Tempted Fate side scene of Chapter 44 on FF (Jake watches Nessie flip out after he breaks down door)
My stomach felt tight as I watched my wife sleep. It's so fucked up what she's going through… what we're going through. I wonder if her mom really blames her for Mr. Cullen cheating on her… well whatever he did. Ness is really hurt from all of this. I'm supposed to be her protector and shield things from her. That's kinda hard to do when so many emotional things are attacking her left and right. Shit hearing her scream and cry like that made me break in half. Shit… it even made me feel helpless. I've seen her cry before… but I never heard anything like that. She was flipping out pretty good the morning we were getting ready to leave from Vegas. Though I didn't want to believe it… but the pressure of her becoming a wife and a mother was too much for her to take… and she just broke down. Well part of that was because we did it behind her parents back. If I knew a softer way to have done all of this I would. But what's done is done. Her father must hate me and her family must think that I'm the most selfish person in the world because I married her the way I did. But I love her with all of my heart and needed her to be my wife. Was it selfish? Honestly I wanted nothing more than for her to be with me. I didn't want anything standing in the way saying no you can't… or she's too young for marriage… or anything other than she belongs to me. She is mine. No one else will ever have her… unless I die of course. It's crazy how much I love this corky sweet blessing of a woman. I hope she really understands that I would give my life for her if I had to. It kills me to see her hurting. I wish that I could fix everything. "I'm so sorry," I whispered in her ear. Ness sighed and clung tighter to my body.
I never yelled at Ness before tonight. I must have scared the crap out of her. But I wanted her to know that it wasn't her fault. My emotions were running wild and though I was upset myself because she blamed herself for all of this and scared me to death by locking me out of the bedroom not knowing if she hurt herself… there was no way that I could not yell. I wasn't angry at her… just at the situation I had no control over. God… I never wanna yell at her again. Fuck Jake… you don't need to make her blood pressure go up.
I still don't believe she told me that I should have married someone else. I'm sure she was hysterical and just saying anything. Maybe it was her hormones? But I hope I made her see that she is the only woman for me no matter how old she is or how inexperienced. The fact that Nessie said that she was afraid that she wasn't being a good wife also scared me to death. She's perfect for me and I love her with all that I am. Shit… I never knew it would feel like this. I loved Brooke. I was with her for two years. But it was nothing close to how I feel about Nessie… and I've only known her for almost five months. Love is a crazy thing. But when it's right… it's right and you should let nothing stand in the way of it.
I started to softly caress her wedding ring on her finger. This symbol and that piece of paper are just material items… but the meaning behind them are more precious to me than anything in the world. Renesmee is my wife… and I pray that she will always be. I love her more than I love myself. I don't take marriage lightly. My father always told me how much he loved my mom. Mainly that she was the only woman in the world for him. But it also pains me that he hasn't opened his heart to allow himself to find someone else. It's like he's married and faithful to a ghost. I want Nessie to be happy even if I die. That's why I told her it was ok to find another if I did. Of course that just brought up more tears with her picturing me dead. But shit happens. I know first-hand that life can go in a blink of an eye. That's why I tell her that I love her every single day. That's why I put her in my will after only knowing her a few days. I wanted to make sure that she was taken care of if something ever happened to me. Plus I was absolutely sure that she was going to be my wife.
I softly rubbed the side of her stomach. I can't believe that we're having a baby in 4 ½ months. Time is flying by so fast. I just have to make sure that Nessie is not stressed out during her pregnancy since she has so many complications. Fuck her parent's divorce is tearing her up. The fact that her father got a chick pregnant around her age isn't helping. And fucking Leah... I don't even wanna think about Leah and her shit. I hate to call a woman a bitch… but that bitch almost hurt Nessie and my baby… and I hope she rots in her cell. And I guess because I honestly have a sense of hatred for her now… Seth can sense it. Plus he probably blames me for her going off the deep end. I mean it's fuck up. We were good friends and now things have just changed. I tried to talk to him to let him get everything off of his chest. I want our friendship back. I don't know if I'm being too optimistic hoping for this future revelation. But Seth has to understand that his sister was crazy regardless if she was with me. I knew I shouldn't have been in that relationship with her. I mean I tried to break up with her. I guess I didn't try hard enough or it wouldn't have lasted four years. But I hate to see a life without Ness. Who would I'd been with if I didn't date Leah all that time? Would our paths crossed ever? I felt tears starting to form as I imagined a life without Nessie. She was meant to be with me... she was made for me. I swore my heart was gonna explode the first day I met her. The first time I set my lips on hers… I knew that I would make her mine. And the first time I came in her I knew I was going to propose to her before the sun rose. I wanted her to be my wife and mother of my kids. I got my wish. It's just that so much collateral damage came with it.
I kissed the top of her head and inhaled the scent of her shampoo. I loved the way it smelled. Even slept on the pillow she used the nights she wasn't with me so that I could still smell her. I even admitted that to Ava and she thought it was the sweetest thing. Ava has really stood in my corner for our relationship. I'm glad that she and Nessie are close friends now. Well all of my friends have accepted Nessie in my life. Well not so much for Seth since he hasn't really gotten a chance to get to know her. But that's the lease of my worries. I'm so worried about Nessie and the baby. This whole stress shit is a bitch. I wish I could ease her fears about her parents… but most of all Leah. I don't want her to be scared to live here. This is our home. I always imagined my children growing up here. But I'm definitely not running from her crazy ass. I dare her to do something… 'cause I would fucking… Oh Lord knows what I would do.
I felt myself getting hot from being pissed. My head started to hurt and I squeezed Nessie closer to me. I heard her softly moan then she faintly said my name. It made me feel a bit better hearing her say my name. It instantly relaxed me. She was still asleep and I didn't want to wake her. She had a hard night and I wanted her to get as much rest as she could. I really want to make my wife happy… and I know she's stressed out with all of this shit. I don't want her hurting anymore... this is killing me. "Mmm… I love you Jake," Nessie muttered while she was still sleep. I kissed her forehead and told her that I loved her too.
"Don't… don't let Leah hurt our baby."
"Never," I breathed in her ear.
What… was she dreaming of her? Shit. Her nightmares were dying down. I don't want them to start back up. "I'm right here Baby. I'm not gonna let anyone hurt you or our baby." I would fucking kill someone if they tried. "I'm right here. Jake's right here… I got you." I started rubbing her back. Nessie softly moaned and grinded her pussy on me once. She was still sound asleep. I wasn't sure if I should wake her or not. I didn't want her to stay having her bad dream. She stayed still for a while and her face was relaxed. So I prayed that her dream had gotten better. I dozed off for a while but later was woken up by soft moans. Nessie was still asleep. I guess she was dreaming of making love? I still didn't want to wake her up even though the sounds that she made were making my dick grow harder by the seconds. God… does she even know what she does to me?
"Mmm… Ahh," she moaned softly.
"Oh God Ness," I breathed.
It took some will power to not lay on her and have her spread her legs for me. If she continued to moan… I don't think that I would even have a choice. Nessie squirmed a bit and pressed her pussy into my stomach. "My Jacob," she moaned quietly. I softly kissed her on her forehead three times. "I love you so much… I love you… so much," I breathed. I want to make her feel safe. I mean that is a husband's job. She's my world and I need her not to be stressed out. If it comes down to it… I'll just take her back to Hawaii after the baby is born. But I would hate to move because I love it here. I love my home… my friends, and my Res. But I'm sure being away from her family and friends wouldn't be something she wanted too.
I grinded my dick into her stomach a few times and let myself drift off to sleep. After a few hours went by I was awoken again by Nessie's mumbles. She was breathing hard and looked restless.
"Marry me Jake," she breathed.
"I already did," I said which made her wake up.
"Huh?" she said half dazed.
"You were talking in your sleep again. You said marry me. I told you that I already did."
"Oh… I was talking in my sleep again?"
"Yeah… you do it all the time," I said while kissing her temple.
"I know… I just thought it might have died down."
"Oh… you haven't had any bad dreams when you talk. It's actually sweet." I didn't want to mention that she was dreaming about Leah last night. If she forgot about it… that's a good thing.
"Oh… like what?" she asked curiously.
"Um… you say my name a lot. And you tell me you love me. Sometimes I think you're awake when I answer you back. But then I look at you and you're knocked out cold."
"Oh." Nessie softy chuckled. "And I just asked you to marry me? I must have been dreaming of that short period in our lives together when we weren't husband and wife."
"Yeah," I chuckled. "We've been married way longer than I've know you before we got married. And we've only been married for around four months."
"I know… seems crazy right."
"No… not crazy. I look at it as a blessing… that we found each other and fell in love so quickly." I smiled. "I wanted to be your husband and take care of you so bad. But I had to wait... because you were my little jail bait."
"Oh… well I'm yours now. You can do whatever you want to me."
"Yeah," I breathed. I had so many things in mind to do to her this very second.
"Um hum."
I smiled at her and leaned in closer to gently bite at her breast. Nessie ran her fingers in my hair and it felt so good. She started to moan with each breath and my dick couldn't take much more. I needed to be inside her… but I loved to tease her until she loses her mind. I slowly moved my fingers inside her wet pussy. I love to hear her beg for me… it's the sexiest thing.
"Jake… please… fuck me," she moaned. That was only her first plea. I wasn't going to cave in so easily though I really wanted to. I curved my fingers up and continued to move them slowly inside her. "Please Baby… I want you inside me," she begged. Nessie tried to push my shoulders back. But I didn't let her mount me. I knew she wanted to. But I liked seeing her squirm. But the build up will make our orgasms so much stronger.
"Baby… Oh God Jake. Please fuck me. Take me. Ooohh... Mmm."
"You want my big dick inside you Baby," I breathed in her ear.
"Yes… please… yes. Jake." I plunged my fingers even deeper inside her and it made her jump.
"I… I love you. I love you Jake."
"I love you too Ness," I said against her sexy neck.
"Oh… Oh… Jacob. Make me come with that thick tan dick of yours."
My balls tightened at the sound of that and I wanted to fuck her wildly. Fuck the suspense. I took my hand from her pussy and pressed my body against hers. My finger was slick with her juices and I wanted to watch her taste herself. I traced her lips with my finger wanting her to lick them… but I wanted it for myself so I licked both of her lips. God her pussy taste so fucking good.
"Mmm… your pussy taste so good Baby."
"Oh Jake… please… now." she begged more urgently. I rubbed my dick on her clit and slid it across her soaked lips. Nessie moaned in my ear as I teased her with my cock. "Oh Jake… Fuck me Baby. Give it to me... Fuck me." I couldn't take any more so I pushed myself inside her really slow. The tight drag of her pussy made me wanna curse out in pleasure.
"Ahhh," she moaned.
"Is this what you want Ness?"
"Mmm… yes." Her pussy clamped down on me and it made me even more excited that she responded to my voice like that. She held on to me tighter and I picked up my speed. I was all over the place fucking her from every angle possible. "Oh Shit!" She screamed. Then she started grunting and groaning as I continued to fuck the shit out of her.
"Ahhh… Baby," I moaned.
"Oh Jake. Oh my God…Oh… Ooh… Ooh… I'm gonna come."
"Yeah? Come on Baby… come for me. Fuckin' come."
I sped up even faster. It made the sounds of our bodies clapping together even louder. "Oh God!" She yelled as I felt her pussy tremble as she came. I wasn't even trying to hold it in to last longer. I wanted to fucking come in her. I let myself go and released every bit that I had. The gush was almost painful but damn it also felt good as shit too. "Ahhh…. Oh God Ness," I groaned. Nessie jerked and trembled under my body gripping tightly at my shoulders. Her face was so beautiful even though it was scrunched up from her orgasm. I felt like I was gonna collapse on her. My arms felt week and I was completely out of breath. I gently laid down on her and kissed her neck. I'm one of the luckiest men in the world. I have her… my wife.
"I love you," I breathed.
"I… I love you too."