Cecilia

I stroke Dylan's hair back kissing him on the forehead. I smile down at him and then I leave going back to my car and taking off, leaving him there. Tears trickle down my face, I wipe them away. I don't want to leave him but I have to do this and I can't risk him stopping me.

I know where Blondie wants me to meet him- the warehouse where the competition is held.

I go in through the back door, my footsteps echo around the empty large space, I carry onto the front to the backstage where I know Blondie will be.

"Cecilia wait" I hear Alicia call out.

I spin around as Alicia hurries up to me. "What you doing here?" I ask her.

"Let me take your place"

"What no!"

"But I've driven her all the way" A guy, around our age comes to stand at the left of Alicia. He's rather attractive with chiseled blond hair, sincere blue eyes and so so so tall.

"Get lost Tony" Alicia tells him.

"You want a lift back don't you?"

"Yes, go get something to eat or do something, I'll text you when I need you"

"You owe me big time" He tells her before going out the back door.

"Who's he?" I enquire.

"Tony Martinez, from my school, were kinda friends" Alicia shrugs.

"Martinez why do I recognize that? I know that name, I swear I do" I tried to rack my brain.

"God, don't go mentioning him to just anyone, besides you need to go"

"No you need to go"

"Come on Cecilia, Blondie doesn't mind who"

"Alicia, it's not your fight and I am not going to let my cousin, who's younger then me by the way, take the fall"

"Cecilia you're the innocent one-"

"No I'm not" I cut her off. "What about all them guys after Jay?"

"Honey you have Dylan now, someone that you love and you can't do this to him"

"I don't love him" I shook my head.

"Cecilia, I have bi-popular okay, a side-effect is fucking everything like literally, one more isn't going to make a difference"

I shook my head. "No"

"And don't say it's because of my bi-polar, I want to fuck and I want to fuck Blondie"

"No you don't"

"He's attractive Cecilia, you don't like him because of who he is, I only care about what he looks like and that is hot"

"No Alicia, I won't, your my cousin, my family"

"Please Cecilia" Alicia steps forward hugging me, I hug her back. "After all that you've done for me, let me pay you back"

I pull back looking her in the eye. "You won't pay me back this way"

"CeCe your happy, you have Dylan- I know you say you don't love him but surely you can see it's Destiny, that your meant to be together. I have sex for the fun of it, I like it. I like that my bi-polar makes me more sexually active, because I love it. Sex, I love sex. Fucking, sucking-"

"Okay" I held my hands up. "You love sex, I get that. But no"

"Why?"

"Because it is supposed to be me" I yell.

"Girls, girls"

We both turn around to Blondie coming from behind the curtains. "Cecilia while I do like you, I admit your cousin holds an appeal, so either of you. But hurry up and decide, I don't have all day"

Alicia moved away from me taking her top off on the way.

"Alicia" I shout after her.

"Looks like a decision has been made" Blondie says leaning down to kiss Alicia and moving her bra strap down then glances across at me. "Do you like to watch Cecilia?"

"Alicia don't do this" I plead.

"Decisions been made" Blondie snaps. "Leave Cecilia"

I walk back out stumbling against the wall as I throw up. I take deep breaths trying to calm myself down. I can't believe I just walked out of there, without a backward glance!

I wish I could just phone the cops on Blondie, but I can't because I and the whole group will be dropped into it too. We will all go to prison for what we all did, and if that isn't bad enough we carry un-licenced firearms with us.

There's no way out.