This chapter is.. Q_Q no I wont spoil. It's gonna be (most of it) in ! Kanda POV ! because.. I think that would make it a little more sad.. well.. I dunno. / Sorry I've been sick for three days. I wanted to post but neh. I felt like I was dying XD gosh.. so much homework to make b_b our mathematics teacher seriously thinks we got the time of the world -.- On friday evening (the 17th) I had a gala, and my feet hurt like shit. Blisters people.. BLISTERS EVERYWHERE!

And, I'm an idiot for forgetting I had to finish this x_x well here, enjoy

Three weeks passed.

I didn't realize what was going on, but before I knew it, I failed. I failed as his lover. I definitely won't be able to face him when he wakes up, will he even wake up? I don't know. I also didn't realize, the complete situation made me feel empty inside. I turned my phone off. The spam calls of Lenalee and Lavi were becoming annoying. I didn't want to see anyone. Or hear anyone. I accidentally threw Allen's outside of the window. Well, fuck it. I'll buy him a new one if he awakens. Couldn't help myself, it was fucking vibrating the whole time, I didn't really knew how to work with a touchscreen, nor do I care. Che. Screw Iphones, or was it a Samsung? I DON'T CARE. This is pissing me off badly.

I sat down on a chair next to the bed to watch my lover. I couldn't bear to see his facial expressions. They hit me right in the heart.

"Aren..", I whispered to him, as I gently caressed my hand through his hair. He had suffered way too much, there's nothing I could do about it. All I could do was sit here and watch. I haven't slept for.. how many nights? Well, I don't know. When he looked a bit peaceful, it gave me the opportunity to prepare myself some food, or take a shower. I haven't told anyone yet, I haven't planned to do so either. I put both of us on 'absent'. I don't care, how long it takes. Sometimes I had been so tired I just fell asleep. I.. I'm sorry, Allen when that happens. It's my duty to watch over you, yet I failed. I failed in so many things. I hurt you and I only bring you pain.

I'm sorry for not being good at socializing. I simply do not carry an interest for other people, just you. With you, I have always felt like I didn't need anything or anyone else.

Allen, all of me belongs to you. Your pained face hurt my heart and slowly destroyed my mind. Am I even alive? I wonder how long I still need to comfort you when the nightmare gets worse. But even so, it doesn't matter how long. I'll be here forever. I've got no intention to betray you, not now, never.

I got hold of the cup of tea, and took a couple of sips. It became cold. Hmph. It's almost as cold as my heart. I knew I was a jerk, a cold-hearted fool that was head over heels for you, but.. now that you're in a ragged state like this I am not able to show you I love you. I never even had gotten the chance to tell you I love you. Che. I'm pathetic.

Why does the tea taste so bad..? I started to think about Alma. I shouldn't jump to conclusions too fast, since he asked about him when he came to his senses three weeks ago. I can't believe Alma is not involved. If he was, I'll definitely kill him. Wait.. what? What's this tension I'm feeling in the air..? I sharpened my senses as I concentrated on the ominous air that seemed to be present in the room.

I don't know what, but something about it stank.

~A piece out of Kanda's past~

"Wooah! Yuu! Look I caught a bug!"

The little Alma playfully ran around the garden. He was excited showing Kanda the ladybug he caught from a bush. Hoping the bug wouldn't escape, he held it captivated between his tiny hands.

Kanda felt a little bit irritated. He decided to take a short break and sat down on the ground, placing the wooden katana next to him. "Didn't I tell you not to interfere when I am training? I still don't get why you're focusing your attention on me."

"Why wouldn't I? I mean, you are quite fun", Alma joined him. He showed the bug at the annoyed boy, "Look! It's so red. What do they call these bugs again..? Neh, Yuu, do you know?"

Kanda raised an eyebrow. He didn't get why someone would find such enjoyment out of a mere caught bug.

"A ladybug?", he answered him.

"Wooh, as expected of you! You're not only fun, you're also smart!"

"Che. Don't make me laugh. Were you taking me for a fool, then?", Kanda gave the enthusiastic boy a cold glare.

Alma laughed. Kanda's harsh and cold comments weren't affecting him, strangely. They never affected him. "No, of course not! Actually, I've been thinking.. no! I've made up my mind! When I grow up, I want to become like you! Because.. you are cool and you are strong! Oh, and you are also pretty! I don't really get it myself but, your hair is so long, I want that too! Neh, will you please give me a demonstration with the katana? Or perhaps.. could you teach me?"

The ladybug fled, which made Alma a little disappointed.

"Do whatever you want.., but it requires alot of practice, probably.. And oi, when are your parents leaving?", Kanda tried to choose his words carefully. He felt a little bit happy, knowing someone looked up to him.

But, he really didn't want to put effort in something that was futile.

"Why aren't they at school? It's been three weeks already! Komui won't share us any details either!"

Lavi sucked like a kid on the straw of his orange juice. He was a little frustrated about the situation. Not having seen Kanda or Allen for three whole weeks was quite disturbing. He thought something must've happened, but they wouldn't answer the phone or open the door. Not even Lenalee could.

The girl looked a little worried. "I wonder, Lavi. I don't want to lose them again.. what if Leverr-"

"No. Stop. Don't talk about hitler here maaan!", Lavi sighed. "Look, I explained you the details about Kanda and Allen right. About them.. what.. they actually are.. and the situation with Allen's arm. What if something happened between them.., and went hiding..?! Or the aliens invaded planet earth to take them away.. OH GOD, LENALEE!", Lavi started to panic.

Lenalee hit him on the head with magazine she took out of her bag. "Moh, cut it out already! You're giving me the chills. Maybe we need to stop by and kick their door down!"

"Ouch! What was that for? Yeah, and who will repair that door, plus pay for the damage? Me? NO WAY LENALEE, YOU'RE INSANE! Bookman will literally kill me! For now, let's just check out their apartments or something by peeking through a window.. somehow.. Since I live in the same building, I've already pressed on the doorbells an enormous amount of times, no one answered. Are they even there?", the red-head threw the empty juice carton behind him.

"Lavi, you do realize that it's nearly impossible looking through a window from the outside? It's super high! You're the insane one here, not me! More importantly, CLEAN YOUR TRASH! Are you a little child?!", the girl scolded him.

"Okay okay Lenalee! Now you can stop acting like my mom-"

"WHAT?!"

Lavi soon enough received three more hits on his head with the magazine.

"Ow ow ow! Jesus, Lenalee! Cut it out!", Conclusion! She's not only violent, she's.. a devil!