hey. i feel like i shoudve stretched the last two chapters to make them more dramatic, but its too late now. im really busy and i dont have a laptop, so ill update as much as i can this week. alright enjoy.
"Daddy!" omri squeals. everytime he says that my heart pumps three times faster. i wasnt around to hear delenae's first words and because i messed up again i missed omri's. hopefully ill get the oppertunity with our new baby.
i walk over to my growing son, a whole year old. his birthday was two days ago. i pick omri up and toss him into the air. "daddy!" he says again. "thats right omri you're doing so good" i say happily and kiss his nose.
celine is next to me with a bowl of popcorn and a can of whipped cream. i reach over and kiss her cheek. "how's our little man" i ask her rubbing her five month pregnant belly.
after we got back together five months ago, we spent a whole week constantly having make-up sex. now she's pregnant again.
"he's doing great" she says back. i open my mouth and she sprays whipped cream in. "me too!"omri says. celine pours a little in his mouth. "yummy!" he says and turns to me.
"daddy!" delenae calls running into the room. she's five years old now. "yes ellen" i answer, and think to myself that i dont really prefer that nickname anymore.
delenae hops onto the couch, "there is something wrong with bullet!" she says, tears in her eyes.
bullet has been pregnant for a while now, she must be having her babies. "dont worry delenae bullet is fine. dont you know how mommy has a baby here" i say rubbing my wifes stomach. the little girl nods. "bullet has babies in her stomach. shes having them now" i say and gesture to the couch. "its best we give her privacy" i suggest and my daughter climbs onto the bed with celine and i.
she crawls over to her mother and lays her head on her shoulder, "bullet is having a baby like your having a baby mommy?" she asks. "im having one baby, bullet is going to have babies" she says emphasising. "puppies!" delenae says jumping up happily and bounces on the bed. omri copies his sister, but falls back. "yup" celine says.
"and were keeping all of them!" she asks. celines eyebrows go up, "oh no we cant keep all of them" she says. delenae stops bouncing, "why not mommy" she asks. "thats alot of dogs" she says, "and what about the new baby, they'll make too much noise." this is directed towards me.
i consider this, "well we dont know how many babies she's having so lets just wait and see what happens" i say to celine and delenae gets happy again.
i lean against the headboard holding my son. he stares down at my abs, looking very confused. i laugh, lay him on my chest so i can look him in the eyes. "once you get old enough to surf ill let you start lifting weights, so like you can grow up looking like me" i say and rub my nose against his.
celine smiles at me. i hear bullet moaning and howling. she must really be havng babies then. i get up and say, "im gonna go check on her". delenae gets off the bed, "me too!". celine follows along, bringing her whipped cream with her.
we find bullet in the garage in the back yard. she is curled up on the floor, panting. i notice a pink figure, ever so slowly, pushing its way out of her. the floor is stained with blood. already there is a small hairless puppy curled up beside her nursing. the second makes is way out and whines a bit. "that birth looked alot easier than human births" celine announces. i smile at that and walk over to bullet. "all done" i ask her. she looks at me then bows her head, turns to her babies and lies in a way they can drink milk from her. i rub her head, "congrats girl".
"puppies!" delenae squeals and goes over to touch the babies. bullet growls defensively at her. i pull delenae back, "dont touch them yet baby" i say. "we need to give them space" i say and we all leave the garage.
"only two babies" i say to celine amd she understands what i mean. "we just need to see. will those two be a problem when we have the baby" she replies. i shrug and we go inside.
bullets babies grow quickly and soon we find them scurring around the house. delenae is able to pet them and hold them whenever she pleases and they arent that bad.
celine is having a hard time with her pregnancy. she complains that the baby doesnt kick or move around anymore. at first i just told her to be patient and that she is just too anxious, and is expecting too much too fast. but as the days go by celine becomes more and more worried about her baby. by the time she is six months in she decides to see a doctor.
"do you want me to come with you" i ask celine as she gets dressed in her room. she looks at me and nods. "yeah, that would really help" she says and walks over. she takes my hand, "beck what if there is something wrong with the baby" she cries. i shake my head and wipe her eyes, "dont say things like that, im sure everything is fine. think positive" i say and pull her into a hug.
she sighs deeply, and hugs me tighter. im hoping this baby is okay, please let this baby be okay.
i take delenae and omri the few houses down to my mothers house. "hey momma" i say hugging her. "hey" she says and happily takes the baby from my arms and delenaes hand. "how long will you be" she asks me. i stuff my hands into my pants pockets and shrug. "about an hour or two" i say. i kiss my kids goodbye then my mother. "thanks. love you mom" i say leaving. "i love you two" she says and shuts the door.
i head to the car where celine is aready strapped in. i look over at her and stroke her face, "relax baby" i whisper. her eyes close and when she opens them tears fall. "but what if somthing happened to the baby..what if i messed up, what if i did something wrong" she sobs.
i climb out of my chair and wrap my arms around her. "celine look at me" i demand. she stares up at me with those gorgeous blue eyes. "you didnt do anything wrong. lets ask the doctor okay" i say. she shakes her head and i kiss it. "babe" i say and she listens. "please" i beg. im about to cry myself. but its my job to be the man of the house. i have to stay strong.
i drive us to the womans hospital and we wait in the waiting room. "celine odair" a woman calls. i stand and take celines hand. she hesitates a first, her curiosity gets the best of her. the thought that her baby may be fine is what she wants but she wont be able to know unless shes told.
the doctor has her put on a hospital gown and lay down. they check for blood or swelling or anything defective at all. "celine when did you notice your baby stopped moving?" the doctor asks. "around four and a half months in" she answers. she answers her questions alot more easily now, since shes had other babies.
the doctor checks for a heart beat. he moves all around her belly checking. i see celines chest rising and falling rapidly. shes stressing, and worrying. "is he okay?" she asks. the doctor stands up straight, "i wasnt able to find a heart beat..it seems your baby..may be gone" i swaer i just felt my heart break in half. the baby is dead. "that's not true" celine argues, a tear rolling down her cheek. the doctor tries to say it in the nicest way possible.
"the baby hasnt survived Mrs. Odair i'm sorry", "well why hasnt he!? what happened!" she demands an answer. "if you allow us to perform an ultra sound we may be able to see what caused the death". i look at celine, all of her sadness is being transformed into rage.
the doctor puts a blu gel on her stomach and then rubs it around with a white stick. "wait, if the baby is...dead...then why didnt she have a miscarriage" i ask. the doctor says, "when a baby dies it doesnt HAVE to exit the womb immediately. it can stay there for years". i nod then sit back in my chair. i look at the screen that shows the inside of celines stomach. it shows the baby. the baby we lost. theres a sharp pain in my stomach.
i see the baby, his face, eyes, mouth nose, ears...and the chord wrapped around his neck.
the room goes silent.
celine stares at the screen and her hand slowly travels to her belly. "the umbilical chord choked him" she cries. "im afraid so" the doctor says to her. the baby died in her stomach, sophocated by his own umbilical chord.
i cant even hold it in. i cry. i cry for celine and for the baby. he's dead.
"we can have a surgurey performed to take the baby out" the doctor says to celine but she doesnt answer. "when" i ask. "an hour" he replies and i nod. the doctors and nurses exit the room, "ill give you two a minute to talk" he says.
as soon s the door shuts i rush over to celine. she breaks out crying. i climb into bed with her and hold her and cry with her. there is nothing we an say about this. "we can always try again" i whisper to her. she shakes her head immediately, "no. i dont want another baby after this. i cant risk this EVER again" she says and lies her head down on my chest to cry.
i call my mother and tell her we'll be a while longer, she doesnt mind.
the doctors come back and admit us to the actual hospital where they strap celine to a bed and drug her so she cant feel anything. i have to put on a mask and robe over my clothes.
a small tarp is placed at celines chest so she cant see her stomach. i watch closely as they carefully cut her open. the blood and guts makes me very naucious.
i have no idea what they are doing to her. they use metal clips to hold her stomach open, stick tubes up her to suck blood out and all types of things that make me turn green. "beck?" celine asks. i walk over to her, "yes baby" i ask. "can you see him yet" she asks me, dozing off. i look back at her stomach and smile a little. "yes i can see him" i say and kiss her head.
i stand back near the doctors and look as they move more and more insides out of the way so i can get a better look at my baby.
there is a pitchy squeal. i look around, "what was that" i ask. im not answered immediately. then i here it again and again. it sounds like omri when he was born.
is my baby crying!? "he's alive!" a doctor announces. "what?" celine asks. "he's alive. the baby is alive celine!"
her eyes get wide as she notices the screaming baby.
the doctor takes the umbilical cord from around his neck, cuts it and says, "quickly get this baby into an incubator!" the doctor takes hold of my baby and rushes off. "wait i want to see him!" celine pleads. no one answers her.
she fights the restraints, "wait please! please i have to see him!" she screams. "celine baby calm down. we'll get to see him soon. he's not supposed to be born this early he needs to be taken care of. but were so lucky! he's alive celine arent you happy!" i ask her. she lays back down and nods and cries. "you did it baby" i whisper to her and kiss her gratefully.
the doctors took hours just cutting her open, now they need to close her back up. i end up having to call my mother and tellimg her we wont be back for a few days because celine needs to stay in the hosptal. "why whats happened to her?" momma asks me. "they cut the baby out of her momma. he needs to grow so we have to stay with him" i say. "alright tell celine i love her and i wish the best. ill contact her parents for you" she says. "thank you momma" i say. she's about to hang up.
"wait momma, let me talk to delenae" i say and she puts the little girl on the phone. "hello?" she says into the speaker. "hey baby it's daddy" i say. "daddy hi! where are you and mommy?" she asks. "were at the hospital. mommy had a baby" i say. she squeals happily. "so you're comin now?" she asks. "no baby we need to stay for a few days. i need you to be a big girl and watch omri and help grandma. we'll bring the baby home for you guys soon okay" i say. "okay daddy" she says. "can i talk to mommy" she asks. "yeah" i say and hold the phone to celines ear.
she's dozing off and isnt aware of much but she manages to explain whats happening with her and the baby.
when celine is stitched up they sit her up in the bed and let me lay next to her. the doctor comes in and we shower him with questions about our baby. "how is he alive, i thought you couldnt find a heart beat" i say. "i couldnt. it turns out his heart isnt fully developed yet. but being inside you kept him alive. the umbilical cord wasnt tight enough to choke him so he survived. you two are very lucky to have such a child survive in a situation like that.
i squeeze celines hand and kiss her cheek. she sighs and leans in me. "when can we see him" celine asks. "now" the doctor says. celine is put in a wheelchair and i wheel her out of the room after the doctor and into another room. there are lots of wires and a metal incubator in the middle of the room. i wheel celine close enough for her to see and we look inside and stare at our new baby.
the thought that we almost lost him today brngs tears to our eyes. "you protected him celine" say and kiss her head. "what are the wholes for" she asks. "so you can touch him" the doctor replies. i walk on the oposite side of celine and we reach our hands into the incubator to gently stroke the soft skin of our baby.
he has silky brown hair and blue rubber patches on his chest. i wish i knew the color of his eyes.
he is wearing a diaper much bigger than him and is lying on a small blanket. "how do you feed him" celine asks. "the tube in his nose" the doctor points out. "you give the breast milk and we send it through the tube so he can eat" he says simply.
celine rubs his hand with her finger and he grabs onto it. his mouth opens revealing his toothless gums. he yawns and then his eyes open. i cant see the color because im in the other side. "hi baby Arden. hey baby ive been waiting to meet you" celine whispers to her son smiling.
i walk around to the other side and get a good look at my son before he falls back asleep and hides those glittering blue orbs.
please review or I wont update. I havent been getting any reviews and I feel like you guys don't like my stories :'( so review review please. all of the stories not just this one.
anyway wasn't that sad. they almost lost their baby. im sure you're happy he survived. now I gotta go, byee. SM