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It passed a mouth. A fucking mouth, not two weeks as he said. Where is my husbad? Where the fuck is him? I think Im going crazy. Is time for me to talk with Alexander. I kow he has all my answers.

I made my way to his office. I did not bother to knock, I just entered.

"Good morning, Rosemarie. How are ya?"

"Like you care." I hate so much this man.

"well, maybe I do"

"You are a good actor, Alexander."

"Thank you, my doughter-in-low." I rolled my eyes. He can be such a rude man sometimes. Well, most of times.

"What happened to Dimitri? Where is he? He told me he will be bcak in two weeks. If I count correct it's been four weeks, four fucking weeks."

"it is not your job ,little girl."

"Last time I checked he was my husband. " I want to kill him right now.

"So?"

"So? Really?"

"What do you want to know, Rose?" Did I really spend 5 min of my life haveing this conversation with this monster?

"Where is he?"

"Dead." I I blinked and passed out.

-x-

When I wake up I was in my bed. Olena was next to me.

"Rose, your awake." She smiled.

"Is, is... he dead?" I managed to ask. God, Im so afraid of her answer.

"No, he is not, love."

"Then where is he?"

"We, we don't know." my world collapsed again. What does it mean? What mean 'we don't know'? I need to know where is my husband.

"What does that mean?"

"The war took over two weeks ago." She stoped.

"and?"

" We lost. Dimitri fought untill the end."

"what do you mean untill the end?" these words make me go crazy.

"He managed to get close to a small cottage where there were a few people who needed help. Or so they told me. What he didn't knew was that under that cottage was a bomb." My world just stoped.

"Dim..." I wasn't able to finish my sentance.

"Im sorry,Rose."

"No, no, no, no, no, no, no, don't say that. Please don't say that." These words just broke my heart in two. No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

"Im sorry, Rose."

"Stop!?" tears flooded my eyes and I let them out. I want to cry my sould out.

"Rose.."

"Don't say that." I yelled. I know is not her fould but I had to scream. I had to scream at someone right now.

"There is someone down who want to talk to you." Helped by her I managed to go down. I hate so much this situation.

"Are you Rosemarie Belokov? The widow?" some stranger asked.

"I guess so."

"I need to talk to you about your husband dead."

"No, you talk to who you want but not to me. Im out of here." And i left.

"Rose, come back!" I heard Olena saying those words.

" Please, I don't need someone to follow me." And I made my way to our suite.

In the room my heart break all over again. I went into the bathroom and took a long bath. I wanted to forget but I couldn't. He is my husband, the love of my life, not just some man I used to share my bed with. All this time my tears didn't stoped. I got my underwear and went to the closet. I took one of his sweater and put in on. It still smells like him. His soft smell. The strength left me and I collapsed on the floor.

I just can't belive it.

I had to cry. I cryed my soul out. I cryed untill there were no tears in my eyes. The floor was cold but I couldn't stand up. I only could breath. how much I want to stop my breath. How much I wish to stop breathing.

I got up and went to bed. On his side of bed. I took his pillow in my arms and I breathed deeply. I can still smell his aftershave. How can I live without him? Should I live without him? God, Im only 18 and Im thinking about death. This is not normal.

I took Dimitri's pain killers and drank the whole bottle. I made my decision, life without him worth nothing. I closed my eyes slowly, slowly, looking at a picture with my king. My beautiful king. Please God, don't let me wake up again, only if is in heaven, in my king's arms.

I passed out. It didn't hurt. I had his smile in my head. I felt myself near him. Step by step.

-x-

"What was in her mind?"

"What happened to her?"

"She shouldn't have done it."

"She is so stupid"

I could hear all these voices but I couldn't open my eyes. Am I dead? If yes why Im in such pain? Why I can't open my eyes?

"When will she wake up?"

"We don't know Lissa, she's been like this for a week." A week? Lissa is here?

"Please Rose, wake up!" I can't Lissa, I can't.

"What happened to Rose, that strong girl?" she is dead. She won't live without Dimitri. I answerd but no one could hear me.

"I belive in her, she'll be back." This was Olena's voice.

I was thirsty. so thirsty. I need to wake up. Im also so cold. Where is my sweater?

I open up my eyes.

"Rose, you are awake!"

"Yeah, Lissa, I am."

"You are such a stupid girl."

"Lissa, stop." Said Olena. "How you feel bebe?"

"Empty." I answerd. This is the only word that could describe me. Empty, empty without my king.

"You should not feel this way, love."

"Why, is Dimitri here?" I don't know why but suddenly i felt happy. Was it all just a nightmare? If yes, why am I in a hospitale?

"Can you, guys leave fo a moment? I want to be lonly with Rose."

"Sure, anything you need, Just call us."

"Sure."

"Can you please give me that sweater?" and she handed me it. I put it on, I was so cold.

"Better?"

"Yeah, thank you."

"How you feel?"

"How I feel Olena. How I feel? I feel empty, I wanted to die. Why did you brought me here? I wanted to fucking die." I yelled the last words.

"There is something you may want to live for."

"Is Dimitri here? Is he back?" instand to look me in the eyes she looked down. See, there is nothing to live for.

"No, he is not here. He is in heaven." I know this situation hurts her too. At least, he was her only son. I know it hurts her too. Not just me.

"I..."

"Rose, Dimitri didn't left you alone, he..."

"I know. I know. I have you, Lissa and everyone,... but is not enough for me." It will never be enough without him.

"Well, now there is someone else."

"Who?"

"Dimitri's child?" is that a joke? It must be a joke.

"W..w.. whhhat?" I was scared to ask.

"It..."

"What kind of joke is that?" I yelled

"Im not joking, Rose. You are pregnant."

I am what?

What am I ganna do now?

-x-

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