Hey ... how are ya ? good or bad ?
I hope you all (women) had a special day on 8 March.
I love you...
-x-
When I arrived there, everyone was smiling at me. What did I do? Does the whole company knows that I was out with the boss? I hope not.
"Rose, wait a second." Demi called, runing after me.
"What?"
"There is someone in your office that want to talk to you."
"Who?"
"I don't know. She said she just want to talk to you."
"Ok. Thank you." And she left. Who may that be ?
When I enterd I got my answer. Tasha.
"What do you want Tasha?" she looked relaxed, like a bitch. I don't know, I only can see her as a bitch.
"I want to talk to you."
"Talk" I think I am the bitch now, but... I don't care.
"Are you planing on telling Dimitri the truth?"
"Of course."
"But you have no right. You will destroy him. He is happy now. Leave him alone!" I slaped her, again. Feels good.
"I have no right, Tasah? Are you sure? He is my fucking husband, the father of my child, the king af an empire, and I have no right? Fuck you bitch, I know you want him for youself but fresh news, he dosen't." I got really angry right now. How can she say such a thing.
"Why it's you the one who has to win all the time?. You had him once, let him be mine now." I think I saw some tears in her eyes, but I know are fake.
"Do you hear yourself out, Tasha? He is my husband, how can I let him go?"
"How would be..." but I didn't let her finish. I need some answers from her.
"For how much do you know he is alive?"
"What?"
"Answer!"
"Two years." I got sick. I actually passed out.
-x-
"What did you do to her?" it was Dimitri's voice.
"Nothing, just talking, I swear." And this was Tasha's voice.
"Tasha, I know what happened between you and Rose in the past, so please now, just leave. I don't want to see you again. Ever." And I opened my eyes.
"Hey, how you feel?"
"Im good, Di... Daniel."
"Fuck you bitch, yelled Tasha at me and left". If someone is a bitch here she is, I only knew how to love my man and haven't looked for someone else.
"Are you sure you feel good?"
"Yeah." And i got up. When I was figthing with Tasha I haven't noticed the flowers from my desk. Some beautiful roses. And a note. I took it and i read it.
'thank you for the most beautiful time of my life. I hope we can do it again' aww so sweet.
"Ofcourse we can." And I thorw myself in his arms. And because Im Rose Hataway (Belikov) I started to cry.
"Hey, why are you crying?"
"Because I never thought I'll be happy again. " he hugged me tight.
"Now stop crying, please." I nodded. "Oh, I think i told my parents about you and now they want to meet you." Parents? He has parents?
"Ok."
"It ok Tonight?" I nodded. "What was Tasha doing here?"
"She came to tell me to stay away from you."
"She what?" I saw concern in his eye. Well, at least, Im the one who is right now in his arms, not her.
"Sorry."
"No, don't say that."
"Ok, OK I remember you forbidden me to say sorry." And I freaked out. of course he dose't remember, he was Dimitri than ,not Daniel. But he smiled.
"Im happy than." And he kissed me. Oh God, I like what he does to me.
"What do I need to do now?"
"I need you in my office to help me with something."
"Ok than, I like to spend time with you."
"Me too." And he left.
-x-
We were in his office, me in his lap. Feels good. We done anything but work. We kissed, laughed, spoke and kiss and kiss and ... kiss.
"I think we should done this." He looked at me and smiled.
"No, I think we should start working... all we did is to turn on the computer." Yeah, he was right. We are like two tennegers that fall in love for the first time.
"I like kissing you."
"Not more then me."
"Let's not play this game, please." And we kissed again.
"Are you nervous?"
"Why?" why should I be nervous? Did I lost something?
"About you meeting my parents."
"Ohhhh, no, not at all." I actualy can't wait to see with what kind of lies will they come up with. Or will they tell me the truth? I hope so.
"Really?"
"Yeah."
"You are the first girl that is not scared to meet my parents."
"The first?" and i froze. How 'the first girl'? there's been other girls in Dimitri's life than me. It passed just almost five years. There were tears in my eyes but I blinked tham away.
"What?"
"Nothing, I need to go."
"Where?"
"To call to see how's David."
"Ok, tell I miss him." And I wolked out. i couldn't help but let out some tears fall down my face. I know I shouldn't feel like this but I do, it hurts. A lot.
All this years I cryed after my 'dead husbant' and he was fucking some bitches. God, I feel like my heart can't take anymore. I started to cry, hard, I needed this, I needed to let go out of this and get a new start. Im planing on telling him the truth, and soon, very soon.
I called home and asked about David. Lissa told me he was playing in his room. I also need to tell him the truth. He need's to know his father is alive. He need's to be truly happy. For once. These four years has been hard for him without a father. A boy need a man in tham lives. My child needs him. I need him. I need him next to me every night, to wake me up with a sweet kiss, to fall asleep in his arms, to fight with him becouse of nothing, to have long nights of lovemaking. I need all this back, cuz I had it once and I loved it.
"Rose, are you ok?" I haven't noticed but passed like two hours since I left his office.
"What?" I felt like someone wake me up.
"Have you been crying? Rose, is everything ok with David?"
"Yeah, he is fine."
"Then why you cryed?"
"Just remembering something, but Im fine now." And he came next to me, kneeling front of me.
"You know you can talk to me about everything?" i nodded. "Change of plans." He added.
"About what?"
"There wont be dinner with my parents tonight. Something happened and they had to leave."
"Something bad?" I tryed to look worried. I actualy don't care what happened with those people. They have kept Dimitri away from me all these years.
"No, no."
"In glad." And I gave him a fake smile.
"Hey, but I thought, would you want to come to my flat and cook you dinner?"
"When?"
"Tomorrow night is ok?"
"I'd love to." And he kissed my cheek. "Rose..."
"What?"
"What happened?"
"I... nothing. I just miss my son. This is the first time I work and .. you know, I miss having him around all the time."
"Would you like to talk about your husband?" what? Why dose he wants to know about him? Of course I'll tell him everything.
"no, not now..." he looked at me. Those beautiful eyes looking right into mine's. I melt.
"Ok. Can you bring David Tomorrow night too ?"
"sure." And we will be a family. My little perfect family.
-x-
"I can't belive she knew all this time and kept us in dark." Christian yelled. I told him and Lissa about Tasha. I know Christian is hurt, after all, Tasha is his cousin, they are family.
"Baby, please calm down, I always knew she is a bitch. You have only to look at her face to notice it." Said Lissa, trying to confort Chris.
"Rose, I can't help but feel guilty too."
"Oh no, no, Christian. Don't blame it on you."
"I can't belive her." Me and my big mouth managed to make Christian sad.
"Everything is done now. Forget it."
"I can't, I have to talk with her."
-x-
"Hey big boy, how are you?" we just arrived at Dimitri's place. He took David in his arms and kissed his cheek.
"Im good." My boy is a little shy. He dosen't have it from me. For sure. It's all his father.
"Hey beautiful." And he kissed my cheek too.
"Hey."
"So, tonight, what about fish?" fish sounds good but I have other plans. Black bread baby, maybe he will remember something.
"Sure, but I want to cook something for you too, if you allow me." Thanks God Olena showed me how to cook.
"What?"
"A surprise." And he smiled.
After dinner David left us. He was too tired and went to bed. Dimitri gave him a room where to sleep.
"I love this... how do you call it ? black bread?"
"Yeah and Im glad you like it." We were on the couch in each other arms. I could stay like this forever.
"Rose, can I tell you something but... please don't get mad"
"Sure." Is this the time when the truth will come out? Am I ready to speak the truth right now. To tell him who he really is?
"Mark and Oksana are not my parents. They found me almost 5 years ago, half dead." He closed his eyes and continued. "they brought me here, tried to find who I really am... but I never did. I don't know why. I don't remember nothing about my life before it... my brain is blank. I go regulary to doctors but they just can't break my hamnesia." I took his hand and kissed the back of it. "all i have from that life is this ring." And he showed me his wedding ring. The ring with my name on. I sat un and slaped him. Hard. "What the fuck, Rose?"
-x-
Bye... see ya next time.
Lot of love
Paula