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Xander was starring at the ceiling again he really needed to find something better to do with his time or find a cable company that broadcast from America, or maybe use his meager hacking skills to download a movie. The door to his room opened and Kris came in and sat down next to him on the bed.
"Xander you've been sitting here for over an hour now."
"Well it'll be lights out soon, and then I'll sleep." he said not taking his stare away from the ceiling. He felt Kris move and looked from the ceiling to see Kris laying by his side looking at the ceiling as well.
"I don't find it very interesting." she said after a long moment.
"Yeah me neither." he admitted. He thought she would go on mocking him on his choice of activities but she didn't she just continued starring up at the ceiling.
"What are you looking at." he asked after a long moment of silence and noticing she was no longer scanning the ceiling and her eyes were fixed on one point.
"I'm not looking a the ceiling." she said after a long moment. "At least not this ceiling I'm in my bedroom at home. It's before they did the spell and I became a slayer, back when I was normal." she said nostalgically. Xander nodded, normal he had been normal too once a very long time ago, it had all ended the first day of his sophomore year of high school. Jesse had died and the entire world had changed over night. Since then the only time he had a break from the supernatural was summers and when he had run away.
He was a watcher now it seemed crazy to him that he had choose to make this his lives work even though he couldn't think of anything else he rather do. It gave him a sense of purpose, and he enjoyed protecting and guiding his girls.
It was scary too though he had nearly lost Kris not too long ago and after wards everything seemed so strange between them. Everything before had been casual and with occasional bouts of borderline flirting between them. Nothing over the line though, he was her watcher and watchers and slayer did not have romantic relationships. Of course he was sure they weren't supposed to lay on the same bed either.
"Xander." Kris said interrupting his thoughts.
"Yeah." he said back to her.
"Do you miss them?" Xander face screwed up he wasn't sure what she was asking but before he could ask for clarification she added.
"Your parents." Xander thought to his family, the last time he had seen them face to face was at his wedding and they had been so dismissive of him after. They had called him a coward, and a liar and he hadn't talked to them again until Sunnydale had started falling apart. He had told them to get out of Sunnydale and they had ignored him, he had no idea if they had gotten out of Sunnydale at all. Even though he wasn't close with them and most times wished he wasn't related to them at all he hoped they had made it out of Sunnydale alive.
"Sometimes." he answered softly. They hadn't always been bad people his parents they hadn't always been loud, mean and verbally abusive parents. He missed that version of his parents sometimes so much that it hurt to even think about how they used to be.
"I miss mine." Kris said softly. Kris parents were in the states. She was from a big city in Indiana, he couldn't remember which one though. "And my brother and sister." she added. She laughed.
"I volunteered for this though," she turned to his side and he did as well she smiled well you volunteered me but I decided to go, knowing full well where I was going.
"So did I, and while I'm not close to parents my family had been people in the council. I wish not being able to see them everyday like I had for years before deciding to come here." he was probably a bit more honest then he should be. Kris was a slayer and he was a watcher he was supposed to be making her feel better not talking to her like an equal even if she was head slayer. She smiled at him.
"But what we do we save people's lives, we allow people to remain in the dark to be safe and protected without having to know what they are being protected from."
"I really should the one giving the pep talk here." Xander said echoing his thoughts aloud. She smiled a little wider.
"I think that whoever feeling the peppiest should be the one giving the pep talk." he smiled back tomorrow he would deal with whatever this was between them and work on maintaining a more professional relationship between them. For tonight he just starred at Kris in silence for awhile until his eye got heavy and he feel asleep.
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