Dylan

After an horrific session at REACH (mainly horrific because I plain hate it, especially when I'm told to tell my life story because theres no damm way I'm telling strangers anything) I head back to the Fuentes, having a shower then putting on black jeans with a dark blue button-up shirt.

Carlos, being ever so nice, hands me the keys to his car which is a pretty sweet black Aston Martin.

When I get there people are jumping up and down to StarShips by Nicki Minaj. I grab a drink from the keg and just watch the people for a while till Chelsea pulls me in.

When I spot Cecilia something inside me jumps for joy on seeing her, she sees me and heads over as Lego House by Ed Sheeran comes on. Everybody's grabbing a partner and dancing slowly to it. I take Cecilia's hand, she puts her hands on my shoulders as I rest mine on her waist as we slowly sway to it.

The lyrics swamp me. Me and Maddy were always up and down, the lyrics are too true. Tears cloud my eyes. And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got ya to keep me warm. Me and Maddy, December we had gotten lost and it was dark but all was important was that we had each other. I'll pick you up when you're getting down. Me and Maddy always would run to the other when life crashed down on us. And if you're broken I'll mend ya. Except I never mended her.

Cecilia is looking at me, her eyes are brimming over. She's been hurt too, I know because Chelsea confined in me once.

The time at the diner the words that haven't stopped running through my head, and now looking at Cecilia I can see what they were saying, about the chemistry.

But I'm still in love with Maddy.

I kiss her, it's just one kiss but a warm fire spreads through me and my lips are tinkling. Thoughts of Maddy go completty out my head as we pull back from the kiss, the kiss is all I can think about, Cecilia is all I can see.

A fast song, I don't know it's name, but I know the artist- Pretty Reckless, Maddy's favourite band comes on then.

I close my eyes.

"Come on" Cecilia grabs my hand and pulls me out the party, off the beach to where all the cars are parked.

We sit on the bumper of a car as Cecilia lights two fags up for us. I take it, inhaling the smoke. The ball of glowing orange light of the cigarette is the only light we have near the woods at 1am. The beach party is way back in the distance.

"He's name is Jay, I, I'm still in love with him, but he cheated on me" Cecilia shook her head. "I know that doesn't sound that bad that he cheated on me, but we had been in love our whole life. First we were just free to do whatever we wanted with other people, I guess we were kinda like friends with benefits. Then we got together officially, and it was everything until it wasn't anymore"

"She was my brother's best friend, she was crazy as in crazy weird and bloody attractive, and along the line I fell for her and she for me. We had known each other our whole lives, hell we were friends but then we became more then friends" I took a long drag and blew it out in circles. "But she had a mental problem that fucked her up, I was fucked up with drugs and that started to get in-between us. But she was everything to me, even then. But it got to the point where it escalated and we were forced apart"

"You still love her" Cecilia announces lighting up another cigarette for us both.

"And you still love him"

Cecilia took my hand. "I think we need to forget the kiss happened. We're both in love with other people, it would just hurt us more"

I kiss her on the cheek and left.