A/N

HOOKayyy! It's been a while hasn't it? I just realised that I never wished you guys a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! (Or just happy holidays if you don't celebrate Christmas).
Just to be clear, Ichigo was with Szayel 'healing' for about 2 and a half days after Aizen raped him, I just didn't really know where to put it in.
Bleach is not mine if it was I'd just be drawing Grimmjow all the time.
TRIGGER WARNINGS
Please read, enjoy and review!

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Aizen had been rough, shortly after Aizen was finished Szayel had been called and was told to treat Ichigo's wounds and get him healed fast. Szayel was also told to see if the impregnation process had been successful.

Szayel slowly cleaned Ichigo's abused hole with a damp washcloth and wiped his body clean, placing healing ointment on his wrists and ankles. Szayel slowly took his time healing the unconscious boy, not wanting to add insult to injury, and feeling guilty beyond belief.

Szayel was injecting the modified healing serum into Ichigo's neck for the best results when he spotted a white silvery mark peeking around from the back of Ichigo's neck. Placing the empty needle down, Szayel carefully rolled the boy onto his side.

Frowning at what he saw he fingered the bite mark adorning the boy's neck, this wasn't Aizen's doing. It was made by an Arrancar, only Arrancar's could place mating marks and this one was clearly a feline type.

Szayel gasped and his face went pale, if what he thought was true, then shit was about to hit the fan. He ran over to his machinery and quickly oozed a blue jelly onto Ichigo's abdomen, frantically beginning his search.

To his utter dread, there in the centre of the screen where two, well developed blobs. Blobs that couldn't off been there considering Ichigo's heat wasn't meant to start until tomorrow. Szayel had planned it all perfectly! Ichigo was designed to go into heat 2 weeks after the operation.

So it was not possible that Ichigo was at least one week pregnant, it just wasn't feasible! Szayel Aporro Granz did not make miscalculations! Unless...Ichigo was in the presence of his mate, his body would have known subconsciously if it was around its soul mate, which in turn would have triggered his heat.

Fuck. Szayel had unwittingly placed Ichigo in the care of Grimmjow for the time prior to Aizen's supposed impregnation process. Szayel cursed, he should have known what had happened when he saw Grimmjow's reaction to his kidnapping of the berry.

It was a clear territorial display and Szayel thought he must have been tripping on something to have missed such an obvious act of possession. He sat silently contemplating on what to do, tell Aizen and lose the already developing infants or not tell Aizen and keep the children and Grimmjow alive.

The latter was defiantly more appealing. He decided to tell Grimmjow, let him care for Ichigo and the children and just see how things panned out after that. Ichigo was to be placed in Grimmjow's care for the remainder of the pregnancy, as per Aizen's orders. The perfect plan.

That was at least three months of time bought before Aizen noticed the children weren't his. Szayel sighed, it was all he could do but hope for the best at the end of all this. As it turns out Szayel Aporro Granz did make miscalculations...sometimes.

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Grimmjow was curled up under his bed again, it smelled like Ichigo and was warm, dark and safe. He was feeling a constant wave of stress from Ichigo, but knew he was still unconscious by the lack of anything else. Grimmjow felt dead, his chest felt like it was going to cave in on itself, he felt like his lungs had stopped working and all he wanted to do was hold Ichi in his arms and breath in his scent.

He was staring with dead eyes at the wall his bed was against, he didn't want to see anything, he just wanted Ichi. He felt like he would die without his berry. Grimmjow hadn't slept a wink since Ichigo was taken, he hadn't bathed or eaten (or moved) since Ichigo's episode, not even answering his door when Nel came to see where he had gotten too.

So when he heard his door open quietly he just continued staring blankly at the wall, not even bothering to sniff out who the intruder was. He felt his bed dip with the weight of a body, and then a warm presence behind him. He growled lowly telling whoever it was to fuck off and leave him be.

"Grimmjow, I know you mated with Ichigo" Szayel whispered, causing Grimmjow to whip his head around in shock.

"I-I..." Grimmjow spluttered like a two year old.

"Don't bother, I saw your mating mark, and to make matters worse, you didn't report Ichigo's heat" Szayel quipped, Grimmjow wasn't in the mood to be scolded, he just wanted to go back to pining for his berry.

"How did you know he had his heat?" Grimmjow asked narkily, stupid know it all bastard.

"Because Ichigo's pregnant" Szayel said bluntly, causing Grimmjow's heart to turn to ice.

"The original plan was for Ichigo to go into heat two weeks after the operation, so that Aizen could impregnate him and create a stronger warrior. That is until his heat was triggered by being in close proximity with his soul mate. You. Hence him being pregnant and you being the father" Grimmjow just stared at the pinkette.

Ichigo's scent drifted under his nose and he finally realised that Ichigo was the weight on the bed, and to his utter horror, he was indeed emitting a scent pregnant hollows and Arrancar's gave off. Grimmjow clawed his way out from under the bed and peeked over the mattress at his mate.

A rush of warmth and calm went through him and he sniffed slightly at Ichigo, he could tell from his scent that his Ichi was having twins.

"I-I didn't know Arrancar's in heat could get pregnant.." Grimmjow whispered.

"Well you wouldn't, you're still relatively young in terms of the sexual world, you've never taken a mate and no one around you has had children. You've never dealt with mates and heat before, so you couldn't have known this would happen," Szayel said soothingly rubbing circles into Grimmjow's broad back.

Grimmjow stared in shock at Ichigo who was still sleeping soundly, his emotions having calmed at the warmth and tranquillity coming off Grimmjow in waves. He let out a content sigh and rolled slowly onto his side facing the wall. Grimmjow purred at finally seeing his mate after the painful ordeal of the other night, the relief filling him enough to make him forget completely about Ichigo's retaining of memories.

"Thanks for bringing him back Szayel" Grimmjow let out softly silently dismissing him, Szayel nodded and left the room, quietly closing the door behind him. Grimmjow sniffed the air around Ichigo a little more, before hesitantly getting up on the bed with him. Grimmjow nuzzled into Ichigo's hair before laying himself down next to the berry, arms wrapping around him in a cocoon of warmth.

He felt Ichigo's body relax and his emotions ease, having Grimmjow beside him unconsciously calming the orangette. Grimmjow felt Ichigo beginning to purr in soft greeting next to him and he didn't hesitate to join in with a thunderously loud answer, snuggling himself closer to his mate and running a hand over Ichigo's lower abdomen.

Grimmjow was finally content and for what felt like an eternity without his Ichigo had taken its toll on him, feeling a sudden wave of fatigue, Grimmjow closed his eyes and quickly fell asleep.

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Ichigo awoke with a start, arms where wrapped around his torso, placed gently over his lower abdomen. He felt safe, warm and happy, he shuffled around a bit, trying to get even more comfortable in the warm embrace.

Taking in a deep breath as he stretched, and tensing immediately, Grimmjow, Grimmjow was here, his scent was everywhere. Most of it coming from the warm body right next to him, Ichigo whimpered as he began to feel sick to his stomach, everything rushing back to him in a painful montage.

He flew out of Grimmjow's arms, and into the bathroom, not having eaten anything to throw up Ichigo began hurling stomach acid into the toilet. God did it burn like a mother.

"Ichi? Are you alright?" Grimmjow soothed from the doorway, presumably not wanting to get to close to the puke. Ichigo tensed and began shaking uncontrollably, this man, he didn't know what to think about Grimmjow.

The man who had raped and hurt him to such a degree he had asked to be killed, the man that had ripped his dignity and soul in half. Ichigo finished the painful heaving and curled himself up in between the corner of the toilet and shower. Protecting his torso as much as possible.

This blue haired Adonis who had done all those unspeakable things to him and then, somehow, taken care of him, kept him safe...loved him. Ichigo whimpered, he didn't understand, what where these two contradicting versions of the man crouching in front of him. He just didn't understand, he was so frightened, what was going on!?

Ichigo could see Grimmjow slowly slinking his way over, "Ichi-, Ichi are you okay, what wrong?" Grimmjow said in a calm voice, trying to send calming emotions through their link. Ichigo wouldn't have it though, his emotions a strong wall of confusion, and pain.

He pressed himself into his nook tighter, feeling the hair on the back of his neck stand on end as he snarled ferociously, warning Grimmjow to stay back or risk losing an arm. Grimmjow looked shocked at first, but was then graced with a look of painful understanding.

"Ichi, Kitten, please, I'm not going to hurt you, do you remember? You're my mate Ichigo...I love you, remember kitten?" Grimmjow pleaded desperately. Ichigo eyed him sceptically with a harsh scowl on his face, lips still raised slightly in his snarl.

Grimmjow moved towards him a little and Ichigo hissed and spat and growled until the bluenette was back at the entrance to the bathroom.

"You hurt me, and then used my stupidity against me!" Ichigo yowled angrily, tears coming to his eyes in pain and confusing. What the hell was he supposed to do now!? He was mated with the one person to have beaten him into such nothingness he had wanted to die. The same man who had then became the one man to love and cherish him so fully, he had found no greater reason to live.

Oh god, the pain lancing through his chest was enough to make him tear his own heart out. He saw Grimmjow wincing and looking like he wanted to edge closer, but a simple low growl stopped him from doing so.

"Kitten, you have to calm down, if you don't it will be too much stress on the cubs and it could be fatal to th-," Grimmjow was cut off with the wave of shock and darkness coming from the carrot top in the bathroom.

Ichigo didn't know what to feel, anger, pain, betrayal, happiness or sadness one thing was certain though he was shocked when he heard the news, and with said news came a thick suffocating blanket of depression.

He, Ichigo Kurosaki, in his stupid naivety at the time, had mated with Grimmjow Jeagerjaques, and in doing so bound himself to the loving rapist for eternity. This had been enough for him to want to rip his heart from his chest, but now, in hearing he had brought two unwilling and innocent children into the mix, made him want to die of shame.

How could he have allowed this to happen, the children inside him never asked for this, never wanted to be born. But now they were going to be, born to a rapist into a family of hate and pain and disgust. He felt something inside of him break, he wouldn't be able to protect his babies, wouldn't be able to keep them from harm. Not in a place like this, not with a father that even he didn't know what to make of.

"Leave" Ichigo whispered, wanting the man he loved and hated out of his sight, he was practically a waterfall of tears at this point but he was too shocked and hurt to make even a sound. Ichigo just stared at the ground, tears running from his eyes, mouth in a slight 'o' shape and a look of complete and utter defeat in his eyes.

"Please, please just leave" Ichigo whimpered, his voice wavering and cracking, not even looking Grimmjow in the eye.

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Grimmjow felt all of Ichigo's emotions through there link, even hearing Ichigo think, how could I let this happen, I'm such an idiot. He felt Ichigo's deep yearning to be alone, so Grimmjow quietly stood and, leaving the door open, walk away from Ichigo, muttering a quiet sorry as he went.

He knew that this much stress for the babies couldn't be good and would be hurting their development enough for them to potentially die. So he left, not wanting to affect Ichigo or the cubs with any more negative emotions at close range and quickly made his way to Szayel's lab.

"Szayel, quickly Ichigo's-," Grimmjow stopped staring in confusion at what was happening before him. Nel, lying on the table, with blue stuff on her tummy, and both her and Szayel smiling softly at a screen.

"Um, what the hell are you guys doing?" Grimmjow asked a bit more gruffly than he meant to.

"Oh Grimm! I wanted you to be the first to know, but you wouldn't come to your door and I just couldn't get to you! Starkk and I are pregnant!" the sea green woman squealed. Nel, who was practically his baby sister, was pregnant...

"I'll fuckin' kill 'im!" Grimmjow roared hurrying to turn and track down the man he thought was his friend.

"NO! No! Grimmy no, sweetie, he's my mate..." Nel said happily after she was sure she had a firm hold on his arm. Little tyke was strong when she wanted to be. Grimmjow stopped and 'ooohhed' at the sudden exclamation from Nel, it all made much more sense now.

"Well good on ya Kid, you snagged a good one there, he'll take care of you and the little one real good" Grimmjow beamed, with the biggest and proudest shit eating grin on his face. Nel and Starkk, they must have been keeping it on the down low, little pricks. Grimmjow was so filled with pride and happiness that when he finally remembered the reason for coming to the lab a solid half an hour had passed.

Grimmjow paled and tried to feel Ichigo through his link, but instead was met with a solid wall, barring him from Ichigo altogether. It wasn't unusual especially considering how pissed Ichigo was but Grimmjow was worried and he was practically ready to castrate himself and his easily distracted mind. Something wasn't right.

"Shit, Ichigo! Something's wrong!" He yelled, tearing out of the lab, betting his life that Szayel and Nel were right behind him. He slammed into his room and quickly made his way over to the bathroom. The door was closed and locked, fuck fuck fuck, "ICHIGO!" Grimmjow yelled through the door, silence greeted him and he started furiously throwing himself on the door. Not even thinking of using his Arrancar strength to get through, he was in too much of a flurry to even realise.

Nel dragged him kicking and screaming to the side, getting him out of the way so Szayel could simply rip the door from its hinges and place it to the side. What they saw made them all gasp, Ichigo, lying in a pool of his own blood, wrist gaping, deathly pale and apparently on the brink of death. Nel let her grip on Grimmjow go out of shock, and as soon as she did Grimmjow flew to Ichigo's side.

Kneeling in his Ichi's blood he cradled Ichigo's head in his lap, drawing him closer and closer until Grimmjow was sure he was crushing him. When in reality his grip was so feather light he was barely holding Ichigo up at all, Grimmjow had, without realising it, begun to cry and his tears mixed with the blood on the ground.

"Ichi no, no kitten, why, why would you leave me, why would you leave me, why would you hurt yourself and the cubs like this, why kitten why" Grimmjow sobbed out hysterically, he spoke his feelings but in reality he knew why, he had felt Ichigo snap when he mentioned the cubs. He had felt the dark intentions when Ichigo asked him to leave, but he had left anyway, and what's worse, he had gotten fucking distracted.

He was such a fucking idiot! Nel had come over and dragged him away again, leaning him up against the wall just outside the bathroom so that Szayel had enough room to heal and save Ichigo. Grimmjow didn't know what he would do if Ichigo died, he could already feel the cold fingers clenched around his heart and he already felt a large tear in his soul, and he knew in an instant that he wouldn't survive Ichigo's death. If Ichigo died, he would have to die too.

Grimmjow began to hyperventilate, his Ichi, his kitten was dying and it was all his fault, he did this, he killed his mate and children, he was nothing but scum and should die for killing his mate and cubs.

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"SZAYEL!" Nel screamed, it seemed as if Grimmjow was letting himself be pulled into Ichigo's death through there link, if Szayel didn't heal Ichigo fast both men would die. Szayel injected Ichigo with the highest active healing serum he had and made fast work at stitching Ichigo's wrists. After Szayel was sure that Ichigo wasn't going to bleed to death he administered a special blood duplicating injection, which would help Ichigo gain back the blood he had lost in a safer amount of time.

Miraculously the infants were largely unaffected, like some force within Ichigo had wrapped itself around then and protected them against everything the mother was doing. All in all Ichigo was going to live and all he and Grimmjow would need is rest and a safer environment to live in.

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Grimmjow had dragged himself to Ichigo's side and was resting his fingers on Ichigo's cheek, he could feel Ichigo getting stronger through their link and smiled in relief.

Please don't leave me like that again he thought, hoping Ichigo would hear the message.

Grimmjow felt a calm and content wave pass over him, which only intensified when Szayel told him that the cubs were unbelievably alive and well. At this news he felt Ichigo's emotions flare with happiness and slight guilt, but he chased the guilt away as he looked at Ichigo's calm features and sent his happiness over.

Ichigo, and his children were going to be okay, and somehow he knew Ichigo was happy about that, not just being alive but that his babies where alive too.

Grimmjow knew it was going to be hard from here on out, but he also knew that he could do anything with his mate by his side, the feeling only increasing tenfold as he felt Ichigo agree through his emotions. Both sending waves of love to each other, granted Ichigo's a bit reluctant and scared, but still there.

The last thing Grimmjow heard before he fell asleep from exhaustion was Ichigo's quiet voice Grimmjow.

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