, "Usui are you blushi…." But she was cut off by Usui kissing her passionately. Misaki gave in and wrapped her arms around his neck; they both fell back onto the bed and continued their kissing. Usui licked her lips and she gladly accepted….after they parted Usui lay Misaki down on the bed and kissed her cheek, then he lay down next to her and wrapped his arms protectively around her. Misaki held onto his hand tightly as she fell into a deep sleep. Usui closed the light and gently lay back down in his position, he intertwined their fingers together then he whispered, "Misaki I have to say something, about my secret…I-I was the reason for someone's disability…
Sorry i didn't upload yesterday that's because i wanted to make this longer and i sort of had writers block about Usui's back story but i have been cured now so no worries :D hey guys i want to tell you something i was voted class rep this means i work closely along side school council and that alone just reminds me of Misaki so that makes me happy i might be able to become part of school council next time or something but for now i'm good with being class rep this means i'm sort of like a class council :D lol well enough about my boring life how are you all? Well not to keep you guys waiting disclaimer : i don't own maid sama Hiro Fujiwara does now onto the story xxx
"What? Your joking right heheh" Misaki mumbled in her sleep, Usui's eyes widened, did she hear all that? But seeing Misaki's eyes closed and sleeping reassured Usui. He sighed, "seriously Misaki…you know how to worry me" Usui lay his head back down and he kissed her forehead. That night Usui couldn't sleep, his mind was filled with images and thoughts of Misaki finding out and then hating him. The more he thought of it the more it made him realize of what he had done, and the guilt torn him apart, "Misaki I can't do it! I can't tell you I'm too scared I'm scared of losing you I'm scared of leaving you I'm scared of loneliness, I need you by my side I need you here! I'm being pathetic and a coward but that's what I am without you I'm nothing but a useless pathetic man." Usui stood up and released himself from her hands. "I love you Misaki but I need to think…it's not right me not telling you this" Usui kissed her cheek once more before leaving the room to go downstairs and think. Misaki just distracted him by being by his side.
Usui P.O.V
I opened the door to the living room and sat down. What am I going to do,she nearly found out…actually she has to find out I can't keep this from her! I mean I did that! I hurt someone I ruined their live I don't deserve happiness, since Misaki is my happiness I don't deserve her, so I have to tell her, and if she ends up leaving me then that's my fault and I have no one to blame. But how can you forget about happiness so fast! How before I did it to save her family then it was easy my decision was easy compared to this, this, this is torture why does everything have to end up like this so complicated, cant anyone see that I love her I love that male-hating, strict, strong girl I love her! Argh now that I know I might lose her it's much harder. But what can I do…i-I don't want to lose her, I don't want to lose you Misaki, I could feel tears rolling down my cheek but I really wasn't bothered to wipe them, I let them roll down and hit the floor. I really couldn't control it anymore, that girl she messed me up, I hadn't cried in such a long time, even when I was young I never cried instead I kept it all in but from the day I met her my live changed. Argh I really don't know anything anymore…all I know is I have to tell her soon before Gerard tells her.
Misaki P.O.V
Dreaming
Usui lifted me and carried me down the stairs I tried to protest but he wouldn't listen, "Usui let me go please or I'll hit you really hard idiot" Suddenly Usui let me go and he sat me down on the floor "Misaki I have to tell you something" Stated Usui looking sad. I nodded for him to carry on. "I-I was the reason for someone's disability." Somehow I found it kind of funny, Usui the reason for someone's disability, now if you think about it it's kind of funny because Usui is so careful he barley comes close to anyone and he's always so calm and collected so that would be close to impossible, in fact it is. Suddenly I started to chuckle, "Usui you big idiot you're kidding right" Usui shook his head his eyes were staring deeply into my very own. I quivered under his stare, his eyes where so dark it was like looking into a black whole. No I didn't want this! I hated this, his eyes where so deep so dark, no I want Usui back my normal teasing and caring Usui!
Dream end
I woke up in the middle of the night, sweat running from my forehead, my hair and neck was wet I feel like I was running hours on end on the freaking sun! What's up with that? Wait was it because of that dream? How come I dreamt about something like that? Seems very unlikely for something like that to happen, I turned around but the space next to me was empty, huh? I sat up, what was going on? Where was Usui? I thought he slept here because I was scared…wait was that just an excuse to sleep next to me…that pervert I will kill him!...but actually it doesn't seem like Usui to do something like that, I started to think about my dream, Usui he said "he was the reason for someone's disability" what is that supposed to mean, isn't it true that dreams mean something and that they can predict the future….i wonder…Usui what's going on?
Isn't it easy he is hiding something from you…us
What would that be though?
Well listen to your instincts…you dreamt about him telling you he was the reason for someone's disability
And?
Well work from then on idiot!
What do you mean? It was just a dream
Argh listen to me this is definitely a weird dream so it definitely must mean something!
Well I get that but...
Oh hey which part of the movie was your favourite?
What?!
Eh I said which part of the mov….
No I heard you! But what the hell I'm trying to forget about the movie
Oh right I'm sorry…I'll just tell you mine, it was when they showed the flashback of the girl stabbing
I said don't remind me! I hate that movie!
Ok I'm sorry well I should get going that movie scared me and I want to go to sleep so goodnight!
Wait! Don't leave now that you reminded me! Argh have I mentioned I hate this part of me.
Normal P.O.V
Living room
Misaki's mind soon was filled with scary thoughts of that movie so she quickly ran out of her room in search for Usui. She looked in all the rooms and even checked outside the bathroom, then she went into the kitchen and found no one so a last she went into the living room, luckily she found Usui sitting on the floor deep in thoughts, Misaki mumbled his name, "Usui" Usui looked up and saw Misaki sweating and obviously her heart was racing. Her hair was sticking to her face slightly and you could see that she was trembling slightly. Usui opened his arms motioning for her to come over; Misaki obeyed and started to walk until she was safely in his arms. "Usui why…" Usui hugged her, "I'm sorry Misaki I just came her to think" Misaki looked up, "about what?" Usui smiled sadly, "nothing don't worry about it" Misaki released herself from his arms and looked down her eyes where covered with a curtain of her hair, Usui tried to lift her chin up so she would face him but Misaki pushed his hand away. Usui sighed," what's wrong?" Misaki shook her head, "nothing" but she still didn't want to look into his eyes.
Usui had enough it was clear something was bothering her, so he gently pushed her on the floor and then he trapped her with his arms, his hands where placed firmly against hers. "Misaki tell me what's wrong?" Usui asked seriousness in his tone. Misaki forced a smile, "nothing" replied Misaki, "now get off me you're heavy!" Misaki tried to loosen his grip on hers but it was no use, it was like trying to push a mountain. Usui lowered himself to kiss her, "do you think I'm that much of an idiot!" Exclaimed Usui, "Tell me Misaki what's wrong?" Repeated Usui, but this time gently. "You want to know! Ok I'll tell you, Usui what's wrong with you?" Usui's eyes widened, "what noth…" But Misaki interrupted him, "no Usui let me finish! What's wrong? What are you hiding from me! And why are you hiding it? Aren't couples meant to tell each other everything…well most things! Why is it that I have to tell you what's wrong with me, but with you it's different why? When I ask you do you shove it aside with a simple "nothing" or "I'll tell you later" why is it that you can see when I'm sad or worried but when I see it with you and I ask you, you push it aside? Why can you force me to tell you something but I can't!" Misaki exclaimed out of breath. Usui's eyes widened he suspected something along those lines but not that bad. Usui released Misaki and he sat back up.
"ok I'll tell you" Misaki sat up "thank you" Usui turned around to face her and he began, "well there's no point in hiding it any longer since you were going to find out anyway…either from me or from Gerard" Usui sighed, "ok when you were asleep I said something…did you hear any of it?" Usui asked checking with her. "No I didn't why? Was it important?" Usui nodded, "yeah it was, well since you didn't hear it the first time I'll repeat myself…Misaki I-I was the reason for someone's disability" Usui looked into her eyes too see any clues or hints as to what she was feeling. But Misaki was confused, "huh? Usui what are you talking about! And déjà vu!" exclaimed Misaki, Usui looked bewildered, "huh?" "Well I remember you saying this before…but where…I mean I don't remember much but all I remember where those words…oh yeah it was in my dream! I dreamt about you telling me this? Wait how?" Misaki scratched her head in confusion, "Well it might be that you were half asleep when I said it and thus you ended up dreaming about it" replied Usui. "Usui seriously stop joking around you said that in my dream, now tell me what's really bothering you" Stated Misaki. Usui shook his head, "I'm telling you the truth why would I lie to you…now please listen to me" Misaki stood up, "no this is a lie I'm sleeping right now! Usui isn't like that he wouldn't I don't believe you I'm going back upstairs!" exclaimed Misaki turning around to go but just in time Usui grabbed her arm and pulled her back into his arms he placed her in between his legs and he wrapped his arms around her, "Misaki listen to me! I won't let go of you until you calm down" explained Usui, Misaki tried to loosen his grip but it was no use, "Usui let me go! Please this isn't like you, Usui wouldn't do something like that" protested Misaki. "Do you think I wanted to tell you? I didn't because I knew I would lose you! But please just listen to me before you make me leave you" Misaki suddenly found herself relaxing in his arms, Usui smiled, "thank you Misaki ok here goes…I was the reason for someone's disability, when I was younger, about four I was told my mom had died and that's why I had to live with my family from my mom's side. When I was five I was told I didn't have a father and that my mom gave birth to an illegitimate child, and that my mother had an affair with my father who apparently was described as "dirt" Well you would have guessed I was shocked, who wouldn't I was just told my mother had an affair and that she had died and I had not father what kid would be able to take all that in, I didn't cry not a single tear but I do remember just walking away and I left the house I kept walking and walking for as long as I could I walked for about 26 meters." Misaki was shocked, 26 meters! For a kid who was five! Seriously Usui is no human. "Along the way back I met this boy who was about the same age as me. He was walking with his mum and I think his little sister, I think he called for me but I'm not really sure, although he did tap my shoulder and he said, "Yo where's your mom?" and I answered honestly, "she's dead" I guess the boy couldn't take it in and he started to cry…don't know why really since he had a mom but maybe because he felt sympathy; I don't know anyway his mom came around and asked me why he was crying and if I mentioned their father or something! At this point I was kind of annoyed but I kept it in like all my other feelings, "no" I replied but I guess she didn't believe me since she slapped me for some reason It didn't hurt really but I guess that sort of worsened my situation; so I looked at the boy and said, "tell your mom to keep her hands off me" and I walked away. When there was a crossing I heard the same boy call my name and run towards me, I ignored him and carried on walking I really didn't want to associate with that family, I tried to walk away I really did but that kid obviously didn't understand. As I reached the end of the crossing I heard the mom shout, "No come back that child is filthy his mom is a ****" I knew the word what she said and I didn't like it yeah I know what my mom did was wrong but I didn't want to hear that from a kid beater so I turned around to tell her she shouldn't say stuff like that and I guess seeing her face turned on a switch since I started to feel so much rage, maybe it's because I just found out my mom had an affair or something like that so I walked back to that women and told her off, "you know you really shouldn't say things like that since I could tell the police you slapped me and I'm not related to you in any kind of way and that's against the law so you better apologize" I guess she was scared and amazed at the same time, because what kid knows about the law at the age of five? Anyways that kid stopped crying but he didn't seem to like it that I had scolded his mom so he pushed me and I guess I couldn't take it so I pushed him back and he fell down, I must have accidently pushed him too hard since he ended up right by the edge of the road, suddenly out of the corner of my eye I saw a car speed up and it hit his legs, his legs where bend backwards and they were flattened out, his mom started to scream as she ran towards him, she turned around and swore at me and she said some filthy things that I won't mention because Misaki will learn these bad words and your mom won't like that, after that I walked back home, I didn't want to worsen the situation by me being there I'm definitely sure that kid didn't die but he was unable to walk ever again, it turned out I ruined his dream of becoming a runner I did try to see him and apologize but his mom hates me and she would probably kill me if I came 1m close to any of them." Usui finally finished his story, while Misaki was dumbstruck, she didn't know what to say, Usui though that meant that she hated him so much she couldn't speak so he released her and he stood up, "I'm sorry Misaki I didn't want you to find out, I regret doing what I did but the biggest regret I'll have is put you through this, Misaki understand that I still love you and I will always but after hearing that I wouldn't be surprised if you hated me completely…I have to go I can't stay here knowing you hate me…but I'll call Sakura and Shizuko to come here so that you can be with someone who can protect you or keep you company." Usui walked towards Misaki and kissed her one last time before walking away…the same way he did 13 years ago, a single tear slid down his face, it really is true he will only cry when Misaki is involved… as he reached the door he felt Misaki grab his sleeve, "Usui"….
What will Misaki's answer be?
So? What do you think? i tried quite hard on the past story i was going to make it that he was running on the road and a drunken man hits him but then he probably would have died since we aren't all like Usui so i kind of made it slightly different anyway is this version better or should i have done it so that a drunken man crashed into him? Well you can tell me on your reviews :D
Misaki : what?!
Usui : that did not even happen!
Miako : oh shush it's meant to happen in this story
Usui : what story this is like a unrealistic dream of yours!
Miako : well see me do anything for you guys again! since if you havent noticed i'm the author!
Usui : ok fine i'm sorry please continue with your amazing writing *bow*
Miako : no need for sarcasm! Oh that reminds me Misaki 2000yen please
Usui : yeah me too since we did win the bet
Misaki : argh i forgot but that's not fair!
Usui : how is it not fair all those lovely readers voted for number 1 thank you btw
Miako : right so cough up some money and i told you all of us know that you enjoy Usui teasing you!
Misaki : but i don't! look fine here *gives 4000yen to Miako and Usui*
Miako : oh please save it for someone who doesn't know you two
Honoka : i keep saying that but nobody listens! Oh Misaki did you watch that movie with the girl who stabbed her mom and in return gets haunted i loved that movie
Misaki : argh! why do i keep on having to be reminded...wait
Usui, Misaki, Miako : Honoka!?