Thanks for the reviews people. They always make my day! Something I wanna talk about cause a lot of people asked me if Kate is keeping the baby: I have a couple of ideas how I want the story to end, I haven't written anything yet so everything is still out in the open. But I can tell you this much; I normally really enjoy happy ends. ;)

Kate could hear Castle shouting when she got out of the elevator and walked up to his front door. "She doesn't wanna have any of it! It's like talking to a wall. Why is she so damn stubborn?! Can't she at least once think about how her decisions are affecting the people around her?"
"Well..." she heard Marthas muffled voice through the walls "You don't seem to be able to get her point of view either so I would say you guys are even."
"Are you serious? Do you wanna tell me that..." Castle didn't finish his sentence cause in this moment Kate finally had the courage to knock on the door.

"The whole world seems to be against me right now." Castle muttered when he opened the door and saw who was standing in front of him.
"Castle, can we talk?"
"Hold your breath, Kate. I don't wanna hear about it- and I don't wanna fight about it. Not that you care, but I don't think it's the right decision. "
"You got it all wrong! I never wanted to…" Castle interrupted her mid-sentence.
"I think it's the best if you would leave"

His voice cut right through her, Kate was stunned. She couldn't even reply anything cause she honestly wasn't prepared for so much hatred.

"Naaa" Martha came up behind Castles frame. "I would love for her to come in"
"Mother!" Castle turned around and gave Martha a deadly look. After a couple moments he only shrugged his shoulders. "Whatever. If she comes in, I'm outta here." And with that he took his jacket and left the loft.

Kate was on the edge of crying. She had given him room, didn't call or text him. Giving them both time to think about everything- to calm down till they were ready to talk again. That was the reason why she had waited 3 days to come here. She couldn't stand the distance any longer, she wanted to talk it out but it didn't seem like he was ready to talk about any of it.

Martha jolted Kate out of her thoughts."He can be like a little boy sometimes."

"Rick has every right to be mad at me." She quietly replied.
"From what Richard told me, it's not entirely your fault. He can be persuasive when people don't agree with him and it's not wrong to feel the way you do Kate." Martha spoke softly.
"You think?" Kate asked, being relieved to have found at least someone who didn't judge her right frim the beginning.
"Yes, kiddo." Martha put her arm around Kates shoulder giving her a quick hug. "What about if I make us a cup of tea and we talk?"
Kate was able to smile the first time since Rick had left her apartment the other night. "That sounds lovely Martha."

When they both had a steaming cup of tea in front of them, Kate could feel Martha staring at her- waiting for her to talk. Since she didn't want to start with the obvious she asked her something she was curious about.

„When did Rick tell you about it?"

„Ohh" Martha started „actually he told me today. Didn't talk for days. He didn't want to tell me at all."

„How did you find out?"

„Lucky guess" Martha chuckled. „I asked him straight out if you were pregnant and if that was the reason for his early midlife crisis. Took him by surprise and he spilled the whole story."

„Just for the record tho, what would've been your second guess?" Kate stared at the older lady waiting for her answer.

"That he'd proposed and you said no. But that seemed unlikely, so I went with my first guess."

„Did he really tell you everything?" Kate was playing with the handle of her teacup, she hadn't even noticed how on edge she was till she felt another hand covering hers and squeezing it lightly, calming her down.

„He told me the most important part. That you don't want to keep it and that he doesn't understands why. Especially cause he would give up everything to have this little family."

"He wants it so badly and I feel awful for taking it away from him." She felt the tears welling up insider her.

"And he will feel the same way if you have the child and then are unable to cope with the situation, knowing that you felt like this from the beginning."

"I never expected him to react this way at all. I thought he would feel at least a little bit like I do."

"He always wanted kids. Maybe because he knows that he finally would have someone for his silly Laser Tag game or to watch Star Wars with or to just have an excuse to try out all the kids toys he always wants to buy" Kate laughed with tears in her eyes, knowing that was Martha was saying was true. In a child Rick would find a playmate for a lifetime.

"Rick would be a great dad."

"Yes he would be but that doesn't help if the child would've a mother who isn't ready to be a mom."

The tears were now streaming down her face. Martha had said what she was thinking for the last couple days, she would be a mother but not a mom.

"I wish I could change how I feel."
"No you shouldn't- not because of Richard at least, if you change how you feel then because you want to feel differently about it. A baby changes everything and you shouldn't go into it halfhearted."

"So what do I do?"

What Richard needs Katherine is a talk- one without yelling at each other. He needs to know your reasons for your decision. Remember? He can't accept something without knowing the story. Tell him everything. He'll come to his senses but in return you should listen to what he has to say."
"How do I get him to talk to me? At the moment he can't even stand to be in the same room."
"He knows that you're ready to talk again. You made your move. It'll be nagging at him to know why you were here. I know Richard, he'll come to you before you know it." She winked at Kate, got up and came around the kitchen counter taking Kates face in her hands and softly brushing the tears away.

"Go home. Sleep, it looks like you weren't able to do so in days."

"Thank you Martha. For everything-it means a lot."

"Of course and don't forget Katherine; the universe has mysterious ways sometimes, but you'll see everything will turn out just fine"
She gave Kate a hug and brought her to the door.
"Martha?" Kate turned around one more time before opening the door to go back to her apartment "Can you..." She took a breath "can you tell Rick that I love him?" Her cheeks were blushing, feeling silly for asking Martha for such a favor.

"Katherine, I'm pretty sure he knows that you love him. Even if you guys were fighting."
"I know but..." She was painting patterns on the floor with her shoe "could you still tell him? Please?"
"Yes darling, I will tell him"
Kate released her breath. "Thank you."

Ugh okay I know I know maybe you don't even believe that it'll ever turn out in a good way BUT I promise you, I'll fix some things in the next chapter. Especially cause I really can't afford to pay for Badaboumbas funeral. ;)
And for everyone who hoped it would be Jim she would be talking to, he'll appear soon! (& this is not the last time she'll talk with Martha)

Next chapter is the talk between Rick & Kate: leave me a review with something you want that comes up in the discussion. (Or you maybe you have a sentence/phrase you want me to use?) All suggestions are welcome :)