where are you going to go then? He isn't going to let you stay here, you're a murderer, and no one can ever love a murder.

"No! No! Matvey loves me! He loves me!" I cried hugging my legs to my chest. I knew I was lying to myself I knew my words weren't completely true, how could he love me? If he ever learned what happened then there is no doubt that he would be able to look past it and continue loving me. He would kick me out and break my heart. I couldn't let that happen, I couldn't lose him, not now, not when I needed him.

I got up from where I sat in the shower, and shut the water off. I knew what I needed to do; I needed to ensure that no one ever found out what happened. I needed to make sure that I covered up my murder so that I never got caught, and I knew just the person I had to see. Someone I was sure at least knew what to do if she hasn't already done it before. She would know how to help me.

A few hours later Matvey showed up, and I was ready to play everything cool. I made myself busy, whether it was cooking food for the rest of the week, as well baking so many baked goods that I could fill a bakery. Then by the time dinner was done, I had saved up enough confidence that I was sure I would not break from the simple sound of his voice.

"So how was your day?" I asked trying to keep my mind on anything but what I've had to do today.

"Great," he said, his face lighting up, though he still looked tired. "I pitched the thing I have been working so hard on to everybody, and they all loved it, and the best part is Prussia wasn't even there to put a ton of unneeded doubt into everyone's head when they listened to it. America has already made plans to help me out with the funding. He actually seemed really excited about it! And to top it all off I have good news for you too. I decided to take the next few days off, giving Al a chance to get everything together, and tomorrow, I am going to take you out to dinner."I opened my mouth to protest and say that he needed his rest, but he cut me off. "Ah, ah, ah, don't worry about me, I will rest up tonight and tomorrow, so there is no way of getting out of it, but that is not all." He paused and reached in to his coat pocket and pulled out a small black pocket. My heart skipped a beat as I saw it. It was too big to be a ring, so I relaxed a little but still this was a complete shock.

"Oh Matvey, you didn't have to get me anything," I said as he opened the box to reveal a pretty silver necklace with a heart shaped locket, I took it from his hands and ran my fingers over it, there was a really pretty. The words "Pour Toujours" were in graved in a beautiful script on the front, and it was surrounded by beautiful snow white diamonds. I felt tears come into my eyes, it was so pretty, I really did not deserve him, he was so good to me, and I was nothing but scum.

"But are you really scum?" the voice in my head asked. "He had a problem and you solved it for him, isn't that what good girlfriends are suppose to do, help the man they love?" I wanted to shout back at the voice, but I couldn't something inside me found true in its words, the same part of me that seemed be turned on by the feeling of ending someone's life. I tried to tune out the voice and the memories of it brought up and focus on how wonderful Matvey was, this gift was amazing, truly amazing. I turned the locket in my fingers and opened it to find a tiny little photo inside, of Matvey and I kissing. I remembered when the photo was taken, we had just started dating and Matvey invited me to go to a Christmas party with his family. Somehow I ended up under the mistletoe, and we had to kiss, it wasn't our first kiss, but it was still a little awkward, and Alfred didn't make it any better by taking a picture. However, the picture did not seem awkward or funny now, just sweet and romantic. The tears fell down my cheeks as I looked at it, it was absolutely beautiful. I loved it! I loved him!

"Pour Toujours, means Forever in French," he said now appearing behind me as he whispered in my ear. I gently took the beautiful necklace from my hands and removed it from the box. Then gently placed it on my neck as he connected the latch on the back, when he was done putting the necklace on my, he lowered his face and kissed a trail up my neck, all the way to my ear. He paused a moment after kissing it and then whispered to me. "I got this to kind of say thanks to you and show you how much I love you," he whispered.

"Not that I don't like it, because I absolutely love it, but what do you need to thank me for?" I asked curious.

He chuckled. "Well this whole time that I have been worrying and working on this pitch, even weeks before the actual meeting, you have been so patient with me. You didn't really get annoyed with how much I was working, other than really how all the working was affecting me. And let's face it, without you I would be in a hell of a lot worse shape then what I am in now. These past few weeks you have been pretty much taking care of me, and in return I feel like I have kind of been neglecting you, so these next few days I am going to make it up to you, starting tomorrow night with dinner."

"See," the voice in my head said. "You helped him, even if you killed a man it all turned out for the better didn't it? If you hadn't killed him then stupid Prussia would have been at the meeting and would have prevented Matvey from succeeding, you're not a bad girlfriend, you're a great one~!" I tried to push the voice away and turned back to Matvey.

"Matvey, you really didn't have to do all this," I told him. "I mean I love all of it, the necklace, and the dinner plans, and the wonderful words you said are all completely perfect, but you didn't have to go out of you way to do this for me."

"Hell, I didn't need to do this," he said. "I love you, Katsuyasha; you're completely amazing, so of course I needed to do all of this. I am completely in love with you, so I want to do all of this for you when I can. I've never really felt this way about anyone else, and I want to be able to be able to do things like this for you, even though I can't always be able to.

I hugged him, hiding my face in his chest, not wanting him to see how guilty I looked. He was startled for a moment but wrapped his arms around me and buried his face in my hair. I tried to use this to comfort me to show myself that he stilled loved me, the necklace felt heavy where it was placed between the top of my breasts. I thought of the word inscribed on it. Forever, he would love me forever I told myself, and part of my was comforted by that, I wanted to just sit here and take in his love, hoping that maybe it can wash away what I've done.

Alright so, long time no see, so no deaths in this chapter, as you can tell by now, and I did get a few suggestions for who to kill next, and I promise I will work them in, however I cannot just make it a story will endless killing and murders and such, so not every chapter will have a murder in it, but that doesn't mean I didn't get you suggestion, but yeah I wanted to use this chapter to start to construct Ukraine's crazy side, hence the creep voice in her head (Which not to be random, but when I was writing it reminded me of the voice of Envy from Fullmetal Alchemist… well now if I haven't already proven I'm crazy by actually writing a story like this I think it was just confirmed) Anyway, review, tell my any predictions you have or if you want to suggest someone to be killed in one of the upcoming chapters go right ahead. Any Thanks to everyone who has reviewed or favorite or Sub-ed, you guys are great~!