Returning to life with Light, as if nothing happened, had annoyed me to an extent. I exchanged text messages with Dexter, constantly. When I would smile or laugh down at my phone, Light would immediately glare at the device, as if he could burn it away. I wondered why he was so ...protective. I mean, Comrade and I were great friends, and admittedly I always had a crush on him, he is attractive and such. Light knows he has his place in my life as well, and Dex coming back at such a time isn't gonna change that. I had also been thinking about the perfect timing Dex had, coming back when he did. He always came when I was at a weak point. Could he sense it? Did he know? Or was he following me around, and keeping tabs on me? My hand tightened around Sprinkles, causing him to grunt and hiss a little. I looked down at him, and pat his head, wanting to say sorry. He sneezed at me, and layed his head back down. going back to sleep. Light was staring at me from across the couch before asking me, "Are you alright?" I nodded back yes, only to get Light raising an eyebrow at me. He obviously knew I was lying. He scooted closer, causing Sprinkles to stand up and arch his back as he hiss at Light. I scolded him in Japanese and he jumped off the couch, and walked off, shooting Light glances now and then. Light refocused onto me, and he asked again.

"Kenzi, are you okay?"

This time I shrugged. Was I? L hated me, Light and Comrade weren't that nice to each other, I am now a blood thristy monster, the blood tablets are barely working. I was a little while away from okay.

"Kenz..."

I shook my head slowly, looking down at my hand's fidgetting in my lap. Light scoot closer and pulled me into his chest, hugging me close. I refused to cry. Crying is something I rarely ever did when L was alive, and I wouldn't allow myself to slip. I wouldn't cry anymore. I pushed away from Light, making me look down at me obviously confused.

"I'm fine."

I wasn't, I'm not fine. I wasn't going to let him know that though. Showing your emotions has never been an advantage to me before, and I started showing them and now L hates me. Emotions are a hindrance, caring is not an advantage. He repeated my name again, placing a hand on my shoulder. I flinched and stared down at his hand, almost disgusted as if it was a bug. Why did Light care? I scoffed and shook his hand off of my arm.

"I said I am fucking fine."

Light should have really stopped there, I was getting annoyed. I wasn't sure why. Not long ago, I loved Light, and now he seemed to pester me. I closed my mouth and immediately felt my teeth with my tongue. All of them, pointy. I focused on my eyes, and found them to be burning like hell.I cringed in pain and annoyance. With my back now turned to Light as I hunched over on the couch, panting, trying to maintain control, I gasped out "Light, you need to go. Go far away for a while. Just you need to go."

"Kenzi, what ever it is, I'll help. What's wrong?"

There was a strong urge to just tackle him to the ground and show him why he can't be around a vampire, and why he should listen when they tell you to go. His hand on my shoulder again shocked me, and I turned back to face him. When I looked at him, I didn't see Light. I saw skin, bones, blood, and viens. I was deducting his body, and looking for major blood sources. He gasped as I tackled him, causing us to both fall to the floor with a loud thud. I no longer saw Light as a human, he just seemed like food. Food, something I felt no remorse for biting into and eating. Food, something I craved, wanted, desired, and needed whether I liked it or not. But Light wasn't food. I found myself getting off of him as I realized food was also something with no heartbeat, no feelings, and no life left. Light wasn't food. I crawled away from him, and resumed my previous position on the couch. After minutes of my refusing to look at him, and him not moving at all, I suppose my curiosity got the best of me as I stole one single glance towards him. He had hardly moved, he just lay there on the floor, looking stunned. He looked surprised of course, but somehow looked like even if I had bit him, and drained him he wouldn't mind. He had the element of acceptance which I truly depised. How can anyone ever accept someone like me? I looked back down at Light as I got up, and mumbled, "You're an idiot human, and you should run while you can Yagami. Run before I turn into something even you can't accept." He kept the same expression on his face as he calmly spoke back to me.

"I will accept you in any form."

Angered, annoyed, frustrated, and confused. Why would he stick around? I was just going to kill him anyway? Why did he accept this so easily?

"WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SO GOD DAMN STUBBORN LIGHT?"

"Because Kenzi, that is what love does to you. Love makes you stubborn, and it helps you accept the flaws of the one who you love. Just like you being this isn't fair, niether is love. We both have our own curses."

I was stunned, truly. Light admitted he loved me. I would stand my ground though, I don't care if I looked cruel or mean, it is for Light's own good.

"Well, I don't love you. Monsters like me, like vampires, we don't know love. We only know how to hunt. So just stop trying to save me, stupid naive human." With that, I stormed off to my room. I slammed my door, before sliding down it. I was trying to hold in my tears, oh how I hated when I felt them roll down my cheeks. Tears were a weakness, but weakness had to be shown sometimes, right? After staying strong for so long, you can't hold it in anymore. I couldn't. I couldn't bare the fact that what I said in there was true, I am a monster. I can still feel love, but eventually I won't be able to. Love will be masked by hunger, and Light will be in danger. He doesn't seem to understand that. He doesn't know the damage I could not only cause to him, but to anyone really. As long as I can get him safe though, I will be satisfied. I heard Light get up, and his feet slowly walking towards my door. I quickly locked it, not wanting to be so close to Light after I had almost snapped.

"Kenzi, open the door." He knocked lightly before whispering again, "You know it's not your fault."

No, it is my fault. I hated how stupid and naive this human was being, why couldn't he see I was dangerous to him? Anger bubbled up inside me and was ready to errupt.

"LIGHT YOU NEED TO REALIZE IT IS MY FAULT. THE MORE YOU INSIST IT'S NOT THE MORE I KNOW IT IS." I ran to take cover under my blankets. Call me childish, but I can think about everything whilst hiding under those blankets. I normally felt immediately better when I went under those blankets, things became so clear suddenly ...well that usually happened. It wouldn't happen now, because I knew Light was still outside my door. I shouted back at him again, "LIGHT JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. GO NOW." That's it. I couldn't hold it back anymore. Tears, sniffles, pain, sorrow. Stuff I hated showing, stuff I bottled inside, all finally pouring out. I was quiet though, I didn't want Light to here me. That's when I heard his sniffles from outside the door too. No, I didn't want to make him sad. He shouldn't have had to cry. I was just trying to protect him from me. Now look what I've done. I am such an ass to everyone I care about, and they never see it's because I want to protect them. Sighing, I got up and unlocked my bedroom door. I strolled back to bed, hiding under the covers once more. I waited for a minute or so, until I heard the door click. I expected Light to come in, which he had, but I felt another presence. Another being was here with Light, in my room. But that being wasn't human. It was another vampire. I tossed the blankets off of my head and glared at the figure.

"Dexter." I said with a scowl, before hiding under my blankets again. I heard Dex tell Light, "Don't worry, I'll talk to her." Hmph bullshit he will.

Boop. Yes I updated. Dexter needs to calm himself...trying to talk to Kenz at such a time? PFF Good luck

anyway stay tuned and stay stellar, darlings~