Chapter 28

Here is another chapter, it is very short but I hope you like it. I think you realise this is the beginning of Sabriel, their relationship will slowly develop, trust me. I won't let you down :D

Also, I should warn you that there will be a time shift of two years soon, not in this chapter but future ones because certain things need to happen *cough* smut maybe *cough* yep. Anyway, enjoy :D

WARNING: fluff, slight angst, Balthazar/OC, pre-Sabriel, Destiel.

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What became of all the years

Are you drowning in your tears

Who will catch you when you fall

Who will hear you when you call

I will comfort you, take your hand and see you through

I will take you through the door

~Child of Innocence by Kansas

And don't apologize

For all the tears you've cried

You've been way too strong now for all your life

I'm gonna get there soon,

You're gonna be there too

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You are all that I've waited for

All of my life

You pull me closer to love

Closer to love

~Closer To Love by Mat Kearney

It's been a while since you've gone and I miss you yet the ache inside dissipated, your memories remain, the empty feel inside I've grown fond of it; I lie awake at night with eyes wide open, it haunts me as they flash through my mind. I am able to wake up in the mornings, get up for another day though I no longer look forward to anything, I simply let it pass by, I live as life takes me and plan nothing ahead as I used to. I am of a young age, I know this, I should motivate myself to a brighter future and I have no doubt that as time passes I will again have a reason to smile, a reason why I go to bed at night waiting for the morning to arrive because someone is alive for me, someone wants to be with me.

I always loved you, I always will. I know you did too yet I am well aware I will no longer hold your heart as you age but I am alright with that, I am completely alright with that because you deserve to be happy, you deserve someone who will make you smile better than I could ever have. Perhaps it was fate that separated us because we were not meant to be and I could tell that even though I loved you, you were not my soul mate, I do believe in such things. You were the beautiful and perfect friend I was blessed to have, I am thankful, it hurts that you are gone and I know that time heals the wounds. I no longer ache for you, but the love is still there, of a friend, that is.

Do not feel betrayed if my heart does not belong to you in time, I suspect it will not, I've considered it. By certain circumstances there was an epiphany in which I discovered something new of myself, an act of kindness banished the despondency and I became aware of what it meant. My heart is no longer yours, it is not anyone's, it is a struggle to forget you but I have done so and I am successfully doing so every day; I know you will never come back, and I think I deserve happiness. I will love like you told me I should.

You will forever be a beautiful memory. I wish you happiness and hope one day you do find your soul mate.

Yours, Sam Winchester.

He wrinkled the paper in his hand lighting a match as he threw the letter in the chimney, he watched the flames change colours from yellow to orange hungrily devouring the paper leaving only ashes behind. He sighed feeling a weight off his chest, the heat from the flames tenderly warmed his skin making his hairs stand on end at the touch, his arms wrapped around himself protecting his already cold heart from the autumn temperature. His thoughts returned once again to that small gesture which he was grateful towards though his feelings were empty, there was truly no sign of attraction towards the person, yet he smiled.

"Like a ghost you haunt me everyday that you're gone. I'm not the same.." he heard the lyrics play in the background, he sat on the bed reclining against the headboard with his knees up to his chest.

"We're leaving." he looked up to find his older brother standing by the door, a smile on his face and a duffel bag in his hands. He stood from his place nodding at the older boy and left the room shutting the door behind as he sighed with a small smile on his lips.

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He closed his eyelids feeling the heat of the body next to his transfer to his own, his head rested on the shoulder of the young boy yet the owner did not protest to move him, the scent of peppermint, laundry softener, cologne and shampoo was a bliss and he found himself in a hypnagogic state. He was able to recognise the voices around him; the couple behind whispering, the couple sitting in front singing along to D'yer Mak'er, the person sitting next to him tapping on a screen continually, the young boy on whom he rested his head on, his ear was pressed against the boy's shoulder feeling and listening to the pulse which at the moment seemed accelerated. His conclusion, Sam was anxious.

Ian sat on the back seat of the van with Balthazar's head on his lap, his fingers tangled in the thick locks of the blonde soothing his scalp with his fingertips, he placed a chaste kiss on his boyfriend's lips and smiled softly at him. Castiel and Dean sat on the first row of the backseats, their hands intertwined as they sang along to Led Zeppelin. Dean placed a kiss on the boy's nose making him blush shyly yet smiled. Raphael was the driver and he kept quiet fixing his eyes on the road as Anna distracted herself with her mobile sitting on the passenger seat. Crowley sat next to Gabriel occupied on his touch screen mobile, Sam seemed distracted watching the blur of the trees out the window, the many colours that blended into an autumn feel. Gabriel rested his head on his shoulder which he did not find uncomfortable, he smiled slightly and kept his gaze on the passing sceneries.

"Stop moving, guys!" Dean yelled as he placed the tripod and a camera on the ground setting it to take multiple shots. "Balthazar, move closer to Yung, Cass, move a little to the left. Right there. Raph, you're the tallest, go to the back. Anna, you're short!" she glared at him making Dean chuckle, "move to the front. Crowley, you stand next to Balthazar. Okay, here we go. Say cheese." he grinned as he ran towards the group. The camera flashed several times before stopping, Dean ran to grab it frowning when he pressed the preview button. "Gabe, what the hell?" he grinned before he started laughing hysterically.

"What?" he shrugged innocently.

"Seriously, dude?" everyone gathered around Dean staring at the images, Anna glared at her brother while the others laughed.

"You just had to ruin them, didn't you?" Anna stomped her foot on the ground, Gabriel flinched and chuckled.

"What did I do?" he raised his brow walking towards Dean. "Oh yeah, that, I have no idea how that happened."

"You look like you're constipated." Dean laughed, Gabriel scrunched his nose staring at the image, Anna slapped Gabriel on the back of his head causing him to pout at her. "You seriously messed these up, look at your face on this one."

"DERP!" he said laughing and Anna glared at him again.

"Why did you have to stand beside me? Ugh, I was going to show them to my friends!" she crossed her arms.

"What the fu-!" Dean was in a fit of laughter, Gabriel took the camera from him with a grin and stared at the image, "You- you look like a freakin' paedophile."

"That's my creeper face." he smirked.

"We need to take more photos. You better not make your stupid faces again, Gabe." she took the camera from Gabriel placing it back on the tripod.

The remaining of the morning was spent unpacking their few belongings on the cabinets, preparing meals together or cleaning the place. It was a two-storey house in the outskirts of town which belonged to the Novaks, the surrounding area was mostly of trees, grass, wild flowers and the vast Texas skies. The house was rarely used, their father had bought it when his wife was alive and he loved hunting; Michael and Lucifer still remembered how they spent days away from everyone, their mother would tell them stories from the Bible, stories about angels and other creatures, she would sit with them outside watching the sunset and sing along with their father. Raphael came along though he only remembered his mother's face, being in the house warmed his heart. The drawing on the wall he once made was still there, the stain on the carpet in the room that was his was still there, the ornaments and decorations their mother had placed around the house were still intact, dusty, reminiscent, witnesses of the perfect family they once were still as though awaiting for Charmeine's return yet she never, ever returned.

"Why didn't Mikie and Luci come, Raph?" Gabriel asked sitting on the stool at the breakfast bar, Sam sat next to him, Castiel and Dean next to Sam, Anna next to Castiel, Balthazar on the other side of Gabriel, Yung (Ian) next to Balthazar and Crowley next to Anna. They turned their gaze towards him expecting an answer, Raphael cleared his throat scratching the back of his neck as though forming a good enough explanation.

"They, um, they had some adult business to attend to." he turned around and continued preparing them snacks.

"Are they bonding again? They really need that." Anna said putting her chin on her hands, Raphael cleared his throat again seeming uncomfortable with the subject.

"No, I- I don't think they're bonding, Anna."

"That's too bad." she shrugged. "Remember when we found them lying on the floor together and the house was-"

"Anna! That's enough." Raphael did not look at her yet she knew he was being serious judging by his tone. Castiel and Gabriel shifted in their seats uncomfortable, Balthazar was too distracted with his boyfriend to notice, Crowley was still tapping on his touch screen mobile, Dean and Sam sat there in awkward silence.

"I'm sorry." she whispered and the older sibling nodded. Anna was too young to understand what exactly had happened between the two older siblings, Gabriel and Castiel were toddlers to remember, Raphael had come back with their nanny from a walk at the park when they found the two teens lying on the floor, limbs tangled together panting, the remaining of their shirts scattered on the floor, furniture misplaced and broken. Raphael had explain to Anna that it was simply how brothers bonded yet he knew it was the beginning of their relationship to be strained.

"Can we make a fire outside, Raph?" Gabriel broke the silence with his enthusiasm munching on a snicker bar.

"Only if you promise not to set the entire place on fire."

"I would never. I promise." he grinned, Raphael eyed him and nodded.

"Okay, I'll do it though, I still don't trust you."

"But, but I wanna help! You can trust me." he pouted, Sam turned to look at him and smiled at the child-like older boy.

"Right, and the kitchen set itself on fire at the house, huh?" he raised a brow looking at his younger brother.

"Oh. That was an unexpected accident." he looked sideways with an ashamed expression.

"You're adorable." said Anna pinching his cheek, he swat her hand away sticking his tongue out at her.

"Is that real?" Sam asked pointing with his index towards a head of a deer hanging on the wall.

"Yeah, Mikie says dad loved hunting." Gabriel shrugged.

"I find it rather cruel and unnecessary to hunt innocent animals for sport." Castiel turned to look at the decoration on the wall with a frown.

"Yeah, well I don't think he hunts anymore." said Gabriel playing with the cuffs from Sam's hoodie, he looked at Gabriel with a confused expression yet kept to himself.

"Hey, Sammy, here's your phone back." said Dean sliding the mobile across the counter, it slid past Sam's grip falling on the wooden floor, Gabriel bent down to reach it at the same time as Sam resulting in both teens bumping their heads with force.

"Ow!" Gabriel touched the bump on his forehead with his fingertips.

"I'm sorry." Sam knit his brows looking at Gabriel apologetically. "It's not that bad, is it?" the older boy uncovered his forehead allowing Sam to see. "Just a little, it wont bruise." Gabriel fixed his eyes on the younger boy's admiring their hazel colour, their innocence, the tenderness with which he looked at people. He blinked twice to find Sam staring at him, he moved his gaze towards the granite counter without saying a word. Sam frowned slightly and turned his attention to something else.

A thick blanket of darkness covered the skies leaving the temperature low for its lack of sunlight, the wind blew calmly carrying its autumn night melodies along with the chirp of crickets, the howls of coyotes, foxes, the hiss of rattlesnakes at a distance and the sound of human voices in the air. Sam sat on a log on the ground, his arms wrapped around himself protecting from the cold, his chin rested on his knees watching others interact and he envied them; he envied the look in Castiel's eyes as he stared at Dean, the soft, innocent kisses they shared, the closeness of their interaction, the arms that wrapped around each other and the smiles that were just for them. He closed his eyes in an effort to not think of Jessica, a stranger overtook his mind and he blinked it away. His gaze found Balthazar in the arms of his boyfriend, though Sam knew him so little, the teen's presence was rather pleasant in comparison to a stranger. A small smile formed on his lips as he watched Yung caress with his thumb the sides of Balthazar's cheek, the blond closed his eyes feeling the soothing sensation lull him to a light sleep, he felt a pair of warm lips on his forehead and smiled.

Anna sat next to Raphael resting her head on his chest, his arm around her as she hummed to a melody he did not recognise. Crowley was once again distracted with his mobile with a smile on his face, his eyes narrowed contented as the device vibrated in his hands announcing a message. Gabriel sat next to Sam staring at the flames rise, he held a twig in his hands teasing the neon coal, the light of the fire gave his complexion a glow highlighting his features; his lips parted slightly for a breath, they shimmered as the tip of his tongue passed across them. His pupils shrank as the light hit them, the Amber colour of his irises melted with the illumination from the flames, his caramel coloured hair neatly combed back shone with the light giving it a soft texture. Gabriel lifted his gaze to find a pair of hazel coloured eyes fixed on his, he gave the boy a tender smile who returned it without waiting.

"Your eyes. I like your eyes." he spoke sincerely, Gabriel dropped his attention from Sam to the flames.

"Thank you?" he smiled slightly knitting his brows, he daren't look at the younger boy knowing his feelings and emotions could be seen in his eyes.

"I never noticed how bright they are, very different from other types of hazel. They're.. unique." he shrugged with a smile, Gabriel dropped the smile from his lips leaving his furrowed brows and his saddened eyes fixed on the flames.

"Yeah, they're unique." he repeated in a whisper. Sam sighed watching the breath escape into cold air, he shivered feeling the wind kiss his face making his nose feel numb. He moved closer to Gabriel feeling the warmth radiate off him.

"Youth is like diamonds in the sun and diamonds are forever." Gabriel sang softly feeling Sam's presence closer than before. "So many dreams swinging out of the blue, we let them come true." he smiled at the boy in invitation to get closer for warmth.

"Forever young, I want to be forever young. Do you really want to live forever and ever and ever?" they sang in harmony as Sam rested his head on Gabriel's shoulder unaware of the soft smile Castiel formed on his lips as he looked at his twin and the boy he knew loved.

"Do you really want to live forever?" they finished with a soft smile.

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This chapter will continue, the boys get their own small part :D I hope you liked it. I shall be updating Stranger Than You Dream It soon, I'm having difficult times with it since it's mostly based on a film and it's been a while since I've watched it. If you haven't read it, it's about the phantom of the opera with the Supernatural cast.