Chapter 6: To Chaos or Not to Chaos
I woke up early, but I didn't get out of my bed. I was weighing the pros and cons of being a chaos bringer. I could perform a lot of magic, pro. I would have to weary of what I cast, con. I am a completely unique pony, pro. No one else could know, con. I could do so much more than anypony else, pro. I couldn't think of many cons, but there were plenty of pros. In realality, it is a good idea to learn from Discord, but to be honest, I was terrified. Terrified of what could happen to my life style. I wasn't sure on anything. Eventually, Ember gently pushed my door open.
"I'm awake, Ember." I mumbled. Ember sat on my bed next to me. I sat up too.
"Have you thought about it?" Ember asked.
"Yeah, but I'm even more confused than I was yesterday." I sighed. Ember kicked his feet. "Lets just have a normal day, hmm?" I offered.
"Can we go out to eat pancakes?" Ember counteroffered.
"Sure." I said with a smile. Ember excitedly hopped off my bed. I followed him and we ate pancakes at a diner. After that, we quickly headed over to the castle and took down the decorations. Ember and I both avoided anyone, including Luna. It wasn't long before she found us.
"Aura, Ember, I thought you weren't here." Luna said. I quickly took a deep breath and turned to face her.
"I'm sorry, Princess. Ember and I have some plans today." I lied.
"Yes! Pony to dragon bonding time." He payed along.
"I understand, you are free to leave now if you wish." Luna offered. I gave her a smile and lifted Ember on to my back. I hurried back to my house. I pulled out some quills, ink, and paper and spread it across the table. I sat Ember down and I took my own seat.
"What is this for?" Ember asked.
"I'm done being confused. We need to solve our predicament." I said as I picked up a fresh quill. Ember did the same. I gave him a bottle of ink and gave myself a bottle of ink.
"So what are we doing exactly?" Ember asked. I sighed.
"Lists of why and why not I should learn Chaos magic. If there are more pros than cons, then I will do it, if there are less; I won't." I explained. Together we wrote the lists. It took us the rest of the day. For food, we nibbled on whatever we had in the house. After both of us were yawning, I put the ink and leftover quills away and set the lists aside. We both instantly fell asleep in our beds.
Morning came quickly. I didn't have to go to the castle today, because I had written a letter to Luna saying I wouldn't come today and sent it through Ember. He can send letters as well as receive, but sending letters is very hard and tiring for him, so only on important occasions will he send a letter for me. I read and reread our lists over and over. By midday I threw the lists up in frustration and stormed away from the table. Ember followed me, but I shut and locked my room before he could get in. I paced back and forth through my room. Soon, I had enough. I left my room.
"Come on, Ember." I said.
"Where are we going?" Ember asked, puzzled.
"To talk to Discord for a while." I answered. Ember climbed onto my back. I quickly headed to the garden and sat infront of the Draconequus statue. Soon, Discord showed up.
"So you have decided to learn from me?" Discord asked. I shook my head.
"I have not made a choice yet, but I need to talk to you." I said. Discord sat next to me.
"Okay, what do you want to talk about it?" He asked.
"I honestly don't know if I should or not. There are so many things that could go wrong, ways I can be put in jail, even ways that could hurt others, including Ember." I started, but I was cut off by Discord laughing. "What?" I asked with slight anger.
"You are so silly." Discord said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I have to be careful with what I say, because is don't want to reverse your personality, but you are a lot like Twilight, you worry too much." Discord said. I slumped down.
"Your right." I admitted. I looked at my hooves and made sure I wasn't turning grey. My coat was still the lively purple it always is.
"Think about what YOU want to do." He advised.
"Okay." I nearly whispered. Discord looked at his ruby necklace he had put around his neck. Then he stood.
"Good luck." He said and tapped my head. He flew off. I sat there for a second before Ember and I walked home. We were silent, not ready to discuss anything. I stayed in my bedroom for the rest of the night. Eventually, I fell asleep again, but I determined that I needed to focus on finsishing my studies with Luna.