Disclaimer: I do not own these characters, Stephenie Meyer does.

A/N: Here it is! Chapter 15! I wrote basically all of it in a day because it was a very easy chapter to write, but a lot of words! The inspiration just kept coming and coming. I hope you enjoy!

My Dark Angel

Chapter 15

Alaska

"Alice?" I asked bewildered as I got out of my car.

"Bella!" She yelled joyfully then jumping to me with her arms wide open, squeezing me with all the might her little body could conjure up.

"What are you doing here?" I asked pleasantly surprised.

"I came to town on a visit, and I haven't seen you in years! So I decided to stop by and catch up….Oh I've missed you Bella!" She said then gave me another hug.

"I've missed you too Alice," I smiled at her presence and relished in the embrace.

We went into my house where we were bombarded by my parents.

"Alice?" Renee asked, blinking rapidly to process what she was seeing. "Is it really you?" She then gave a huge smile and held her arms out for the pixie like girl. Alice leaped gracefully to her and returned the hug.

"Hey squirt, its' nice to see you again," Charlie said, giving Alice a hug as well, though his was much shorter.

Alice Brandon had been my best friend ever since we were little. Alice and her brother Emmett were the funniest and kookiest kids to have ever stepped foot in Forks, Washington. We grew up together, and we spent every moment together, until 3 years ago when I was in the 8th grade. Alice's dad got a new job…. the location?… Alaska.

They were rushed to Alaska in a matter of days, I was heartbroken and so was she. We tried to keep in touch with each other. She used to call me or I used to call her every day. Then it turned to a few calls a week, to once in a while, to never. I was sad with the slow regression of our friendship; she had always been a big part in my life and without her, it felt wrong, unnatural even. This unexpected visit had been a wonderful surprise.

After my parents talked to Alice for a little while, asking about her family and how Alaska was, Alice and I rushed upstairs to my room.

She sat on the front of my bed, I by the pillows.

"So tell me about Alaska, it's been forever. What's been going on?" I asked Alice, she sped right up and began talking, excited to tell of the adventures she had had in Alaska and the people she had met.

"Well it's been really good. Emmett has been dating a girl for about two years now."

"Really? What is her name? What is she like?" I asked, Emmett was always the jock type, I could only imagine she was a cheerleader that was perfect in every single way.

"Her name's Rosalie, she's really nice, a little tough at first, but only because she knows what she wants and how to get it. She is gorgeous; tall, model-esque with long blonde wavy hair and has the most beautiful violet blue eyes you have ever seen."

"Sounds like Emmett's kind of woman." I laughed, Alice did too.

"They are perfect for each other. I bet they'll even get married, I honestly would not doubt it."

"That's so crazy, it seems like only yesterday Emmett was the little boy with those giant dimples running around pulling pranks on everyone." I said, Alice laughed.

"That's because it was only yesterday," she laughed, but also rolling her eyes.

"He hasn't changed a bit." I smiled.

"Not at all."

"So…speaking of relationships, do you have a special someone?" I teased; Alice gave me a big smile.

"As a matter of fact I do." She pridefully and happily replied.

"Tell me!" I squealed with excitement. Alice was never one to date, she always knew what she was looking for, but she never found it in Forks.

"His name is Jasper Hale. He is originally from Texas, but his family moved up to Alaska because his father was relocated, military stuff. He is the perfect southern gentleman," she smiled pleasantly; "I love him." She sighed happily.

"How long have you been together?" I asked curiously.

"We started dating about a month after I moved to Alaska. It was around the time when we stopped calling each other. All of a sudden there was another new kid in town besides me. There was an instant connection, and I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. It was like I was meant to meet him, I can't really describe it. It's so strange. I just knew he was the one, I could just see it, you know?" Alice explained, staring off to space as she dissected her feelings for Jasper.

"I understand." I said, thinking about the way I currently feel about Edward.

"Which leads me to why I am here." Alice suddenly said in a serious tone.

"Yes?" I asked surprised.

"What is going on with you?" She said, I was confused as to what she meant by that.

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know Bella, you tell me. I just had a really bad feeling about you lately, like something has been going on with you. Are you okay?" Alice asked with a concerned face, I was shocked. How did she know things like that? It was so weird how in tune she was to people sometimes, Alice had always been like that, even when we were little. It was like she always knew what was going on with everything, and was almost always prepared for whatever was going to happen.

"How do you even know this?" I was stunned.

"Bella, I lied when I said I was visiting town. I'm not here because of that, I am here because I am worried about you." She looked at me with fear in her eyes, "Bella, I can't believe you never told me about what happened last year. You didn't answer my phone calls, nothing. I was worried about you. I talked to Jacob on the phone, he told me you were like the living dead, you were there, but yet you weren't. Why didn't you call me? Why didn't you talk to me?" Alice was freaking out, venting about the past year. I felt bad; I had lost a lot of relationships with friends after the accident. Most of them I had built back up again, but I had been so busy working on those that I never even tried to focus on my old best friend. I missed Alice and I felt horrible for neglecting our friendship.

"I'm sorry Alice. It was just really hard for me. I didn't talk to anyone. Every day was a nightmare for me. I couldn't handle it." I couldn't lie to Alice. If there was anyone in the world who could get me to say anything, it was her. She had some kind of friendship power over me. She knew when I was lying, she knew when there was something wrong, she knew me like the back of her hand. I was always able to let everything out with her, I could tell her anything and everything and never have to worry about it or feel like she was judging me.

"Bella, you know I would have been there for you. I would have gotten right on a plane and visited you, regardless if my parents let me or not, you know that. I could have helped you. You could have talked to me!" She seemed slightly frustrated now, but she was calming down. "I'm your best friend Bella. I know when something is up. And I am not here to talk to you about last year. I am here to talk to you about now."

"What do you mean?" I asked a little confused.

"Edward Cullen." She said, though she had a small smirk creeping on the side of her lips.

"How do you know about Edward?" I asked with incredulity.

"Bella, seriously? I moved to Alaska. The same place Edward just moved away from, I have known him for about three years now."

Wow. I guess I had never put two and two together. It was odd that Alice knew Edward, strange to believe. The thought of it was surreal; my best friend knew my... soul mate… lover… I don't know? I had no idea what to even classify Edward as. He wasn't my boyfriend, Jacob still possessed that title. But even if he was, that name didn't even satisfy what I thought Edward was to me. He was so much more than a boyfriend could ever be. He was so much more than any possible title could hold. He was the most amazing, spectacular, handsome, caring, protective boy I had ever met and I loved everything about him. The word boyfriend would not serve him justice.

"Oh, I never thought of that." I admitted to Alice. I hadn't thought of Alice in months. All I could think of was the pain I was in, the loss I felt, the love I had for Edward, and the inner conflict I was fighting with between Jacob and him. I knew I loved them both and I knew I loved Edward more, but I didn't want to hurt Jacob nonetheless. I just wasn't ready for it. It was like betraying your best friend. Someone who has always been there for you, someone who would take care of you, protect you, comfort you, everything. Jacob was a huge part of my life, and no matter how much I wanted Edward, it was still hard to let Jacob go, even though I knew I had to and even wanted to. It was just something that couldn't be done in a snap.

"Apparently," Alice mocked while shaking her head and rolling her eyes. "But tell me Bella. Tell me about Edward."

"What do you want to know?"

"Everything. Jacob told me about you when you turned into a zombie about a month ago, which I believe wasn't the first time. He told me about Harry, but I am more concerned with what has been going on recently. Have you been having nightmares again? And what's the deal with Edward?"

"I really don't know how to tell you." I honestly didn't. Was I really about to tell her my most coveted secret. Was I really about to tell her of my dark angel and how I was in love with this fake being and Edward and Jacob all at the same time? I couldn't fathom the idea, yet I knew Alice was going to get it out of me somehow. She always did.

"It's ok Bella. Just start from the beginning." She assured.

"I'm going to sound crazy…."

"Bella, you already are crazy." She teased with a smirk. I rolled my eyes, but smiled back.

"Just tell me Bella. I will not think you are crazy or judge you. You are my best friend. You can tell me anything." She continued.

"Okay, well it really is a long story." Though I was sure I could sum it up pretty well.

"I have time." She said smiling and encouraging me to go on.

"Well, it all started about a month and a few weeks ago. I had a really horrid dream, but it was different. It wasn't the usual see a friend or family member die on the cliffs dream then I die myself. It was strange, and luckily there was no death." Alice looked at me with a strange look like she didn't quite understand, I quickly filled her in on the dreams I had right after the cliff accident.

"After the cliffs, I would have horrible dreams. Every night I would be watching someone I knew stand at the top of the cliffs. It would be Charlie or Jacob or Renee, anyone, and they would be standing there. Every time I saw them, they jumped into the water, plummeting to their own dreadful death. I would watch someone I loved die right in front of me. And not only did they die, but so did I. While I watched them basically kill themselves, I would be swimming against a current, struggling to stay alive myself. It was horrible, and in the end after watching whoever it was that night die, I would soon give up and drown in my own pursuit of survival."

Alice's face was stricken with horror and pity.

"The dreams felt so real too. I would be thrashing in my sleep, screaming at the top of my lungs, crying. No one could get me to calm down, no one. I was afraid and the nightmares were so vivid that I thought someone really had died. Charlie and Renee would never get sleep, always running into my room at the middle of the night scared because I was screaming bloody murder. It was like I was dying in a way, though in my dreams I really was. My life was dying. I would wake up so frightened and appalled that I would just go on with life like there was nothing. Like there was no point to anything.

"I didn't care. I kept good grades, but I didn't talk to anyone. I barely even spoke to Jake. He had no idea how to deal with it. I really was like a zombie. I was the living dead, walking the earth as if I had no soul. I was there, but yet I wasn't."

"That's terrible Bella." Alice commented, her eyes in shock.

"That's not even half the story either." Alice moved back a little, shocked, yet knowing that this was what she was waiting for. She knew there was much more to my story and I guess I was ready to finally tell it. I wasn't scared of letting her know. I was only scared of allowing myself to talk about my dark angel; it would only bring back memories of him and let the feeling of loss come alive again.

"I had those terrible dreams every night since Harry died; until that night, where I had the most sinisterly and sensationally odd dream of my life. It was still a nightmare in a way, but it was also eye opening and even remarkable.

"I was in the woods, it was night time and the moon was shining brightly. I looked to the light and saw Jacob. I smiled at him, my loving Jacob, but he really wasn't mine anymore. For some reason he looked at me as if he was saying goodbye. He had a sullen face on him, like he was sad to leave me, but he still wanted to nevertheless. I was afraid and had no idea what he was doing. Then he looked to his side. A girl walked in, though I couldn't see her face. She didn't stand in the moonlight like Jake did. She was in the dark, the shadows of the night, and her face was slightly blurry.

"He looked at her with such passion and love, a look he used to give me. Though with this girl, it was ten times stronger than I had ever seen before. I was jealous, and I was afraid. I thought 'Is he leaving me for this girl? But he can't do this to me. I love him, and he loves me.' I was so frightened, that I almost began to beg Jacob to not leave me. He was my heart.

"My body filled with so much pain. I was losing my Jacob. He had found his soul mate, his true love. Though I had thought we were supposed to be together forever. It didn't make sense to me. My heart sank and it burned with the pain that I was now feeling. Right when I was about to break down, another figure entered into the foreboding nightmare of mine. He was tall and lean looking, but just like the girl, he hid in the shadows of the trees and his face was also slightly blurry. I didn't know who this boy was, but right when I saw him, all the pain I had felt before had washed away in an instant. He healed me.

"Not only did the hurt go away, but I was filled with the most intense feeling of love that I had ever experienced in my entire life. I couldn't comprehend it, it was so strong. All I knew was that I was meant to be with him. We were two halves made into whole. He was my forever and I wanted him. There was an invisible force that made me gravitate towards him and I couldn't look away, even if I wanted to. I was entranced by the sensation.

"I completely forgot about Jacob, and the pain he was causing me. Jacob didn't matter anymore. His love was nothing compared to this new one. But right as I began to step to the mysterious boy and walk to where he was, Jacob jumped between us with the most disgusted and hateful look on his face. Right when they were about to fight, I woke up."

I was breathing heavily from telling that dream; it only reminded me of how much I did love my dark angel.

"That was an intense dream." Alice said; she looked like she was breathing heavily as well. "Please continue," she said and I gladly did.

"I woke up so confused. Somehow I felt guilty for having that dream, like I had committed a crime against Jacob. How could I have dreamt such a thing? How could I have forgotten him like that and moved on so quickly? But he did have that girl. He would be okay, I thought.

"For the next few weeks I began to dream of the boy, I called him my dark angel because he was perfect. He was mysterious and dark, I could not see his face and I had no idea who he was. He was an angel because he saved me, in so many different ways. He had my heart from the moment he stepped into the woods. Every night I would meet him in the most beautiful place I had ever seen in my entire life. It was a meadow, filled with flowers. There was a stream nearby and you could hear the soft sound of the water flowing downhill. You could hear animals in the distance, going on with their normal lives in peace. The meadow was the greatest place beyond imagine and I loved every moment of it."

Alice smiled at the description of the meadow, surely imagining herself there.

"It was always dark though. But the night in that place was magical. The stars were captivating and the moon was always shining. We would lie in the flowers together, staring into the night and watching as a glorious meteor shower would flash before our eyes. It was unbelievable, nothing like I had ever seen before."

I began to look frustrated as I started to speak the rest.

"We never touched though. There was a pulse of electricity that would rush through us when we were near each other. I had never felt anything like it before. Each dream I would get closer to him, 20 feet away, the next night 15, 10, then 5. We got closer and closer, but I never got close enough. I never saw his face, I never knew his name, and I never felt his touch. He was only a figment of my imagination, but he felt so real. To me he was everything, all my hopes and dreams combined into a living breathing person. He was everything I ever wanted, and everything I ever needed. The feelings in which I had for him, I can't even begin to explain. They are incredulous. And I know you probably think I am crazy Alice…"

"No I don't," Alice said genuinely. "Please. Continue."

"I began to argue with myself over my dark angel and Jacob. I kept telling myself that I had to forget him, because damn it, he wasn't real! I thought I was crazy, psycho for imagining such a person. But I couldn't stop, he was everywhere in my mind. I couldn't wait to go home and sleep, I couldn't wait to meet him in the beautiful meadow. He was the highlight of my day, even though it was at night that I saw him. I couldn't even fathom the possibility of letting him go, forgetting about him. I would not do it.

"Then one night I went to a bonfire with Jacob down at La Push. We took a walk together, talking and goofing around. Jacob lied on the ground and told me to lie next to him, I did. He then told me to look at the sky, and what I saw was the most extraordinary image in the world.

"What was it?" Alice asked with her eyes wide open, beaming at me for more.

"It was the meteor shower. The very same one I watched with my dark angel in the meadow. I couldn't believe my eyes, I was sure that I was going insane. I couldn't possibly believe. 'Is this really happening?' I kept asking myself. It was astonishing. Right then, I knew I couldn't leave my dark angel. I couldn't stop dreaming of him. He was becoming real! I saw the meteor shower, which Jacob told me only came around every 90 years or so. It was incredible! The exact same shower, how? How could it have been possible? It was insane! I knew I couldn't ignore it, I had to believe.

"There was only one choice I had then. I had to accept both. I came up with this demented idea that I could basically have two relationships at once. My real relationship with Jacob, and my fake one with my dark angel. I would love Jacob during the day, and love the boy at night. I thought I could handle it, I thought I could do it.

"Then what happened?" Alice asked, entranced by my story.

"Then the unspeakable happened. One night, I dreamt of the meadow and he wasn't there. He was gone. I looked around, searching for him, but he was nowhere to be found. The meadow was different as well. It was dark and cold, sinister; the stars were not in the sky anymore. There was no moon, no light, no animals, and no water. The flowers were dead beneath my feet, wilted and ugly. The once beautiful meadow was now another nightmare in which I had to endure every time I went to sleep. It wasn't heaven anymore; it was some sick twisted hell, a world without my dark angel.

"There was however, a tiny little star in the sky. It was lit very dimly, small and fragile, struggling to shine across the sky. Its frail light made a shallow beam in the middle of the meadow. It was the only place that felt a little like before. It was my only hope, and I grasped it. Every night I had to be in that dark place, remembering how it once was beautiful, and how it once made me inexplicably happy. I would walk to that little ray of light, fall to the ground, and cry the entire dream. Nothing else would happen, just my sorrows being washed away into the dark night of what seemed like eternity."

Alice's face was depressed looking, she knew I had a rough time, and she felt horribly sad, but she said nothing. She waited for me to continue.

"The day before I dreamt of the black meadow where my dark angel was gone, I dreamt of him like any other night. Except the only difference was when we departed before I woke up. Usually, every night I would lie on the ground and so would he, the sun would begin to rise and he would leave before it would. He would stand and I would mirror him, watching him as his body, still in the shadows, would face me as if he was saying goodbye. Usually I was perfectly fine with him leaving, because I always knew that I would see him again the very next night. But in this dream, the night before he left, I had the worst feeling when he walked into the woods that morning. When he said his goodbyes, it felt like he really was saying goodbye, forever. It killed me to imagine him never returning.

"I woke up and freaked out, hoping that he would return the next night and that that was indeed not his final farewell. I couldn't live in a world where he didn't exist. He was everything to me. I now realized that that dream was foreshadowing the next night, where I did in fact not dream of him. Where I did in fact dream of a dark cold meadow with my dark angel nowhere in sight.

"The next morning I woke up angry and in shock. I yelled at myself asking 'where was he? What the hell was that? What just happened? Where was he?' I couldn't get a grip on myself. I couldn't. I was losing my mind; I was so angry that the pain hadn't even registered in my body yet. I kept telling myself 'he'll come back Bella, don't worry, he'll come back,' but in my mind, I knew that he wouldn't. I feared it with all my soul, but I knew that this was the end of him. I became depressed, and the pain of his loss began to take hold of me."

"I'm so sorry Bella." Alice's face was of distraught. I nodded to her and then continued on with my story.

"Ironically enough, the day I lost my dark angel was the day I met Edward Cullen." I began to give a weak smile and Alice smiled back.

"I was so sad that day; it was the first day without dreaming of him. I could barely even go to school I was so out of it. I barely talked to anyone, and I didn't pay attention to anything. The day was torture, until I saw him. He was the most beautiful boy I had ever seen in my entire life. He was perfect. His face was beautifully constructed and defined to the smallest detail. His body was wonderfully polished and clothes brilliantly designed. His eyes were two burning emeralds, brightly shining at me. I couldn't look away. I was entranced by him, and when he smiled. Oh my God Alice, it felt like my world was going backwards, flipping around, and spinning in circles. I was floating on a cloud, living in heaven when I saw him. He brought me back to life. He made me forget all the pain that I was in.

"I was perfectly fine when I was around him; I had no worries, only admiration and love. He helped me, he saved me. He still is saving me."

Alice smiled even more, comforted by the fact that I had some kind of happiness in my life.

"I looked forward to Biology every day after the first time I met him. He took me out to dinner a couple days later." Alice raised her eyebrows and I began to laugh.

"It was by chance really. I was at the library looking for a book to read, I needed to get my mind off of everything. That day was a horrible day. You see, Edward wasn't at school that day." Alice nodded her head in understanding then smirked a little.

"So without Edward, the pain was ten times worse. I couldn't think of anything but my dark angel, Edward missing, and what Mike Newton said before."

"Mike Newton, oh God. What did he say?" Alice asked worriedly.

"He told me that Edward was a player and that he hooked up with Jess, which by the way was a complete and utter lie."

"Jessica Stanley?" Alice asked amazed.

"Yes, Jessica Stanley. I know right? So Mike kept trying to push my buttons, and I finally had enough of it…. So I punched him."

"You did what?" Alice squealed out in shock.

"I punched him," I said with a smile. Alice's face was in disbelief, but also strangely proud.

"Hmm…good job Bella, I guess those lessons Charlie gave you on how to throw punches actually paid off."

"Yeah, I guess so." I laughed.

"Anyways…continue." Alice smiled, urging me to continue on with my story.

"Well like I said, I was at the library looking for a book. I couldn't find a single thing that interested me. I was definitely not in the mood for a romance novel, or an action, or mystery, or anything for that matter. Nothing satisfied my need. I was so disappointed that I was about to leave the library when I decided to try the last aisle. As I turned into the aisle, to my amazement I found what I wanted, though it wasn't a book. It was Edward."

"Uh oh." Alice teased.

"We went through that whole 'Bella? Edward?' conversation then he asked me out to dinner, just as friends of course. I said yes, and we took his car. He drove me to the neatest little café that I had never even been before. I lived in Forks all my life and I had no idea it even existed. It was amazing, the lighting, everything. I loved it. All we did was talk and talk and talk, we didn't even eat. I asked Edward why he wasn't at school that day and he told me that whenever it is sunny that his father always takes him and his family out to go hiking. Since Forks rarely gets sunny days." Alice nodded, knowing the limitations that Forks has when it comes to weather.

"We kept talking until I looked at a clock and realized how late it was. I told him I had to get going, though neither of us wanted to leave. At least, I knew that I didn't want to leave…Edward drove me back to the library where my car was parked and then said goodbye to me. But his goodbye was so intimate, without even being sexual. He has this weird ability to make my heart melt in an instant. He is irresistible."

"That's what every girl in Alaska thought too." Alice giggled.

"I bet they did. How could they not?" I agreed, "Did he have a girlfriend in Alaska?" I suddenly asked.

"No," Alice laughed. "He was more of a 'keep to himself,' kind of guy when it came to relationships." I was happy with that answer.

"Oh, he does seem like that. He is so perfect; I just couldn't see him with anyone, especially not me."

"Oh shut up Bella. You two are perfect for each other. Don't get me wrong, I like Jacob. We've always been friends, but I always knew you two weren't meant for each other. I just knew there was something better for you out there, and that you would eventually find it in your future. You were always meant to have something stronger and greater than what you have with Jacob. He was a good first love, but really Bella, this is so much bigger."

"I know Alice, I know. It's just hard. I can't seem to make the decision. I just don't want to hurt anyone. I know I want Edward and I know I am going to choose him. I just can't do it anytime soon."

"Well damn Bella; do you want me to do it for you? God, you know you can't keep going on like this forever."

"You're right, but really, it is so hard. Jacob has always been there for me. When my dark angel left, Jacob helped repair me, but he left scars. When Edward came, not only did he repair me, but he made me completely brand new. There was no sign that I even was hurt to begin with. I just can't seem to let Jacob go though. His family is basically my family. He's my best friend."

"But I've heard things have been bad lately. Ever since your 'dark angel,' left."

"Well yeah, it was a really hard time then. Jacob had no idea how to deal with me. If he tried to help, sometimes it only made it worse. There was nothing he could do, and it only made a dent into our relationship. He was losing me, and I was losing him. Finally one day he had enough and he let it all out, yelling at me and telling me he was done with the dead me. He wanted his Bella back, and it broke my heart to have to listen to him begging me to come back. I felt so bad that I tried my hardest to be happy again. It did help that Edward was around, that he helped me out of my dismal everyday routine and made me happy. It strengthened my relationship with him and Jacob, even though I probably shouldn't have my relationship growing stronger with Jake.

"I was living in a world of lies. Loving Jacob one moment, then spending time with Edward another. Shortly after Edward moved here, we were assigned partners in a science project. We began to work after school together, going to each other's house. It was more like getting to know each other than working, but I didn't complain, I wanted to get to know Edward.

"Did you know he wrote me a song on the piano?" I added.

"He did?" Alice asked surprised.

"Yes, and it is so beautiful too. He plays amazingly well."

"That is so strange." Alice said with her eyes filled with amazement. "He rarely writes songs unless they are for his family."

"Really?" I asked shocked.

"Yeah…you must really mean a lot to him Bella." She said. "Like a lot a lot." Could I really mean a lot to Edward? Could he possibly be in love with me like I am in love with him? Just the idea of it was astonishing. Edward, in love with me, how amazing would that be?

"I really hope so; I wouldn't want to give everything that I have up for nothing."

"You wouldn't be, I know Edward, and he would never do such a thing. I'm surprised he has even done this much so far. Since he has, then Bella, you mean a big deal to him."

"We'll see, but he is so mysterious. He reminds me so much of my dark angel. You know how I said I would get that little shock of electricity when I was around my dark angel?"

"Yeah."

"Well, the first time I met Edward, I could have sworn I felt that same little jolt of electricity move through us. And I know he felt it too. I loved it and hated it at the same time, it made me think of the boy I had lost, but it made me remember how wonderful it was."

"That is really interesting… I find it especially interesting how he left the day Edward arrived. It's like fate, as if it was meant to be. I wonder if it means something, like Edward is your dark angel." I was shocked, but stuck in thought. What if that was true? I had never really thought of that idea before, but I found it really interesting. It couldn't be though, could it? No….

"I've never really thought of that, but that's a really interesting idea." I told Alice. We were both hard in thought.

"Have you met Renesmee?" She asked me.

"Yes, I have. She is just like Edward, beautiful and perfect. She's actually one of the reasons me and Jacob got into a fight last night."

"You got into a fight about Renesmee? Why?" Alice was shocked again.

"Well, apparently Jacob has been working with Renesmee secretly on a project in school for the past month, and never told me. Though I secretly knew about it, and purposely didn't tell him about Edward because he didn't tell me about Renesmee. He confronted me about it yesterday after Paul made some comment about him dancing with Renesmee."

"Dancing with Renesmee?"

"Yeah! It pissed me off, but I know Jacob didn't cheat on me or anything. He wouldn't do such a thing. I mean, come on, its Jake we're talking about."

"Yeah, but Bella, you never know…." She sighed out.

"Are you mad at Renesmee?" Alice asked.

"No, not really. I mean, if I want to be able to break up with Jacob, I'd rather him be falling in love with someone and not be hurt because of me. I want him to be happy, and I want him to move on."

Alice's eyes opened up really wide as if she had just discovered something incredible. "Bella, what if Renesmee was the girl in your dream that Jacob was in love with?"

"That would be very surprising. Out of all your ideas, I would have never thought of that one."

"Think about it Bella! Your dark angel left once Edward arrived, the meteor shower actually happened, and Renesmee has been hanging out with Jacob, it all makes sense."

"I don't know Alice. That all just seems a little bizarre, a little on the crazy side. Though all my life is, is being crazy. It's just… so odd….if it was true, then my dreams really are becoming reality. That is so much to take in."

"I know it really is, but it makes perfect sense." She said, "…So what are you going to do Bella?"

"I really don't know Alice, I really don't know." I was so confused and shaking my head in frustration.

"I wish it was all easy for you. I know it must be so hard. You've been through so much in that past year, and I am so sorry for that. I wish I could have been there for you." Alice looked sad and I felt bad.

"Thanks Alice, I've really missed talking to you. You always know how to make me feel better and help me out. I can always tell you everything. I've kept this all a secret for so long, and it feels so good to finally be able to talk about it with someone."

"You know you can always talk to me about anything. I am so sorry about those dreams though, you losing your dark angel and having to enter that dark cold meadow every night. It must be horrible."

"It really is. He was my future, and now he is my past, and I miss seeing him in my dreams every day. The pain is still there, dormant at times, but still waiting for its chance to rise up again and control my life. Edward's kept it asleep; he's killing it, fighting it away. I forget all the troubles I have when I am with him. I forget about all the bad things in my life, I only think of him and how much of my heart he has. I love him so much, and sometimes I think it is too much."

"I just hope you are able to make the decision and not hurt yourself in the process. I'm sure Jake will be okay, because if my theory is right, then his 'dark angel' is already here, waiting for him…and so is yours" She said smiling.

"Maybe." I replied.

Though Alice's idea seemed pretty spot on. I couldn't help but imagine it being true. What if Edward really was my dark angel? It would explain a lot of things most definitely. It would explain the tingling sensation, the electricity that went between us. It would explain how he healed me perfectly and why that area in my heart felt the same as my dark angel's. It would explain why I loved Edward just like my dark angel. Maybe they were in fact the same person. Then all of my grieving was for nothing, because I had him with me all along. I was annoyed by that thought, I wasted so many weeks being a zombie for nothing then.

"Does Jacob know you're here?" I asked Alice. She said she had talked to him on the phone, so maybe he knew this whole time that she was coming.

"Oh no, I came here last minute on a whim after thinking about you and how worried I was. I just called him to see how you were and get the 411." She replied.

"Oh, ok… how long are you staying?" I wondered, hoping it wouldn't be anytime soon.

"I'm not sure yet," she replied.

"Well you are more than welcome to stay here for as long as you'd like," I told her with a smile.

"Like I needed your permission or invitation," Alice scoffed and we laughed together.

My life felt like it was finally coming together again. I was most of the time happy, and my old best friend was back. I had missed Alice so much and I was so glad she was finally back in my life.

"Alice?"

"Yes?" She replied; she was now lying on my bed staring at the ceiling.

"What is Alaska like?"

"Cold." She said.

"No," I laughed, "tell me about it."

"Well, it's a magical place. Like winter wonderland. We live in igloos and go ice fishing. Every day I swim with penguins and live off of whale blubber."

"Shut up Alice." I scoffed then hit her on the arm. She laughed.

"It's beautiful. Majestic, bright, wonderful. Everything I wanted it to be, minus you not being there, it is perfect. It brought me to the love of my life. It brought Emmett to the love of his life, and it brought you the love of your life."

She smiled at the ceiling, and I smiled too while looking up as well.

"Alaska has a way with uniting souls. It brings people together. It is a place where we meet our other halves, where our lives begin, and our dreams come true. I love Alaska and its wintry wonderland, so beautiful and magical that anything can happen."

"It sounds wonderful." I said in a daze.

"It really is Bella. It really is. You'll have to visit sometime. You would love it."

"I'm sure I would," I replied.

"Oh Alaska, how I miss it so." Alice sighed; we both began to laugh.

"Don't you mean 'Oh Jasper, how I miss it so?'" I laughed to her. She nodded and continued to laugh.

We lied in silence for a little while, then I finally asked Alice another question.

"Alice?" I asked, but I didn't get an answer. I looked at her and saw that her eyes were closed. She was asleep.

I mumbled my question anyways, as if I was thinking aloud to myself. "Does Edward love me?"

I rolled over to reach for my lamp and turned the light off. I closed my eyes and began to slowly fall asleep. But before I was completely unconscious, I heard a slight murmur from where Alice was.

"Yes."

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