So I felt like doing a Charilco chapter to further develop them as a pairing and as characters. I doesn't really bring the plot forward much, but I find it important to have anyway so here we go. It's still obviously going to be rated T, but Chariclo mentions her thoughts about M stuff in here so yeah...
Chapter 16: Uncontrollable
I only came to Scaris to see the sights and witness the city of love, not experience it. I love Catrine, a lot, and I mean A LOT. I've seen people fall madly in love and it is the most beautiful thing on Earth, but I just don't know… I'm nervous. I've only known her for two days but when I see her I go through all the major side effects that the drug called love tends to give to its users. That basically means lightheadedness, severe heart-pounding, uneasy stomach, intense body heat, confusion, and an overall uncertainty that leads to various important decisions being chosen in a matter of seconds. You sometimes say things you don't even think your saying, but you just go with everything in the moment. My reaction to Catrine's dad dreadful homophobia would be that. I would most definitely thought what I said, but I outright blurted it for all to hear.
When I'm around Catrine I feel a burning passion inside of me, just wanting to explode. I wouldn't say it's arousal towards your true love, but more of the desires to make your connection with your partner even more tightknit. There's just something about her! Her fur is so soft to the hand that I just want to get her love touches without getting intimate. It does make me curious as to what she feels like… Not just her hands or her face. Her chest, her legs… her breasts… I just feel as if my feelings are so intense for how little we've known each other but they're so powerful. I know its love, but I can't help but question if any of us have lust as well. It's just so confusing to actually experience for myself. I would give advice to myself, but I just can't seem to.
It's just two days, but I'm madly in love with a ghoul. I only have until Friday to live out everything I can with her and it's so difficult to deal with. Would I even consider getting intimate or would I feel like everything is too rushed. I don't even know how she feels on the matter besides that she's in love with me. My emotions are just all over the place on the inside while I seem calm and collected on the outside. I don't even know whether to tell her how I feel or show her. I feel as if I'm in a maze these passing hours where my true feelings are in the center while Manny Taur is chasing me and leaving me with few options to go to in so little time.
Love is a crazy thing, Freddie Scarecury had it all right, but I don't have a motorbike. I study love in various outlets and am the daughter of one of its most famous icons, but I have hardly any idea on how I make my move. I'm an eternity when it comes to age, but my brain and physical appearance make me seem like a seventeen-year-old ghoul. I just feel all this pressure as I've never experience anything like this and I'm expect to know everything and I've been acting like I do for centuries. I'm a fake, but the one thing about me I know that isn't is that the ghoul sitting beside me right now has my uncontrollable love. That's just what love is. Uncontrollable.
I hope you liked my take on her and I'd really appreciate an R&R with this chapter specifically. ;~;