The doctors said I could go home so I woke Phil gently. We then went home and I went to make some food and clean up as the sheets still had blood on them but Phil told me to sit down and stop being silly and he'd do everything. I knew it was pointless to argue so I went to sit down. Phil put the sheets in the wash wincing at what I'm guessing was flashbacks of finding me. I felt bad for putting him through that and I wasn't mad anymore but I knew we had to talk about my relapsing.
I went to begin the conversation when Phil cut me off.
"Dan. I.. I'm so sorry and I don't know what to do but I want you to be okay because I love you and yeah oh god I love you so much so much Dan."
Phil rushed his words so much it was hard to catch all of what he said. I could see tears forming in his eyes so I cut him off with a kiss.
"Phil I love you, I just need you to be there for me when I'm going through this, I promise I'll try to tell you when I'm feeling low. I really do love you...with all my heart."
And with this Phil hugged me tighter than ever sobbing into my shoulder as I began to cry to Phil pulled back from the embrace and held my hands. He then began to gently lift up my sleeves and when I tried to stop him he just put a finger to my lips, telling me to shush. I did so as he caressed my face and wiped away my tears.
He gently rolled my sleeves up and at first grimaced at the sight of the gashes but then he began to kiss them, and at that moment I knew that this lion obsessed, overly happy, gorgeous guy who was my best friend, was the guy I knew... I knew I never wanted to be parted from, ever.
I hugged Phil and did some sort of fucking ninja move as I pulled the Kill Bill DVD from the cushion behind him. I saw Phil's face light up as he ran, as if on double speed from the cupboard to the microwave to the Xbox back to the microwave and then leaped onto the sofa while pressing 'Play Film' causing the freshly made popcorn to tip all over us and the sofa but we where laughing too much to care.