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robin's hand flew to his cheek and looked at a shocked raven. he didn't know what to do much less say.
"i...oh my god i don't know what got over me i'm sorry" looking almost frantic raven enveloped herself in darkness and disappeared before robin could say anything. cyborg walked up to robin and slapped him in the back breaking him out of his stupor.
"what's wrong with you man?"robin touched his cheek again before answering.
"i don't know cy, i don't know.
i came to my room and quickly looked around frantic to get my emotions under control.
'wait' suddenly i froze and then i heard laughing coming from inside my head. glaring at no one in particular, i sat on my bed lotus style and, levitating, went into my inner world.(a/n: don't remember what its called so if you could help me that would be awesome.) in the center of a mars like world i called to her emotions.
"hey there raven how you been." it was happiness who asked as they all smiled even anger.
"it was you humor wasn't it?" for the first time i saw mischief in humor but that was impossible. they were each an emotion of me and all their actions and expressions where of that one emotion.
"actually for one no it wasn't humor?" that voice was strange and yet familiar to me and i turned to see me. well what looked like me, she had long hair where mine was short and wore a two piece bathing suit looking out fit with a cape and her color was red but not of anger but blood red like...lust.
"its not possible you can't be here" lust was an emotion i had long since thought gone. during my women days she would take over and try to mate with everything that moved. it had taken me years to control her and yet she still got stronger during those days. so i had no choice but to face her and banish her to the far ends of my inner world. but she was back and i knew there was something different about her.
"did you miss me my dear raven?" lust sauntered around me and i saw the same mischief in her as i did in humor. what was going on?
"what are you doing here?"i watched her ever step cautious of what ever move she made.
"well you see i was watching you and of what decisions you were making. now i think that that is unfair that you get to chose what is right or wrong...and they agree with me" she waved a hand to incorporate all the rest of the emotions.
"well there isn't much i can do about that because you all know that i can't let any of you out. you are all connected directly to my powers." lust smirked as if expecting me to say this.
"you see its all hers and i bet she will say we are hers as well." she turned away from me and looked at the other emotions and i saw the same emotion multiplied, anger. "we have the ability to be our own and control the power WE were given."
"no this is not possible we are all one part of one whole but to come together would set loose the power and given...Trigon the door her wants!" they seemed to simmer down and it gave me hope that i could put things back together. then a voice came form behind all my emotions and fear came forward.
"with joining comes completion and possible destruction and separation leads to self destruction and complete destruction of everything else. in the end everything leads to destruction. so what risk can we take and change the way things have been?" she looked at me and a sad expression crossed her face and i quickly looked for sadness and didn't see her. where was she? could it be possible that my emotions were merging together?
"please give me some time to figure out a way to make it all work." they all looked at each other but lust looked at me with defying eyes and i knew she would do anything to get her way. then bravery walked forward and addressed me.
"very well we will give you 3 days and if in those three days you don't consider us we will push but other than that we will leave you to think. then after the 3 days we will call you and if you haven't come up with anything we will take over." she stood stone faced in front of me and i could do nothing but admire how powerful she looked, this was me at times. nodding i turned to leave.
"what am i going to do?" i whispered to myself in despair. sighing i got up and headed for classes. after all i still wanted to finish school no matter what.
Later that night i sat in my room and paced furiously. what was i suppose to do? if i let them out my...our...the powers will get out of hand. i wanted to keep from being nothing but a destructive disaster. i sighed and thought about the day.
after my talk with my emotions i went through the day isolated and 'emotionless'. they had been telling the truth when they said they would leave me alone but...
a knock at my door brought me out of my thoughts, it was robin. i knew from his aurora and i knew he wanted to talk about what happened this morning. since i have been avoiding him all day i guess he had no choice but to get me when i was in my room.
sighing i got up and walked to the door, there wasn't any use putting it off.
"hey" robin looked at me with sincere happiness and it made my heart clench, so much for my emotions leaving me alone.
"what can i do for you?" for any other person i would have just said go away but robin was my friend and in this short time dear to me.
"i was wondering if we could talk" i could have easily told him i was too tired and he wouldn't have pushed but he deserved better so i opened my door and let him in.
"what is it you want to talk about?" as if i didn't know
"well first i wanted to know how your first day went" he smiled and i was dumbfounded that he would put me before his own curiosity.
"well...it was by fine kinda just like any other school classwork and homework as well." i smiled and looked as he laid back on my bed and crossed his arms behind his head.
"i remember wanting to get out of normal school and do something more exciting but that was probably because i was stuck in a private school. now i'm here and honestly i sometimes wish i could go back to that school. i mean don't get me wrong this place is awesome but i feel..." there was a sad expression on his face that made me want to go to him but i didn't.
'don't ignore us' came lust's warning in my head and i went and sat next to robin
"what is it you feel robin?" he looked at me and though i couldn't SEE his eyes i knew what they showed, fear. my deal with my emotions made them able to reach out and so i was stricken with feeling and laid a gentle hand on robin's cheek.
"i'm afraid raven" sensing the fear and hearing it in his voice were two different things. my heart clenched as he moved to lay his head in my lap and clenched my leotard in his hands.
"what are you afraid of robin?" i ran my hand through his hair soothingly as i didn't know what else to do.
"this...if i...become like br- batman...people's lives will be in my hands..." a sob came from him and i gasped in shock as i felt tears sting my eyes as well.
"don't worry that isn't for a while and by then you'll be ready.
"but-"
"just take things a step at a time" before i could blink he sat up and stared me in the eyes.
"that doesn't work what if i'm not prepare? what if i let someone die? what if i have to choose between two lives? i can't handle that! i'm not good enough! no one should depend on me as they did!" tear ran down the bottom of his mask and he dropped his head. who were 'they'?
"their lives were in my hands as well and i let them die. i wasn't good enough..." i put my hands in his shoulders and he looked up at me
"who robin?" my voice was a surprising soft
"my parents" he whispered on a sob and then brought me into a hug and did something i would never have thought possible, he cried.
ok i got really into this chapter. i liked it but i want to know what you all think and i'm sorry for not posting for a while but one school projects are piling up and two my computer has been giving me problems but i am on break now so i will do my best to write more but bear with me k?