A/N: Thanks for the reviews. Here's a long chapter to make up for the last one. I have a Christmassy chapter next so I want it up before Christmas and not after.

Cecilia

I watch Dylan but I don't go to him. I know how bad that sounds, but I just can't face it. I've put a brick wall up around love, I had been knocking it down, but it can easily be built. And it is so much easier to have that wall around me, that seeing Dylan I grab at it, it feels safe.

I put it up after Jay. And now I'm putting it up with Dylan.

Because the truth is that, he can't get over Maddy, over the guilt. And I can't get over letting the brick wall go down, over Jay.

Even if it hurts like the hell of a bitch.

So what do I do when this happens to me? I go clubbing, get bladdered and take up with a guy.

This time: I worked getting his ass back where it belongs. The plan fell as we fell in love and it was time it went back into action.

I had to save him and this was the only way I knew how.

I got on the train when I was supposed to go to school and went to Jackson, Dylan's hometown. I knew the exact address of the Andersons but I figured I'd have better hope at catching her at her school.

I sat on the wall outside his house instead while I waited for the school to finish, my train had arrived in at noon so I had some time to kill. I saw his mom leave presumably to work, random people didn't give me looks as I walked past.

"Hey there, you"

I glance to my right where an older looking guy, college age?, came up to me. "Hi"

"Waiting for someone?" He asks. "Haven't seen you before"

"Do you know a guy named Dylan Henderson?"

The guys lips quirks up. "I'm Jae Henderson"

"Your brothers?" I took a guess.

He shook his head. "No thank god, I'm his cousin"

"Don't you like him?"

"He does he just pretends he dosent" A younger guy who I didn't notice standing next to the guy smirks.. I jolt as he looks so much like Dylan. "How do you know Dylan?"

"He's my boyfriend"

"How is he?"

"Okay" I shrug.

"I'm Rayman"

"Yeah and your supposed to be in school" Jae rolls his eyes. "Dylan would kill me if he knew I was keeping you back from school"

"Really? What's he like?"

"What is he like?" Rayman swung up to the wall and set next to me taking the spliff out my hand and taking a drag. "Kinda a hypocrite but I get him, you know? He hardly attends school, parties, drugs, alcohol but then goes ballistic if we do but he just doesn't want us to end up like him. So he'd kick my ass for sure"

I nod. "I'm sorry he had to be taken away from you"

"He doesn't call" The guy took another drag and gave it back to me.

"He broke his phone" I took mine out my bag. "He's got a new phone now I'll give you the number but don't tell him it was from me as I don't want him knowing I'm here"

"Why are you here?" Jae asks.

I tell them, not all of it, just that I'm working to get Dylan back where he belongs and why I'm doing it, not how and not what spurred me to do so.

"Really?" Rayman perks up. "Thank you; you have no idea what it's like not having your older brother around"

"How old are you?" I ask curiously.

"Thirteen"

"Rayman here" Jae presses money into his hand. "Get something from the shop"

Rayman was about to argue but with a look from Jae he slinked off.

"What is it?" I ask him.

"You said he's your boyfriend yet your pretty stuck on getting rid of him. So what happened?"

"Maddy"

"Ah. Now there's a girl who has trouble written all over her, she's the honey that attracts an already fucked up person to get more fucked up"

"I rather not hear about her"

"Fair enough"

"I better go" I stood up. "Maybe I can catch her at lunch or something"

Jae nods and watches me as I go. I don't know why but I didn't like him for some unconscious reason.

It was luck really. They were on lunch, she was sitting at the bakers with some friends. I tap her on the shoulder.

She turns around to me with sunglasses on, taking them off to take a look at me. "Do I know you?"

"You shouldn't lie you know" I took the copied emails out my bag and plonked them on the table. One of her friends reaches out for it but she snaps her hand away picking them up to her face. "Because when someone you know tells the truth in the end, their secrets are kept safe"