Am I worthy to love you?

by Gravenimage

Naruto is rejected by Sakura for bringing Sasuke back to Konoha and he snaps at her badly he leaves the village 5 years later he becomes the leader of the strongest team of kunoichi assemble team Kitsune Flash rises Naru/Saku/Ino/Hina lemons in the future

4. Revelation and bad meditating exercise

Chapter 4 Revelation and bad meditating exercise

Disclaimer: I guess I don't own Naruto because I'm not Masashi Kishimoto.

Authors Notes: hey thanks to everyone for all of your reviews let's see how many…HOLY CRAP one hundred twenty eight reviews, I guess this story has become popular. They are still people who still can't believe that this is a Naru/Saku story well it is, also they are people that are telling me that Sakura doesn't deserve Naruto because what she did to him stop complaining about that people. I admit to say what Sakura did to Naruto was unforgivable but believe me Sakura will sweat and bleed to try to get Naruto's friendship once again. Another thing is that Sakura will suffer a lot because of the great guilt she feels, oh yes she will suffer as much as Naruto did no I don't enjoy putting Sakura through so much hell but she had it coming for treating him like crap. In the end all the pain she will go through will be worthy, remember that we all make mistakes and we always hurt the ones we love.

But enough of that its time to see the results for the pairings so far here it is

Naru/Saku- 32

Naru/Saku/Ino- 12

Naru/Saku/Ino/Hina- 32

There you have it people, keep voting because this will be your last chance to vote next chapter I'm closing the poll thank you now on with the chapter.

(Time skip: three months later somewhere in lighting country territory)

Naruto and Jiraiya were traveling the high road of the lighting country, the lighting country was well known for having lots of mountains meaning that that the traveling includes climbing peaks. Naruto and Jiraiya have been traveling nonstop along with climbing a few peaks, Naruto was exhausted but he knew this was part of the training he couldn't let this get to him. Over the past months the training with the toad sanin was no walk in the park, he was still being beaten badly when they were in one of their sparing matches but slowly he was progressing in the training. He found out that his element affinity is wind making him suitable to perform wind element jutsus, Jiraiya has been putting him in molding chakra exercises a lot in a point that will completely annoy him till no end. Another thing that annoyed him was the fact that they were sleeping too often in the outdoors, he missed sleeping in a bed from an inn now and then and it was for the same reason as always Jiraiya didn't had any money because he was always wasting it on women and sake.

They were lucky enough to fight against a couple of weak missing nins earning some money for their capture at least they were worth for something, they manage to stay in a few inns but the money was spend rather quickly thanks to the toad sanin for wasting it on women and sake. Needless to say that Naruto was satisfied with how the training was going, he was expecting that Jiraiya will be wasting his time trying to do his so called research but he was wrong, the toad sanin was focusing on his training more than his peeping research which shocked the blond a lot. Now he was struggling in walking a long hill with the sanin, now he knew why he chose to travel to the lighting country walking hills up and down was a good resource for exercise it was all part of the training so he didn't complained. Over the months he decided to only focus on his training and not to think about how much he missed Konoha, his friends from the rookie he really missed them except for a certain pink haired genin.

He didn't wanted to think of her, as far as he was concerned he wanted to forget the fact that he knows a kunoichi by the name of Haruno Sakura, right now the only thing that matters to him is getting strong and continued to fight for his lifelong dream. Even he really wanted to forget her he couldn't, he admitted that he missed her too even after everything she has done to him he still cared for him. He erased those thoughts and focus on walking the hill, his training was more important than thinking about the past with the pink haired kunoichi.

Jiraiya took a glance at his blond student and smile; he has been slowly progressing in the training even if he was still a long way to go, he could that little by little he was getting stronger. Another thing he was glad about is the fact that he was acting like his normal self again which was good, of course thing weren't so good with him. During the three months they have been traveling Naruto enter into a depressed state whenever the name of Sakura was mentioned to him, he couldn't blame him he was still hurt for what happened back at Konoha hospital hopefully the training will help him forget the heartbreaking incident. He did make one important mental note, to never mention Sakura's name again or his student will go to his depressed mode.

He sighed happily as he continued to walk the hill with Naruto, it's been a while since he has come to the lighting country they were almost to their destination for their next training exercise. After ten minutes they have finally walked all the way to the top of the hill, they were now in a small valley there was a large waterfall a small forest and another waterfall a few kilometers from their current location. He smiled gazing in the distance at the direction where the other water fall was, he smile while having a perverted dream.

(This place sure brings back memories I'm sure that women still come to the other waterfall to bathe, yes research material) he cleared his throat" all right Naruto drop your bags we have finally arrived take a short rest"

Naruto sighed in relief as he put down his back pack and lie down on the ground feeling tire from all of the nonstop walking, he panted" about time pervy hermit we've been traveling for days without taking a rest or staying the night on a inn"

A vein pop on the toad's sanins forehead" what do you call me Naruto?"

"I called you pervy hermit I figure that calling you perverted hermit is too long to say, so I decided to called you from now on pervy hermit or pervy sage whichever you prefer"

Jiraiya sweat dropped" I would like if you call me sensei or Jiraiya sensei anything BUT those two"

"Nah those two suits you fine, if you don't want to chose I will chose it for you pervy hermit" he made his fox grin while the toad sanin was sweat dropping at his comment.

"Impudent brat is that any way to treat your teacher the man who's going to make you strong?"

"Hey it's not my fault that you're a pervert, if you stop being one then I will properly call you sensei"

"Heh, fat chance brat that's not going to happen I am a super pervert" he said proudly.

"Fine then I will keep on calling you pervy hermit" he crossed his arms.

(Sometimes he can be quite a smart ass)

"So pervy hermit what's going to be today? Are you going to teach me a new powerful jutsu more powerful than rasengan or are we going to have another sparring match because this time I'm ready I will beat you without using the sexy jutsu"

"Well since you're usual cherry mood I will tell you, today were going to have a chakra control exercise"

"WHAT NOT THAT AGAIN" Naruto feel down anime style and immediately got back up" oh come on pervy hermit we've been doing a lot of those exercises lately I am so sick of it"

The toad sanin sighed" Naruto you very well know that you're chakra control is terrible and it's important that you practice the chakra control exercise known as meditating more frequently than other ninjas"

The blond sighed" great and I got my hopes up that you were going to teach me a powerful jutsu"

"And how can I teach you a new jutsu when you don't have the proper chakra control to perform that jutsu, patience is one of the keys to success and you have to learn to have it"

Naruto finally gave up he knew he wasn't going to get out of this one" fine let's get this over with" he went to the ground and crossed his legs ready to start with the meditation.

"Hold it Naruto, today were going to have a new type of meditating one that you will find it quite challenging"

That got the blond ninjas attention" what do you mean a new type of meditating?"

"There is a reason why I chose this location to have the exercise Naruto" (aside from watching the girls bathe in the other waterfall) "this is the place where I used to meditate, the waterfall is a key element to the meditating exercise you're going to be doing….Naruto you'll be meditating under the waterfall"

Naruto sweat dropped" that's it meditating under a waterfall and you said it was going to challenging yeah right, I'll have this exercise mastered in no time"

Jiraiya smirk" all right if you say so now let me show you how are you going to be standing in the waterfall" he bit his thumb making some blood appear and form some hand seals" SUMMONING JUTSU"

POOF

When the smoke cleared a green medium size toad appeared" all right Naruto my friend here will take you to the waterfall and you'll meditate on top of his head while the water will hit your body, are you ready?"

"Piece of cake pervy hermit this will be too easy" he removed his orange jumpsuits and the rest of his clothes leaving him in his green boxers, while Jiraiya was smirking.

(We'll see about that you're going to find out that is not as easy as you think)

Naruto got on top of the head of the toad, the toad swam all the way to the waterfall and even before he got in his meditating position the water hit his body and his reaction was unexpected.

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THAT'S FREAKING " he fell from the toad and hit the lake" AAAAAAAHHHHHHH ITS DAMN IT"

The toad caught him and brought him back to Jiraiya" it's not going to be so easy Naruto, I guess I forgot to tell you that the water temperature in these parts is a little low"

Naruto was shivering from being in the cold water" only a little, ARE YOU CRAZY you want me to meditate while my body is being hit by COLD water that's….that's impossible"

"Believe it or not but the cold water will help you concentrate in focusing your chakra, I know it's cold but once you get used to it you'll be fine"

"Look pervy hermit that water is cold ICE COLD, the second the water hits my body it feels horrible like my whole body is being hit by a dozen needles it's impossible to meditate while having so much cold water hitting your body"

The toad sanin sighed" fine Naruto I will show you so you get the idea all right" he but his thumb making hand seals with his blood" SUMMONING JUTSU"

POOF

Another toad appeared in the same size as the green one but it was colored bright yellow, Jiraiya took off his coal and fish net until he was shirtless he got on top of the head of the toad" now watch closely"

Naruto watched as the toad headed to the waterfall and his mouth was wide open at the sight before him, Jiraiya was meditating and the cold water was hitting his body but he was acting normal like it was nothing. Jiraiya stood meditating in the cold water for ten minutes and Naruto couldn't still believe what he was seeing, the toad brought him back while the blond was still shocked at what he just saw.

"You see that's how you do it"

"H….how do you do it you were just standing there with the cold water hitting you and you didn't even reacted"

"It takes practice but my advice is to ignore the cold and just focus on the meditation"

"Ignore the cold are you kidding that water is freaking cold, how do you expect me to meditate without feeling the cold water it's not just possible"

"Whoa hold it I didn't said anything about not feeling the cold of course you will feel the cold water, but believe it or not the cold water helps you focus on the meditation and the more relax you are the more chakra you can gather and control this is the best exercise for chakra control"

"Damn I can't believe I have to do this exercise I preferred anything but this" he sighed.

"Stop whining you need this a lot Naruto, on the other hand if you have perfect chakra control like your teammate Sakura there was no need for you to do this exercise at all and……oh crap Naruto"

He sweat dropped realizing that he just said the forbidden word, mentioning the pink haired kunoichi's name Naruto went to his depressed mode sulking in a corner. He saw a dark cloud getting near him and started raining on him, although he was back to normal he still couldn't forget what happened at Konoha hospital.

(I really have to be careful not to mentioned Sakura's name anymore, her name is taboo for Naruto) he sighed" that's enough Naruto let's continue with the exercise, do it again and this time I will be with you"

The rain cloud vanish while the blond got back up and nodded, he was finally out of his depressed mode" right I'm ready" he climb up to the green toads head.

Jiraiya and his toad went back to the waterfall going to his meditate position, Naruto followed on his toad he touch the cold water of the waterfall" AH GOD DAMN IT THAT'S COLD………." he felt from the toad hitting the water of the lake and left running like crazy" AH IT'S TOO COOOLLLLLLDDDDDDD…"

The toad sanin sweat dropped while sighing (this is going to be a LONG day)

Konoha library (fire country territory)

Sakura was picking a couple of books about medicine; this was part of her training with Tsunade she has asked her to pick all kinds of books about the human body and medicine. She needed to read them all carefully and studied them; this was another step she needed to take to become a good medic ninja. During the past three months Sakura has been progressing slowly in her training, she still couldn't pass the physical training against the slug sanin earning her a couple of trips back to the hospital. Tsunade decided to give her other training exercises like medical ninjutsu training thanks to her perfect chakra control she has passed that part with flying colors. She has healed all of the animals Tsunade has given her she was very impressed with her talent thinking that she was a second Shizune, going to the library was another exercise to feed her knowledge about medicine. Another exercise she was now working part time at the hospital working as Tsunade's personal assistant, so her schedule is very busy not giving her enough time to rest but she didn't care.

Tsunade has been very strict with her during training but she didn't care, she knew this training wasn't easy since her first day of training but this was necessary for her to become a great medical ninja. She has been focused so much in her training that she has closed herself from the rest of the village, it didn't worry her at all after all her friends in the rookie nine were still ignoring her the only genins who were talking to her were Ino and Hinata which she rarely spend some time with them because of her busy schedule. Today was going to be another busy day for her, after having another session in reading medical books she was going to work at the hospital. She didn't care how tire she will get from the intense training, as long as she becomes the best medic in the village it will be all worthy and also as long as Naruto forgives her and let her be his friend once again.

One thing that has bothered her during these past months is her relationship with her mother, ever since she told her that she wanted to become a strong ninja so that Naruto acknowledge her she has been constantly ignoring her. Her mother was not happy that she was focusing her training just to regain her friendship with the blond, at first she was happy that she was training under the Hokage but now that she knew the real reason behind her determination to the training she was rather upset with her. Sakura expected that her mother would be proud of her and understand what she's going through but apparently that was not happening, instead of praising her because she was taking her training to become a great medic ninja seriously she was upset because she wanted to be friends once again with the so called demon brat. Another thing that was bothering her for a while now is why did her mother hated Naruto, not just her but the whole village used to hate him with so much hatred maybe she will ask Tsunade about it later if she knows something.

Once she was done with picking her books she got seated in one of the tables, she opened the first book about the human body and started reading trying to get all the information she's reading to her brain. While reading someone was watching her and went to her, Sakura paused on her reading noticing that there was someone next to her. She looked up to see Kiba who was holding a couple of books, he smile at her and she was confuse since Kiba was one of the few people who has been ignoring her and hate her.

"Hey Sakura how are you doing?"

"Um….I'm fine Kiba I'm busy with reading some of the books that Tsunade-sama has told me to picked" she was rather surprise to see the Inuzuka actually talking to her.

"I can see that I'm also picking a few books, they are for my sister about medicine for dogs"

"Oh that's right Hana-san is a veterinarian I'm glad you're doing her the favor, where's Akamaru?"

"He's outside no pets allowed in the library"

"Oh that's right I forgot about that" she blushed from embarrassment remembering the rule.

"So what are those books about?" he asked interested while checking some of the books.

"Oh you know medicine the human body I am training under Tsunade-sama to become a medic ninja"

"That's good I just hope you can find a book about friends" he gave a slight smirk.

"Excuse me, what do you mean by that?" she ask highly suspicious not liking what he was talking about.

"I'm just saying to find a book about friends so you can learn how to treat them right compare to the way you treat Naruto" he smirk again seeing her reaction.

Sakura's eyes hardened while clenching her fists, now she knew why Kiba was bothering himself to talk to her she calm herself not wanting to make a scene in the library" Kiba if you came to me to mock me I suggest you leave, I have a busy schedule and I can't waste time"

The Inuzuka didn't seemed intimidate by the hard look she was giving him and decided to continue his little game" I guess if I don't do what you say you might slap me and reject me with your cold words isn't that right"

"I'm warning you Inuzuka leave right now" she glared at him with look that will kill anyone.

Kiba continued to ignore her demands" you know what I'm actually glad that Naruto finally stood up to you, you have always treated him like crap and he has been nothing but a good friend to you and you always repaid him by hitting him. But he's no longer your punching bag he's a free man, to think he really like you just what the hell did he ever saw in you anyway"

That was the last draw Sakura couldn't take it anymore, she finally snap as she grabbed the Inuzuka by his collar lifting him up three feet above her scaring the crap out of him not giving him time to react at all. She glare at him while gritting her teeth, Kiba knew he has overdid it and gulp now he was going to be in so much trouble for making the pink haired genin angry. He could feel the way she was grabbing him, he felt her grip and it was really strong it sees she was starting to develop some of Tsunade's super strength.

"Um…Sakura…I was just kidding don't take it too personal" he said scare out of his mind.

Sakura tightened her grip on him" listen mutt if you EVER mock me again I won't slap you I will punch you and believe me my punches are very painful ask Naruto he knows, you have every right to ignore me and insult me but this is nothing compare the pain I'm feeling right now. I don't care what you and everyone else thinks of me I have training to do and a mission to fulfill, so if you want to talk to me let it be a nice topic you don't have to remind me of my stupid mistake for being such an immature bitch are we clear?"

Kiba nodded his head quickly while Sakura let him go" now leave and don't bother me again"

He picked up his books that he dropped when Sakura lifted him up and left without thinking it twice, Sakura got seated again while a few tears fell from her face she dry them not wanting to cry anymore. No matter what she do she will always be very emotional, a cry baby that's what they called her when she was little along with forehead and billboard brow.

(Damn mutt he didn't have to say those things about me getting a book about friends' argh…)

She sighed as she continued to read, suddenly Kiba's words have affected her again and she started thinking the times she has mistreated Naruto all the punches all the times she called him annoying it all lead to the incident at the hospital where she hurt him for the last time causing Naruto to snap at her. All of his words from the hospital came back to haunt her, she was reliving that painful memory once again. Some tears fell from her face again but she quickly dried them off, she focus back to her book while thinking about the blond ninja.

Valley (lighting country territory)

"AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH COLD COOOOLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDDDDDD…"

Once again Naruto has fallen to the lake due to the coldness of the water; he couldn't stay still while the waterfall hits his body, he has tried over twenty times and he still couldn't do the meditating exercise. In his opinion meditating under a cold waterfall was a crazy idea, it was impossible to stay still concentrating on meditation while your body was constantly being hit by cold water probably reaching cero. But he knew it was possible to do after all he saw Jiraiya doing it without yelling how cold the water is, this was another challenge given to him and he needed to master this exercise no matter what. He wanted to ask the toad sanin more tips about the exercise but he has left and he hasn't returned for hours, whish lead him to believe that he was somewhere off doing his research.

He left the lake while the toad that Jiraiya left him was enjoying the nice cold water, he sighed (where the heck is that pervy hermit I need his advice to do this exercise and he ran's off to peep damn pervert)

He left the region heading into the forest if he could find his teacher, while walking he heard splashing noises coming from ahead they heard like they were women. And he knew why they were a couple of women bathing in another lake with a waterfall, they were all wearing bathing suits and some of them had a nice chest which caught his attention a lot. He sweat dropped when he saw Jiraiya seated in a tree branch using his telescope to get a good view of the nice ladies breasts, he giggle while having a small nose bleed grinning like the super pervert he is. Naruto sweat dropped again why he wasn't surprise that his super perverted teacher was doing his usual research of peeping, he cleared his throat not getting the toad sanins attention but he wasn't going to talk to him in a soft tone.

"HEY PERVY HERMIT WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING PEEPPING AT THE WOMEN"

Jiraiya fell from the tree while the women that were bathing ran screaming saying pervert, he got up while watching them leave" NOOOOOOOOOO come back ladies please I'm not done yet" he growl glaring at his student" you brat look what you did I was having so much fun and I haven't started writing my research material"

"Aren't you forgetting why we are in this journey in the first place? It's because of my training not so you could peep"

"You imprudent brat you know I wasn't doing my research all this time, I went to a town a couple of miles away from here and I bought some food though you might be hungry but with the little respect you have for me I don't think I might give this delicious bowls of ramen for you" he took a couple of paper bags.

Naruto's nose went wide as he caught the delicious aroma of ramen coming from the paper bags; his stomach started growling, it seems that he was so focused in doing the meditating exercise that he forgot that he was very hungry.

Jiraiya grin" you were so mean to scare the girls away now I don't think I will give you the ramen, oh we more for me"

"Wait pervy hermit…" Naruto said while stomach gave another loud growl" come on I'm hungry the meditating exercise has really taken a lot of me I need the energy"

The toad sanin gave a thoughtful look while touching his chin" hmm…I don't know it's not nice to call me pervy hermit, maybe if you call me sensei then maybe I will reconsider my decision"

Naruto was going to swallow his pride on this one he was really hungry" fine….sensei"

Jiraiya smile feeling proud with himself" yeah that's more like it now come on let's get back so you can eat"

They return to the waterfall where Naruto's toad was still swimming in the lake, Jiraiya gave him a bowl of ramen to Naruto and he almost devoured his hand in the process from all of the hunger. He picked up the chopsticks and started eating the ramen like there was no tomorrow, in just one minute he ate the first bowl he took the second bowl and ate it in a minute too. Jiraiya sweat dropped at the sight, Naruto has eaten five bowls in less than five minutes it's a good thing that he saved some money to buy his own bowl of ramen. After Naruto finished massacring the bowls of ramen he gave one loud burp while Jiraiya sweat dropped at his manners, he felt so happy now that his stomach is full and his hunger satisfied.

"Oh yeah that hit the spot thanks pervy hermit"

A vein pop on the toad sanins forehead while Naruto smirk" hey what did I told you is sensei"

"It's the truth you are a pervy hermit"

"Brat see if I will buy you ramen next time, oh yeah that reminds me I also bout you something else besides the ramen when I was at the town here" he gave him a book.

"Hey this better not be one of your perverted books because if it is I am not interested" he crossed his arms in annoyance.

He sweat dropped at his comment" no it's a journal I decided that you should have one so you can start writing while were traveling"

"What do I need a journal for?" he asked not having a clue why needs one.

"Naruto a journal is like your best friend you can tell all sorts of things like your biggest secrets to writing everything that has happened to you during the day, you see a lot of women have their own journals just like there us men"

"I don't get it what's the big deal of having to write everything about my life in a book"

"You might be asking that now but I assure you, you are going to like it as we travel on our journey trust me kid"

Naruto sighed" fine I'll guess I can give it a try thanks pervy hermit, so do you have a journal too?"

The toad sanin chuckle at his comment" yeah you could say that I do kind of have my own personal journal" he gave a perverted grin.

The blond sweat dropped (I don't even want to know what does he writes in his journal it must be something perverted)

"Anyway pervy hermit how about we continue with the exercise, I need more advice to do this the water is too freaking cold"

"You're still having trouble I see I can give you more advice but you should wait at least an hour after you ate it's not healthy if you do get in the water again"

"Then you can give me the advice now while I wait the hour" he got seated on the ground waiting to hear him out.

Jiraiya chuckle (always focusing on the training no matter what, I wonder after the training if he will become stronger than Minato)" all right I will tell you everything about mastering this exercise"

Konoha hospital (fire country territory)

Sakura was helping Tsunade bandaging a patient who just been out of surgery, thanks to Tsunade the operation was a success and although she was just her assistant she was needed to attempt the operation. She almost fainted seeing the operation it wasn't a pretty sight, there was so much blood she felt sick to her stomach. Somehow she manage to hold on she needed to be strong since she was training to become a medic ninja, Tsunade told her that a medic ninja must never lose panic although she saw her that during the whole operation she was afraid because of the sight of blood. She remembered that Shizune told her that Tsunade was afraid of blood; it was a little ironic when she thought about it, an excellent medic ninja like Tsunade to be afraid of blood. But she knew it was because of her past when losing her little brother and her boyfriend according to what Shizune told her, now she was walking the halls with the slug sanin finishing the operation.

She didn't felt comfortable being in the hospital, after all this is the same place where she rejected Naruto and he rejected her even worst. She didn't hate him for what he did, she knew it well she deserve to be called all those things the blond told her and they were all true. In truth she was amaze at how Naruto was able to stand her verbal insults and her punches on him for so long, any other person would've snapped at her and put her in her place the first time but not Naruto but even someone as kind and as selfless as him has a limit. She erased those thoughts from her head, thinking about that painful memory will only make feel depressed she followed Tsunade until reaching the reception desk of the building.

"Well that will be all for today Sakura you did an very good job I am impressed"

"Thank you Tsunade-sama" she bowed while smiling it really made her happy to receive a compliment from her teacher.

"I'm going back to the office I must have a lot of damn paperwork to fill" she went to one of archives and pulled a lot of folders putting them on the desk" Sakura I need you to archive all of these medical files in alphabetical order, this is an easy job you can do this with no problem"

"Yes Tsunade-sama"

She watched her as she closed the archive, she was about leave the desk" um….Tsunade-sama?"

"Yes" she answered looking back at her student.

The pink haired genin stood quiet but she needed to ask her, it has been bothering for such a long time and she wanted to know once and for all, she knew that the Hokage can answer her question" well there is something I've been wanting to ask you for a while now, it's about Naruto"

"What about him?" Tsunade needed to be careful not to say anything that mind remind her student of the incident in the hospital or she will have another depressed moment.

"I want to know why the village hate Naruto" she saw that the female Hokage's expression change to a serious one" I have seen it long ago before we graduating from the academy and it makes me wonder why do they hate him so much, I have always notice the looks the villagers used to give him but why I know that he was always pulling of pranks but it shouldn't be to the extend for them to hate him like they would want to kill him"

Tsunade stood quiet thinking whether to tell her the truth about the blond ninja or not, instead she open another archive taking a couple of medical files putting them on the desk next to the one she placed before" these medical files are also out of alphabetical order" she left the desk.

"Wait Tsunade-sama please, if you know why then please tell me I….I must know…"

Tsunade stopped walking without facing her" I think you might find the answer closer than you think" she continued walking until she was out of sight.

Sakura sighed (what's the big secret I really want to know why Naruto was hated so much, what did she meant that I might find the answer closer than I think? I swear Tsunade-sama can sometimes be so cryptic)

She started putting the files in alphabetical order, one after one she order them she keep doing the same thing for the next ten minutes. She finally reached a couple of files and put them in the archive where their last names started with the letter U, that's when she realize that the files were in perfect order there was no need to get them from the archive. Sakura decided to ignore it and continued to putting the files, when she reached the last file she gasped reading that the folder had Naruto's name.

(This is Naruto's medical file, all of his medical records are stored here wait a minute did Tsunade-sama knew about this maybe this is what she meant about finding the answer closer than I think yeah this must be it I might find something why Naruto is hated by the village here)

She open the folder and gasp at the first page, reading all of his past treatments she almost fainted they were records that he had a broken arm a few broken ribs a few concoctions and so and on. She was horrified reading the medical reports, from having all of these conditions anyone would've died but not Naruto why. As she continued reading the file she was shocked reading that all of his wounds have healed rather quickly, she didn't know how until she turn the other page colored red that read in capital letters TOP SECRET CLASSIFIED. Curiosity got the better of her and she open the page, she was about to read the classified section of his medical file.

Her eyes widened in shock reading the information revealing the source to Naruto's quick healing, Naruto had the nine tail demon fox Kyuubi according to the information she was reading the Kyuubi's chakra has the ability to heal any wounds rapidly explaining a lot why Naruto was able to heal quickly. How could this be possible she was told that the demon fox was killed by the fourth, so how could Naruto have the demon fox in him? She knew there was only one person who could give her the answer, the one person who gave her the clue to finding the truth about the blond. She left the reception desk leaving the hospital, she walk the streets heading to the Hokage tower.

Hokage tower

Tsunade sighed filling another amount of paperwork it seems that the hellish was never going to end, looks like it was just another day at the office. She started thinking about Sakura knowing how smart she is she was going to look into Naruto's medical file, it wouldn't be long before she comes here looking for answers to her. Suddenly a small toad carrying a cylinder tube came from the window, she smile recognizing one of Jiraiya's messenger toads she opened the cylinder taking the message and began to read it.

Tsunade

Sorry for not sending you the message a little late but I was caught up too much in the traveling, we are now in lighting country things have been very quiet lately and there hasn't being any dangers ahead. My spies haven't found anything yet about what's Orochimaru up to or Akatsuki, however the training is coming well Naruto has already started to become strong can you believe he can last when fighting me who would've thought. Right now he's doing the meditating exercise in the waterfall he's shivering from the cold I just hope he doesn't end up with a bad case of pneumonia. One more thing I think it will be best if you don't say anything to Sakura about Naruto's progress in the training, right now Naruto doesn't want to know a thing about her he gets too depressed when I mention her name I hope you understand.

I will send you another message during the next couple of months.

Jiraiya

Tsunade sighed (so Naruto doesn't want to hear anything from Sakura I guess he must be feeling worst than I thought, I will have to keep all of these a secret from her)

The door to the office opened revealing Shizune" Tsunade-sama Sakura is here to see you"

"Right send her in"

"Yes Tsunade-sama"

Shizune let the pink haired genin enter as she left the office and Tsunade knew she has found out about the truth, she could tell by the few tears that were escaping from her jade eyes" what is it Sakura?"

"You did it on purpose didn't you?"

"What do you mean?"

"I'm talking about the medical files, I checked on them and they were in the right order you took them from the archive so I find out about Naruto isn't that right Tsunade-sama?" a couple of tears fell from her face.

"Yes I did, I figure if you really are so committed to build your friendship with Naruto once again I thought that it was necessary for you to know the truth about him…about the great burden he carries"

"But…but how….I thought the fourth Hokage killed the Kyuubi that's what they told us at the academy"

"I'm sorry Sakura but that's a lie, the Kyuubi couldn't be kill it was too powerful to defeat even for someone like the fourth he couldn't defeat the beast instead he used a forbidden jutsu sacrificing his life to sealed the Kyuubi in a newborn baby, Naruto was the only child born on that day so he became the container for the Kyuubi"

More tears were falling from her jade eyes hearing the painful truth about Naruto" then why…why did they lie to us about the Kyuubi's attack?"

"Because it was a law that the third made forbidding anyone in the village from mentioning the truth about the Kyuubi's attack, in order for Naruto to have an ordinary childhood but you know very well he didn't have an ordinary childhood don't you Sakura?"

Sakura stood letting her tears fall, it made perfect sense to her why the entire village hated Naruto so much including her mother he was the container of the demon fox that killed a lot of Konoha ninjas. She could finally understand how much he has suffered over the years it only made her feel more guilty, because she was one of the people who hated him too. She was so grateful that the third Hokage created that law otherwise Naruto's life would've be far worse, she imagine herself beating him up along with a lot of other children for knowing that he was the container of the Kyuubi. She has never felt so miserable in her entire life, she has hated the blond for a worthless cause and she has pushed him away his friendship lost forever.

Tsunade saw her student still crying, she was suffering at the revelation finally understanding the hatred the village had for Naruto" are you all right Sakura?"

The pink haired genin tried to dry her tears" no I'm not, you know what Naruto has to be the bravest person I have ever met after suffering so much in his entire life he can still walk and smile like nothing has happened to him how can someone like him still go on living if it was me I would've ended my life"

"But he didn't because Naruto found people who care for him, people who have become precious to him and he will protect them even if it means giving his life to save them"

Sakura nodded" yeah I know, it's too bad I'm no longer one of his precious people to protect after everything I have done to him and after what happened at the hospital too. You know the thing I hate the most the fact that I never really hated Naruto to begin with, when I was little I hated being alone not having any friends I was so shy because I was afraid of making any friends every time I talk to them they will just tease me because of my forehead. But then Naruto came he was the first person to talk to me and accept me as his friend"

"He told me that my forehead was very pretty and cute, from that moment I like him but then Ino came and she became my best friend she obviously hated Naruto because her mother hated him along with the rest of the village so I eventually thought that it was all right to ignore him and hate him"

"So the real reason why you hated Naruto was because you follow the crowd, you really didn't have any deep hatred for him I'm glad to hear that Sakura" Tsunade said.

"I hate myself so much Tsunade-sama I have only given Naruto nothing but pain and misery for so long, I know he hates me so much and he will never forgive me I will be the person he will hate forever" she continued sobbing.

Tsunade got up from her seat and gave her student a conforming hug in an attempt to calm her down" Sakura it's all right I don't think Naruto hates you as much as you claim you have to give him some time to think, I am certain he will forgive you he has never being the kind of person to hate someone so much especially is she's one of his friends like you" she broke the hug with the pink haired kunoichi.

Sakura dried her tears" thank you Tsunade-sama I really needed that I just hope you're right, I hope I haven't lost him forever and he will give me a second chance even if I don't deserve it"

"It's getting late I suggest you should go home and get some rest you're going to need it for tomorrow's training session"

"You're right Tsunade-sama I better go see you tomorrow" she headed to the door" by the way Tsunade-sama has Jiraiya-sama send you a message about how he's doing with Naruto?"

The slug sanin almost turned pale hearing that, after all she was the one that told Sakura about Jiraiya's messenger toads she felt relief that the messenger toad that came a while ago has vanished. She couldn't tell her about the message she just received from the toad sanin, especially about the part not to say a word to her student that Naruto didn't wanted to know anything from her.

"No Sakura I still haven't receive a message from Jiraiya he must be very busy with Naruto's training I'm sorry"

"That's all right just let me know If one of his messages arrive I really want to know how Naruto is doing on his training, see you tomorrow Tsunade-sama" she open the door leaving the office.

Tsunade sighed (Naruto I wish you could see how much Sakura is suffering because of the guilt she feels I know that you must be suffering as much as her)

Valley (lighting country territory)

Nightfall has fallen on the valley, Jiraiya was already asleep and Naruto was sitting near a camp fire warming to the flame because he was still feeling cold from the water. He has failed miserably in the meditating exercise thanks to the cold water, right now he didn't feel like sleeping he was thinking how to master the exercise. He saw the journal Jiraiya has given him, he smirk he felt like giving it a try so he took one of his teachers pen and open the book. He gave thoughtful look thinking what to write, he smile as he began to write the first entry in his journal.

(Should I write dear journal or dear diary? Whatever)

Dear journal:

Today I have frozen my ass off because of the meditating exercise the pervy hermit told me to do, damn that water is cold even if I'm warming up to a camp fire I am still shivering from the cold. It's so hard to meditate while my body is being hit by the cold water from the waterfall, but I'm not giving up I will master that exercise I will continued later until I can finally do it. During my journey its being a little hard for me to concentrate on the training when the only thing I'm thinking about is Sakura, even after she rejected me at Konoha hospital I missed her I want to hate her but I can't. I can only think about her beautiful smile and her adorable pink hair and of course her charming wide forehead, I know she must hate me a lot and she might be thinking how to beat the crap out of me after all the things I told her.

I finally made up of my mind, I have decided to never return to Konoha I will never see her again. Once my training with the pervy hermit is finished I will begin my career as a ninja mercenary, granny told me that I will always remain outside of the village meaning I won't have to return all the better I will never see Sakura again. It's sad when I think about it, not seeing Sakura ever again means I won't see any of my friends either if I'm lucky I might ran in to them when they are on missions or something. Now that I think about it Sakura must have completely forgotten about me since Sasuke is back in the village thanks to me, she will finally be happy with him at least she won't be living with the pain of heartbreak like me. Well I'm going to get some rest so I can continued with my training believe it.

Naruto smile as he finished writing the first entry of his journal (hey this isn't so bad looks like I can get used to this) he put the book down and went to his sleeping bag.

As he closed his eyes and drift to sleep the last thing he thought was the face of the pink haired genin, his formal teammate of team seven and the girl he still loves with all of his heart Sakura.

Haruno residence (Konoha)

Sakura has change to her pajamas and she was ready to go to bed, but not before going to write in her diary as she usually do every night. She got seated in her small table opening the diary while taking her pen from the drawer she started writing today's entry.

Dear diary:

I'm slowly getting better in my training with Tsunade-sama, I still can't passed the physical exercise it's too hard my strength is nowhere near as Tsunade-sama's. At least I'm good with my chakra control I was able to pass the medical ninjutsu training, I managed to healed all sorts of injuries with the test animals Tsunade-sama said I have potential to become an even better medic than herself I was very happy to hear that looks like I'm not so useless after all. I know I can become a great kunoichi and I have to thank Naruto for it, if he didn't said those cold words to me back at the hospital I would still be the useless burden Sakura of team seven. I know I deserve every word he said after all I know he hates me a lot he must be so happy that he left the village so he didn't have to look at my face anymore. It really tears my heart apart that I pushed away my friendship with Naruto, he was probably the best friend I had after Ino.

Today I have finally found out why the village used to hate him so much, he's the container of the Kyuubi the same demon that almost destroyed the village twelve years ago. They lie to us thanks to a law that the third Hokage made in order for Naruto to have a peaceful life and childhood, but that's not how things went down I know because I was one of the people who hated him all because of the people around me thought of him. I hate myself for being an immature and selfish bitch I should've given him that chance to be my friend when I was little. But I thought of him as a nuisance even more when I had that stupid crush on the Uchiha traitor, the only reason I liked him was because of the girls they all thought he was cool and cute so I eventually followed them. In the end I kept on denying to myself that what I have for the teme was really love yeah right, like I was really going to find true happiness with someone like HIM.

Naruto has suffered a lot and I was the one who gave him more pain, I can't forgive myself for everything I have done to him and I know he can't forgive me either. I know I can do Tsunade-sama's training I just hope if Naruto can see it in his heart to forgive me and let me be in his life once again, if I was Naruto I wouldn't forget and forgive I deserve to suffer forever but I can still try. My mother may not approved of having a friendship with him but I don't care what she says, I won't give up I will have Naruto's forgiveness this will be my toughest fight ever.

Sakura closed her diary with some tears falling from her face; she got up from her seat and went to her bed. She closed her eyes drifting to sleep the last person she thought before falling asleep was her blond teammate and formal friend Naruto.

The next day at the valley

Jiraiya woke up with a loud yawn to gaze at a beautiful morning, he look where his student was sleeping but he wasn't there only to see his empty sleeping bag. He had a pretty good idea where he was, he left to the area of the waterfall and his eyes widened in shock. He saw Naruto on top of the toad he gave him to meditate, he was under the waterfall meditating letting the cold water hit his body. He couldn't believe it his student just mastered the meditating exercise in just one day, he felt proud to have someone like Naruto as his apprentice it was just like having his old student the fourth.

(Well I'll be damned he actually did it, that kid is really something) he chuckle" all right Naruto that's enough let's get packing were about to head out again"

Naruto opened his eyes smiling while leaving the waterfall" all right pervy hermit, he swam the lake until he was back at the camp site and the toad vanished in a cloud of smoke. Minutes later they left the valley heading again in the open road.

"Did you see how I master the waterfall training pervy hermit?" ask the shivering Naruto.

"I must admit you surprise me a lot Naruto, I was expecting that this exercise was going to take you a few days but you only mastered it in a day congratulations I couldn't be any prouder of you"

The blond gave him his fox grin" well I was practicing since last night so I didn't got too much sleep"

"I can see that you're still shivering looks like you still haven't got used to the cold water" Jiraiya said with a smirk.

"Hey give me a break pervy hermit the water is really cold I feel like I'm going to turn into a block of ice here"

"Don't worry were heading to the town where I went to buy the ramen we'll stay the day there"

"Finally it's about time we stay in a nice comfy inn"

Jiraiya chuckle while gazing at the blond, just looking at him reminds me so much of his last apprentice a man who became a legend in the ninja world (Minato I hope you're watching how strong your son is becoming pretty soon he'll become the sixth Hokage a living legend like you)

To be continued

Well this chapter wasn't as long as the last one but it will be enough, review and keep voting for the pairings. The time skip will be in a couple of chapters probably by chapter 7 or 8 depending, I'm going back to the Ultimate Tournament farewell until the next time.

Next chapter: The Prediction can pain create a powerful friendship?