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Rpov

I didn't thought that everything was going to be so hard. Even though I was surrounded by people who love me, I feel alone. Very alone. So empty. I feel like there is a place in my heart that must me filled by someone, my something, by my king. There's only a mouth untill I'll be holding in my arms my little treasure.

I should be happyer, but I'm not.

There are nights when I can't sleep. I go on the balcony, watch the stars and think about Dimitri. I wander if he is there, in those stars, if he see's me doing that, if he miss me. I miss talking to him. I miss touching him. Why my life has changed so much? Why stars are fadeing and my love dosen't?

In a mouth I'll have a little boy. I'll name him after his father, ofcourse. Alexander is verry happy that I'll have a boy. He already see my little boy as the next king. All I want is to run far away, with my baby, from this fucking royal life. Actualy I planed on doing that, no matter how much it will hurt Olena. She can come with me, I wont mind.

"Rose, what are you doing?" ohhh, Olena almost scared the shit out of me.

"Packing."

"Why?" God, I really don't want to hurt her this way. She's been like a mother for me all this time. She's been there for me, helping me through this pregnancy.

"Because Im going to Adrian."

"Rose.."

"No, hear me out. I can't stay here. Alexander already has plans for my child, and, I don't want the same destiny for my child as his father had."

"He wont."

"Not if I'll say here." and I managed to to make her sad. Just perfect , Rose. Only you could do that. Aplause. "You can come with me anytime." I sugested

"You know I can't do that."

"Yes you can. Plus, Victoria is there too." Yep, Victoria merried my big brother. Because Dimitri died, Alexander lost his power over my country, so, he had to do something. Well, that something is merring his little girs with my big brother.

"Rose."

"Please, Olena, don't make this any harder for me." I took her hand in mine's. "I need to know my child will be safe. He is all I got."

"Ok chlid. Just take good care of you and of this little Dimitri."

"Ofcourse I will." I kissed the back of her hand. "Thank you for understanding me."

"I love you, Rose, as my own child."

"I know. I love you too. A lot."

-x-

I am home, or so I used to call it, home. Adrian is the king, Victoria is the queen. Now Im only a guest in my country, for my people. Now they see me as the Baia's queen. It dosen't hurt me. I don't care about titles. I don't care if people love ar hate me. They are not part of my life, they can't hurt me.

"Rose, I missed you so much." Victoria came and huged me really tight. I missed this little girl too. She used to bring the smile on my lips, now she is the person that make me remember Dimitri. After all, is better here then there. I know wherever I'll be, Dimitri's memory will hunt me forever.

"I missed you too, Vika."

"How's my favorite nephew?" she said as she touched my belly.

"He is fine, impatient to come to this world."

"What will you tell to your son about his father?"

"What's there to tell? The truth, ofcourse. He will know everything about his father, how he lived, died... and other things. I wil tell him everything." Just thinking about him makes me sad. I know I should smile, but I can't. I don't think that I will be able to talk about him without to cry.

"Rose, no, no, no. Don't cry. I shouldn't remember him. Im sorry." And I started to cry even more.

"Last time I saw you, you were crying, now you cry again. For heaven's safe, Rose, you know to do something else instead of crying?"

"I missed you too, Adrian."

"What have you told her, Vika?" I don't know if love is what my brother feels for Vika, but Im pretty sure she is something special to him.

"It's ok. I'll be fine."

"When?"

"Adrian please, I've just arived, let me breath." I wiped the tears away and I gave them a fake smile. "ok, I need to go to my room."

"I'll send someone with your stuff."

"Thank you, brother. I feel the love."

"Yeah, sure."

In my old bedroom I saw my mother. God, I've missed her so much.

"Hey love."

"Mom." I ran to her and hugged her tight. I started to cry even harder. Life seems to turn harder then I thought. Beeing in my mother's arms I feel like a child again. I hate my destiny. God, help me make a better world for my little one. Help me protect him from any harm and danger.

"How are you, child?"

"Not good, mom. I feel like my heart is breaking all over again."

"You wont be sad forever."

"Belive me, I will." No matter what will happn, how my life will turn around, I will be sad forever. I know it. I feel it.

"You will love again. You still young."

"Yeah mom, I will love again, my child. There is no place for a man in my life." Just thinking about it makes me sick. So what if Dimitri is dead? The fact that I love him wont change. I will be his forever, even if he is dead, I will be his.

"But you need a man in your life."

"No, stop saying that!" I yelled at her. Why is she saying that?

"Rose..."

"Mom, I love my husband."

"But he is dead."

"Get out!"

"What?"

"I said GET OUT." Maybe I did a mistake to come home. Here, everyone sees Dimitri as a memory, as someone dead, as someone that dosen't exist anymore. Back in Baia, he was a hero, an exemple for everyone. He was someone, not just a name. He will live forever, through me, my child. He is not dead and I hate when people say that.

"Im sorry, Rose."

"GET OUT."

My child is kiking very hard. It made me scream and my mom was next to me in a second.

"What's wrong"

"Nothing, don't touch me!"

"Rose, let me help you."

"He just kiked, ok? He is doing this a lot. Can you leave now?" and she left.

I know my little one can't wait to come to this world but all I want is to keep him as much as I can inside me. I have a feeling that I can't protect him from outside. He is mine and no one will hurt him as long as I'll live.

"I love you so much kid. You know, daddy loves you, too. He will always protect you from heaven. You are his little star, his little light. Even if he is not living between us anymore, you will know him as he was. As the good man he really was. As a hero. My hero. He saved my sould, he saved me in so many ways. Im so sorry that you will never get the chance to meet him." And i started to cry. Seems like it is my favorite stuff to do lately. "Sorry child, mama will be here to protect you."

"Knok knok, can i come in?"

"Sure Vika, come here." I open my arms and I hugged her. Not verry hard because my belly didn't allow me.

"Feel like home?"

"Not really."

"Why not?"

"I don't know, no matter where I'll be I can't feel like home."

"What do you do to smile?"

"Touch my belly. Feeling how my little one is fighting to come to this world."

"I can't wait to meet him."

"Yeah me too." I really want to meet my little one.

"What dad said when you left."

"I din't know. I haven't told him."

"Rose, your dad is asking for you. He want's to talk to you." I haven't forgat what my father did to me, I will never forgive him, no matter what he'll do.

"Sure, would you like to come with me?"

"Yeah, sure."

-x-

"Hey Abe."

"Kiz." He open his arms to hug me but i left him hanging. I don't want to touch him.

"What do you want to talk about?"

"Alexander called..."

"And?"

"He is asking about the child. He want him. And Rose, with every right. Your kid will be the next king, you can't deny his future."

"To hell with that. It's my child, I do what the hell I want with him. Alexander can shut himself." If that man were in fron of me right now, I whould have killed him. Who the hell he think he is? To me he is nothing.

"Why do you see this life as a hell?"

"Because is a hell."

"There is one more thing I want to talk to you."

"What?"

"Do you consider on merring again?" I hit him. Really hard. What the fuck is he saying? I will never merry again. EVER.

"So, this is a no."

"Ofcourse I wont. "

"Why not? You need a future, a husband, someone who can take care of you."

"I can take care of myself." I yelled. "And I do have a husband."

"But he is dead."

"Fuck you." And I left. How the hell can he say such a thing?

-x-

Do you miss Dimitri? If yes, review, or you don't want see him again.? I don't :)

Now really, what to do about him?

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Paula

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