Cecilia

It's been awkward ever since that night, we act like were not even friends.

No scrap that, we act as if we were never friends.

I miss him, why did we kiss? We kissed and our friendship is done, finished because we couldn't just be friends after that. And after seeing Jay. Jay.

I bang my head against the steering wheel. My life had completty flipped over at the click of a button when it had taken so much to build my life back up again; after the incident; after jay.

The wheels start to turn in my head and I'm going, starting up the car and moving. I end up at the run-down area, the slums of our town and drive over to the tattoo shop that sits next to the chippy and a newsagents. I go to the chippy first ordering two extra large portions of chips and knock on the door to the tattoo shop as I see the closed sign.

"Lea" The owner Nikki smiled and beckoned me in, leading me up to the flat above the shop. "Lea's here with chips" She shouts.

They were grabbed out my hands.

"Lea, Lea, its been a long time gal" Reg came over giving me a hug. "You okay?"

"I'm fine" I lied.

"I see through your bullshit Lea and you will tell me"

I roll my eyes, Reg going back to the chips.

I sat next to Chris who devoured his share of chips in under a minute. Reg owned the flat with Nikki owning the shop, Chris, Ajay, Cass and Faustino lived across the road in a block of flats but spend most of their time here.

"Do you have some?" I ask Chris.

"Mike came by" He says starting to prepare it, I looked away till Ajay tightened the belt around my arm and Chris injected the needle of cocaine into my arm. I closed my eyes as it went in then opened them as it was passed around.

I felt my heart racing and the room start jumped several degrees but it didnt overtake the euphoric feeling that hit me like a tornado and made all my troubles disappear.

I hated to come down from the high, it was the worst bit but it was worth it for just that 15-20 minutes it lasts for. Reg took weed instead, a safer bet, and took me down to the shop.

"Your talking as I do the work, now what tattoo you want?"

"Fine, I'll have, well I want star David on my upper left arm"

"Girl, your father will see that and have a bitch fit"

"You get to a point when you just don't give a damm"

"What happened?" Reg asks as he got the equipment ready.

"I cant cope Reg, my life has been one huge mess ever since I turned fourteen, and now seeing Jay again and falling for someone that I cant be with, I just can't care"

"Why cant you be with him?"

"Because were not ready to move on" And that was the truth, the thing pushing me and Dylan apart.

"I'm sorry Lia"

I smile sadly at him. "Just you understand, you know? It means a lot"

"I do" He ran his hand through my hair then starting inking. I grit my teeth through the pain, this would be my third tattoo. I had a scorpion tattoo on my lower back/ waist and a link chain on my right wrist.

"All done" Reg walks into the back room.

I went back up to the flat to say bye then I got back in the car heading to god knows where. Just getting lost.