A/N: sorry for leaving you guys for so long but life has happened but I really want to finish this story and I plan to so here goes. Hope yall like it.
Chapter 15
Raven's motionless body floated above her hospital bed as it had been for the past two hours. Robin could be found in the room either sitting with his head bowed or pacing the length of the room. John had been trying to connect with Raven through a mental link but had found a barrier.
"She is battling something that we can not help her with. If we force ourselves into her mind we could very well kill her in the process." John expolained as he left the room about an hour ago.
So there was nothing left to do but wait and that scared Robin the most. He was powerless to help her. All he could do was pray and hope she would come out on top from whatever battle she was facing.
Red X's words played over in his mind as he sat in the room watching Raven's unchanging body. Could this be his fault for causing her to feel emotions? She never seemed to mind being around him or opening up to him. Was he wrong and was he forcing his emotions on her?
"You're thinking too much again man" Cy's voice filled the room as he closed the door behind him
"What else can I do, Cy?" Robin asked as he stood and ran a hanf through his hair in frustration.
"Well you could be looking for answers to what put Raven in this situation." Cy answered in a calm and serious tone.
"How do I do that exactly? Is there something on the internet or in books? No. We don't know anything...I don't know anything about her"Robin said the last part a little defeated. It hit him that he didn't know much about her or her past. Just from the point she came to earth to this moment in time. The time they spent together was spent talking about other things or just sitting in silence simply enjoying each other.
"Come on man there has to be something. I mean after all you are one of the GREATEST detectives in the world. You need to stop thinking with your heart for a moment and think with your head. Is there anything that you learned about her that could help?" Cy said as he watched Robin start to pace as he thought.
Robin pushed past all his guilt of this some how being his fault and started to think of all the things he had obsereved about Raven and all the things she had said. There had to be something there anything really, a clue or hint. Raven was always hinting at things even unintentionally as if wanting Robin to find out.
My powers are linked to my emotions so its hard for me to show any emotion. I once thought it was impossible for me to have a relationship because of it.
Raven's words rang through his mind as if she were saying them in person instead of in his memory. But still there was nothing that that memory could provide.
When my mother sent me to earth I was all alone with nothing but a cloak and this book. Everything I know is in these pages. I'd be lost without it and I wouldn't be able to control my powers.
Robin's eyes flew open as he remembered the book. Raven said it contained all she needed to know about her powers and such. Maybe there was an answer somewhere in there.
Without a word Robin sprinted out of the hopital room and towards Raven's room. Never in his mind did it occur to Robin that Raven had a bunch of books and many looked the same.
"Damn" Robin swore as he began to look for a book that had strange markings like the one Raven was reading when she told him that part about herself.
"What are you doing in Raven's room" Micheal's voice came from the door way as he switched on the lights. It didnt occur to Robin to do that since Raven always preferred to keep the lights off.
"I'm looking for something" Robin answered in a clipped professional tone.
"You have no right to be looking through her stuff" Micheal said in a angry tone
Robin stopped searching and stood to face Micheal. There was something in the other boy's eyes that put Robin on alert.
"Who are to dictate who has right and who doesn't?" Robin said as he eyed Micheal suspiciously
"I have known Raven far longer than you have. Do you actually think she loves you? I bet she doesn't even trust you enough to tell you where she comes from." Micheal said as a demented smirl appeared on his face.
It stung Robin that Micheal was right. Raven hadn't trusted him enough to tell him anything about her past. But they hadn't known each other that long so it wasn't set in stone that Raven wound't have told him.
"Look I don't have time for this" Robin said and turned back around to Raven's book shelf.
"I don't know what you did to her but I will get her out of here and away from you." Micheal said in a voice demonic in nature.
Robin spun around ready for a battle but he was alone in the room. Micheal's behavior was starting to worry Robin and his words sent a cold sense of forboding down his back. He had to find that book quickly but he had to make sure Micheal didn't get near Raven. He took out the communicator Cy had built and called Cy.
"Robin, man, where'd you go? You left like hell's hounds were on your tail" Cy said in a worried tone.
"I'm fine Cy just thought of something that could help Raven. I'm in her room but I need you to do me a favor." Robin said as he put another book down.
"What's up man?" Cy asked as he looked around to make sure no one could hear them.
"Micheal was just here and something tells me he ain't a good guy. Something's up with that guy and I just don't trust him. Just do me a favor and keep him away from Raven. Make up some excuse as to why he can't see her or something, alright?" Robin asked in a serious and worried tone
"Sure thing man" Cy answered without questioning Robin. At another time he would wonder if Robin was jealous but there was no hint of that in his voice which put Cyborg on alert.
"Just as soon as I find this book I'll be over there" with that said Robin cut the connection.
Robin stopped and thought about where Raven would put that book. It would have to be somewhere seperate from the other books. It was a special book so she had to have it somewhere where she knew she would be able to keep it safe. Then a smile came to Robin's face as the location dawned on him. He went over to her bed and plopped down on it and reached under the bed. His hand found a bag of oreos and then moved a little to the left and found a book. Robin pulled out the book to reveal the same book Raven had said her mother had given her.
Without thinkin about it he reached under the bed and grabbed a couple of oreos and left the room. Raven would want one when this whole ordeal was done.
Raven sighed in exasperation as she went through another one of her ideas to make her emotions happy. It was not going at all like she hopped and her emotions were not giving her any leeway.
"Ok if you guys aren't happy with what I say then how about you tell me exactly what you want and maybe we can meet in the middle. I mean if you are all about fairness then what I want should matter too, right?" Raven sat back with a smug smile on her face directed at lust who was not too happy since the other emotions were agreeing.
"FINE, we can make a compromise." Lust said as she held in her fire
"What we want is simple, Raven" intelligence spoke "We want freedom. We grow tired of living here in nevermore with nothing but glimpses of the real world."
Raven looked at everyone of her emotions and sighed. It was mainly her fault for giving each of her emotions a personification. She had thought it would be easier to control her emotions but it seems that they had taken on forms of their own. They were each a part of her and it was like she was imprisoning herself but now she wanted out.
"What can we do?" Raven asked her emotions as she realized she wanted the same thing they did but she just didn't know how to do it. Her emotions were happy with her that she had finally seen their way but lust was not so happy. She wanted complete control and she would have it.
"NO" lust screeched as she rose from her seat and her eyes became black as night. It was as if anger was now fully enraged but anger was sitting at the end of the line but she seemed to be in pain.
"She is sucking me away into her. She is merging us" Anger cried out as she doubled over and clutched her abdomen in pain.
"Bravery!" Raven called to her and extended her arm out so bravery could lend her the strength and emotion of bravery. Bravery took Raven's arm without hesitation and disappeared. Then without thinking about it, Raven took hold of Anger's arm before she could disappear and then stood before her emotions as bravery and half of anger took hold of her.
Lust was still merged with part of anger. A demonic laugh came from Lust's throat as she looked at Raven.
"You can not win Raven. I have Read the book and even if you take me in under your control as your emotion I will end up in nevermore again. Then I will take form again and this story will repeat itself until your 16 birthday when you become the portal." Lust declared and let lose another demonic laugh. Raven was stricken with a little fear. Would she really become the portal? Could she win this battle? Even if she did, was it worth it?
"Raven! Don't listen to her! She is just trying to conflict us" Intelligence shourted over the roar of Lust.
"Too late" Lust growled and sprang forwards with her claws extended and aimed at Raven's throat.
Robin almost threw the book against the wall of the hospital room but decided against it. The book was in a language that he didn't know. John was in the JL space tower and was on the verge of being sent to another planet on a mission. There was no one else who could help now. Things didn't seem to be getting better. To top it off Raven had started convulsing and getting random injuries out of no where. First it was the cut on her neck then it was a gash on her arm and soon Cy had to stay by her side and watch for any other injuries that might pop up.
"Damn it" Robin said for the millionth time as he looked at the page again as if he would learn the language magically. His frustration was so great he was holding the book in a death grip.
"Don't hurt yourself man" Cy said from his spot next to Raven
Just as Cy said that, Robin cut his finger on a page as he was going to turn it.
"Too late" Robin mumbled as he examined the cut. A drop of blood fell from his finger and landed on the page but instead of leaving a mark, the page absorbed the drop.
Robin looked at the page suspisiously now and watched as his finger healed as well. While he was distracted with the magic of his cut being gone, he didn't see the words on the page move and form a circle. There was a sudden ringing in Robin's ears causing him clutched one ear with his free hand and look down at the page. When his eyes connected with the center of the circle there was a flash of light and he was blinded as if a camera had just flashed.
The ringing stopped and Robin could close his eyes which he didn't notice he couldn't close when the light clinded him. He rubbed his closed eyes with his free hand to try and get the spots to stop appearing. When he opened his eyes he saw that the circle was gone and the words were back into sentences. Apart from that being really strange nothing seemed to have changed maybe the book had taken a picture so it could show Raven who had messed with her book.
Robin almost laughed at his silly thoughts. Then he looked at the book in resignation there was nothing in here that would help.
Meditation for the novince: ways to start successful meditaion
Robin didn't need to learn how to meditate...
"Holy Sh...!" Robin clamped a hand over his mouth as he reread the sentence and then closed the book and loo ked up to see Cy looking at him as if he were insane.
"Sorry" Robin said as Cy tured back to Raven.
Robin opened the book again and decided he better pretend nothing strange had happened for now. He opened the book to the glossary and hopped he could find something useful.
Meditaion...p.24
first spells...p.85
levitaion...p.96
Robin saw this book had over a thousand pages so he decided to skip to the second page of the three page glossary.
Spirit projection...p.300
emotional merging...p.357
revolting emotions...p.468
Robin paused when he saw this page. When Red X had spoken he had said her emotions were the issue and maybe that was what was going on. He turned to that page and began to read.
In the even that the personified emotions start to take on seeming their own personalities you are not to confront them. You are all one and the same and any damage done to them will be reflected on your own body. At this point it is safe to say you have turned your inner world into a prison for yourself and therefore your emotions are trying to set you free. Your emotions are instinct as you have already read. Therefore, their job is already ingrained in them. They are to keep you alive and stable so as to not destroy yourself.
The revolting of your emotions will continue unless you find and Anchor. Your anchor will be a person who need to understand you and your powers. They need to accept the job of an Anchor which is to be guard so to speak for your powers and keep them at bay. (Anchor on page 500). If Anchor is not found in time one may have to battle revolting emotions and risk destroying ones self.
Robin was a little confused since he didn't read the previous pages but he had a pretty good idea what was going on and he was prepared to be the Anchor Raven needed.
Anchors
When an Anchor is found one must perform the bestowing of one's mark on the Anchor. This will prevent any other from claiming the Anchor. The job of the Anchor is to allow for emotions to have 'space to breath' and the Anchor holds back the power that would be let loose otherwise. They are gaurds of power and need to be taught discipline and must have a strong enough mind as to not allow the whispers of power to slip in.
A bond must be made with the Anchor in order to make the Anchor and Anchor but if one is in the coma state it is the Anchor's job to perform that bond.
The bond process is done in reverse roles but that would give the Anchor the ability to control temporarily or stip the powers away from their charge.
BONDING PROCESS:...
Robin threw the book this time after he saw that the bonding process had been ripped out of the book. Someon knew about the book and the things that were going on right now because raven wouldn't rip a page out of her book. But who could have done it? Then it hit Robin, Micheal.
"Damn it!" Robin said as he moved to stand next to Raven.
"What's the matter?" Cy asked as he wrapped Raven's forearm.
"I need you to go find Micheal. I think he knows more about what's going on then he has let us believe. I'd go but I might kill him if I get my hands on him." Robin said as he clenched his hands into fists and willed himself to be calm.
"Alright" Cy said without question and decided he would get Micheal and take him to the Bats and expain to Batman what Robin had said.
As soon as Cy left the room Robin thought about how he was going to find that missing paper. Maybe Micheal had read it and memorised it then burned it in an attempt to be Raven's anchor. Would Raven want Micheal to be her Anchor?
Before Robin could go into another mental questionaire, there was an explosion which threw him against the opposite wall. Raven's body landed ontop of him and knocked the wind out of him. The smoke from the wall where the windows were was clearing to reveal a figure. It was Red X who stood there with a x-shaped weapon.
"I've come for MY Raven." Red X Said in a sickly dark voice.
A/N: sorry for the long wait but I have a LOT of free time now and can write so much more.