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i sat looking at my dark wall and thinking hard about what life had surprised me with. looking down i sighed at robin's sleeping face. his head was on my lap and i was running my hand through his hair. he had fallen asleep after exposing his fears to me and i had not had the heart to wake him. it was only 9 so curfew would not be broken if i let him sleep a little while more.

he had lost his parents and blames himself for it. that was the sort of thing you don't tell many people so the fact that he told me said something. i was someone he trusted and it hurt me to know that i didn't deserve that trust. my fate was set and i would soon be the cause of hiss and everyone else's death. why was life so cruel?

"i don't deserve the trust that you give me" though i meant it to be a silent and unheard confession robin turned and looked at me.

"and why is that?" i was shocked that he wasn't asleep any more and a blush stained my cheeks so i had to look away. but his hand turned me back to look at him.

"i'm not a hero and i won't bring anything good to this world" i was ashamed of myself now and i didn't know what else to do but keep looking at him.

"no one is a hero raven there are only those who try to be and you don't know what you can bring to the planet. the future isn't set in stone and it is always changing." this time he was the one to caress my cheek. it was a lover's caress and for some reason i couldn't let myself feel like it was wrong.

"i know what i know...if you did you would hate me and you would have all the right." i can't say if that was the moment i fell in love with robin but it seems that was when my feelings for him went beyond friendship. he sat up and faced me and oh so slowly put my hands on his mask.

"i trust you with everything i am" i was about to pull away but he made me take hold of his mask and i knew he wanted me to do it. he wanted me to see him as he was and who he was. with shaking hands i pulled off the mask to reveal the most beautiful bright baby blue eyes.

my breath caught as i looked deep into those heavily expressive eyes. had i been told what this moment would lead to i would have never believed it. so much was going on in one day i was surprised something hadn't blown up. then something even more surprising happened, robin's face came close to mine. i knew what he wanted but could i let myself go like that? could i risk it? one look in his eyes and i could not stop myself.

i closed the gap between our mouths and was enveloped in a bombardment of feelings. a flame started from my lips and spread to the rest of my body and increased in intensity degree by slow degree. my hands wrapped around his neck and into his hair. his hands came to lay on my hips and the impossible happened, i became more hot. how was all this possible? i vaguely noticed that my powers weren't lashing out.

then my attention was brought back to robin as he gently nudged me to lay back on the bed. where would this go? would i let it go as far as it can go? he pulled back and i was gasping for air as he layed his on mine.

"raven...?" he asked as breathless as i was and my mind was a little clouded so it took me a while to answer.

"yes" i breathed out as i tried to focus but it was not easy with robin's body pressed against mine.

"will you...be...accept to be my...girlfriend?" a blush crossed over robin's cheeks and it took me a while to understand why and then my eyes widened as realization dawned on me.

"what?Why?" the questions came before i could think. well the what was plain to answer since i had heard him clearly and the why was as clear as day in his eyes. but could i do it?

'let us guide you that's what we are here for raven' wisdom's voice came into my head and i could feel all my emotions answer for me at once. tears ran down my face as sadness and fear cried out and a smile crossed as happiness and humor showed themselves.

"yes i will" was torn from my heart as love and lust forced themselves to be heard. not being able to hold back any more i pulled him into another kiss and i felt my powers cocoon us rather than lash out into the world.

could this really be happening? if it was a dream i didn't want it to end.

his hands roamed over my body slowly, trying to see if i was alright with what he did. i arched my back as he began to kiss down my neck and a moan escaped my lips. ecstasy took hold of my body and lust tried to take control but I wanted to experience this as myself and she was just a part of me. so i would take lead and she would be in with the rest of my emotions.

i can't say if i would have been able to stop myself that night but we did and that is what is important. a knock made us stop and come back down to earth and reality. my leotard was unzipped and almost exposed my chest and robin's cape was gone and his shirt was half way up. we were panting and so close, it burned when we breathed because our stomachs touched every time.

"he raven! sorry to interrupt but have you got an answer for the club thing!" robin groaned and buried his head in my chest causing me to half gasp and half moan.

"he has the worst timing ever"

ok now this is where things get rated M. now there will be lemons but i need to know if its too soon or what? and i'm thinking of bringing someone else into this story but don't know when and one last thing...what do you guys think so far? and critics? good or bad i don't care.